Betrayal or trust...
Never knowing

Until its over

Thinking I knew the person
Blind to truth

Suddenly
Something went horribly wrong

Confidence destroyed
Wounded, Broken, Depressed

Damaged youth

"Why did you do it?"
Wanting to understand, needing to kno why

You just laughed, told your lies

I exposed you..
Punishment, revenge

Makes no difference now

Every childhood dream died
On that life changing day

innocence, hope, trust... forever gone

Betrayal

I sit with a mask of make believe
smiles upon my face to hide the pain
that fills my heart
How can she be so mean
to someone she gave birth to?
Why have a child to hurt
and abuse rather than love and care for?
How can she be so heartless
and cold to a child that is under spoken.
I keep my thoughts and
feelings inside to make it seem
like I'm full of life only to regret
so much that I have denied.
She sacrificed for years
she says, but to her,
sacrifice means giving up
booze that eases her temper,
to keep from bashing me with
the hatred she really feels
The mask I will release,
and the joy to my life will soon be,
so to that I say to the mother I do hate,
I am beautiful,
strong, smart, and gifted.
You can not take away the pain from you
and release it to me.
This under spoken child has learned
to change the bad
from you and speak the good in me.

When tomorrow starts without me,
And Im not there to see,
If the sun should rise to find your eyes
All filled with tears for me
I wish so much you wouldnt cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things,
We didnt get to say

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you miss me to;
But tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand

And said my place was ready
In heaven far above
And that i have to leave behind
All those i dearly love,
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, Id always thought,
I didnt want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you,
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had. 

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
Id say good-bye and kiss you,
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me

And when I thought of worldlly things,
I might miss come tomorrow
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filles with sorrow,
But when I walked through heavens gates,
I felt so much at home.
When god looked down and smiled at me,
From his great golden throne.

He said," this is eternity"
And all Ive promised you,
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew,
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
Theres no longing of the past.

You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times,
You did some things
You knew you shouldnt do.
But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So wont you come and take my hand,
And share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Dont think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
Im right here, in your heart.