a scary IM conversation i had tonight ... i have changed the names so as to not get anyone investigated by the FBI

 

not scary guy: driving to DC tomorrow
really cool me: cooool
really cool me: good luck, be careful and shit
not scary guy: july 4th in DC
not scary guy: woot
really cool me: woot
not scary guy: k thanks [really cool you]
really cool me: that sounds all kinds of ... patriotic
really cool me: wait
really cool me: you're arab
really cool me: you're not gonna blow shit up, are you
not scary guy: *whistles*
really cool me: fuck
really cool me: well ...
not scary guy: hey look over there!
really cool me: have fun!
not scary guy: *jumps out window*
not scary guy signed off at 11:36:10 PM.

April 2003 ... I drove to Austin with Stephen and Ben to meet Barrett for my first live Sigur Ros experience.  They were playing at Austin Music Hall ... not a big or fancy place ... fits a couple hundred tops.  Barrett had been waiting in line for a couple hours to get in.  A couple of hours ... no previous months of searching for tickets.  We got in ... found a spot towards the front ... and waited.  I went to pee at one point, Barrett tagging along, and he pointed out the lead singer/guitar Jonsi, walking in front of us.  No one even batted an eye at him.  Just some skinny kid at a show.  Don't remember a damn thing about the opening act ... it was pretty boring.  I had heard some Sigur Ros songs before this show ... and I liked them a lot ... but I had no idea. 

It's hard to describe the feelings you get at a Sigur Ros show.  It's amazing to me how hundreds of us could sit there and be completely captivated by these four little Icelandic guys who don't speak much English ... none at all during the music.  They're not speaking Icelandic either, though.  No one really knows what's being said ... perhaps it is some form of Icelandic, but who in the hell speaks Icelandic besides those dudes and Bjork?  Mayhaps Erik the Red?  Who knows ...  What I do know is that the music those guys put forth allows you to see beyond any realm we've ever experienced.  I'm not sure it's possible to put it into words, they can't even do that .... but my friend Derek ("Weems") once said it was the closest thing to Zen we will probably ever experience.  Best description I've heard ... if you think in terms of Buddhism at all.  If not ... I say it speaks to your soul.  Sarah McLachlan may speak to your heart; Chopin might speak to your mind; but Sigur Ros allows your ears to communicate with your being ... soul, Self, whatever you want to call it. 

Anyway, a few years later, most, if not all, of the band's shows are selling out quickly.  How this is possible is unbelievable to me ... it's just word of mouth.   I doubt very seriously Dave Matthews Band carried this many fans before they hit MTV. 

Last week's show didn't create something new in me ... the first show did.  It was new ... it was amazing.  This year's was just ... peaceful, breath-taking, and beautiful.  I wish I had allowed myself to cry early in the set when they played Glosoli.  I didn't, however, and it never came again.  I was too damn focused on taking great pictures ... which came out fairly shitty anyway ... that's kharma for ya.  There are a couple shots in my pictures thing if you want to see ... both are Orri, the drummer.  God, he's awesome.  This guy behind me described him as "Animal" ... you know, the muppet.  Great description!  He's a maniac.  But in a mindblowingly beautiful way, of course.  Anyway ... I'm way too tired to go into more detail .. and I should have written this down before 6 days after the show ... because of course it's not as powerful now.  But anyway ... more later ....

or just part of it ...

"Strange World"

It's a very strange world that leaves me
Holding on to nothing when there's nothing left to lose
Your touch is cold and damp, the devil's in your eyes
I wonder why I always let you lead me on this way
'Cause you see only what you want to see
You feel only what you want to
And I am on the outside of your strange world

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: Vanessa Lyn DeCock Birthday: April 27 (that's today!), 1981 Birthplace: San Antonio, Texas Current Location: San Antonio, Texas Eye Color: brown with green sometimes Hair Color: it's getting to be dark brown, but the lady at the salon fixes that Height: 5'1.75 Right Handed or Left Handed: Left handed baby Your Heritage: belgian, italian, some other european stuff The Shoes You Wore Today: um reefs Your Weakness: love, food, laziness Your Fears: losing loved ones, never finding love again, bumpy things Your Perfect Pizza: um ... i don't like pizza Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get a girl, get a job, get out of parents' house Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "haha" Thoughts First Waking Up: shit it's late Your Best Physical Feature: used to be my legs ... does my hair count? Your Bedtime: right now, whenever i crash Your Most Missed Memory: soccer, band, and drumline from high school .... also waking up next to someone Pepsi or Coke: dr pepper man, how come dr p never makes these lists? MacDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonalds ... but ew Single or Group Dates: what's a date? Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton i guess ... but green tea. yum Chocolate or Vanilla: um neither really .... Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee Do you Smoke: le sigh Do you Swear: oh way too much, i get yelled at a lot about it cuz i do it loud and in public Do you Sing: oh i sing it up real good in the car Do you Shower Daily: mostly ... unless i'm not really going anywhere, or shower the night before and then am not really doing anything the next morning .... it's kinda sick actually. i'm too lazy Have you Been in Love: yeah .... Do you want to go to College: no i don't. i don't believe in college. oh wait, yes, i did go. i forgot. it was so long ago and took/is taking so much of my money that i don't have because i can't get a job with my wonderful education Do you want to get Married: will they let me? i'd prolly have to get out of texas first Do you belive in yourself: mostly, no. depends on the context. Do you get Motion Sickness: oh yeah ... can't ride in the back of cars. blech. i also get dizzy in bed sometimes ... it's weird. i don't think the vertigo has gone away yet. Do you think you are Attractive: i'm attractive, but i could be a lot better if i weren't so damn fat Are you a Health Freak: haha no ... read above Do you get along with your Parents: most of the time. though my mom bothers me sometimes ... Do you like Thunderstorms: yes i do. Do you play an Instrument: i play the french horn ... and i've been known to bang a drum or two ... and i have a guitar and know 4 chords now. WOO In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: i don't think that's correct english ... but yes, i did today actually In the past month have you Smoked: about 30 minutes ago In the past month have you been on Drugs: saturday ... In the past month have you gone on a Date: i had a dinner date with my grandma, does that count? In the past month have you gone to a Mall: um prolly in the past month ... but i stay away from them as much as possible In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: a whole box? holy moly ... i don't think i've even had one In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no... sushi is weird. In the past month have you been on Stage: yeah i had a concert last weekend... i banged a timpani. it was hot. In the past month have you been Dumped: that would involve having a date or something ... In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: never done that ... In the past month have you Stolen Anything: um i think maybe a pen by accident Ever been Drunk: never Ever been called a Tease: i don't think so .... but maybe. i'm more wysiwyg Ever been Beaten up: i've been beaten upon ... but not "beaten up" Ever Shoplifted: i took a pack of gum from the grocery store when i was 4 or so How do you want to Die: during sex with a hot girl :) no .. i don't want to die. i am against that. What do you want to be when you Grow Up: i wanna be a person with a job ... who makes lots of money doing something fun ... and has lots of love in her life ... including a hot girl What country would you most like to Visit: iceland!! In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: doesn't really matter, but with dark hair, blue eyes are HOT Favourite Hair Color: brown ... i can do blonde or whatever, but it's usually brown Short or Long Hair: not too short ... but anything else is fine Height: i don't care, taller than me. it's not hard. Weight: i dunno man ... under 200 and above 120? Best Clothing Style: it has to match the personality .... Number of Drugs I have taken: number? Qu'est-ce que tu fait number? Number of CDs I own: i don't need cds anymore, i have my ipod :) Number of Piercings: i think my ears are still pierced, i dunno. my tongue too. Number of Tattoos: none .. don't want one. Number of things in my Past I Regret: i regret nothing. everything is a learning experience.

... there was a girl named Vanessa. One day, while waiting for her cervix to explode .... (finish the story for me)

jen started a riot, let's see if i can. so the pope is a special dude, right? god chose him, right? so how come they're voting on the new one? this poor new bastard has been sitting around for 50 years waiting to be able to be what god chose him for? shouldn't he be born with a sign that says "god chose me to be a pope someday?" you know, instead of some old dude's voting for him ... by the way, there must be some sort of campaigning going on over there, huh? "chose my guy, god sent him" "no, god sent my guy" ...wtf? similar subject with some differences - my mom and i just got into a big argument. she said "women shouldn't be priests" i said "why not?" she said "cuz jesus said so" i said "so?" she said "you know, you don't have to be so liberal all the time" i said "you don't have to be so ignorant all the time" bam, she got pissed. but yeah ... my god. this is what is wrong with the world. well, one of the many things. apparently we are just supposed to do things because someone says to ... i'm sorry, because some book written a really long ass time ago says that some dude said so. that's some stupid shit. i don't even want to think about this crap anymore ... you guys discuss

now ... usually i would immediately run to the authorities, as should you upon hearing this .... but tiegel is a good man. and i haven't explained yet how he killed this woman. it was with his penis. yes, that's right. he was givin it to her one night (or maybe mid morning) and he was so damn good that the poor woman's heart stopped. luckily, you see, tiegel was a fireman at one point in his odd little life, thus he was able to resuscitate her. note: this is a true story.