[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
[33]What if i never lived?

I just wanted to write this blog in memory of Pepsi Tate, bass guitarist of Cardiff glam band Tigertailz.

I've only just heard the devasting news of his passing and would like to extend my love to his family and of course to the remaining members of the band.

I was hoping to meet up with Pepsi, and introduce him to my son, at a gig the band are playing at The Point on 22nd October, as i hadn't seen him since my teenage years, where many a weekend we would share a drink and a chat in Bogeys.

He will be sorely missed, but his memory will live on in his music and in the hearts of his fans the world over.  I for one will never forget him !!! xo

there are certain things that happen in life that we have to deal with on a daily basis.....one of those things is the loss of loved ones.   It's quickly approaching Christmas and it's the time of year that i both love and hate in an equal footing.....

It's fantastic to share full time with my children and my family, constantly enjoying each others company and having loads of laughs and fun, but it's also a constant reminder that it's yet another Christmas with her family that my daughter will miss....

I know she will be with us in spirit and i always take a little time everyday to think about and talk to her, but i find that instead of it getting a little easier to deal with as the time goes on, i'm finding it harder and harder each day.  I miss her SO MUCH!!

There are several songs that i dedicate to my beautiful girl and i shed a tear each and everytime that i hear them... i've posted the lyrics to these below, as they are so special to me....... i wanted to share them with you all..

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Queensryche - Silent Lucidity

Hush now, don't you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head

Ella Fitzgerald - Summertime

Summertime, and the livin' is easy
Fish are jumpin' and the cotton is high
Oh! Your Daddy's rich and your Ma is good lookin'
So, hush little baby, don't you cry . . .
 
One of these mornin's you're gonna rise up singin'
Then you'll spread your wings, and you'll take to the sky
But 'till that mornin' there's a nothin' can harm you,
with Daddy and Mammy standin' by . . .
 
But 'till that mornin' there's a nothin' can harm you,
with Daddy and Mammy standin' by . . .

Madonna - Promise To Try

Little girl don't you forget her face
Laughing away your tears
When she was the one who felt all the pain

Little girl never forget her eyes
Keep them alive inside
I promise to try -- it's not the same

Keep your head held high -- ride like the wind
Never look behind, life isn't fair
That's what you said, so I try not to care

Little girl don't run away so fast
I think you forgot to kiss -- kiss her goodbye

Will she see me cry when I stumble and fall
Does she hear my voice in the night when I call
Wipe away all your tears, it's gonna be all right

I fought to be so strong, I guess you knew
I was afraid you'd go away, too

Little girl you've got to forget the past
And learn to forgive me
I promise to try -- but it feels like a lie

Don't let memory play games with your mind
She's a faded smile frozen in time
I'm still hanging on -- but I'm doing it wrong
Can't kiss her goodbye -- but I promise to try

Madonna - Live to Tell

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I have a tale to tell Sometimes it gets so hard to hide it well I was not ready for the fall Too blind to see the writing on the wall [Chorus:] A man can tell a thousand lies I've learned my lesson well Hope I live to tell The secret I have learned, 'till then It will burn inside of me I know where beauty lives I've seen it once, I know the warm she gives The light that you could never see It shines inside, you can't take that from me [chorus] [2nd Chorus:] The truth is never far behind You kept it hidden well If I live to tell The secret I knew then Will I ever have the chance again If I ran away, I'd never have the strength To go very far How would they hear the beating of my heart Will it grow cold The secret that I hide, will I grow old How will they hear When will they learn How will they know [chorus] [2nd chorus]

I was one of the lucky few who managed to get see The Best of British Mediumship with Colin Fry and Tony Stockwell last night......

The boys came on looking as dapper as ever in their designer suits and with their usual wit and charm had us all laughing and smiling throughout the introduction.

Tony took centre stage for the first half of the show and shocked many of the crowd with messages from loved ones and secrets that no-one could possibly know...........his last reading however, left me breathless and with an immobility like i have never felt before!!

As he went into this last reading, he flowed very quickly and with great certainty of the details he was receiving, there were a few people there who held up their hands, but couldn't associate with some of the things that he was saying.....i however, feeling his eyes dart back and for to me, was sat immobilized and couldn't muster a breath or a movement to signify that this was the message that i have been waiting 6 years for!!  Unable to move, i'd lost my chance...he left the stage saying that the spirit he was in contact with wouldn't pass the message onto anyone else but the person it was meant for.

During the interval my mam took me out into the bar to get me a whisky as i was so shaken up, i was kicking the hell out of myself!!! i couldn't believe that the moment i'd been waiting for had passed and i could do nothing about it!!  Then suddenly during the break, an announcement was made that the boys would be coming out into the foyer after the show to sign autographs...AND I KNEW THIS WAS MY CHANCE!!

Colin's half of the show was an amazement as always and given in his usual light-hearted caring nature.......given out dear messages to loved ones, while making them smile at telling of some funny stories that the spirits were conveying.  Even though i was extremely enjoying Colin's turn, i still couldn't help but shake and feel uptight by the thought of trying to see Tony after the show.

The end of the show appeared with a message of love to all from the boys and with that i ran to the exit in the hope of getting my chance with Tony.  As i stood in the autograph queue, i started panicing....my taxi was due in 30 minutes and god knows what time the boys were to make an apperance! Every minute seemed like an hour as the queue got longer, when at quarter past 10 they made their apperance.

They seemed like miles away, i was 16th in line, and the queue didn't seem to be getting any smaller 10 minutes later and by this time i'm REALLY panicing!!! there's no way i could miss my taxi and i know that the girls that i came with will be wondering where i am!!  All of i sudden the queue seemed to disappear and there i am face-to-face with Colin and he's taking the programme i'm gripping out of my hands with a smile and chatting away as if we've known each other forever :) thanking him for his signature and kindness i can't believe i've made it, i'm finally face-to-face with Tony and have my chance to speak to him!!

As i hand over my programme and a copy of Tony's book, he greets me with the warmest smile i've seen and starts to chat away, when i blurt out what's been troubling me for last 1 and a half  hours.... 'I think you're last reading was for me!?'  Forgetting all about the crowd Tony was wholly fixed on my dilemma and gave me his undivided attention.  I won't go into details about what was said, but Tony talked through it all with me and he was left almost certain that it was the message i'd been waiting for, plus we discussed a previous reading that i had received undirectly from him.  He told me of an unyet announced venue where he'll be in a few months, gave a sound piece of advice 'Next time stick your bloody hand up, it won't hurt i promise, haha' and urged me to be there.  Giving me a look of assurance and warmth, we made our goodbyes and i assured him that i will be at the venue, and looking forward to the show.

On my return home, my hubby rang for the news of the evening and as usual gave me his undivided support and attention.  He's always there when i need him and always knows what to say to make me feel better and cheer me up, and i thank him for all the wonder and love that he brings to my life...i REALLY don't know what i'd do without him :)

I later went to bed with Tony's book in hand and have found that it's something i would advise everyone to read!!! It's so far the best book i've read on mediumship and clairsentiency, and makes the facts on the Spiritual world clear and understandable, and is also a great insight into his life and experiences.

I urge you all with fond memories of loved ones to go and attend one of Colin and Tony's demonstrations, but if there's a reading that you think could possibly be for you, don't freeze like i did and put up that hand, you never know...it could be the best thing you've ever done :) 

And for all you sceptics out there.......go and catch one of the shows, i promise you'll be a sceptic no more :)

Love to all, Trudy ox

Yes.....myself and my 12 yr old son are among the fortunate few who witnessed the world's greatest show on Earth EVER!!!!

Spending the whole day in Cardiff, cruising round guitar/music shops and of course sinking a few Jack Daniels in Hard Rock Cafe :D, the atmosphere in the city was electric!!  There was a constant stream of die hard fans trawling the city and we were constantly greeted with the view of thousands upon thousands of smiling faces and Stones t-shirts.

After entering the grounds and taking our seats, which were damn near perfect - the view was astounding, we joined in the 50,000 strong Mexican Wave that was constantly going around the stadium.

My son is a die hard metal fan, just like his mam may i add :), and is looking forward to seeing WASP and Slayer within the next couple of weeks.  But as he has said himself, for his 1st concert, he knows that he will never see a show like it again.  I have seen tons of gigs myself and it was ABOVE awesome!!!

Last Night's Set list

1. Jumping Jack Flash

2. It's Only Rock n Roll

3. Oh No Not You Again

4. Let's Spend The Night Together

5. Live With Me

6. Streets of Love

7. Midnight Rambler

8. Tumbling Dice

9. Slipping Away

10. Before They Make Me Run

11. Miss You

12. Rough Justice

13. Start Me Up

14. Honky Tonk Woman

15. Sympathy for the Devil

16. Paint it Black

17. Brown Sugar

ENCORES

18. You Can't Always Getr What You Want

19. Satisfaction

South  Wales Echo write up

As the crunching chords of their most famous No.1 rang out at the Millenium Stadium last night, nobody in the 50,000 strong crowd could complain the Rolling Stones hadn't delivered it.  Satisfaction, that is.

A two-hour set, filled to the brim with timeless classics, a high-energy performance by four wrinkly rockers with a combined age well in excess of 240, a nine-piece backing band, fireworks, dry ice, inflatable lips and lascivios tongue, a hydraulic stage and a giant video of a semi-naked woman pole-dancing up the Eiffel Tower.  Does it get any better than this?

Certainly not for the vast majority of the near-capacity crowd who roared their approval throughout the show.  There were a few empty seats around the impressive auditorium, but this could not spoil the atmosphere for the band's first gig in Cardiff for 16 years!!

From the moment lead singer Mick Jagger burst onto the stage, enthusiastically greeting the crowd in Welsh, and the first distinctive notes of Jumping Jack Flash resounded off the closed roof, the band had everyone on their side.

Shock-rocker Alice Cooper, fresh from his golfing exploits at the Celtic Manor Resort at the weekend, took his seat 15 minutes before the start of the concert and turned heads all around as he signed autographs for the devoted fans.

And he couldn't have failed to be impressed by the sheer energyand showmanship of Jagger and the indestructible Keith Richards, showing no ill-effects from his recent near-fatal fall from a palm tree.

Here's another set of lyrics that i hold dear to my heart :)

In My Darkest Hour
Megadeth
In my hour of need
ha [no] you're not there
and though I reached out for you
wouldn't lend a hand.

Through the darkest hour
grace did not shine on me
It feels so cold, very cold
no one cares for me.

Did you ever think I get lonely
did you ever think that I needed love
did you ever think to stop thinking
you're the only one that I'm thinking of.

You'll never know how hard I tried
to find a space and satisfy you too.

Things will be better when I'm dead and gone
don't try to understand, knowing you I'm probably wrong.

But oh how I lived my life for you
still you'd turn away
now as I die for you
my flesh still crawls as I breathe your name
all these years I thought I was wrong
now I know it was you
raise you head, raise your face, your eyes
tell me who you think you are?

I walk, I walk alone
into the promised land.

There's a better place for me
but it's far, far away
everlasting life for me
in a perfect world
but I gotta die first,
please god send me on my way.

Time has a way of taking time
Loneliness is not only felt by fools
Alone I call to ease the pain
Yearning to be held by you, Alone so alone, I'm lost
Consumed by the pain
the pain, the pain, the pain.

Won't you hold me again
you just laughed, ha ha, bitch
my whole life is work built on the past
but the time has come when all things shall pass
this good thing passed away.

Subject A quiz, of a hundred STUPID!! questions.

001: Name Trudy
002. Nickname - Bitch
003. Single or taken - half/half
004. Zodiac Sign - gemini
005. Male or Female- female
006. Elementary School: Heolddu comp
007. iPod? use the kids now and again

008. How many buddies on your list: 76
010. Hair Color - blonde
012. Hair Long or Short - long
014. Eye Color - blue
015. Are you health freak - nope
016. Height - 5ft 2ins
017. Do you have a crush on someone - kinda
018. Do you like yourself - sometimes
020. Think your awesome? - sometimes
021. Piercings - yes, 2
022. Tattoo - yes, 2
023. Righty or Lefty - ambidextrous but am lefty for writing, righty for most things, but use both for somethings, lol
024. Surgery - loads

___Your 'Firsts'___

025. First piercing - ears
026. First best friend - Kelly Trim, ain't cn her 4 many years
027. First Award - Oldtime/Ballroom dancing
028. First Sport You Joined - oldtime/ballroom dancing
029. First pet - pepi, terrier
030. First vacation - porthcawl
031. First Concert - Dio in Newport Centre
032. First love - Allan Bryant, a truly wonderful guy

__Favorites___

033. Movie - LOADS
034. Favorite tv show - lost
035. Colors - purple, black
036. Music - heavy metal, rock
039. Drink - JD
040. Body part not on the face (on a girl OR boy)- neck
041. Sport To Play - pool, poker
042. Favorite piece of clothing - black basque
043. Brand Of Clothing? - ain't cor one
044. What do you sleep with? nothing much
045. Favorite School - Y Graig
046. Favorite Animal(s) - dragon
047. Favorite Books - anything by terry pratchett
048. Favorite Magazines - kerrang, heat
__Currently___

049. I'm eating - chinese
050. I'm drinking - JD
052. I'm about to - finish completing this survey, lol
053. Listening to - bullet for my valentine
055. Waiting For - the one thing that pulls my life together
056. watching: the computer screen
057. Wearing - denim mini skirt and punk t-shirt
___Your Future___

058. Want Kids? - already got 2 thanx
059. Want to Get Married- maybe, if i ever find mr right (possibly not a Christian wedding thou, maybe more of a commitment bash, depends on the time and person i suppose)
060. Careers in Mind: web page designer/publisher, anything in the book industry

__Which is better with the Opposite/Same (depending on sexual orientation)-

068. Lips or Eyes - eyes
069. Hugs or Kisses - kisses
070. Shorter or Taller - taller
073. nice stomach or nice arms - nice arms
074. Sensitive or loud - bit of both

075. Hook-up or Relationship - relationship
076. Sweet or Caring - caring
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? - bit of both

___Have you ever___

078. Kissed a Stranger - yes
079. Drank bubbles - yes
080. Lost glasses/contacts - yes
081. Ran Away From Home - yes
082. Broken a bone - every one!!
083. Got an X-ray - loads
084. Broken Someone's Heart yes, and it's the worst mistake i have ever made!!
085. Turned Someone Down - yes
087. Cried When Someone Died - dur, REAL stupid question

___Do You Believe In___

089. God - NO WAY!
090. Miracles - yes, i have 2
093. Aliens - sometimes i like to think that there is life out there
094. Magic - not the kinda shit tha Paul Daniels does, but REAL magic yeah
095. Heaven - NO!!
096. Santa Claus - don't we all wish
097. Havin your parents meet your bf/gf after a week- depends on the b/f
098. Kissing on the First Date - again depends on the guy
099. Angels - yes

___Answer Truthfully___

100. im Bi!! - doesn't everyone have tendencies, lol

SEND ME UR COMPLETED STUPID QUESTIONS, SOMETIMES IT CAN B FUN