Just so all of you know, my internet access has been a wee bit on the limited side. After cancelling our internet/cable, its been hard to get to a computer to dink around on the good ol' myspace and facebook. oI think its been either 2 or 3 weeks so far of limited/no internet or tv.  If any of you kids need to get in contact with me, either shoot me off an email jason.kerr@mnsu.edu or call me at 507-213-6627.

~Wurd

I'M GOING TO CALI!!!!!!

1 day away.....

~Wurd

Its official. Jason has become piano proficient. Yeah. For those that have no idea what the heck i'm talking about, piano proficiency is an exam that tests you're ability to play piano, read sheet music awesome'ly, and even scientifically come up with harmonizing chords. I've seen many fall to this exam- I've seen kids quit school or switch majors because they cannot do this. But I have officially passed. In a total of 1.5 hours, I completed the journey to awesomeness of piano. Its all over. Apparently this makes me a good piano player. Next, its time to become professional. More to come, more to listen this summer....

PS- I wish I was listening to Styx right now. Just so you know.

the sun and moon bow to him, as he sees another day....

Thats right, The GURU is back! not just back, but Better Than EVER! We are currently in the process of working out deals regarding recording, but we will be hitting the scene/road soon. Like the handlebars in the picture, we mean business!!!

So, I just wanted everyone to know that today I had an experience regarding pop corn. I came home from school and had a really good idea. I was to then somehow make my very own recipe for sweet popcorn. Thus kettle corn.

So, I heated up some brown sugar and butter in a coffee cut, put the corn and oil in a pan, then combined the sugar/butter with the corn/pan. I covered and heated.

About 5 minutes later, I had kettle corn. Though blackening the bottom of the pan and having the bottom part of the popcorn burned, It twas of the best kettle corn ever. Represent.

By the way, its really cold outside. With that in mind, Jacob and I are hosting a party on Valentines day at the shire. We're purchasing these amazing pizzas in shaped of hearts. BYOB. Lets make this a night to remember... or not..

Get it? That was the joke? No. Well, whatever

Well, perhaps, but I have to go right now. All I know is that though classes may not be as fun as we would like them to be, Taco Bell is still amazing- though it makes me feel not-so-good.

Oh, and on a good note, Happy Feet was one of the best films I have ever encountered.

Its definitely been a while since i've last written anything in this blog. Its about 2 am starting this, and I've been awaken by thoughts, ponders, and life.

I have been kind of watching my life lately. My reactions, others reactions, and actions/motives. Have you ever entered a room, and totally felt like a ghost? Like people dont see you, they dont talk to you, they dont make eye contact with you, not even make any kind of hint that you even exist? It seems as if it were just yesterday, that you laugh, you cry, you live, you die with these people. The next moment however, you dont exist? For the longest time, i've been ignoring this, and just letting it pass. I seriously can't stand that. My reaction to this has been going way out of my way to get in contact/any sort of contact to these people. Now i'm not saying that i'm the best person in the world getting in contact with people. Especially telephone calls- Sometimes it almost feels like i've been failing, not just as a friend to these people, but as a human being- to jeff, emily, nikki, nikki A, cody, and calvin= all huge parts of my life and who I am. Tonight, I'm not talking about telephone calls, but real conversations. Like one on one contact. Its kinda like seeing someone you know walk right by you, without even glancing at them/even talking with them. I've asked some friends of mine "why do people do this? Am I the problem?" They have responded with "Maybe they had a hard day, or maybe they are sick or feeling tired". I dont think that should constitute that kind of behavior. If someone has a hard day, why the heck can't they say that? or even say something like, I'm tired or even feeling sick. Too many times i've had times when i'll get friends of mine either totally ignoring me/ ignoring their other friends or just respond with a nasty look or a head shake. So the next thing I wanted to know, is it them, or is it me? Or do people just suck as a whole? I think it would definitely make a whole lot more sense to me, if the problem totally was me. Maybe I'm an incredibly offensive person. Maybe I am conseded, or prideful, or maybe a complete jerk. I dunno. I definitely dont try to come off as any of those, and hope people dont get that impression of me or anyone I know. Maybe the issue is them- maybe sometimes, we - as in people- have terrible social skills. As a whole, I sometimes find it hard to believe this. I really dont think that could be the case- What it comes down to, is that sometimes, I seriously do not understand some people. Even some of my friends- I dont understand why they do the things they do, and who they are.

Another thing that has been on my mind has been - is it possible to spend too much time with one person? What are the effects of this? Socially that is. I have a very good friend that I spend as much time as I possibly can with. I love it. This friend is my favorite person in the entire world, and I love spending time with them. I was confronted with the idea tonight that the fact that I have been spending time with this person, has started to upset others. This has caused some people to react in a negative manner towards me, or my friend. What is this really accomplishing? I really dont know what to do about this. My parents have always told me to solve issues, to not just ignore the world and its problems. They have taught me to try to make a difference. And to be honest, one of my life goals is to influence someone- anyone, and their life. This just makes me sick. I dunno if I should continue to be with my friend as much as we do, or seperate us more to please others.   I'm finding life is made up of many opportunities/experiences. These experiences are to be treasured- even more so than any kind of physical object. I absolutely treasure my memories/experiences with my friend.  I treasure the times, the memories i've had in my life- the good, the bad, with friends, with strangers- I guess... Life is short, there is no reason to be upset/hold grudges, or whatever the heck people do.

Another day, another way, I've shown my imperfections. Its crazy how, we can have the best day ever, to one of the crappiest. This, I blame straight to me. I've been thinking a lot lately, and I've come to some conclusions. By the way, this is a rant involving religion- so if you dont want to hear it, then stop reading here. Well, the thing I realized was that I might worry too much. At times, I even think that I might be too hard on myself in certain aspects. In the Christian faith, I do believe that we have to set our standards and expectations very high. This of course keeps us in line and helps us daily to live according to the word.But how much is too much? Where is the line here? Well, I think its hard to pin piont a certain place, but I think that its when you start making yourself miserable. When you get to the point of physical and mental exhaustion. I'm definitely there right now. This morning, I woke up and realized this. Its definitely a trap that we fall into sometimes. Though we have committed sin, remember, for there is also grace. A friend of mine told me about (in short version) a guy that went to his church. he basically told a youth group some things . After speaking at the gathering, he had a change of heart and apparently was very convicted about what he told the kids was false. He didnt want to be a false teacher, no one does. Its not looked upon very good in the bible-- 2 Peter 2:1
[ False Teachers and Their Destruction ] But there were also false prophets among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you. They will secretly introduce destructive heresies, even denying the sovereign Lord who bought thembringing swift destruction on themselves.

So, he felt convicted, and cut out his tongue. literally, cut out his tongue entirely from his mouth, so that he wouldnt say any more false things.  

Mark 9:43
If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life maimed than with two hands to go into hell, where the fire never goes out.

What he didnt realize, that with sin, we have the opportunity to be forgiven. Just by asking forgiveness, we can be as white as snow- through the grace of God and Jesus Christ. I told you this story, to  show you the importance of grace. if this guy would have asked for forgiveness, he would still have a tounge. Apparently, I was told that he can make out a few words at a time, but he cant talk for the most part. Craziness. So yeah, back to the topic at hand. Beating oneself down struggling with sin can cause bad things. I guess that I learned this lesson today. It took me not talking with a friend, being a jerk, pushing him/her away, finally letting go and get coffee to talk things through- all of that to realize... GRACE. Why didnt I realize that sooner? Its what amazes me the most about christianity. We ask for forgiveness, and we shall recieve. Sruggling with sin, is a daily struggle, but, through grace, we dont have anything to worry about. So I guess, my words of advice would be this....

Be mindful, keep on your toes, sin is everywhere-first, realize the sin(s), ask for forgiveness, then realize that you have been wiped clean by the blood of the savior, Jesus Christ. Dont beat yourself up with living up to the expectations of not sinning- Jesus, was the one and only, PURE human being- which is why he was the perfect sacrifice when he died on the cross. This guy, NEVER sinned once. Personally,  I dont think I can go through 5 minutes without sinning at least once. That is amazing... yeah... SO , I guess that really ends my so called rant for now- I suppose I need to get back to playing some guitar.

So I have heard many people complain about headaches.... I'm on the same page