the dark touch;

mangled in thorns,
entwined,
once upon a time,
the rose did bloom,
red velvet,
luscious tune,
melody of night,
the darkness rune,
embed thy soul,
its just too soon,
to feel the knife,
thy skin to wound..
 
stake of wood,
if only i understood,
the pain, in vain,
blood pour,
ever more,
ever sore,
lips of death,
douse thy inner core,
lost, senseless,
relentless,
wings of night, 
demonic sight,
pulses through,
thy inner light,
dullness gloom,
vampire's bite,
lost in blood,
the razor's knife,
deep into,
this cursed life,
forsaken touch,
thy soul to fight,
darkness sets,
through all my might,
im lost,
consumed,
this toxic fume,
release,
im doomed..

its too soon, to feel the gloom, of these days, i feel, i cant peel, the happiness vine, from the tree of time, and swing into, the distant sky, where worries, dont seem to pass me by, i find, im alone, yet im here, with my phone, who to call, i groan, i cant seem to roam, the roads of lust, i must seek, to discover, a reason, a lover..

i'm the hope, in your tears,
i am your sword, against fear,
when you feel, through me,
i speak, when your weak,
my words, fill you with peace,
like heards of sheep, im the sheppard..

your drawn by desire, that fire,
which burns in your heart,
when we're apart, i'm worried,
you seem soo blurry,
in that place, which i cannot follow..
tomorrow, theres hope,
in which we can cope,
upon a new day, awaken,
soo we can play..


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forever, i feel im bound, to walk around, in circles, restless, i need it, i want it,
but i cant seem to grasp it, ya wanna get your ass kicked? jus playin, but listen, im sayin this because, im sick of what was, our could, i say we should, find us a playmate, or go on a date, im sick of the wait... or jus keep dreaming buddy, cause your not, gonna get your rest, when ya keep this feeling, inside, it will override, your mind, untill you find, your me, and i'm free!! lol

i am this seed, awakened by night,
the light, is my reason, to sleep, to retreat..
back into the soil, i begin to foil, to plot, im beginning to rot,
i thirst for blood, i lust, combust, into a thousand stars,
these scars, speak of time, places of mine..
i've come to bind, with these, breeds of the cold, dark sorrow, today is tomorrow..
im a leech, i breach, the walls of pain, untill i stain, my thirst in vain, im insane,
the pain..  deeper, into the shadows, i'm jus like you, but you're me, when i feel to be, cant you see, im not far away, to say, im here to stay. jus ask and i'll play..


im not soo mean, when you seem, to understand this dream, to be surreal, you dont conceal, me from the crowd, in fact, i'm pretty loud, when you let me act,
im tame, when your sane. remember our pact.

it seems that the whole world cant save me, its against me, i cant see, who i am anymore, downpour, from the sky, i cry, i cant conceal it anylonger, im falling into my mind, i cant find, the peace, i cease to exist, like a mist, i dont know how long i can hold, im cold, my blood is thinning, im beginning, to lose it, choose it, abuse me, consume me, im gonna lose me.. cause i cant be, free...

lets make a new poem, you know em? that guy, that slicks by, my alluby, see me, here, then, i spend another motion, out of your sight, this light, feeling inside me like i'm a feather, leather is what i'll wear, when i'm there, with my tribe, of flow, you'll know its time to go, when the moon, blooms, soon, is the time, you'll see the fine, orb of time, it glances, switch stances, i become another being, seeing, that your just another outcast, dont last, this long and sing, this ugly song, like your king, and im, this thing, that came from the shame, of the people you blame, hate on, skate on, this new turf, i'll surf, the new web, like an internet to thread, i'll leap into the distance, into VA, a place i'll say, is coming soon, to be mine, valentine, is today, hey!, this shway, mark of lense, it depends, what i'll think, of reality, cause see, i'm outta here, outta this sphere, another world to peer, through my eyes, my disguise, is just, a must to relate, to state that i adapt, i dont lack, simple minded, simply find 'n, shed, your feathers, into the sand, and land, for its time to brand, this stand, where i am, i can, become a man, because, it was, of yesterday, i made, that day, got paid, another way, jus because, i'm a goon, when you see, the moon, is full, i am a bull, with horns of steel, i'll steal, untill i cant conceal, anymore, stuff, enuff is enuff, when i'm done, our fun, has come to end, fuck the end, theres the bend, in time, see you cant find, me, in 2 weeks, it seeks, it finds, theres no kind, like me, its the public, its the dub lick, that gets me goin, gets me flowin, and i'm knowin, that i'm show'n, you who i am, i am, a techno jam, the best, of the rest, put it to the test, these words, fly by, a million, billion miles, an hour, its sour, how much words fit, in this kit, that i lit, hffffff, take that hit, its yours, it pours, out your nose, like it knows, that your allive, hi five, i'll miss this, take that, hffff, laid back, lets stack these, memmories, a tease, is just a tease, and no one leaves, you with the keys, cause they know, its time to go, when i see, that key on the track, its mine, hold back, your mind, i'm takin this car, to find, where it takes me, and it took, it booked, me into a look, at another world, a side where they hide, and i seek, you freak, your too fast, it cudnt last, soo they slashed, your tires, fired, your job is no more, sure, i'm jus allure to this stir, this mix of trix in my bowl, i eat it whole, i'm allive, i need air, i need to bare, the night with my hair, in the wind, i cry, for the time, i begin, to hit the gas, and blast, into time, a 5 speed ride, is my kinda tide, to call the boys, to bring the toys, and rack, the balls to crack, i'm back up north, inside, this image, i'm high, and drunk, a little crunk, grab thy board, for the horde!, lets race, to the bottom, last one down, is the class clown, the last sound, of the crew, the big boys shoe, is awarded, to the first, to quench the thirst, of speed to burst, the hills curse, is only as deep, as you let it weap, for you, as I pass through, the breeze, free's me from the sin, grin~, i'm in front, your in back, you lack, the confidence, that ive, had since 1995, yeah, its true, as my eyes are blue, and you, finished last, time to mow the grass, for Shaun's Lawns, like pawns, to kings, it brings you to this, bliss, this kiss, of the VA twist, with FL, cant afford uh, freakin ford, uh, im bored... but for realz, im leaving.

listen Drew, heres the blue sky, the clouds, the trees and the ocean, its all yours if u do one thing with each of them. place the sky up high, away from the trees, which free's you from the leaves, from the darkness, under the shade, if u stayed, you'd be consumed.. slowly into, the deep sea, shall be spread, as a bed, to soothe your pain, that place which drives u insane, will be tamed, the darkside gathers, emotions, of anger and sad, with lightning mad, i'll release your weight, its not too late, to feel the stake, untill sorrow, fills the lake, the ocean will flow, as the tree's will know, its time to grow, untill life's extent, its dark's repent, for a life, well lived, well spent, and floods, take through to the soul, to cleanse our whole, purify the cold, till warmth is left, and happyness wept, in joy for this new boy, who could see, his destiny, for light, to darkness, to harness, the good and the bad, to turn, into glad, choices made, well paid, jobs will soar, like a lore, of your, heart in store, for, the sunshine.. to rise, and to set, we'll never forget, her eyes to change, the moods to range, this day to claim, this color, this flame, that glows in her eyes, i cry, when i feel, that i conceal, the trueth, from those, who see the roof, isnt soo far, soo gnar, like a star, guiding their car, through the worst, to safety, the curse, we share, the despair, that glare, in your eyes, the mirror disguise, a mask you wear, of real to pair, this with that, like dog to cat, this story, of a mall, rat, that, feels to be,  his flow is me, and him, yet you, are free, from  sin, cause u begin, to realize you win, even if u lose, what u chose, is what u get, its life's pet, apprentice met, thomas came, life changed, never the same, you see me, through his eyes, through his cries, you feel his lies, are just, a must, to keep us, happy, smile Drew, this is for u, this guy right here, u peer, to your left, seeing thomas has met, his end, of the night, of the tight, best flight to wonderland, best friend, till the end. you cry, your happy, why? let go, of those, tears down your nose? you've earned your home, your phone, is soon to get, and they will let, you find your plan, to become a man , to stand, no brand, this land, is yours, i give you the tours, your explores, are special, layout, the way out, is set, i wont let, u ever, get, hit by a car, again, pretend, it never happened,  jus laugh and, smile for me, cause your crying, and your lieing, cause you love life, why soo sad? jus feel glad, this is me, my gift to thee, reader, "its me"... jus tell me when, its time to bend, this time to end, and, land, from the sky, once more, downpour, "virginia, score!"..
jus make that call, when u feel its right, when thomas has accepted your flight, out of his life, for awhile, more then a mile, too far, too far.. dont think, dont scar, jus heal, and live. give your heart, to who'm it belongs, sing your songs, write your long, book of life, the flow, you know~, yeah..
 
its time to say goodbye, goodbye, from me to you, my boy, my blue sky, in your eyes, the ocean leaks, and the forest, allive, seaks to find, you to bind, my key to climb, the highest hills, and the distant spills, for the end, for the friend, to roam, my home, your tome, of the life you owned, will remain a sacred, cross, hatred will cry, and die, for you, will not lie, jus tie, the ends, with a different lense, and you will be smiled upon... like a pawn, to a knight. watcher of the light..
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Drew

aaah connection lost

im good now tho

1:02amEverett

str8

so the flow is in your mind?

1:02amDrew

yep

ask me anything about the flow, i can enlighten u

1:03amEverett

is the flow in everybody?

1:03amDrew

yup

u can call it w/e u want

the force

1:04amEverett

nice

1:04amDrew

its basically like, the mind awakening into a stage of the subconcious

if i said that right

it means

ur mind developes a parrallel degree of thought

some people jus develope different flows

but in depth with this expression. its the same flow, warped different ways

1:07amDrew

brb cigg

1:10amEverett

iight

1:14amDrew

k

soo ya dig?

ask me another question

1:15amEverett

does the flow interfere with smoking?

1:15amDrew

nope, its enhanced

1:17amDrew

its like drugs are keys to the flow doors

but some doors arent meant to be opened, thus i dont fuck with those certain drugs :p

1:18amEverett

no doubt

1:18amDrew

but i admit, i trip once a week. but keep that to urself

1:18amEverett

trip off what?

1:18amDrew

hmm

the light jus flickered

maybe i shudnt tell u

i know its weird, but i follow the signs

1:19amEverett

ok

1:19amDrew

:]

soo yeah, the flow; you can change it, warp it, and distort it

its energy

and energy effects ur brain, making it think

thus chii is born

an energy condensed

u can throw it into people

1:23amDrew

and when i do. certain people tend to throw it back

1:24amEverett

could you throw it to me?

1:24amDrew

yeah

but i cant say what you'll experience

its like .5seconds of a frequency

its a rush using dark flow

and a mist of peace using light

1:25amEverett

do you have to be in person to do it?

1:26amDrew

yep

1:28amEverett

no doubt

do you have a cell phone?

1:28amDrew

nah

but i gotta flowdar

its like a radar,

that picks up destiny

1:30amEverett

nice

is there a number i can call you at?

1:32amDrew

yeah, now?

cause im listening to music

but u can hit me up tomorrow

unless

u mean when im in VA?

1:33amEverett

i was gonna hit you up now

1:33amDrew

true ok ill talk

can i call u?

cause if my phone rings my mom will flip

i get free long distance

1:34amEverett

yea 703 389 6751

1:35amDrew

kk

ok. damn, jus typed an expression, it was like an essay i tell ya haha. but i lost it due to not realizing i had no connection, it was funny as fuck, but this time it gets serious.. but here goes. i express yet again. what i feel i must say. because this must be heard, "i must be heard".

 

it all started today at the mall i gotta new game. shaun white snowboarding.. and before i played it, [this is how it goes in the mind, get ready] "soo what ya wanna do Drew".. Drew; play a game, cause there isnt shit to do here lol. [click] we decide through the battle of the decisions; WoW vs. Shaun White Snowboarding [Wii].. and we never play the wii much alone. soo back to the scene.. "snowboardin it is". soo we playing and its like [click] Duude this game's sweet as fuck!!, oh shit, its like i'm tryin to flip out with tricks but i dont know the buttons hahaa!. "but we can do this, we can adapt".. and we addapt and still learning the game is pretty sick, though i have yet to get the Wii Board. which is the reason i got it. ----the game is paused----[click] "ahh u feel that?- the body, he be needin stuff".. Drew; but the gaame! annd, ok... soo now its back to reality, and the legs feeling sore, and its time to work my magic. "i take care of Drew, because i love." him. ---thus i love myself. i run check ups on the mind's system. i toggle the switches and align the circuitry. ya dig?~ i am the responsible flow of the mind. yet i conduct myself as in; i conduct Drew to move and decide through the environments ahead. i'm the one who sends that extra energy to that arm to further cover him up to keep Drew warm. yeah, its like that see~[click]..

now heres a main peice of my old blog i wrote that got lost.. this question that Drew ponders. am i [the subconscious who has been speaking] light flow? now then ive already corrected this expression since my last attempt. but "Drew" is as a human, and cant be defined light or dark. only the mind's doors hold these answers. see i guess "i am light flow ()_()"... thats kinda a big shock to me, cause i havent thought about it like this. but anyways.. now to the subject i wanted to ressurect from the 1st attempt at this blog; "Dark Flow"..

Dark Flow and i dont get along.. he's been there since day 1. growing. feeding Drew, thus feeding himself. and see. Dark Flow's a bad influence. yet i cant kick him out.. he's here, he's there. to stay. and i gotta get along with him. as i have been for the past [idk] 18 years.. since i woke up and started storing memmories. Dark Flow's a--[ _ delete _ delete..] w/e.. he's a bitch!.. but he has traits that i may not carry. i mean--woah.. [click].. down to the point. I'm here to keep the body in check. to keep the mind smooth. and Dark Flow tends to fuck it up. but im not angry at this scene. see. i cant be angry. orr.. [click] Drew; haha duude man this is fuckin crazy XD... ok.. why i type this.. its an expression. i dont think before i type i type as i think! now see, Dark Flow didnt truely wake up untill Drew and I moved down to FL. see there was always this cold place in Drew's heart. a place derived upon the people making fun of him. this place appeared in some pretty gnar ass drawings i admit were tight but.. yeah. these drawings were communications from that place.. that flow.. and up untill this day, goin on 4 years living in FL. Dark Flow emerged. and we had a "great deal of fun together ha ha ha". . .

and then flowers bloom from the ceiling, and a pink elephant soars into the room saying "hop on, lets go for a cruise!"... [click]. soo yeah, w/e sense that made. thats my story and im stickin to it. >>>peace

* Analogical state of mind - is when we are so involved in an experience that we lose track of time. We're in no time. Whatever emotional state we are in "goes analogical ". We're creating potentials on the quantum level. Mostly we do this unconsciously because only a mind trained to go to the analogical state at the quantum level of awareness can consciously create and un-create quantum potentials. In analogical states, we have created Ids and neuroses. We've gone "analogical" in each chakra.

* Occupants - an occupant is a soulless thought-form that thinks it owns the body, and is hindering a person's evolution. They can come in during childhood up to age 12 during a traumatic event, because children are so open to energies. Or they can be created by the person in an analogical state of mind.  An occupant resonates with the frequency of the attitude or trauma (be it abuse, accidents, illness, or stress) and attaches itself to the person, somewhere in the pranic tube. We scan for them from head to feet.

1. *Id - An "Id" is a soul fragment of ourselves that is still alive and well and affecting us from the past.  They embody an attitude, belief, concept, paradigm, etc. that WE identify with.  They are our "past-selves" or Identities.  Ids are seen on various levels of the auric field.
   

2. *Discarnates - entities that have died but have not gone through the tunnel to the Plane of Bliss, they are on the astral level haunting people from there.  Sometimes there are karmic ties between the person and the discarnate, we absolve the ids related to the karmic ties first, then the discarnate is free to go.  Usually a person's fear or their attitude attracts discarnates into their field.  Discarnates are responsible for panic attacks and anxiety too.
   

3. *Portals - portals are openings in one or more chakras that act as "vacuums" for other peoples' adverse thoughtforms. We find them on people who wish to heal the pain and suffering of others (consciously or unconsciously) by taking upon themselves other peoples' burdens -- their undesirable thoughtforms generated by discordant emotions. Portals have the potential to cause health problems, depression, and energy loss. We close the portals permanently by obtaining a subconscious release of the emotional trauma that caused the portal to open

trueth is.. i wanna go back. to VA. i miss it SOO much...
i miss VA.. i miss brandon, my stepbrother. the guy who got me into skating. i miss cameron, the guy ive known since a baby. and none of u know these guys. see its like you've only known me as disco drew. some guy who happened to have a dance off with some other guy who called himself nightwolf.. at the college of BCC, the festival. thats how i got that name.. but the name "Drew" runs deeper then "Disco".. ive lived a whole life in VA and i miss it!

im going to visit VA this thursday, its gonna change my life. its gonna change how i feel, which place i fit in...

im not someone ull see when u wake up, but im someone who will be there, With u. and i feel like u are riding a sharp wave and u dont want to get cut, i dont want to get cut. please, listen to me. . . this is not good, everything is going to go downhill. like it always does, with the hillz, but see, my friend, i dont want to see us confined, because we go crazy when we confidened aye drew? yesh. see when i say we, i dont mean you and me, i mean all of us, back here, in these doors, for u drew, all for u. and we work and open for u when u come a knockin but something is coming.. events are building up to this day. and well my freind i'd say its time to get out of FL.. time to get 'lost in VA' and never get found. jus live ur life one with the hillz. and lets jus say this hill might be ur last.

 

also for all the folks here listening, i am not Drew right now. no. i am a massive piece of his mind, but many pieces combined. u can call me ur gaurdian flow like the old days.

 

Drew; your weird