I got diverted

After flying for so long

Birds hit the ground

They sing their last song

What could make it the same

The sea is never consistant

The waves always change

Send me off like a ship

Shipwrecked on the stones near the shore

Lead me

Like a prisoner into his cell

I've turned inside my being

To hide from you

In the shadows of my own reflection

In the shade of the trees

You, a marble statue

In the muesum of my memory

Cold and still

With chips on your identity

Who are you again?

I let the cigarette burn down

Scorching my blistered relic lips

A cigarette kiss

I let the smoke swarm my lungs

You, a voodoo doll

pins in your eyes

Can you see me now?

Now that your blind?

I got diverted

for flying for so long

Felt so good to hit the ground

Felt so good to fall away,

from you.

Today death was in my stomach
only because a part of me started to live
and life caused nausea inside

Its not that I don't see you
your always there
but almost never at all

I look to the dirt for inspiration
waiting for a plant to sprout
because love and life
has been like a California drought

I count each raindrop
I count each fear
I contemplate on never reaching
the wooded
sliver coated pier

and your inside of me
your under my skin
your the bridge over my river
your the breeder of my sins

Tell many stories
of burden days to come
laced meanings
of a black tarred sun

Driving in the forests
Until I reach a dead end road
I sit and realize life is the same thing
Life is the dirt and flowers
Beneath the snow

Snowflake kisses
And fire lullabies
Hushing little babies
Heed the man's reply
Dragon ventures pass
Mouths feeding on smiles
And warm silk hearts

Droughts in the oceans
Waves of salt
Become a quench
To the sensation of being parched

You can't break the ground
And you can't destroy the king
Even on our death bed
He summons the jokers
To kid the same thing

Life
To kid of love
To kid of childish stings
That makes imprints on our hearts

Open wounds that we cover up
With imported lace
And Mauve bruises

Secrets I don't want to keep
the secrets this world keeps
As Dreams become a false sleep
Imagery labeled as false words

What are you waiting for?
Come

I keep asking my self that
What am I waiting for?

Go

Silly admiration

a simpler form of moderate obsession

What is it that keeps us here?

What inside us, decides to live in fear?

You walk down the street as a little child

when strangers speak to you

you run but you smile

 in innocence death doesn't exsist

innocence begets death

as the final tied up chapter

leaves you hanging

wanting more

your soul stays cooped in the holes you dug and buried

expecting to discover treasure

Your expectations of magic

worn by true anwsers and dire admiration

your heros build you up

to gather power

Where is my standing after things fade?

Where is this admiration heading?

i compare the lights to the stars

and i see what we've built

cities and skylines

from where i sit, it glitters like the gold in a baby's eye

captivated we stare deeper into the horizons mirage

when in truth its littered streets and dirt

fingers smeared in blood

we materialize so much

the depth of a true glittered star is no illusion

just a memory of mystery

a god with no cause

and i admit to myself

how blind i've been

to erase true heavens for glossed hells

to imagine a life with out any purpose

must be a nightmare

but how would it be to live it

its what i started to do

i don't understand what we've created

I am the one you run from,

grabble the gowd and tame the crowd.

we are murderers, slayers at the finest.

and we carry out crimes with such poise. Take the heat,

the executioner is always smiling.

 the hired help, the employed killer,

 how do we live with in our selves?

gashes in the bark

counting down to the day we get to fight the beast.

His saliva the sapphire blood in our veins,

dripping down his fangs.

deep moons engage an estranged companionship.

 riding on rain to drown to the depth of our death.

 so for once we can understand it.

only when we become what we fear.

we can then conquer everything

that keeps us up at night.

when we consume to resolve,

 wondering if we're the hunters or the hunted.

The bows and arrows embeded

behind your faitour smile.

 Lest we take the steps toward sober love and

heroin joy.

shuting opened doors so i can forget you in

slumber.

I'm still a child, meek and mild.

what predators at a young supposed innocence.

Opague and wild.

laughing he told me to wait, so i did and i took paces by the phone

he told me he'd call, so i waited

oh the fool I'am

I must be the fool

 In his sweet talk he told me, that death was the beginging and how god was, and i clung on to each word, accepting it as my own.

oh the fool i am

i must be the fool

what he said is that love is one thing we take with us forever, and one kiss shattered the stars

oh the fool i am

i must be the fool

time passed and we faded, we were consumed by the very emotion that had created us

oh the fool i was

i must be a fool