A lot has happened since my last blog, which was before last November.  November started with a bang, I got to go to Youmacon.  For those that don't know, Youmacon is an anime geeks orgasm on steroids, so much is packed into that one weekend it's smextastic.  Of all the many many things that happened upon that weekend, by far the best one was me meeting my girlfriend.

Nikki is probably one of the best things to happen to me, for those that don't know she and I have been now going out for more than 6 months now and we're going just as strong as ever.

In January I started working at Burger King and that has been a trip and a half.  t I think is a proven fact that my sanity lays in shards across the floor of the BK Lounge.  That aside though I work with some really cool people who are the shit to work with.

For the last month I've been living on my ownish and I've been busy as hell trying to keep up with everything around me, I'm hoping things will get settled again once about mid-June hits.

As for the last bit, in August I will be moving out of state with my wonderful girlfriend to Findlay Ohio. 

Till my next blog,

Akito

today has been awesome,  I redid my page as if it isn't completely noticible, I got a scetch pad and I've been taking it slow and working the rust out of the gears to get into drawing again.  I got a notebook as well and started to write the story that's been going through my head.  I start work on Nov 15th and hopefully that'll allow me my own appartment with a few good friends.

Tonight I get to see Saw 4 and I can't wait, it will be so orgasmic. *drools*

The only down side I think today will have already happened as I didn't get to do the sparring thing down at the tridge, no one was there, but oh well.

after the movie I make my way to the mall to hang out with a couple friends and such from 8-midnight and possibly get in on the Gutar Hero 3 tourny, I can't wait to see that sexyness....

Anyway till later all, see ya all on the flip side :-P 

A young man sits, bound to the ground by chains, one day after many years the man realizes that the chains have rusted and corroded.  They are broken in many spots but due to his length of being bound he never once realized his freedom.  He tries a few times before he is finally able to stand and eventually gets his legs undernieth himself. He goes to take a step forward and a toxic vien from behind grabs at his ankle.

The man pulls at his leg, he can see for what he longs in the distance in front of him, but the vine does everything in its power to continue to trip him.  Finally the man decides that in order to escape the vine he can not just pull away, he must cut himself from it.

He digs at the vine with his teeth and nails, not realizing he is only letting the poison spread to him.  He breaks the vines grip and turns to walk forward once more.  Within a few steps he falls as the venom corrods him.  He reaches out, not wanting it to end, not wanting the vine, the toxin, to have its way.

Everything around him starts to fade, that happiness turning dark.  At the last second a warm hand careses his own and others soon join it. The poison starts to receed and he can see once more. 

He looks to see what could have saved him and sees all those that share a bond with his heart, those that even though weren't always at his side physically, always resided with him spiritually.  A smile comes to the mans face as he realizes that it was not the chains that had bound him for so long it was himself, and it was his own self doubt that let the poison harm him.

Once again the man stands and faces forward, never looking back, but kep his past close in mind, for what has happened has happened, but to forget it is to relive it.  Now no longer is he ever by himself, rotting in chains, but instead a man who faces anything that comes at him, standing tall, knowing as long as those bonds exists, even should he trip and fall, his friends, his family, his loves, would be there to help him back up.

Why is it that we fall? Simple.  So we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Some got on to my page and messed with things.  I am going through precautions to keeping it from happening again, but sorry if anything happened.

Akito

It's been awhile since I llast posted a blog, I try to weekly but to no avail I seem to fail miserably, but the last couple days have been enough to tear me mental llimb from limb.


May 24th was a very painful day from the start, it was what should have been Rose's birthday. For those that don't know this girl, she is one that I considered as a mother who died 6 years ago on her way to see me which was just the begining of a landslide of things. But when it comes to her birthday it hurts. Memories of the past come to haunt me and nightmares catch me in my sleep. No matter how much I keep telling myself that it isn't my fault what happened and no matter how much I believe I've gotten over blaming myself, there are the days I just break down. Though luckly in my time time self wollowing I decided I needed to get out of the house and I went to Barnes and Noble.


While sitting and reading FMA, one of the few people who could have shown up to help me out of my rut did. Nathenial peered his head over the chair and surprised me, which is something in off it's self (I blame being out of my normal mind set that he was able to surprise a ninja...) Just him being around helped me emensly. Him, Lauren and Justin were on there way to see the new Pirates movie and I ended up folowing. The movie was wonderful, I was with friends, I got to see the movie at it's very first showing and though all my worry and self pity was still there, I had been able to get it under control and put it away for the most part and enjoy the remainder of the night.


Then comes May 25th, the second I woke up I knew there was going to be somethiing interesting about the day. I didn't wake up till 11ish when Shane showed up. At that point we hung out, went online and watched Breakfest Club. It was at that point that we went to Bullock Creeks graduation. It didn't hit me that there may be people there who it would be best to avoid until I got there. Luckly that fear didn't come to surface, I stood next to Serge's parnets and his girlfriend, Serge wavedwhen he saw us and I stayed nicely hidden in the back.


It wasn't until after when Serge came up to me and told me the Jess knew that I was there and she wanted to talk to me. You know that feeling when old scars you thought were all but gone tear open? Yeah, that about sums up what I felt then. Serge gave me his phone and I called and left her a message cell. Call me a geek but I then went to see Pirates again with a few more friends and while stading in line to get into the theater, Serge's phone rang. He looked at it handed it to me and said it was for me. Jess was calling back. I went outside and talked to her for about 15 minutes before she said for me to call her back at 4 am, I agreed and went into the movie.


At around 3:30 Serge's phone rang again. I was already holding onto it and Jess called asking me to meet her at the Tridge (For those not in Midland, it's a 3 way bridge that is kind of is a main hang out, though it was dead at 4 am.) We sat and spoke for about an hour before she had to head home, plus with her lack of sleep she needed to get to bed. She can scowl at me as much as she wants for this, but even though we were tired as hell, instead of sleep coffee and sugar was the replacement as Serge, Nathenial and I went to Lil' Chef.


Where will thiings go from here? I don't know


Will we be able to rebuild the lost friendship that she and I had? I really hope so.


Can scars heal? Maybe, but scars are scars, but I'm more than happy to try if she is.


What lies ahead? No one truely knows.


All that I do know is that I don't want to cause any more pain, and now the one friend that I always thought would be there is back, hopefully nothing will happen to try and destroy that again. I never once didn't think of her as a friend, I never stopped caring for her and I never will. As long as she'll have me I'll be there and even if she pushes me away I'll still only be but a words length away from being there to help if called upon.


Till later.




Quote- *After an entrophy curse gets redirected by Harry to a Black court vampire and a 20 pound frozen turky falls from an airplane, directed by the curse, and kills the vamp* Harry- "For my next trick, anvils!"

Well it's official, I'm homeless for now and it kinda sucks, exspecially since I'm trying my best to keep it from a lot of people I know in person.  I have only slept in my car once so far all the rest of the nights I have had shelter offered to me.  Though I think tonight will be another car night.

The hunt for a more stable job is still in progress and if I didn't only have 10 minutes left on the library computers I would be filling out another application, though it also means I have to move fast on this.

I also got to take care of a couple of my firends last night who got drunk, I barely got any sleep, but at least I was someplace warm and I kept them from doing something stupid and kept them alive.

For all of my on-line friends, I miss you all and I will find a way onto IM soon enough, I just don't see it in the next couple days.

For all of my non-on-line friends you all take care and call me if you need anything.

For all those that I wish were still my friends, if they read this, I do beg for you to hear the whole story of what happened before you make any judgements.

I have couple things to do so I'll be sure to blog again soon.

Akito