The following is just a flow from my heart. These are a few things I am feeling very intensely at this moment, as I have just had a birthday and am now about to begin a new year of my life. As I am thinking of all of the things I no longer wish to carry into this new year, I am thinking of all the love and truth that I wish to radiate and beam brighter than I ever have. I hope that you will join me. I hope that nothing I have written has offended anybody. I know when my passion flies I have a tendency to ramble and let the little pirate in me raise her flag and start a commotion. Just know that I speak this with love and I hope you recieve it as my loving you. As one human to another:
Love,
yes, you!
Love, yes, love too.
Love is generous and kind, extraordinary and true.
Love is pure and relentless, compassionate and devastatingly beautiful.
Were you told this as a child? Well, neither was I...
Most certainly the impenetrable beauty that is Love (in it's honest and unchanging existence) was not demonstrated to me in this fashion either. I was taught that unconditional love was possible, though most of my experience with love was through crooked conditionals. Broken hearts that built a fortress of requirements prior to my existence. What is it to be human, if not to love and seek wisdom? We are extraordinary beings, capable of much love and change, incredible creation and positive construction. Yet a society that encourages consumption, decadance, and selfishness is only pulling us further from the most natural instinct within our creative bodies; love and giving, communion and gratitude.
Love is contageous. It is infectious, swelling, on the incline.
Underneath the sobbing heart, love is a little hope climbing, coming closer, breathing truth into you when you're gasping for air.
But what is it now to live? In this society? In this world?
Neon signs that decorate our city streets to solicit self esteem while deprecating the soul. Everything around us, tearing little peices of our humanity. We find ourselves so incredibly raw, underserving, starved for love and validation.
We are wonderful beings. Brilliant, beautiful, all of us-yes,
ALL OF US!We have fascinating minds, built for creation, positivity, love, and expansion.
Yet, as there is light in this world, so also is there darkness.
Entertain me, if you will?
As I want to surrender my heart to you and be an ambassador for light, if i may?
For in my darkest moment (and most certainly I have had them, and quite honestly they have been recent) I find that I can not seperate myself from my innate connection with the thing that created me, love-and it is when I choose to react with stillness and motion only in a gesture of peace, that I find myself wholly connected to who I truly am, accepting of myself, and eager to love and be united with those around me-in a reciprocal, positive, and progressive motion upwards.
I just had a birthday...
Much was thought about on the eve of my new year.
I put to death many things.
I spent several hours gazing up at my ceiling. Searching in the still of silence for some sort of understanding. I thought heavily about my relationships, the production of my actions and reactions, my goals, my ideas, my energy and how it was affected by the things and people around me.
I want change in this world. I want positivity. I want goodness, love, generosity, and celebration. Music, individuality, truth-earnest and heartfelt truth.
Many decisions were made. Many things were left behind that evening..people as well.
I looked quite earnestly at the year that had just ended. I had to be very real with myself about the things and/or people that were good for me, as well as bad. This reflection also included an honest look at myself and the things I was saying (or not) to myself and how they were affecting my capability to move in a positive direction.
I looked at actions I was both proud of and incredibly ashamed.
But we must not grow weary in moments of self reflection. We must look at these as opportunities to aquire understanding, growth, and seek a wiser way of interacting with others and reacting to the things that occur in our lives.
You must affirm daily your purpose, even if you're not sure what it is.
It is there.
You are an incredible individual, with a unique purpose just as beautiful and intriquite as your fingerprint. You have a beautiful mind that is eager for you to expand it. Capable of much innovation.
I decided to awake in a new likeness of what we are created from: Love.
I decided to recieve the thing which I was created of, unconditionally.
To feed it constantly to myself, and to those around me-always.
And when it becomes difficult, to pour it all the more on the things and people around me.
To understand that loving yourself is the most imperative action of health that you can make, and the means necissary for any growth or forward movement in your life.
More importantly, to release yourself from all energies, people, and things that are afflictions to your light, hinderence to your growth, draining of your love. You have to nourish yourself, unconditionally-then do the same to those around you. With strength, fortitude of spirit, trust, and a faith in yourself that the world around you might not always encourage.
I have experienced pain. Diverse, intense, confusing.
I believe most pain and fear to be a product of a lack of love (mostly lack of love of ourselves).
It's hard to love yourself..We live in a society that constantly suffocates the tender human heart with sudden distractions, glamorous improvements accosting our simple hearts-convincing us we're not good enough-"you need more"-they say..or "you can be better"-focusing entirely on the external and the temporal.
What about eternal faculties? Isnt that what moves the heart anyways?
Our lives, our art, our favorite music and most chilling visions of physical art, what are they?-Magnificent demonstrations of redemption, sadness, beauty, melancholy, forgiveness-a spectrum of human moments captured by the talent of man's incalcable ability to manifest beauty on many different levels.
There is a genius in each and every one of you. It is genius that constructed you, and genius that sits within you. Explore your genius. Celebrate it, liberate it, and radiate!
On the eve of my birthday I put to death the stammering voice of indifference.
I claimed and posessed the truth of my existence.
I take up my flag and declare myself. I no longer desire it, but command the nourishment of my soul. There is no more prevention in my spiritual extention.
Cheers!
It is a battle. (Not easily won)
You will spend your whole life trying to manifest that innate instinct inside of you-to love, to create, to be in a generous motion-flowing goodness..
But you will be in a world that will hurt you, break your heart, and disappoint your most sincere parts.
People, as much as they are capable of much love, they are also capable of much destruction.
It is heart wrenching.
How will you respond?
What will you choose?
How will you spend your days, and where will you build up the work of your life?
Will you spend the bulk of your days storing things that will be of no good to you when you die? Or will you live a life that exemplifies love, forgiveness, generosity, and actually LIVE. I see how much we are told that material matter will enable joy and peace in our lives..Riches and material possession will never afford you a stillness within your being, nor contentment in your soul.. I do not believe you will posess a simpler more calm and grateful heart by spending your life a slave to your posessions. This is just my belief. I believe it is earnest love, being in a rich environment of giving, loving, and honesty that will give you the peace and purpose that I believe we all search for. This is my belief...I believe a rich life is one rich with love. Where you travel, learn, engage others in conversation, expand your mind, and share your heart with others. I hate bills. I hate having to pay them. I work, I do what I have to. But I don't want the things I own to end up owning me. I want to be a vessel for change and positivity. I work and I do the things that I do because I dream some day to create beautiful things that make people feel good and urge them to love and make the world a more loving place. I know for my birthday for example, I would much rather have the company of someone I love dearly than some physical item that establishes some temporal joy for me. I encourage you all-BE ALIVE. Educate yourself about the world around you and interact for it as it is waiting for you.
There is so much beautiful abundance around us, everywhere-if we would but recognize it and take a moment to look at it!
Why do I feel moved to write this? Because I feel we are the verge of a revolution..
This is what my heart tells me.
I feel that there is so much motion going on in the world right now.
There are incredibly real things going on. There is incredible death, war, so much going on right now that we choose to sedate with self medication, distraction, and over-consumption.
I feel it is very important for us to connect with the metaphysical aspect of who we are right now, and dig deep to the seat of our souls and pull forth the warrior in all of us.
Change your life and manifest your dreams. Dont waste any time.
What you dream, is your destiny.
What you feel in your soul is meant for you, was intended for you.
Do not abuse yourself with the wreckless lies of a machine that is asking you to consume and destroy. Realize that you were created for love and giving. And be that! Radiate the goodness that is stored deep within you, forgive and release. Release negative energy and things, bad people and bad thoughts-and welcome into your life the abundance you were created to enjoy. Be creative, be loving, be confident.
And if something or someone does not want to recieve your forgiveness or your positivity with love, then release them. Do not harbor anything within you that is not founded on love.
Love every inch of your skin and your uniqueness.
Love every part of your brain and rather than getting upset with yourself for the things you believe you are not good at, celebrate the things you are wonderful at.
Be it little or large. Express gratitude daily, to others and to the universe that surrounds you. Demonstrate gratitude to yourself. For you are breathing, and alive.
Realize that you are capable of change-and be part of the revolution.
Be in a motion for change, be a new mind ready for action and tell others to join hands with you.
Declare your freedom and announce your positive motion.
Do not listen to bad thoughts, renounce negative images and poisonous ideas.
Love others around you, for isn't that what you would like as well?
Educate yourself.
Learn more about the world that you live in.
Be contious of the issues that are going on in the world around you, as it is a part of you. As those suffering are a part of you as well, extend your humanity to them, by educating yourself about their situation. If you belive in such things, pray for them-meditate on positive change for them, spend 2 minutes of your day sending them love and goodness-and THEY WILL FEEL IT!
Know and recognize you are beautiful.
Know that you are better than hate and better than fear, rise against it and choose to respond to the world with peace.
We live in a time of much war and destruction right now.
In a literal sense as well as in a metaphorical sense.
Choose the opposite. Choose peace and creation.
Create, anything and everything positive. And move-always, with peace in your heart.
Starting with yourself!
Make a peaceful motion today, to be at peace with yourself in a way that you never were before. Maybe it's a part of your body, or something you deem as a "mistake," you made.
Trust that where you are right now is exactly where you are meant to be, and BELIEVE in where it is your heart is telling you to go.
Please know that we are ALL capable of changing this world we live in.
The earth is truly suffering right now. Will we let it continue?
Little things like recycling and simply having a conversation about what is going on in such countries as Sudan (in the continent of Africa) and Tibet-is a way of stimulating change. Every little movement is part of a large wave. We are tiny little drops of beautiful sparkling water, that if we collect with confidence and stregth for positivity our wave can splash over wash away a multitude of destruction.
Lets start creating change! Lets start loving ourselves! Lets be part of changing the world we live in!
I urge you, dont consume what you're told will make you "cool."-Rather be creative.
Don't change yourself to conform as a way of acceptance. Rather, accept yourself and change the way you look at yourself. Love your skin, be grateful for your individuality, and wear your mind and your spirit with pride and joy. Nourish it. Love it. Feed it.
Be healthy to yourself, mentally and physically. Feed yourself healthy thoughts mentally and good foods.
May we all be contientious of others around us. May we educate ourselves on how to affect the world positivly. May we respect the earth that we live on and how incredibly generous it is-just with it's nature, its radiant sunlight, it's brilliant seasons. May we love others, everywhere, and not put the suffering of other people in the back of our minds. I know it makes many of us uncomfortable, but why should it when there is so much we can do to change it! (Please contact me personally for more information on this)
I believe we are all connected. Lets connect deeper, more honestly, more selflessly and dissolve into a warm and rich love-that flows and gives and is endless.
Part of me has alot of fear about the year that awaits us all. There is so much increasing violence in the world that we live in... I love art, I love music-but I often feel l am this tiny spark trying to burn down an indifference that is way too big for me. I have my own struggles with confidence and strength, that I often feel too small to carry. Especially when I've got a lot of negative things trying to quench my flame.. I hope that you will burn with me, and we can be torches together. Brilliant, beautiful, bright flames of light.
I am inspired by the people around me. I am inspired by you.
I must admit I am often conflicted. I see so much suffering I grow quite misanthropic and disconnected from society. I delve heavily into music and literature, and find myself idealizing with old poets and composers about a love that is insatiable and immutable. Yet I know deep within my heart that the things that break my heart are an exercise for stronger armor. To protect our hearts so that we can move forward and be prepared to face anything in front of us. I must first face myself in this new year of my life, and I hope that as I move past that and towards active motions of peace, creativity, positivity, and social conciousness that you will move right with me.
Thank you all for being an inspiration.
Now i urge you-get off your computer and go outside!
Read an incredible book, spend one hour just soaking up the sun, or go somewhere and absorb the beauiful earth that was created for your pleasure and joy.
My deepest love to all of you.
For more information on how you can be an active part of change please visit:
Invisible Children
Free Tibet
(in ourselves and in the world around us)
gratitude,
Star