Well its been two days since Stephy went back up tp missouri and honestly it sucks really bad cause i got so use to her being here with me and well having someone to talk to and hang out with and well  now yeah i got a girlfriend and she it a awsome person too but its  just not the same and well when i am with my girlfriend she helps me stay happy and not be so depressed  . but when she not its reallly suck . cause i am hardly ever home cause i try to stay busy and keep my mind from  think cause well if u really know me the u know that me thinking alot  is not good . but i am really glad that i didnt totally fuck things up for her and that she is happy agian even though it sucks for me  i am still glad she is happy and well i will still do anything in the world for her and i always will no matter what  but i will always remember the 6 months that she was down here in mississippi even though yeah i was in the wrong i dont regret it cause i have a very very good best friend that i would not of had if it didnt happen. and if ur reading this stephy always remember i am always here for you and will do whatever i can to help you.

Well it is 3:19 in the morning and i figure i would write down why i was up this late well here i go. i am thinking back on my past and all the stuff i have been through and i cant figure out how i made it to where i am now. what happened in my past that lead me to this. I can remeber thinking about how my life is going to be in the five years. and this was four years ago. and i thought that i would still be living out of my car and that i will always have a dead end job and that i was not even thinking that i would be collage course need the less even get in to a collage but i look at myself now and i am in the military take collage course at Troy University. and cant figure out how i made it this far. but some how i did and i guess i dont regret the past because if i did something different i would not be were i am today so theres my story and by now who ever is reading this is totaly bord or has stoped reading it. well i got to run i have TOC shift in a hour so ya have fun.bye

Well I got screwed yet again to day. Because I was being nice. Why do the nice Guys always get screwed.

 I have been trying to figure this out for the last 5 years but I can not figure it out. I thought women like the 

romantic but fun kind of guy But I guess I thought wrong and I thought if you were nice to people they would

 want to be your friend but in stead some how they wind up stabing you in the back. So if any of you know why

 this is please let me know.