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Sebastian Andersen


Last Updated: 11/23/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 17
Sign: Aquarius

City: Wheat Ridge
State: Colorado
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/30/2006

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July 14, 2009 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  relieved
Category: Life
Ok well all of you know about the decision i have had to make this summer... and if you dont go read my blog Florida Trip but im writing this blog to tell you whats going on right now... and first of all i just have to say that this whole thing has been VERY stressful... It has upset me alot... and just having to hear all the crap from everyone i honestly feal like ive been torn in half in some ways... but ive made up my mind... and well... actually first something that reallllly pissed me off is that well they day right after i made up my mind my dad calls me and tells me that considering the cirmustances down here i dont have the choice anymore and that i HAVE to come back. Frankly i was PISSED i mean i was put through alll this stress and all this talking to people and worrying for basically nothing... now i know what ur thinking... "Oh so Sebastian is coming back to Colorado!" but ... that isnt my decision. The best advice anyone has given me during this all came from Rory... he just kept telling me to follow my heart.. and well thats what i did and im sorry to you all in Colorado... i mean yes i did grow up with alot of you... but my friends here u just got to understand i love them... all ... and thats dearly not queerly but still i love about like 4 or 5 of you there and thers like 15 here i mean plus i knew instantly that if i followed my heart ide choose here. Every single one of my friends here said they respeect my decision either way i didnt have one person from florida tell me COME BACK COME BACK COME BACK! they all were respectful of what i wanted and they just wanted me to be happy... when there was people in colorado saying if i dont come back there gonna beat my ass... which.. well what do you think makes me feal is a true friend more? Now there are those of you who did respect my decision in colorado and you are probably one of those 4 or 5 people i do love there... but also i must say there is still a 20% chance im coming back probly more than that because well my dad is freaking out basically... and says i HAVE to come back still and he has custody so i still have to persuade him into letting me stay... but im pretty sure i will be able to but not positive.. so... i just want to apologize to all of you in Colorado... ill be there probably on the holidays and for sure next summer as for you in Florida im excited to start the school year and see you all again! Well thats really all i have to say... soo..... well see were it goes from here.
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June 19, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  nostalgic
Ok well the time has come. I am leaving to florida tomorrow morning at 10:30 in the morning. Now i am very excited for this trip and i am also kinda nervous..and even a little derpessed. All of my friends here in Colorado you guys have made soo much influence on my life for the good. You guys made me who i am today.  I love each and everyone of you and soon enough there will be a spot in me "Heroes" section Im going to take the time here within the next few weeks to put all of you in there.. but now i must get to the point of writing this..... This is kinda of hard to say because i know how most of you will react. Some of you know already but most of you do not... which is why i gotta say it now... This summer when i go to florida there is the chance im not coming back... i want all of you to know the choice is all up to me. Now i didnt tell most of you because.. well i know most of you are going to be mad and some will be sad and im sorry but I might be coming back too right now i dont know what im going to do.  I just wanted to let you guys know that there is a chance you wont see me again probably until next summer... So i love all of you and like i said before i will put all of you in my heroes and i also want to point out that my choice for staying in Florida isnt because i hate you guys or that they are better than you.. Now i know you guys have all your special memories of past summers and camping and stuff and i always hear about it and truth if i feal like im not part of the group because i wasnt there for those times but now i understand because thats part of the reason i want to move back to florida i mean i have great memories like that with my friends there and im sorry to say i am closer to alot of them more than i am everyone here. I mean there are a couple of you that i have known for a VERY long time and i trust you guys and you know who you are. Yet i dont know what im going to do yet i just want you to know none of it is anyones fault its just the fact that i miss the people back there and yes im going to miss you all to this is the definately the hardest decision i think ive had to make in my entire life and i just want you all to understand that. So i know some of you will be mad and i just want to say to those of you that are just please dont give me a hard time about it im getting enough as it is. Im getting bribed by both sides and all sorts of other shit so it would be nice just to lay off for awhile i mean i understand if u dont want to talk to me for a little but i would like to hear from you again if i do move back but just keep your hopes up i dont fully know what im gonna do yet its 50/50 right now and im rather confused. and i know im rambling on here but i just hope you take the time to read this. I love you all...
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