As you've probably noticed, I am officially the worlds worst blogger. I've made countless promises to blog more frequently, and here I am again, writing a blog, more than 3 weeks after my last.. 'BOOOOO TO ME!'
I am sorry.. for the millionth time, but I wont make any excuses because lets face it, they're boring!
So this past month has been a toughy. Highs and lows. I've been feeling rather emotional lately and I reckon it's due to the making of the album. I'm a fairly positive person, and I try to stay optimistic most of the time. But sometimes, you just get to that point where you want to wallow in your own self pity. Don't get me wrong its not all doom and gloom. The album is slowly taking form, and it will be finished sooner or later. But its just the waiting I cant stand ARGHHHH! Its a testing time making an album. So many opinions, so many suggestions. Its great to take them in (not all!), but i recommend digesting them very very slowly. Otherwise you'll be overwhelmed and lose sight of what you set out to do in the first place. Some visions are harder to accomplish than others, this is something i have lately discovered...
I totally believe that the album will be amazing once its finished, and I'm just so lucky I have a label thats patient, and believe in working at something until it is truly ready.
Moving on, I had a gig at Hoxton Bar & Kitchen a couple weeks back. To be honest I wasn't sure I was going to be well enough to perform. On the day of the gig, I woke up feeling dreadful. Achy limbs, headache, and feeling drowsy as hell. Yes people I was thinking the same thing as what you all probably are now...SWINE FLU! But being the warrior I am, I dug deep and found some inner strength and told myself 'I was fine'. I fell asleep in the cab on the way to soundcheck, and when i woke up i felt like death but again I told myself 'I was fine'. Got to the sound check and my hands were shaking like someone who'd been smoking cigarettes hardcore for a thousand years. But I told myself 'I was fine'. Anyway you sort of get the point now. What Im basically trying to show here Isn't how i think I'm this indestructible force of nature but its to show the 'power of the mind'. I 100% believe that the mind has a large part to play in how we feel physically. But I didn't really appreciate it until that very day..
Anyway the gig went well, apart from the fact my mic wasn't actually on throughout the first song! The band and I danced and played/sung from the heart as we usually do and infected the audience along the way. It was lovely to see so many warm faces in the crowd, some i see all the time and others who I haven't seen since...I cant even think when, its been that long!
A couple days after the gig, I went to The Latitude Festival with my beloved for the weekend. We had a great time. Although I can tell you I AM NEVER CAMPING AGAIN! Its my second year of doing it, and as fun as it was, the novelty's sort of worn out now! ha.
Scott Matthews was amazing! His voice and songs are so inspiring.
Grace Jones is one scary sexy woman, damn! I don't mean she's scarily sexy. I literally mean she's scary! Trust me, I wouldn't want to meet her down a dark alley! But yet she oozes sex appeal? AMAZING! Also caught some poetry from an old friend
Jay Benard. People she is definitely one of the best young poets in the country, and she has dreadlocks, whats there not to like? Check her out on
http://www.tall-lighthouse.co.uk Another highlight was going into the theatre tent like at midnight watching this musical called 'Been so Long'. Its a production run by the Old Vic and it even has Omar in it, so naturally i had to stay an watch for the whole 2 hours ;-)
I got back on the sunday, then it was off to Paris the next day with my best friend for a few days. It was heaven... relaxing, great food, amazing wine, great people, couldn't of asked for more really.. thanks to my dear friend moony for letting us stay at her beautiful apartment too :-)
So Im back home now, felt a tad bit sicky the past few days. But I'm trying to inject the mind over matter philosophy into my everyday life from now on... let's see how i get on.
Much love
ROX
xxx