Thought I would repost this for you all, for those of you who have read it in the past, or who this is the first time reading it, I hope you enjoy. -- Genaro......... a.K.a (Niyorco)
Smoke has always calmed me, cigarette smoke. I don't know why but it does. Perhaps because of the after feeling it gives us with our worries. The worries that seem to escape with the smoke carrying the stress of the hurting soul with each exhale that is blown. A calm sensation, from a so called "cancer stick" and although a worry was on my mind that night as I sat there, observing, the evil I had created, the smoke that exhaled my lungs, made every moment feel better.
My train of thoughts were riding, fast at first but eventually slowed down as I sat in the room; leaning my chest on the wooden chairs back side as if I was a Detective about to interrogate a witness. I kept puffing, enjoying my cigarette, then soon relaxing as I began to hear her utter in tears across the dark cold room, she sat their, bound in a chair. With grey tape I used to force shut her beautiful filled lips. Finally, she had awoken from my drugs!
"Ahh, Linda, Linda, Linda. If you had never broken my heart in the past, then you and I would have been in what people call, "a happy couple". All I ever wanted was to be your better half. I would have cared for you like no other. I wouldn't treat you bad like that jerk you married who was never home and played no mind to you. I would have been a good husband!"
"What, you seem surprise? Don't be. For three years I have been watching you. Seeing every move you make as you left that little house to run your daily errands. Even saw you undress and climb into the warm shower. Oh, how I wish I could have been your bath robe at times."
She tried to move, desperately. I seemed to have startled her as she jerked back and forth in her chair, uttering moans for help through her bound lips and shedding tears, a look of hope was on me through her blood shot eyes. But the knots from my rope sustained her legs and arms into remaining almost frozen-like, unable to move. I lit another smoke, had too.
"Now, as I was saying Linda. Shhhh! Don't cry. For you will thank me, I promise you will. I have been watching you. Ever since high school when I asked you out for a friendly date. You replied "NO" quickly in front of others who laughed and mocked me for months. That reject was painful, so painful that I grew depressed, one that caused me to have evil thoughts of ending the pain but how? A single bullet through my thick skull seemed to be the answer at the time. Just end it all, let the pain leave my life forever as my brains scatter the wall, and paint it red with the spits of my dying blood. That seemed to be the answer at the time."
" Well, obviously I survived the suicide thoughts you gave me. Otherwise you wouldn't be bound tight in your chair right? Yes I did take your advice in the "Lets just be friends" saying the remaining of our school years, even up until now. But my love for you has never died. I still love you, I've always wanted you, and no other. But for some damn reason, I couldn't win your heart. I guess the hardest part for me was to accept the day you got married. The day my heart was torn."
"I went mad. Mad I tell you! Do you know how hard it is to accept the fact that your one and only true love has married some pretty boy, who will do nothing but mistreat her and not give her the happiness she deserves? No you don't! Stop nodding your head in agreement with me! It will not convince me to untie you!"
I jumped up. My chair fell and I kicked it across the room passing her head and smashing it against the wall. How dare she play with my emotions so that she could escape? Could you believe the nerve of this woman?
"Do you see what I have done for you? Do you see! I have proven my love. I have made the final step into convincing you, that you are my one true, and if you can't see it. Then I have once again failed and Linda, failure is not an option! Don't agree with me! I will not untie you! Stop nodding your head! I have not proven my love yet. Just listen! Shut up and listen!…………..I love you, please, please, just be quiet. Shhhh….."
"Now, as I was saying, I have been watching you and unfortunately, I have been watching that jerk you married also. I saw everything. I saw how he didn't treat you right, coming home to your hard cooked meal and being angry because you couldn't fit the salt content to his likings. What an asshole! Right?"
"I knew of the times that he went out on the weekends supposedly with his friends and yet, had you fooled while he spent time at a cheap motel with his lover. I saw everything. And on tonight, as I was planning an act, to run into you at the store on your next errand, so I could somehow give you a hint of his whore, I saw him slap you."
My teeth were grinding vigorously as I bit my smoke's filter during that moment. The replay of him slapping my dear Linda was flashing in my head like a flickering light bulb on its last juice. Linda paused.
" Oh your calm now. Now you want to listen. Well, I was watching. You had found the motel receipt in the coat pocket. Yes you were right of what you suspected. Only that you caught him by surprise and he felt so ashamed with your divorce threat, that he hit you with his coward hand! That's, when I lost it, no one slaps my girl. No one!"
"The last thing you saw, was him leave the house. But Linda, while you laid on the kitchen floor in heartbreak and tears, I laid in the back seat of his car in my "love justice" plot.
Now comes the good part!
"I apologize for capturing you in a kidnapping manner. I had too. I knew you would be asleep awaiting his arrival. I never wanted to scare you. But if I didn't inject you with my "deep sleep" drug, then you would have awakened while I was carrying your lovely body into the basement of your home."
"Well Linda, have no worries. Your problem is now solved, thanks to me! I killed that jerk you married. Sliced his throat at a red light and took the wheel of his car! You are far too special and don't deserve to be hit. I wanted to be the first to tell you, before the police find his chopped-chopped body. I left his bleeding body parts for them to find in a black thrash bag, and on the hood of a parked patrol car. Don't worry. The driver's license is there as well and soon, they should be here once his body is identified."
I walked towards her, slowly and carefully. Even though her eyes were still watery and red from emotions, they were very beautiful to me, very beautiful. Suddenly, a trickle crawled down her leg and into a warm puddle beneath her chair. I couldn't help but to react in laughter.
"Everything I've done for you and that's, the best bodily fluid you can give me! Oh well, I guess it's better then nothing, eh my love?"
I gazed deep into her eyes. My heart raced as I began to shake in twitching nerves. No cigarette could hide my feelings at that moment. No way! All I could do was put her at ease.
"I won't untie you, nor will I harm you. I love you too much to hurt you. The police will find you. I promise they will. I left them a note pinned to your front door. They'll know where you are. I love you Linda, I always have. Maybe now you realize it and if you do, well now it's too late for the both of us. I have no other choice but to say, goodbye. Thanks for being a part of my life. No matter how painful it was. I'm still happy that I had the chance to love you. Very happy!"
I kissed her on the forehead and walked out the back door. Sirens began to echo off the night, I could hear them come closer, but I made my way down the street, towards my new life, and away from Linda's. Finally, my feelings for her were starting to erase.
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—-The End--