ok so i have never understood y ur heart an mind think an feel so differnet.. ur mind tells u that was a bad decision, u should just move on, learn from it, but it is an actual physical achin pain for ur heart.. it tries to hold on to every memory, songs, pictures, words, times you havent had with anyone else. Ur mind tells u that ur crazy... that it  really wasn’t  what u thought , but u know ur heart wouldnt hurt tha way it does if it wasnt... ur heart asks "Y"  did that happen. I know god says that he wouldnt put more on us then what we could handle an i believe everything he has ever said but i am beginning to wonder when does it all end, when does it stop hurtin, when do i smartin up, when do i learn to trust tha right  ones??? One thing i do know is that it is better to have known love.. then to have never known it ...but it is Hell  being tha one left holdin ur heart when someone has thrown it away....~ sueanne~

OMG its almost my b-day, i could just die, i am not ready to be 26. I feel like i havent done anything till this year an now its almost over.But i have learned a few things.Hope my life will continue on the path thats its on, i have had a blast.I would like to find some one to share it w/, but i am content w/ just me.I made a lot of new friends, an will keep them the rest of my life(oilrig),I love my girls, they have really stepped up for me this year, cant thank them enough, jenn,holly,amber,anna,stac,candace,tina & monica.So as long as i have yall an my guysfriends, i am good.Ready to take on a new year being 26,i am excited to see what it holds,an a little nervous, but bring it on!!!