So, Maria and Clay started DATING today...
I told Maria that I was upset with her...
And she broke up with him.
Now, let me say ONE thing before you go thinking I"m the worst person EVER.
I didn't MAKE HER.
She told me "You mean more to me than Clay does"
THERE YOU GO.
I didn't FORCE her to.
I just told her how I FELT, and she reacted.
And guess what, if Clay had asked ME to date HIM I wouldn't have...because I know Maria has/had a crush on him.
I would've reacted the same way because Maria means a lot to me.
I know it all sounds like a bunch of shit, but I'm a good person.
And anyone who's reading this knows that.

After I got home from practice I texted Clay...
And after a while [I'M NOT POSTING THE TEXT'S HERE ANYMORE] he got mad at me.
I think he got mad because Maria didn't tell him that I"M the one that hinted that I was NOT happy with them dating...
OR, it was because I said he wasn't mature enough to be dating someone.
And it's true.

I'm not going to ignore him, or the problem.
And I"m not going to pretend that it never happened.
And this also does not mean that I'm going to be mean to him.
I've been through all this 'manipulative' shit when I was a freshman...so I definetly know how he feels.
But what I learned from that situation REALLY changed my life...
And if he HONESTLY cares about Maria, it'll change his life, too.
And...in a good way.

I definetly like Kyle.
But I really fucked up with Clay...
So I'm not telling him a like him for a while.
But the FUNNIEST stuff happened today...
I was walking with him to band practice and he told me "You're really nice" AND "You have great hair"
HAHAHAHA. :D
It made me happy.
He's so funny.
And he actually CARES about how I feel. (:
It makes me feel really good.

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If you're reading this...I'd rather you NEVER repeat anything you read here....EVER.
If I find out someone said something...this bond you+I have is over, forever.
I'm dead serious.
If you're on my Preferred list, it means I trust you...A LOT.
Please keep it that way.
Thanks.