The Rebuke
I'm your tormentor and I'll let you know when your time has come
I'm your tormentor and it's your time/
The violent keep the kingdom of heaven
YOU COME AS ONE BUT FLEE AS SEVEN/
This is the story in His name
By which we're called and known the same
And all will see who shook the nations
I watched Satan fall like lightning/
This is your rebuke/
Fall like lightning/
I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ/
(Is the Way the Truth and the life
and none can enter the kingdom of heaven but by Him
No one else has suffered more pain or seen more loss for you.
No one else died on the cross for you.
You have no place here Satan!
and in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, you must leave
Your demons must flee through the cracks of these walls
You will be destroyed by the one who is above all!)
let it be so.


Let It Be Known
Call the name of your God (For a deities test)
Called the master of all liars
And we'll bow down to the one (we'll bow down)
Who answers our calling by fire (you'll bow down)/
Send down your fire
I'll slay their prophets by my sword/
Can You hear your cries?
Maybe he's asleep?/
And they yelled and cut themselves uo with their knives lancets
Will their cries awaken Baalim? AND THEY YELLED AND CUT THEMSELVES UP/
Until blood gushed out upon them making asinine sacrifices that mean nothing/
(The kingdom of heaven is at hand
Let it reign here tonight
So it will be known across the lands
They pierced His feet and pierced His hands
He is a mighty warrior that chose to be broken
So that we can meet Him here tonight
Open the floodgates of heaven
And let it rain.)
God of Jacob, God of Isaac, God of Abraham, let it be known/
That today you are my God
That today i'll serve You
The today you are my God
Let them tremble at the sound of Your name/
You are God, Jesus Christ. You are God......Let it be known.


The Woe Oracle
Raise or bury the corpse within
Praise or curse the soul
Judgment's found on your head for the quick and the dead
In your mind you are wise
In your eyes prudence lies
Judgments found on your head you're as good as dead/
Woe to you I can tell you, You'll surely die
Cast one of these astray and you're as good as dead/
In the sea casted you'll die with a millstone around your neck/
The sea of judgment will consume your heart
With a burning desire to condemn the soul
And if it be so then you'll drown in part
In the lake of fire as a condemned soul/
Woe to thee fire burns deep
Heed your call or you'll fall.


When Silence Speaks
Are you listening now? YOUR LAST WORDS. I am listening now.....When silence speaks.
I(we) can see the light but all it's warmth is gone
And if I(we) die will my(our) memory linger on?
On the fringe of Your cloak lies the power to heal my(our) bones
But your silence speaks and it's louder than I've(we've) known/
And I'm finding all my efforts to find themselves futile
When the words I speak penetrate the lonely stone walls
And if I try to strike a blow I'll find myself wounded
That is if I find myself breathing at all/
When I run towards You am I running towards my grave?
But if I stay surely I'll be slain.
When you hear my cries, will You answer my calls?
But Your silent now, if You're even there at all/
(The holocaust is amongst one of the most detrimental things done in the name of God.
The name that is pure and holy was made the reason for evil.
Do not look at the deeds of man to seek the image of God
Unless the deed is love and points to above.
So this is an apology on behalf of those who call us their brothers
But defile the name of God for selfish ambition and unholy motive.)
I will still believe in the wind even when it's not blowing
I will still believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I will still believe in life even when mine is ending
I will still believe in God even when He's silent/
When a sin is ever sown the reaper sees 1000 fold


An Unholy War
Would this fight be justified slightly if I kill them all?
Killing all the infidel's mighty suffering till they fall/
God wills it! I will not leave a woman or child standing here alive.
God wills it! To burn their soil, forever spoiled, seeing eye for eye/
(Why would Christ suffer the cross only for you to sin in His name?
The Law has been changed to the law of Love
and this is not a war against flesh and blood.
An eye for an eye was denied by I am
When an unblemished Lamb took the sins of all man
So if you bear a sword, pierce your own heart
And kill the hatred that belongs to Satan.)
THIS IS NO HOLY WAR. To win here you must die. To die here you're alive/
I remember you back when I molded you from clay
Do you remember me or just what other people say
If God is love then to love you'll see my face
See me with a broken heart that I can thus replace.


Stemless Rose
Like a Stemeless rose your presence fades away
Like water to a fire, desire went astray
Convictions set aside, professing to be wise
And by the fear of man, assimilated lies/
Remove the scales from their eyes
Remove Your truth from their lies/
I never knew you
Depart from me/
Like a starless sky, In a winter's chill
Your eyes are painted black but prosperous even still
Penetrated cries fill the airy skies
Their voice with one accord shouting only lies/
They are lost and waiting to be found
Hopelessly falling on the ground
They need a hand to pick them up
But you walk past and never stop.


The Grand Inquisitor
Turn or burn to the eyes of oppression and take the tattered road
Tell the tale of a forced redemption or join the valley of bones
Let the sight of a godless fight be the price of which you're bought
Let our might be the law of right for the weak has proved himself not.
(2nd time) Let my love be the law of right for I was weak and proved to be God/
The law of life, all will die, fighting, in their due time
Forfeit your life or it will be ours/
Truth without love is not but violence
Judging to us has brought judgment.

Curse the Day
Verse:
Curse the day that I was born, may light never shine upon it.
I'll rip my clothes and wear them torn, may darkness claim what's lit.
To those who curse, come curse this day, to those who arouse Leviathan
May the stars of morn in darkness lay, may it look for light, but find none.
Chorus:
I can not take this pain, but I don't wanna run away
I can not take this pain, so I say, curse the day
Verse:
Curse the name of every name, but the Name Above All Names
I'll take the depth of dreary death all covered in my shame
Before my foolish words deplore what will never leave my mouth
And therefore then my 'yes is yes' and my 'no' becomes a shout.

Exposure to the Pain of Suffering
Verse:
Look at me now, I taste a part of Your pain,
Let me taste the pain and my tongues on fire. 
Look at my heart I felt Your heart just the same. 
And I can't breathe anymore. 
You took a million thorns and Your blood's on my brow,
I'm seeing only red until my eyes got blinded. 
Looking for an out because the pain's so big now. 
And it just took one thorn. 
Chorus: 
I can't breathe anymore with this pain of suffering. 
I can't breathe anymore, it just took one thorn. 
Verse: 
Look at her now and see enough is enough. 
Take away her pain and her nights of suffering. 
Take away her bed and her tubes, all this stuff. 
She can't breathe anymore. 
Of all of my days this is the worst of my life. 
I don't know how to pray or for what to hope for. 
If it's the end I'll say goodbye here tonight. 
Take her she's Yours. 
Bridge: 
Exposure to the pain of suffering

Righteous Quest
Verse:
If skin for skin,
Stretch out Your hand
And mark his bones,
Then see who stands.
Righteous calling, now I'm falling
Chorus:
Righteous quest is falling down
Do You see me as worthy?
Verse:
I'll stand alone
When all else falls
When all I own's
Nothing at all.

Battle Hymn
Intro:
I have come here to fight
Not to watch as you
Kill me, and take home my right
Here to Speak.
Bruising my heel now I
limp when I walk, and
Your bite brings me pain, but
My heel crushed your head.
Verse:
Still before you strike.
Will you catch me sleeping?
With a serpent's cunning,
Steal, Kill, Destroy.
I can see your tactics
With my eyes wide open
By might from above
Steal, Kill, Destroy
Chorus:
My submission is your perdition
By my sword your reign will fall.
My submission is your perdition
Mark my words your reign will fall.

Ministry of Vengeance  
Intro: 
Turn the other cheek, cause vengeance is mine. 
Be humble and meek, or be cast to the swine.  
Your words can stop the stones, from My mouth comes a sword. 
I'll worship You alone, you'll just serve one Lord. 
Verse:
I run away again but I'm confused should I be running away or towards You? 
Once I was told to stay, but If I stay who's gonna run the race here for You? 
Chorus: 
When you look at my eyes tell me what you see. 
Do You see a saint or a sinner in me? 
You yell in my ear and tell me to fight, 
Now You whisper here in the coolness of night.

Eine Lobrede
Verse:
102/60 marks the ending of the race
79/70   she starts walking towards the saints
34/20   she turns to us to say farewell
20/10   goodbye to the last tear that fell.
Chorus:
When I see her dying, I can not turn away
Then I feel it coming, and my night becomes her day.
Bridge:
Take away the
Pain and heal her
If by death then
It is well.
I'll remember
All you taught so
With my soul then
It is well.

Sweating Blood
Verse:
Can a blessing be a curse?
It's so much so and so much worse than the ordinary cry
I feel like I'm gonna die.
Father come save me if You can.
If and when it's in Your plan.
Unless it's all part of Your will
That Your Son be hung and killed.
Chorus:
Sweating blood on holy ground.
The weight of sin is heavy now.
Swords of hatred seek the crowned.
Now that sin is crushing down.
Verse:
Follow to the Olive Grove,
And listen for the rooster's crow.
All of you will run away and leave on my dying day.
Then the traitor took his turn, and with the kiss he chose to burn.
A tear then trickles down my face.
The Son of Man now meets His fate.

Resurrection
Verse:
Get behind me, do you think you're winning?
Get behind me, your lies don't hurt me any.
Get behind me, you tool of Satan's bidding.
Get behind me, it's time to get away.
Chorus:
You can't hold me back now
You can't stop the resurrection
Verse:
Get behind me, now the time is up.
Get behind me, I'm gonna make them Mine.
Get behind me, come on pass your cup.
Get behind me, watch me bleed My wine.

Baptism of Fire
Verse:
For the law ordained by angels
You have broken and defiled.
You stiff-necked people
Chorus:
I'll die again, and take the pain
My baptism of fire
Bridge:
I cry aloud for my friend to be found,
For the lost, for the low, for the song I sing now
And I'd die again for the sake of His name
So the lost would all see that our sweet Savior came.
I'll give my life to make famous the Christ,
Though your stones bring a wound, all I see is His light
And please Father God, oh punish them not,
They're naive, they are blind of the sins they have brought

40 Days
Verse:
I do everything You want, oh why are You doing this today?
My Shepherd lost His flock tell me who will chase the wolves away?
40 days of tribulation, are you tired of the tough temptation?
Count my years, they're 33 and cast all of your pain on me.
Chorus:
I'll be the One by your side, when no one's hearing your cries,
When no one cares your alive I'll die
Verse:
So, can a man feel more alone, oh no, Your stone just broke my bones.
Come, and lend me all Your might and lift the stone that steals my life.
40 days of tribulation, are you tired of the tough temptation?
Count my years, they're 33 and cast all of your pain on me.

 

 

Well, here are the complete lyrics for our latest album 'Exposure to the Pain of Suffering'.  Please feel free to give us any feedback, I'd love to hear what you have to say.  Peace

 

Steve

Today, on Mar. 11, 2006 my mom Gudrun Anita Felix passed away.  This is really hard for me to write right now, but I think everyone should know what happened and what is happening. 

Well, about a month ago my mom was diagnosed with colon cancer.  Her tumor was huge and the cancer had spread passed her colon.  She had two surgeries (one of which was critical) and stayed in ICU with many other complications for three days before she died.  Her body was too weak and she deteriorated to the point where she couldn't breathe anymore and her heart stopped.  Although she had been in tremendous pains prior to today, she wasn't in any pain today before she passed. 

This all is crazy.  I still can't really believe that my mom isn't gonna be coming home.  I cried a million tears and my whole family has been mourning today.  I'm strong now.  I know exactly what's happening.  I know that she's in heaven walking with Jesus right now looking more beautiful than ever, and I know that it won't be all too long before I'm next to them walking along. 

This is the most pain I've ever experienced and I don't really even know how to cope.  Should I be sadder than I am?  Should I rejoice?  It's in these times that we all have to make a choice.  When the hard times come it is our decision to either go and forget our worries by drinking our pain away or rebelling, or to let Christ carry us through our hard times.  The Holy Spirit is my comforter, and I know that even though God was rejoicing like crazy and so happy when he was finally reunited with his daughter, He also cried a thousand tears for every tear that I cried.  I know that His compassion went out to me and I know that I have only one thing to do and that is to trust the Lord and let Him comfort me.  He is yearning to tell me a kind word and to sing me a soothing song, so I'd be a fool if I didn't let Him. 

Please know, everyone, that these last weeks and specifically these last days have been hell for my family, but it's all good.  On her bed in the hospital my mom kept telling me that 'God is Good!' even when she was dying.  My mom was such a strong person and such a great Christian that she will forever inspire me to be the same.  When I found out she had cancer I got depressed and wanted to rebel, but she told me to be a good boy and stressed how much more important God is even than her.  By the grace of God and the love of my mom I didn't rebel, and I don't plan on doing so either.  She loved her Jesus like crazy and she still will.  I don't know how non-Christians do it.  My mom's in heaven- and I know it.  Without Christ I don't know where I'd be right now, but since I have Him it's all good.  God is good.  I love my mom, and I can't wait to see her again.

When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll
Whatever my lot thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul

Please keep my family in your prayers.  My mom's memorial service will be Sat. Mar. 18th at 2 O'Clock at 4855 Fay Blvd. Port St. John, FL.  You are all welcome to come and honor her with me and my family one last time.  

Steven Felix

I was praying and the Lord revealed to me something tragic but wonderful.  Something that's been here all along, but something that hit me so hard when I came to realize it that I could not think about much of anything else afterwords.

Everybody has hard things happening to them everyday in their lives.  Everyday there's an addition to our already plentiful account of rapes, deaths, illnesses, lies, deceit, murders, jealousy, and so on.  People live in hell everyday on this earth.  Many of our brothers and sisters in humanity walk around with broken homes, being raised having one parent hating the other.  Youth look at their parents with their broken dreams and broken marriages and broken conception of goodness.  Something inside these youth is passion that seeks a reason.  Something in these kids tells them that there is more than brokeness and destruction.

The devil tactic is to seek, kill, and destroy.  Everything is broken.  These seekers are the outcasts of our schools.  Amist all the brokeness there is a music and heart that reflects their souls.  The music is dark and intense; it speaks of the real subjects of the world.  The music talks about suffering and death, just like their reality.  They're seeking, and they don't know for what, but this music agrees with why they're seeking.

As Christians we'd be fools to act as if these problems never existed.  We see them in our own lives even under the covering of the Most High.  If it were raining, how much more wet would someone get if they didn't have an umbrella?  We need to know these problems are real and that the brokeness is all around us like the endless waters of the ocean when sailing.

Jesus said that a doctor goes to those that are sick, not to the healthy.  Jesus spent his time loving the prostitutes, and the destitute, and the tax collectors that were ostricized by society.  Women meant less for men, but not for Jesus.  He went through all hight and all lows to seek these that were seeking.  A woman had the faith that told her if she only touched Jesus' cloak then she would be healed.  Jesus said here faith healed her.  She was seeking.  The people that are seeking are the ones that will find, 'seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened'.  We must then show these seekers the answer.  We must give them the umbrella in the rain.  The seekers have seen so much brokeness, that they will accept the man who can fix it.

It's time to reach out to the oucasts.  Let's show them how to live a life of darkness that leads to the light.  Let's show them how ti die, that is to die daily.  Let's show them power and let's show them love and acceptance.  Our love will show them that there is something more than brokeness and our acceptance will show that they aren't the only outcast and that we too can understand how they feel and why they feel what they do.

We can show them that we too are Castaways.