So 2008 is coming to a close.....and I gotta say, I really don't have that much to show for it besides some more scars on the heart and mind.  I lost my brother Marc this year to cancer.  One of the 6 brothers that I grew up with, played with, fought with, but loved on a level so deep.  Marc was the one who was 10 feet tall and bullet-proof.  The brawn of the group.  He could always bring a smile to anyone's face no matter how down and out they were.  He was so talented at every little thing he tried to do.  He is the one who got me to ever pick up a guitar and really pursue music.  He taught me so much and made it known to my self what I was actually capable of and that music is my passion and what I was born to do.  I didn't just lose a brother, I lost a best friend.  His loss was, is, and will always be rooted in my family's mind.  A constant reminder that life doesn't care how strong or smart or awesome you may be, but that it is still very much in control. I have lost a number of relationships this year too.  Most people that know me, know what I'm talking about.  I miss a lot of those relationships but know that some will never be the same and that breaks my heart.  This year my grandma has been in and out of the hospital, my dad is physically injured, some of my brothers are not doing well at all.  2008 has just sucked royally!!!!  I hope and pray that 2009 will be a turn around and maybe things WILL get better.  Guess I gotta just see what God has in store for me and my life.  There is one good thing that came out of 2008 though....that is my music.  It feels as if everytime I pick up an instrument I get so much better on it.  I keep improving and getting better and for that I am grateful.  I'm tired of working dead end jobs, trying to make ends meet.  2009, I really hope to get ahead for once.  I want to succeed and make my family and friends proud.  I wanna be there for the ones that are there for me, bring a smile to a face, and speak to people through my music.  If I don't accomplish anything in this life, I hope I can do that.  And I'm sorry from the very bottom of my heart to the people I may have hurt this last year.  2008 was probably the darkest year of my life.  I want it to be the only year.  If you are reading this, it hopefully means you care, and thank you so so much for that.  It is appreciated as well as needed....=)  To all my family and friends.......I love you and wish you a very happy new year!!!  Good luck in all you do, and may God bless you all!!!!!  I truly wouldn't be here with out you........please comment this........peace out!!!