God throws you lemons, you get a new god. lol
or make lemonade, if you're feeling creative
What if life throws you onions?
Layers upon layers of problems?
and even if you bead them and fry them,
the problems remain underneath,
tasty and warm, but ever present...
sometimes, things are just beyond me.
           What is Love?
     Does God exist?
             Why am I here?
But sometimes, things are just within my grasp,
yet inconceivable.
                 I Love You
     Its Over
          Never Again...
Things can never be Black and White
Every things is an ever dimming shade of grey.
And my usual escape,
     just taking a break from it all
Backfires.
Sending me further into this stupid Pre-teen hell of drama.
Sometimes you spend so long analyzing every single little detail of life,
Then you realize you've missed the big picture.
Have fun,
Fuck it.
Life is too short to spend it all upset of stupid bitches.
Hold a grudge,
Fall in Love
Do all the things they say you shouldn't do.
ski off a church roof,
Crawl in the sewers
Propose to a girl you barely know
Live Laugh and Learn,
But never let anyone tell you life has a purpose that doesn't involve you moving forward in your life.
listen to authority when appropriate
keep your god damn legs straight in attention position,
but get past minor speed bumps so you can get over the real hills.
Peace and love you motherfuckers

hmmm, how was my day?

i pour my FUCKING heart out to this FUCKING girl who i'm too scared to FUCKING ask to dance because i'm FUCKING scared of rejection and she FUCKING decides it'd be FUCKING okay to inform me FUCKING NOW that she has no FUCKING interest in me and to FUCKING top it all FUCKING off she uses the same FUUUUUUCKING line that the first FUCKING girl i ever liked used on me. We should just be friends.
we should just be friends.
i hope its okay if we still remain friends
friendship is easy for me right now
I really hope we can stay friends.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK THAT!
i don't want to be FUCKING FRIENDS!
I DON'T WANT TO JUST SEE YOU SMILE FROM THE SIDE
I WANT TO LOVE YOU AND HAVE YOU LOVE ME AND STAY TOGETHER THROUGH THICK AND THIN AND GO ON TRIPS TOGETHER AND GET MARRIED AND COMPLAIN ABOUT STUFF AND MAKE LOVE WHENEVER WE'RE BORED AND NOT HAVE KIDS AND BE HAPPIER THAN ANYONE ELSE.
to top it all off (hey i stopped swearing!) i told her, i word for word told her, that that was what the first girl i ever liked said to me. she knew, but didn't think that it might be inappropriate to bring up a 7 year old sore spot.
yes i know, there was no chance she was going to like me anyway, but i want to add a special shout out to Kristen for adding insult to injury, how bout a round of applause folks.

if this is for some dumb reason i'm going to be REALLY upset.
shit if she hears about this i'm going to be in some deep shit.
lol i said shit too much.

If love were a place i'd be the beggar on the streets
As the Queen, you'd walk by, barely sparing me a glance
But sometimes a glance is all we need. A spark in the dusk. A kiss in the dark. A hug under the full moon.
But sometimes silence is all you receive.


song lyrics anyone?
write me a tune.

ok well here's a thought. i think that i'm going to e-mail zero punctuation and ask them about doing a segment. What i'd do is i'd review webcomics. now i'm sure that there are already sites that review webcomics, but if i did it in a kind of yahtzee style with sound and video then i might get som notice. especially if zero punctuation accepts. then i'd get some instant notice and everything would be swell. The joke would be, while yahtzee's a brit living in Austrailia, i'm a brit living in the US. And while he has a general negative vibe, i'd be much more positive about everything...oh wait that doesn't sell never mind. lol, but in anycase expect to see a pilot video up soon.

http://www.songstowearpantsto.com/songs/a-recentl-broken-heart-phase/

not bad

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...or you can repost it to mock other people's beliefs like i do!
www.godisimaginary.com
basically a set of truths that sets you straight.
it also includes Leprechauns!
JOY!
so yeah. pretty much i love everything right now.
except for you, in all probability!
♥
Religious debates anyone?

you can feel life sometimes.
ebbing...
what is thought?
how can we all have opinions, and think infinite thoughts, when we're all just made of atoms? atoms aren't alive, so why are we?
what is alive?
i can't even fathom how this all came to be, so how on earth could i possibly understand why people fall in love?
how can i write that feeling i get when i see her?
a mix of exuberence and complete terror
What if i say something dumb?
i always do. Usually in an effort to not say it.
How come some people have no relationship problems?
My friends can date a girl and go steady for months.
Is there something i'm just missing?
a part of the puzzle?
If you dumped me out of the box, there'd be 4 pieces, one missing.
i'm not complex and deep if you only look at two dimensions.
turn sideways, and
suddenly
the puzzle is 4 pieces each a mile long, with intricate pieces needing to be carefully slotted into place.
even with that done you'd find the missing piece requires all the 4 other pieces to be undone, and reassembled around it.
What evoloutionary advantage does crying grant?

what if, you make a mistake, and feel awful...
What if, after that mistake you feel fantastic?
How about both?
What if you don't even know whats going on and you just wish everything would stop.
Just long enough to shed some tears, whether for sorrow or joy, and to sorts things out in the head that won't shut up.
At the same time i wish i could speak.
Vampires are more attractive then werewolves, but when you can change from one to the other or cause that change, then things are different. my hands are cold.
they weren't before.
12 hours ago...give or take.
am i even awake yet?
god i wish i knew.
i wish i knew what my vampire was thinking...
god i wish...
i could know

I deleted the other blog. go me. why do i get my head chewed off for expressing myself? If Kate had posted that same thing, you would all be so on her side. but me, eh well its selfish and jerkish to write that. ironically enough, kate was pretty much the only one who actually understood what i was trying to get across. If i've EVER made you laugh, or smile, or even think, then try to remember that time. Think of a time where i was there for you, or that i was nice, or friendly or even just not mean. NOw think of all the times i've made you cry, or feel like your self esteem had a hole punctured in it. Hopefully, if what I remember lines up with what you remember, then the raitio should be pretty good. Then why does everyone dis me out on myspace? Because sure as hell in person you fucking wouldn't. I dare any of you to try to come up to me seriously and just tell it to me how it is, no laughing, and leave thinking i'm an ass. do it

God damn straight! What i hate the most is when people dismiss science b/c it goes against their religious beliefs. Thats such BULLSHIT! its like, fact or fiction! What to believe? idk. Christian "scientists" claim that the world is 8000 years old b/c it says that in the bible. uh, fossil evidence and rock formations suggest the world is appx. 4.6 BILLION years old. so, its not even like they're close! And the evolution 'debate', if you even want to call it a debate, is so gay b/c we have pretty strong proof that dinosaurs were around for millions of years, then we came after they died. And NOTHING other than the bible suggests that evolution is a false theory. So, if the bible didn't fill a majority of the world's mind w/ BS, we wouldn't be arguing. If the bible said god held us down instead of gravity, we sure as hell wouldn't be teaching the laws of gravity in school! Science is there to find answers to questions, and solve problems, so why would they lie and make up theories like evolution and the Big Bang theory w/o evidence? guess what? they have a SHIT LOAD of evidence! what evidence supports the bible? Fucking none! Nothing! its such Bullshit!
Suck it Christianity! honestly, i wouldn't care, but since the dumb shit GUY who wrote the bible put in there to spread the word. And like the dumb-shit sheep they are they followed it word 4 word. They're even CALLED a flock. Religion was invented to control people! And it worked! But apparently, the people in charge forgot that it was all a power thing, so they ACTUALLY believe all this crap. And when you're 4 years old, when all the adults around you say something, you tend 2 believe it. No matter how crazy it is. Easter bunny, Santa, Jesus, w/e. Its not their fault, b/c their parents had the same thing happen to them. Atheists need to take a stand against this growing wave of insanity. ironically, i would rather befriend a Muslim than a Christian b/c at least muslims won't try to convert me. Of course there are radicals. On both sides, but Regular Christians are more radical than regular Muslims or Jews. Radical Christians are almost sad, b/c they devoted their entire lives to this cult, yes cult, and its all for naught. what have they gained? The hatred of me, the sorrow of all the people they put down. Gays, intellectuals, Athiests, porn stars, w/e. really, for a religion based on love, they seem to hate a fucking awful lot. hehe, my response has been so long, i'll copy it and post it in my blog too!
♥ you Molly!

Just want to save it for old times sake...I like it!

Before the war i was a happy young man living in Brussels, Belgium. When i was 11 i was recruited by poland to fight against the Nazis. After 37 years away from home, i came to realize that life would never be the same. My wife and 12 kids had long since gone to America via Cuba, so all i had to do was work down by the docks. Thats when the terrible accident occurred and i became Spider-man!!! Or was it Green Lantern... Oh Wait! That's when i became the silver surfer, dedicated to freeing all the puppies from the pound! About that time I joined the X-men, but soon quit because of Wolverine's smoking habits. I tried the Avengers, but Captain America pissed me right of! Friggin' A!!! About that time, I awoke to find 7 years had gone by as I walked the Boulevard of Broken Dreams, mainly because nobody woke me up when September ended!!! American Idiots!
Then I went on Holiday to an Island in the Sun. Soon after that my Girlfriend left me because "I ain't no Hollaback Girl!" Bubble Pop Electric! If I was a Rich Girl... In any case, around my 113th birthday i relized being a hobbit kinda sucked so i went out and became a Pirate! Yeah! Screw You Shmeagle!!!:P I quit my Piraty (yes, that is a word) days once Elizabeth Swan Made out with Johnny Depp and got him killed. That Bi*ch!!! Orlando Bloom looked like he liked watching as much as getting though... Soon after i got date rapped by some florida Politicion, and had a chat with god, whom i don't really believe in, (but if u DO exist, srry!) and discovered the meaning of life IS cheese! Then he sent me a chinaman with the message, save the cheerleader save the WHOLEFRIGGINWORLD!!!!!!1 end quote. i formed the fellowship of the ring, but after 5 years, the bell choir didn't quite work out. THerefore i went on a search to find a new companion. Jimi Hendrix was his name, but we split after he claimed to be writing these brilliant songs and solos i had created. Screw You Guys, I'm going home. I went to the shire to pick up Tom instead. After meating up with Tom Bombadil, we got drunk and kiked some a$$!!! fo sho! We saved the cheerleader by traveling thru time to assasinate certain poitical figures, such as andrew jackson, Jfk, and the white Michal Jackson. Yes, i nailed Tupac. So smack that, get on the floor, smack that, asking for more. Smack THAT, till you get sore, smack it, oh yes. OMGWTFBBQM8! All right, now I am done! Look at my life! Almost makes you want to stop being a lazy fatass and do something. Or maybe not...

so...here i am, supposed to be doing homework.
lol.
But really, i was reading...
And not the reading like we do for English Class.
Oh No.
I was reading some very interesting literature...

Notes...

You read them and with every word,
a memory returns...
the designs, the pictures,
each one a story.
the folding;
always the most complex, yet easiest part...
you can tell how it was folded
an angry note,
thrown together through a blind rage,
messy, yet strangly precise.
sad note,
folded slowly, oh so slowly,
foretelling doom and imminant sorrow.
Tear stains are the worst.
Love note,
no point, folded happily and nicely,
ironically, the note with the least emotion on the outside.
Rushed note,
Oh goodness, 30 seconds left?
Shoved together, not complex, scribbled names...
the inside is so hard to write.
it always is.
takes a period or two,
just to get your thoughts on paper.
takes less than a minute to read.
Why is that?
The eternal paradox of the note.
Herald of memories,
seemingly lost forever...
hundreds of pieces,
of paper,
sentenced to a life in a crowded plastic drawer,
until,
on a fancy,
i once again draw them forth,
heralds of memories,
To bring to me what news of my past,
they yet know...

That turned into a poem as i was writing it...
interesting...
your thoughts?

Dear Mr. Livingston,

    Yes? I have to question who, why and candy. Is it not, that she would? Can she donut? Expungent, alas, are they not. For, could it not, it shall be, unless whom it may not  concern quibbles. Ki-Andi-Mundi shall be hearing that, this inbecilic qualm to them. Never! Quoth the Pancake, "Raven" , as who says "Ingenious" ? Vivaciously and vigorously villifying victim's voluminous vantage vehicles verify a verbose verdict. Voracious! When Uncle Jake became a snake-well, they know what you mean! Should you see? Can't You? Sine Nomine, Gloria in Exchelses Daeo. Nevermore. Obviously, visably, and and quite obviously, this is the sitution. Problem? Rodger. Bituminous! Yes, no? Extrumptously. Dickens!! What? The! I do appologize,but i have repeated thyneself in that; which is not in, on, around, or down the rabbit hole. Or is this the real life? Are we just fantasies? stuck in a low tide, there's no escape from MTV. Open his eyes! Queen? Elizabeth or Victoria? Or could it be perhaps of the Stone Age? Guarenteed to Blow your mind. Sometimes! Or never. Maybe So. Do you agree? I do...not. Not! Not...Not! Never! Neither Nor, or either nor? Elanor. Stop quoting pancakes and get up, get up and get down the rabbit hole to business. Precisly. Theology. When? Good Question, but why? Bad Dog. Good parakeet. or bugie. Bungie! No, not Halo. Do Angels Deserve to Die? Sistine Chapel. Roof Work indeed. Amen. Spears of no great Shakes you say? Quite! Dreams of a Mid-Summer. Night preferably. I have come to bury the hachet, not to praise him. No.