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shiela marie



Last Updated: 12/12/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 20
Sign: Leo

City: Aliso Viejo
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/23/2006

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Wednesday, July 01, 2009 
I used to write a lot, but last year something happened that made me quit. I had started a long distance relationship with this wonderful guy I knew from my sister ( or so i thought he was), he was older and shared the same qualities as I did. The first time I met him i was only 15, after that we met again when I was 17. It was during his first visit that I started to like him, fall for him really. We continued our long distance relationship via telephone for about a year. He'd call almost every night. Before him, I had just gotten out of a high school relationship that really affected me greatly. Anyways, my relationship with this guys lasted for two years, we only got to see each other twice since he lives in the midwest and I on the west coast. I thought everything he told me about himself was true. I knew he had an ex girlfriend that he probably still liked, but I was willing to put up with it. When he told me he'd move for me, I got scared and ended it. No one's ever done anything that big for me before and I don't want anyone to start now. I mention this story because while I was in a "relationship" with this John Doe, I had written on my journal everything good about how I felt,much like a little girl who day dreams about the future. Luckily for me I had ended it the way I did; I found he was still in a relationship with his ex while pursuin me. Twice I had gotten my heart broken: one after the other. I've rejected many people's offers of courting me for that sole purpose, I dnt want to get hurt again, not anytime soon. But lately, I'm facing a dilema due to the simple fact that I'm a friend to someone who's far away and the way he is makes me think of him as more than just a friend. Could it be that I'm having a crush on this guy? I so badly hope not, cause I've learned many times that to get my hopes up is just a preperation to getting it crushed.
Friday, May 29, 2009 
I'm not a writer, but to help out a friend I helped him write a narrative. let me know what you guys think.

High School Blessing or Tragedy?

To this present moment, I have daily contemplated the choice I made of taking literally a clichéd adage, “forever and for always” to heart.  It was my third year in high school that I first learned what it meant to be loved. I hadn’t discovered it yet for myself, I was a promiscuous teen with only one thing in mind-when it pertains to women (although high school girls aren’t yet considered women, their voluptuous bodies prove otherwise.) I wasn’t always juvenile and promiscuous upon entering high school. I came from a very prominent school that taught strict discipline when I lived in Germany. Born at the wake of war in my country Yugoslavia, my family and I were forced to move for safe haven. At fourteen, I was a virgin to my new surroundings, of what many people would describe as being American-in things tangible and intangible. I excelled during my first few years in an elementary school, located in Chicago, because I haven’t yet established an identity favorable for conformity. I saw myself as an immigrant with only one thing in mind: education is the key to success and a way out of poverty.

Like most immigrant children in America, my parents have instilled in me their aspirations for the betterment of my future. As a child, it is easy to acquiesce to such wishes. It wasn’t until I learned to socialize among my peers that I grew to develop my own aspirations and an individualistic identity. My male friends have taught me that fun could be found beyond a privy and isolated lifestyle brought by culture shock. They did so by having transformed me from a subjugated and jaded person, to a mischievous promiscuous juvenile at the edge of puberty. I felt the high as I took part in my friends’ endeavors of being showered by beautiful girls at nightly parties. I carried this persona my junior year of high school when I met my Juliet: the woman who gives me pain by bringing fourth the best and worst in me. It was through meeting her that I experienced a romance like no other.

            Her name, for the sake of anonymity is Vivian. Her reputation preceded her as uncivil with a fierce temperament, that resulted to many of her female colleagues fearing her. Her reputation wasn’t my sole interest; it was that her beauty was undeniably breath taking. Her voluptuous pink lips, dyed blonde hair, and fare skin juxtaposed her Asian ethnicity. From the first time I laid eyes on her, I knew she had to be mine.

            I was never much into organization or planning, I am impulsive, and out of impulse I charged at her with the most clichéd lines ever used in history. The memory is vague of the exact words exchanged among us, but I do remember it did the job. She wasn’t the typical girl I’ve grown accustomed to courting, instead of being entranced with my lines and handing over her number, she preferred slow and steady. We spent months conversing on the phone almost every night, and although I had gotten her in trouble for it many times, she did not concede to her parents. It was then that I knew she felt more for me than those many times of conversation; I had a feeling that this girl loved me.     

            As months went by we took our relationship further. We did what most high school couples were accustomed to doing: attending school related functions. The midnight walks at the park, going to the movies, and dinner dates would come till much later; her parents were of stereotypical Asian parents: strict and cultured. My one year seniority was of no importance to her, we were inseparable. Because I had focused my world around her, I neglected my own studies resulting in me extended my high school experience a few months there after graduating mid summer of ’04.  While many high school relationships ended at the brink of senior year, I wanted so much to continue my relationship with Vivian. I worked instead of college, with the intention of waiting for her. When she graduated she had flown to California to be with her father. The old me returned the first month she left, until I decided I could take it any longer: her absence made me crazy, her presence brought a great change in me, and for that I loved her. And because I loved her, I moved away from my family and friends to be by her side.

            Knowing her family would disapprove of me, for many reasons that went beyond my racial ethnicity and religion, I stayed by her side. I was there for her when her relationship with her family crumbled. Though I make it sound like we’re the most perfect couple ever created, there is no such thing, and we are not. Our ideals and personalities clash, yet at moments when a shoulder is needed to cry on and comforting words for solace is required we are there for each other. There are many times I regret having left my family. At times when arguments among the both of us become so intense, I yearn for a piece of home. Vivian is a jewel I will most treasure, she may make me crazy or mad, but because she’s the one person who helped me realize what were once my goals, my parents’ aspirations for my future, I will stay with her always.

            Many say that high school sweethearts are just that, high school sweethearts. When a relationship hits a bumpy road people tend to weaken the trust among each other finding solace in another. I’ve not always been the best boyfriend, for I have yet to learn, but I do understand that problems are better solved when talking to each other about them. When I met Vivian my world was spiraling down. She was a blessing that helped me change and prioritize my life. It was through her that I experienced my first romance.

 

           


Monday, December 10, 2007 
   "Faith is the affirmation and the act that bids eternal
truth be present fact."
               Coleridge


               Just 3 Words

               Three things
               in life that, once gone, never come back -

               1. Time
               2. Words
               3. Opportunity

               Three things in life that can destroy a person -

               1. Anger
               2. Pride
               3. Unforgiveness

               Three things in life that you should never lose-

               1. Hope
               2. Peace
               3. Honesty

               Three things in life that are most valuable -

               1. Love
               2. Family & Friends
               3. Kindness

               Three
               things in life that are never certain -

               1. Fortune
               2. Success
               3. Dreams

               Three things that make a person -

               1. Commitment
               2. Sincerity
               3. Hard work

               Three things that are truly constant -

               Father - Son - Holy Spirit

               I ask the Lord to bless you, as I pray for you today;
               to guide you and protect you, as you go along your way.
               God's love is always with you, God's promises are true.
               And when you give God all your cares,
               you know God will see you through.
Saturday, September 23, 2006 
SOLITUDE

To my left I see the sun set
to my right is the rising moon
in front is a path not taken
a path of solitude

voices of mere laughter are shadows
distant but very persuasive
lured I take that step forwards
now trapped in a melancholy world

accomplishing daily tasks
is trivial to my perception
reading books reversed
I've taken to consideration

time flies
in a tranquil room of 35
no time to talk
no time for good-byes

this is my world
around the clock

to my left I see the sunset
to my right the rising moon
in front is a path not taken
a path of solitude
Monday, September 04, 2006 
Let's welcome TRYLA.!
DOB: September 4,2006
Parent: Shiela Marie Y.
Siblings: none yet



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Monday, September 04, 2006 
ya'll this is my school  ( from the outside and from the top of the hill it's big but it's not tall). school colors are: freshmen-white , sophomores-grays,juniors-teal, seniors-black. mascot- wolverines

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Tuesday, July 04, 2006 
 if you dont know already i'll be leaving soon as in moving, not going to stay at mather or chicago anymore on august 4 ( final date)  that's exactly 1 month from now. im just a normal girl and for some an acquaintance. if you ever considered me a friend i'd like to thank you because it means so much. if i ever ignored and never had the chance to get to know you, im sorry because i probably missed a good opportunity to have a real friend in you. i never knew that i'd meet friends entering mather high. i thought that i'd isolate myself and become a hermit but that wasn't the case. the filipino club, my classmate and and the whole mather atmosphere has changed all that. once again i'd like to tell everyone whom i haven't yet told, i'll be moving but myspace will be my way of communication for anyone still interested in keeping contact with me ( which i hope is everyone of my friends)  GOOD BYE!