So me and my wife are in the middle of an argument and I don't even remember why but her family was brought into the subject who I do not talk to due to the fact that 90% of them believe I killed my own son and about 70% of that 90 have had no problem with telling me or her that they think that. So anyways the conversation begins and I ask her to why she talks to the ones that have those kind of feelings? and she looks me dead in the eye and says "Sometimes you need to get over certain things."EXCUSE ME!!??!! LAST I CHECKED WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU THAT YOU ARE A COLD HEARTED BABY KILLER AND THEY HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL FOR THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE, WHEN I DIDN'T DO THAT!!! WHY THE FUCK WOULD I KILL MY OWN CHILD??!!?? I'M NOT ONE OF THOSE FUCKED UP PARENTS YOU SEE ON NANCY GRACE!!!!!
SO EXACTLY WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I GET OVER THAT?!?!? SO RIGHT NOW I'M A BIT ENRAGED AND HOPE SOMEONE OUT THERE CAN TALK ME OUT OF PUTTING MY HEAD THROUGH A BRICK WALL CAUSE I'M SO LIVID. SO YOU TELL ME HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?

So I just thought I'd stop in to give you my normal bi monthly fit of emotional outbreaks via blogging. I just think that sometimes people can be so fake and so selfish and really not give a damn about anyone, and the fucked up part is when its somebody you thought you could look up to, somebody you've helped soo many times and will continue helping just because of who they are. This person has stirred up everything in my life so much that everything is just a blur now and I don't think I should trust or help her anymore, but as most of you know, I have problems with telling this person to just BACK THE FUCK OFF!! because of who she is, how would you do it? just before you answer this remember that this person has been there through thick and thin for you but has also treated you as if your a peice of meat she can through to the dogs to save somebody else whenever she feels like it.
I don't know.
Give me your input, Thats all for now.

Love you all,
Dannie

Everything Changes - Staind


If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyways?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you can not close
The devil in you I suppose
Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes if I could
turn back the years, if you could
learn to forgive me then I could
learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
in moments of disarray
succumbing to the games we play
to make sure that it's real

But everything changes if I could
turn back the years, if you could
learn to forgive me then I could
learn to feel

When it's just me and you
who knows what we could do
if we can just make it through
the toughest part of the day

Everything changes if I could
turn back the years if you could
learn to forgive me then I could
learn how to feel, then we could
stay here together and we could
conquer the world if we could
say that forever is more then just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
It wouldn't change how you feel?

    So just when you think your ahead of the game and everything is going great, SLAM!! right in the face quicker than you would think evrything is snatched from in front of your face until you hit rock bottom. But I've come to the conclusion that everyone should hit rock bottom once in awhile to keep them awake with their eyes open or else we'd go through this world with a blindfold trusting everyone and not putting as much regard into certain things that we should be.But I will tell you NOTHING feels better than standing up after that plunge straight down, knowing that its not over and you can fix it, just a reminder to watch out next time so you don't fuck up and lose it all again. Right??

Dannie

world what the hell do you do when the one person that should love you the most and should whole heartedly support you with every move you make, tells you that if you follow your dreams and ambitions and try to turn them to a reality they will leave your life?

So I have a new obsession......

I was flipping through movies on demand last night and I saw a commercial for a new show on shotime well not so new they are already on season two but I never heard of it till last night and the tv sucked me into one of its traps and I watched all 13 episodes of the first season from 12am till 1pm today and its a fucking incredible show and guess what?!? Season two premieres tonight!!!!! I'm so excited and I'm not the type to get excited over tv shows. lol well check it out the name of the show is Dexter and season two airs tonight on showtime!!!!

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

[When You're Gone lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
mMm

You know people can be so fuckin' out of control of thier own lives that they feel like they have to control someone else's life and I just wanna blow up and tell them not to try and control my life cause thier's is totally FUCKED!!!

Sorry I needed to let that out.

Peace,
Dannie