You know, for the first time in my life I can say that I'm fine. In the mornings, I wake up and smile to myself....
I have made some great friends through this short existence of mine, I have experienced some hardcore times, too. So much people have passed, so many that I don't remember the names or faces... I only have a
hint that they existed.
Many people I just let go away, without knowing how to express myself, totally soaked in my shyness and pride.
Then now, or at least since 3 years ago, I'm getting better, trying to be more open to new people, other thoughts. Having to live far from home, even having to live with strangers becouse of college made me accept people...
This fact made me learn to love Brasil. It's not about soccer. It's about the weather, the warmth, the nature, the people, the air... I've never been to any other country, but I read about other cultures and brazilian people's much nicer compared to the others.
I don't need to watch the World Cup or listen to samba to like my country. The other day I went see a brazilian band, Garage Fuzz, and I thought of how they are unique, even singing in English, even playing rock, they're familiar, they sing about emotions that I have, too. They've been playing for more than 10 years just like an indie band. I think that's awesome, for a country like that, where musical instruments are almost an elite's privilege.
Then, after rewatching for the Xth time Hedwig and the Angry Inch, I was catched by the scene where Hansel receives Gummy Bear and describes the little bears inside the package... there were every sort of bears... which one with its own color and taste.
I think my country is like that... it can be anything, anything can happen here. Like, there's some great fashion events and there's also street markets (very charming indeed), you can have almost any fruit for a good price or you can go buy an açaà ice-cream, a Haagen Dazs, whatever. Well, money's a problem, it can really put some fences around us. But I don't wanna think about money right now.
Actually, I'm much wiser about money, thank g**
well, i should be studying.