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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 62
Sign: Sagittarius

City: SAN FRANCISCO
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 8/5/2006

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007 

Restless Nights, Crying Shame

Hits me like a brick
Full strength as Ever
I read about
Another wasted life
Other wounded soul
On DA Holice
Blazing trail...


"Abort Every Black Baby in US !"

I hug my son,
1 year old
White man in Blue
Gets off the bus,
White man in Blue
Blurts:
"Half Breed !...."


"Mama, are they gonna shoot me too?"

I see my son,
6 years old
BB gun shots
from a yellow car
3 white men
speed away
laughing
My son
on the ground,
bleeding
hole
on his back
"Ma,
what did
YOU do,
for them to do ME
like this??"

"NIGGA, GO BACK TO AFRICA !"

My son,
14 years old
"Pepper sprayed "
By skinheads
Paris
School trip

My son,
16 years old
With his HomZ
Jaru
Irish gang
Assassins
St Patrick's Day
stabbed Idriss
On the arm
In the chest
Jaru
unconscious
Hammer blow
At the base of his brain

My son,
17 years old
Holice Park Station
His vicious crime
San Francisco
Haight Street
...Shooting craps


"Sista, I don't wanna die !"

I hear my son,
23 years old
Good Bye
My Love
June 13
2001
11:09 P.M
Dat very morning
You said
"I feel
I'm
Gonna
die

Today"

11:09
P.M
I hear
DA Holice
48 bullets
through
His girl
Cell phone
bang
bangbangbangbangbang
bangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbangbang
bangbangbangbangbangbangbangvbangbangbangbangbang
bangbangbangbangbangbangb
angbangbangbangbang
bang

NIGGA U DEAD

"I don't say anything sometimes"

I hold
Vira's hand
Mother
of Gus Rugley
Abbyss
Of never ending
Grief


"Ma, don't cry... I'm fine !"
My Angel Idriss
Every night
At my side
I cuddle you
wake up
Hugging
Empty air


"it never stops"

Feel lucky
My son in peace
Soaring
Above the world
Watching my back
While
You
My Sista
You
My Brotha
Cry out
Agony
Your Loved one

On
Death Row

Your Loved one
On
Skidrow
Your Loved one
In the
claws
Of crack

Waiting
Fearing
Ailing
Will they
Taunt,
Rape,
Beat,
My Baby
Today,
Will they
Kill
My Baby
Tomorrow?

September 05, Robin's wedding

Crying shame
Gnawing guilt
...Should celebrate...
My son's buddy wedding !
Want
YOU, Idriss
To be married
Have your children
Gimme
my grandchildren
Gimme
...Your first dance

"OK for men to cry"

Corny Hall
Big Black Man
Bawling
Grieving
DA Holice
slaughter
Of
His
Only
Son


Please
~~~~Please~~~~
Make it stop

From New Orleans
To SF Bayview
To San Quentin
Killed
4 Being
Poor
Black
&Brown

La mesha
Idriss' Mom
Idriss Stelley Foundation

Sunday, May 20, 2007 
MAMA DONT CRY ~ ON MOTHER'S DAY

* TO ALL OUR BEAUTIFUL MOMS *

WHOSE CHILDREN WERE KILLED,
BY LAW ENFORCEMENT

@@@@@@@@@

MamaDontCry...

they won't know why
in spite of smiling
in spite of feasting
smelling the flowers
offered to you
reading the letters
of love for you...
your heart is achin'
amisdt the laughters
your soul is yearnin'
Day after day
~ Forever ~
...and Mother's day

MamaDontWeep...

they will forget
why you can't sleep
turn off the lights
real as it gets
on Mother's Night

MamaDontScream...

they need you NOW
fight for their Dream
time to allow
Healing
beyond grieving
Loving again
beyond the pain
on Mama's Beat
every night
every day
tomorrow...

~ Another day ~

* Happy Belated Mother's day, Mama ! *
Sunday, May 20, 2007 

"Beyond shock and horror,
through Boundless Love and
the Healing Power of Grief Work:"

(An exclusive interview with Madame Kadiatou Diallo, mother of Amadou), 5-12-07
By meshá Mongé-Irizarry, Idriss Stelley Foundation - iolmisha@cs.com
_____________________________________________________________________

In May 2003, during her tour of the Bay area, Madame Diallo and I met for the very first time at the "Green House " on 3rd St. in SF Bayview Hunters Point, for a scheduled interview, which ended in two hours of bonding and Sister Love, merging our common grief and struggle for Justice for our Young Black Sons, slaughtered by rogue police.

Escorted by Kelly Anderson (CO-producer of "Every Mother's Son",
www.andersongoldfilms.com)

(featuring Iris Baez, mother of Anthony Baez, Portorican,
Doris Buscky, mother of Gideon Busch, Hassidic Jew,
and Kadiatou Diallo, mother of Amadou Diallo, West African student from Guinea,
all brutally murdered by NYPD),
Kadiatou Diallo walked in, wearing traditional African clothing...and the air stood still... luminous, quiet strength and beauty instantly permeating through the room.

Beneath her melodious voice and velvety, beautiful soft brown skin, mild, distinguished manners, brightly shines the soul of a Fierce Warrior, who knows no tolerable boundaries, born to freedom in spite of her ancestral, traditional oppressive upbringing, challenging hierarchy and authority with loving, respectful but formidable strength since early childhood...and still......

Unabated by the horrible tragedy of Amadou's senseless NYPD murder in the Country of the Proud and the Free, where he met his tragic, untimely death in the middle of a quiet winter night, while simply getting his keys out of his pocket to enter his apartment, mistakingly  (sounds familiar?) "thought as a weapon" by his executionners...

We quickly resorted to speaking in French, the colonizers' language we share from our respective native countries, Guinea and Euskadi (
Basque Nation).


Daily endeavors, (both operating Foundations in our respective son's name), and the enormity of our respective task, gradually faded sustained contact;
but the habitual reading of her book "My Heart will Cross the Ocean" (my secret "Bible!"), meditating on our amazing encounter in times of doubt, suicidal depression and adversity, always remained my ultimate salvation during the darkest moments...


Upon launching EFAPO, Empowered Families Against Police Oppression website, WWW.groups.yahoo.com/group/EFAPO/
last week, I wondered:

"What would be Kadiatou's outlook and message to our community, amidst the exacerbation of racist police murders exploding all over the US, primarily in Poor Communities of Color communities?"

So I posted, with minimal hope,  a message on Amadou Diallo Foundation, INC. Website : "Lost contact with Madame Diallo, wish to interview", and promptly  received her e-mail accepting the offer.

"Madame Diallo, (...May I call you Kadiatou? In spite of  intense kinship, I always address this amazing lady with the proper traditional western AfriKan deference: "Madame"), What year was Amadou killed ?

On February 4, 1999... But it's like yesterday.
You would not believe the mail and cards sent to Amadou prior to his killing, like this girl who handed out a Valentine card to him "You always make me smile". My son was a wonderful man, well loved and respected by all whose lives he touched. Another woman who wrote "I came in, my child was crying, you held him and smiled, it changed my day!"
But all the officers who killed him were acquitted...

Kadiatou, every time Idriss Stelley Foundation  takes "Every Mothers' Son" on the road to churches , schools and community centers in the Bay Area, I promise myself not to lose composure... Until I see you, again on the screen, collapsing in front of Amadou's apartment building, crying out: "WHY????? WHY........" and I have to run out....


Yes, Why...How can you make sense of such injustice....As well described in my book, "My heart will Cross the Ocean", why the killing, why the twisted, truncated portrayal of my child through press coverage as the "Immigrant street vendor"? Not a word about him being a Student, an aspiring Businessman, a Son, a Brother...
I want to let your readers know about the  new documentary film that came out about my son, and an young European American from California, entitled
"death of two sons":
Jesse Thyne, a young white Peace Corps volunteer, friend of Amadou, went to Diountou, Amadou's native village in Guinea, at which time Amadou was still alive. Jessie died tragically in a road accident, and the taxi driver was condemned. Such different treatment of their respective cases....Amadou died first and Jesse attended his funeral. Should it matter if the victim is Black or White? Amadou was 21 when he came to the US. Where is Justice, where is Tolerance, beyond racial lines... Martin Luther King once said: "Injustice Anywhere is Injustice Everywhere". I had speak out to give back his dignity to my son
.... When Amadou died, I knew my life would never be the same, I felt like life as I knew it ended. So I dedicated the rest of my existence to Amadou's legacy.

Wow...You grew up in a traditional society, forced into an arranged marriage  as a very young girl... What happened to this little girl now?


I am educated, and emancipated. I will not tolerate oppression. I eventually left my husband and moved to Asia with my children, started a business venture in exotic import-export, gems stones and a clothing line in Bankok, Thailand. Amadou was part of this venture. His goal was to work hard, save for college, get his degree, open his own business, and follow our African tradition, as the oldest child, to help his mother and sisters. When I spoke to him for the last time on the phone he said to me "Mom, I am so lucky now with what life has in store for me !..."  When I saw his humble apartment that he was sharing with other African student-friends, I could not believe how hard he was trying... (repressing tears)... He is in a better place now.

Kadiatou, what is your Faith?


I am Muslim

What is the mission of your Foundation?


The Amadou Scholarship Fund helps young Africans enroll in college. Currently, we sponsor 22 students. We do speaking engagements, and use funds to promote Racial Healing. We recently started a computer center in Labe, Guinea, the Amadou Foundation Education Center, to bridge the gap between the Bronx Community College and young Africans, help them with basic English skills and acquiring their GED, towards their transfer to Bronx Community College, and we sponsorize trips to Guinea.

What are your Foundation's funding sources?


The settlement of Amadou's case. I started the Foundation with my own money..
We have secured tax exempt "501-c3" nonprofit status, the Amadou Diallo Foundation Inc can now apply for grants and receive donations. People who wish to help contribute to our School Project in Guinea, please let us know!

What is your outlook on the current Struggle to fight police brutality?


It is a long road to travel.. It is very hard to get convictions. The FBI has considerably decreased their investigation of wrongful death cases since Amadou's case, then even more after 9/11/2001. Kathryn Johnston...And  Sean Bell !!... I had to go to the initial Justice4Sean protest and spoke.... UNBELIEVABLE! What is going on??...I sat in the church after the funeral and wept ... Then went to visit the young men who survived the police assault in the hospital, dropped and wept again.... A VERY painful moment. If Amadou's case had been handled properly, this would have never  happened. Amadou was unarmed, why not approach him, question him? The message is that the system invariably lets guilty cops  go.
A few years ago, Alberta Spruil, over 50 yr., a Sister, Black... The police broke into her home looking for drugs. Half an hour later, she died of a heart attack ....There is a RIGHT way to do things... The police has a difficult, good job to carry out. Those who kill, brutalize innocent people have to be held accountable. Look, I called 911 two months ago when someone broke into my house and I was happy they came.
Juanita Young...is a New York activist, volunteer with October 22 against police Brutality. The police killed her child, Malcom Ferguson, also an activist, who marched and spoke at Justice4Amadou protests. I visited Juanita at her home when Malcom was killed... Last year tthe police came into her house, brutalized her and booked her, she remained in the hospital for a week handcuffed to her bed... Juanita is legally blind. A beautiful woman inside, very brave. I gave her a bouquet of flowers, she could not see the colors, but smiled, smelling them...Yes, true Beauty from Within.

Kadiatou, do you still live back east ?


I now live in Maryland with my children ... God has blessed us! My daughter Laura, 27 yr. is married to someone she met here in the US, and they are they are the proud parents of 2 yr. triplets sons! Perhaps the greatest joy I ever felt was when my grandsons where born.  My daughter informed me that she and her husband are naming one of the boys Amadou Diallo; I live with my two sons Abrahim, 24, and Abdoul. 23, they are pursuing their college education...Their Brother Amadou's dream,  that he never lived to fulfill...


What is your message to other Families who suffered your  terrible fate, and whose Loved Ones' lives were stolen by racist police violence?

Well...Although you might feel down, lost, and grieve, try not to get bitter, try to move forward, for the victims, for your Loved Ones, even when you don't feel like getting out of bed... Bitterness is destruction! But Solidarity moves us forward. Slavery is only GRADUALLY over...Let's strive for a better future, and always be thankful. Do the very best you can, even if you are not perfect, push ahead!
Let Amadou's life and legacy make racial profiling and police brutality History! We believe that all corruption will be wiped out: spread the Positive Message!
Imus: We don't play!
And is all that Hip Hop cool? Shouldn't all parents be concerned about the degradation of women, of our Girls? Our Youth needs to be educated to respect Humanity and Dignity!
That IS the message!
Hmmmmmm, I'm glad it's out."

Madame Diallo is still waiting to be granted permanent residency with her surviving children , so that she can continue to expand  the Amadou Diallo Foundation Inc. , across the US and Africa.

For more info on Bill #739, For the relief of Kadiatou Diallo, Laouratou Diallo, Ibrahima Diallo, Abdoul Diallo, Mamadou Bobo Diallo, Mamadou Pathe Diallo, Fatoumata Traore Diallo, Sankarela Diallo, and Marliatou Bah,
 
sponsored by Congressman Charles Rangel , Feb 26, 2007: Referred to the Subcommittee on Immigration, Citizenship, Refugees, Border Security, and International Law.
please log onto the Congress/  Bill #739.  website
www.govtrack.us/congress/bill.xpd?bill=h110-739

Madame Diallo will soon travel to her native Guinea.


When she returns, sometimes in the midsummer, the Idriss Stelley Foundation, in collaboration with Dawn Edwards ,  Director of Bay Area Police Watch (Ella Baker Center for Human Rights) will organize her book signing tour in... San Francisco!

Javier Reyes, Director of Colored Ink, has generously offered to host it at his dynamic SF Mission District  Brava Theater, on 24th Street, along with a special 30-minute performance by his troupe, Colored Ink, in honor of International icon of love and healing power, Madame Kadiatou Diallo.

"My heart will Cross the Ocean" can be purchased at
Amazon.com.

As a token of our admiration and to thank her for her long-standing, amazing contribution to healing the World, Beyond shock and horror, through Boundless Love and the Healing Power of Grief Work,
Idriss Stelley Foundation is currently working of the French version of her book, as well as talking books for our sight impaired Brothers and Sisters.
The Book is currently available in English, Spanish and German, and sorely needs to be translated  for the viewing pleasure of the People of Color Francophone Community in Afrika, the Caribbean and Europe, and the French community at large.

Madame Kadiatou Diallo is also a recent recipient of the

We_Are_The_Ones_We_Have_Been_Waiting_For_
International Award,

spearheaded by Latino Activist Dorinda Moreno, Mother of the Xicano Moratorium, honoring a thousand Women globally , who have changed our world for the better.

From your fervent admirer meshá, a humble recipient of the Award : Welcome to our planetary Women Warriors Family, Sister Kadiatou !


(Have our Beloved Sons,  Amadou and Idriss , who left our world respectively at 21 and 23 yr., both devote Muslims, and Honor Students, bonded by now on the "other side"?
On Mother's Day, were they smiling at us from above, stretching their huge wings around our Valley of Shadows, proud of us, watching our backs,
while exchanging gentle jokes in English and French? )..
.

Amadou Diallo, Idriss Stelley, Malcom Ferguson, Cammerin Boyd, Gus Rugley, Sheila Amaya, Cau Tran , Mark Garcia, Sean Bell, Kathryn Johnston,  and  the myriads of Stolen Angels brutally slaughtered at the hands of racist police, (how could we list them all...) LIVE ON ! .."''"-->

AMADOU DIALLO FOUNDATION INC.

Sunday, April 01, 2007 

They told me so
(by mesha)

________________________________

GranMa why ?
GranPa cuss at you
order you around
why you never tell him
you tired?
Why grandma why?
Dats our way Jazzy. You dont hear me complain. Now go watch TV~~~

Mama why ?
Daddee hitting on you
Always cheating on you
Why he never home?
Why mama why ?

Just his way Jasmin. He feeds your mouth, don't he? Now go out and play~~~~~

Brother why ?
You hating on me
Pulling my hair,
Hurting me
Why u tell me ugly?

Why Brotha why ?

My way to keep you straight, OOgly. Now
get out of my way~~~~~


Sista Why ?
Why we never play no mo'
Never look in my eyes no mo'
Keep pickin' at da ground
Why they call U a hoe
why you so skinny
Why sista why ?

Anyway. Too sick to talk right now, and dont You see I'm busy?~~~~~

Teacher why ?
why you never call on me
explain nothing to me
Why Teacher why ?

No way, won't waste my time on you Parker. Now go back to your seat~~~

Preacher why ?
Why call me arrogant
ign'ant,
why not believe in me
Why Preacher why ?

You rotten child and your SINNING family ways... now go home and pray~~~~~

Dokta why ?
always giving me
Dat pill that make me sleepy
Dat spray that make me shaky
Why Dokta why ?

Can't have it both way Missy, in the Ghetto and breathe free, now open wide~~~~~

Mista why ?
Why you look at me funny
always rub on me,
make me shamed and angry
Why Mista why ?

You know YOU love it anyway, you make me. Now keep our secret, or I'll tell your mammy~~~~~

They told me so.

U Watch.

gonna take GranMa to the beach
in a big ol' white limo
gonna have a big ol' time
bring Daddee home on Sunday
my best double deutch for you Brotha,
gumbo for Skinny Sistah's soul,
win the spelling bee,
pray God  heal my family,
breathe under the eucaplyptus tree
and tell Mama 'bout Mista fo' shor'


4 REAL U watch.

I be
President of the Earth
The
dopest Diva

Marry my
afriKan King
and be
Hella of a mother.

When you, Daughter cry:

"The Devil is in me Mama, they told me so! I'm dumb, ugly, I won't survive, Mista did it to me, here goes the police, are they coming for me? Why I bad to the bone Why Mama, why
?"

I will craddle you tight and sing:

My world, NO MO' WHY's
My rough Diamond
Black as Velvet Night
Forget the ugly words
U beautiful, U bright
They ain't never come for you!
I'll nail the door
hide you
under the floor
Deep in my soul
All you heard before
ain't nothing no mo'
I'll keep you safe, now go!
Live your dream
It's
real

I tell you so.

Thursday, November 09, 2006 

Current mood:  discontent
Category: News and Politics
Please Join, and Forward Far & Wide ! Welcome to NO2_GANG_INJUNCTIONS / DEFEAT THE HYPE LAUNCHING OF NATIONAL MEGA ANTI GANG INJUNCTIONS COALITION (MAGIC) This site is a communication forum between concerned citizens and community based organizations, strategizing to defeat the hype around Youth gangs that is sweeping the Nation, particularly in cosmetically appealing " blighted " areas targeted for gentifrication, and currently the heavily criminalized neighborhoods of Poor People of Color. hype about gangs is making. more citizens fearful of minority youth, and dangerously increasing potential for racially motivated incidents. Although we recognize the existence of Gangs as partially at the root of the demise of our poor communities of Color, the hype about Gangs injunctions provide police less with a tool to confront gangs than with license to take action against anyone in the area who happens to look like. "a gang member", a kid with dreadlocks, a white T-shirt, a pre-teen or teenager hanging out after school at the street corner by his parents' home. In San Francisco, SFPD beat up 4 teenagers on MLK day in 2002, wrongly assumed to be "gang members", and brutalized Marcus Law, then 14, on the same presumption 3 years ago, both incidents in Bayview Hunters point, the poorest and most criminalized area of the city. SF Community is raising against the hype, and "Managed Mayhem" carefully crafted to proceed to "Ethnic Cleansing", and "sanitize" SF Bayview, (bid for the Olympic games and targeted area for the Olympic Village), in imminent process of land grab by the developers. We want to gather similar experiences and actions across the US, grow our strength, within the framework of authentic Community Policing, and regain our Power over the deadly collaboration between landgrab and criminalization perpetrators. Send us your stories and articles ! In Struggle &Solidarity, Peace in DA Hood &Beyond meshá Mongé-Irizarry Idriss Stelley Foundation
Saturday, August 05, 2006 

Current mood:  chipper
Category: MySpace
Hey Orlando, A Million Thanks for setting this up !