Hey guys and gals,

I just wanted to take some time out to send some shouts out to some people who I feel should be thanked at this point (in no particular order):

Derek Blanks: He did my first big photo shoot when he was working out of a small office space, and he has, since then, worked with Beyonce, Ciara, and has appeared all over TV and more! Derek, I want to thank you for an awesome shoot and just know you are motivational  and I know we will work together again soon!

My sister, Hawa: Thanks girl, for being my acting manager until I find management best for me. You do the best you can, and I really thank you for that. Wish you could be permanent, but that would tear you in three and you're short enough!

My father, Frank: My number one fan! You have held me down from the bottom to the top of this music thing and you havent lost hope yet! Thanks for not telling me to get a day job!

My mother, Rena: Bless your heart for offering to manage me, but I think you should stick to preaching, ma. Some of the things you will see and hear dealing with hip hop will make you SCREAM for Jesus!

Omega, Liz, and Kee: You bitches keep bopping your head to my music and pass my on to your friends and I'll make sure I keep the fire hot and get you new wardrobes and cars when the next label hollas dollas, aight?

Awol: Where you at, man? We got more work to do! I feel your drive!

Motherland Ent.: Thanks for trying to fuck me. If you never tried to, I wouldnt have gone through the music industry crash course I went through. Deep, you're a kickass producer, I hope we can work together again one day!

If you believe in me, your name here: You are the reason why I'm still fighting for a spot in the industry. Continue to hold me down and I will do the same!

To my baby: I'll give his thanks personally, yall!!

So, more probably will be added soon. I just wanted to get that off of my chest! Love you guys!!

Esselle Blaize

How glad am I that I didnt make it on that VH1 reality show for female rappers? I attended a casting for it and I wasnt cast for the reasoning, "You have REAL talent and personality." Got that right!! Not saying anything negative about any of the ladies on the show, but I would've stuck out like a sore thumb on that show! Straight up! People are coming up to me asking me if I watched it and want to know what my take on it is. Well, here it is:

First of all, thanks for all who support me and my struggle in this world of bullshitters and blackballers.

Okay, Khia doesnt need to be on that show because I feel that she should be somewhere shopping a new deal. She can definately get a "My neck, my back" again. The 16 she did at the end of the show was really whacked out, but she was probably feeling that she didnt NEED to go hard because of her status. Hopefully, during filming she got that being a contestant puts you on the same level as us no-names.

There were a couple of chicks that I thought were onto something, but verbage-wise, I would've been a Beyonce in a world of Cassies. I'm not a battle-cat, nor am I about all that sizing up. I would've walked off that show anyway, like, immediately.

Being cast would have definately nailed the casket of never getting a deal or being taken seriously in the industry. So, thank you to VH1 for sparing me A LOT of embarrassment and tax-laden prize money.

That's all I think about that. See, thought I was going to be talkin greasy, didnt ya?! I dont get down like that and if a broad wants to get her panties tied up over how I feel, she can see me on the Billboard, I dont waste tracks on battling broads.

Love you all!!

*Esselle Blaize*

Okay,

I'll be super quick because I just slammed my fingers in my truck today!! Ouch!!

Okay, I had to simmer down this blog entry because it seemed that I was offending some folks. Well, its like this, if you got offended by the fact that I said that a lot of the producers, musicians, etc. that I meet are bullshitters and we've met before, chances are, I'm talking about yo ass!! If I've never seen or heard of you before, dont take it personally. If you are about getting something done, shit, get at me!! I just cant wait to come across someone who shares my vision and is willing to work towards that and surpass that. I have YET to meet someone who does not have their head so far up their own asses that they are missing out on a true gateway. Its gravy, really!

Its all good, though. You guys keep your head up and catch your paper up to your chin, aight? Dont get caught up in this magical world these niggaz out here are living in! "HONEYPOTMUSIC" is going to blow the fuckin lid off of anything any broad is trying to do rap-wise and if you sleep on that fact, I'll let stats talk when its released and that's all I gotta say about that!!

I gots love for you all! Especially the ones that care enough to read this shit.

*Esselle Blaize*