Ode to Mary or On Giving Birth to Rabbits

thump thump
my heartbeats dead
i know my prayers
she hears my rabbit fears
a crowd of sorrow spreads
innocence pure & peerless yes
no boy or girl is fearless
your voyeur is not me i am
less omnipotent & blind as keyholes
holy grails & papercuts i am
childless fatherless & contagious
celestial feral & leporiphobial
the danseuse étoile is a stillborn
killer forbidden & priveleged
ready to know all her lines fall
in pleasent places blurred soft & wet
where preachers vultures circling
nothingness renounces me
toward your idea of heaven
a kind of hell without you yet
my eyes beclouded with tears of wine
my cheeks are church bells undivine
bringing low the she the song of
oldest goldest anatomies mary
the ideal wound the perfect disease
comforts me in times like thieves these
windowless souls lick the navel cup
from your dreams eardrums of honeysuckle
the sandman candies eyes & lullabies
in pockets deep she finds triganometries
to sigh to sound the end of all
hunger & longing stomachs & wombs
even if only for her the
mourning comes too soon

"Most true it is, I dare to say,
E'er since the Days of Eve,
The weakest Woman sometimes may
The wisest Man deceive."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wi..ki/Mary_Toft

dream of the fisherman's daughter

i will eat you up
in unerotic feasts of love
void of mercy her many limbed
lust burns my soul at both ends
both beginnings kiss i
wet your lips with violence
destruction's fruit feeds on
my tongue cut off your lips
your fist is my heart
my heart is your velvet glove in
blood forged gauntlet trust
engines deepest teeth twist
energies dark smiling lost
erring ones follow me they
lay gifts at your feet i
rush with lush purple imminence
unseen your assassin entwined
in plain view my homecomings
from love's ongoing war
there is less death because of
us more life to share i dare
the ocean walls to kneel
parading humility & too precious
relentlessly divine she floods
my litte world in her tears
unredeemingly blessed naked i  
will dress you up pretty as
somedays sundays sleep in
open eyes & nourishing lullabies
she covers me completely in her hair
succubus like octopus might i can't breath
changing colorless alive & reaching
otherness i am food in your dreams

like a lamb to the daughter

all your toys
envy me the wings
tattooed on your back
make me laugh like a song
my tongue fingers ancient
traces the sacred route forked
of pagan flames followers
dancing wildly in paint insatiable
inside in front of walls her
milk lithe shadows fall
writhing in their nightly swarms
daughters serpentine undulations
female curves male limitations
objectified pretty little hells
she disowns every cell in her body
cries out to me stop say yes in the opaque
silence unsound inch by inch they squint &
flinch rainbow by rainbow i am
uncreating happiness is unheavenly
vengeance is meticulous & artless
eternity in finite as ouroboros our love
bruises yellow in the amber afterbirth
glistens an umanned heart flies further
she professes no one hears cares or listens
all her skins are fresh
all her dresses are red
all your gods are hot pink zephyrs
of unbelievability a quiet summoning
she with minimal prodding i am leading
no lambs in front of me hunger follows me
like a massacre lead to a slaughter
omnivorously her appetiteless
smile ambushes & devours me


*unfinished poem seeking redemption!

wonderlandless alices

the second sex i
am the other the center
of everywhere you
never knew what your name
meant she her the existential
circling my self control
in emerald eyes visions of you
nowhere is me with my less famous
disease smiles quickly spread
infected with the cure
my cup spills red wet silk
you cut i bleed heavy religion
hard the inner guardian hope
into the milk & marrow fetal curled
unequalled mirroring mutual surprise i
face east to see your face this time
beside me in bed your head kisses my feet
your hair on my hooves fleet weepings
sweet chaste seduction of lust itself
down down guilty as a newborn
reborn into a nobler form of animal
in this fallen world her lipstick
signature plain as dollfaces sacrifices
night & day to be with your pretty awe
how many wonderlandless alices 
fall endlessly inside of me a cherry pit
my mouth asks how many hearts she has
how much ink will it take to blot out my names
your heart is a triangle upside down how many
fingernails clip my wings & world girls
all jumping ropes & skipping stones she
is erasing every word i
have ever written or spoke



(how many Maxs & Alices will be ToTing?) :P

asphyxiophilia

a splinter
in the mind's eye
provokes my soul
violent & vulgar alone
in secret
you keep me pregnant
she knows angels fear to dread
our mating ritual where
my shadow goes long & hard
staring down sun moon & stars
the embers the feathers
the diamonds lie i have been
dancing on the head of your pin
she says she speaks honey sheathes as
walls of light fall on me like snow
children shoulder me into the sky
roots to branches to avalanches
i have been weighing
my love in unformed skulls
remember the dark chambers
the prison cell you call home
is calling you out of yourself
into me the halo strangles
fingerless wet tangled mane of
tragic deprivation i have a feeling
of joy & completion of leaving hope
leaving faith & believing in the seen
blackness & darkness in zeroness hid
a kiss from the eyelids pursed her
butterflies squint the locusts cursed
i stand in full regret regaled we
in guilt naked underneath
every version of you & me

so much blood

sad but true she
blue my mind i burn
untriggered & lingering
never seen so much blood
never seen so much blood
is it calling you
is it calling am i
falling
soft targets drip
self destructing drop
a sick weapon
aims victims audiences
made to witness it this ending
meet me at the edge of pretending
she is the source unrehearse we
force others to watch hide no seek
here is a game i do not play
here is the name i do not say
a sophisticated brute not
from above a dark seceret love
a virgin once now virginal
is it following you
is it following i am
binding myself to your joy
for there is no cure for wishing  
your dreams were real
you will never be a flame
you will never become a star
kisses unconditional curve down
cheeks undry from  eyes fly too high
it was mine her blood bleach 
orange sunset was mine

like a vampire


she was a girl
nothing more you
once were more in love than
i ever was she dies if
her god was alive
his name would be
wood flesh or gold if G-d
was a girl she says
everything would be pink
receive the confusion ok
believe the chaos of future
longing comes too late no
beauty transcends itself
a division of sexes nextness
precious sand dunes & shipwrecks
in a bottle i sail i drink
under the black sea do not
make me hurt myself it kills
each star points to you
the place of your bornlessness
where poems & prayers die
sleep soft as erotic
dream hard as mythologic
find lost as exilic your her
heart of porcelain unbroke
wrapped in butcher's paper under
the influence of your wine & moon
whisper me under your skin my
steeple ruins restlessness heals
thrown from fingertips extinguish
oceans louder than wet
i cried when you made
me your vampire

***

unvertical love

i ran in dreams
from rooftop to rooftop
to the very beat of
your heart i run i am running
when two become one
where one becomes
everything everywhere
i dare you never to look up
i run i ran i jumped
the cityscape
of broken teeth
my love is lost
you undress the gps
you unlock the clockworks
the keys all fall at your feet
all doors & walls are gone
the only ceiling you know i am
falling through to wake you up
vertical lover only i am
down dirty & wrong so long 
will a phoenix rise where i die
nurse nest & nullify my longing
to fall from rooftops to bedscape
i want to be your angel your raygun
i want to be the reason you change seasons
with kittens for mittens &
lions for lungs
crowning your skull
kissing your candleskin
she wakes & i am
gone you call me
i come

the voluptuos mast

ink milk sweats
through every pore
catch a snowflake or
genome sequence
on tongue your raindrop
hot blood clouds blooms
salt floods you come
too soon two lips
im drowning white
there is no now
screaming no sound
sweetness shuts me down
one organ at a time
oxygen needs me
unconcious defenseless
convulsions your zodiac
paint me in red kisses
bury me in green fields
wrap me in blue eyes
raise me in gold skies
come up for air never ever
holds me tight love overflows
her thighs her knees the undertow
slower slow slain no
coiled oiled glitter glimmer
down take me make me lay down
let me wonder won't let
me go i wanted to know
her emotions woven from
faith now walls of waves
pour poor crush & crash 
the voluptous mast i am
outside outcast outlived
by your last breath



(i was kneeling to serve
true to my worth you
sat on no throne my skull
will never form a womb)