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Wednesday, March 04, 2009

"The Infamy of Immortality"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"The Infamy of Immortality"

Pessimistic optimistic
I know its fast but I hope you don't miss it
like a moving train falling on your shoulders
the burden of proof is far from over

You spell my name but cast a fake spell
You scream at the day hoping time doesn't run out
You paint your nail
In the shape of octagons

You hope it works
to satisfy all your doubts

You pray and burn
putting your desires first

you argue and shout
chanting your way to hell

its like I said
when you were in your room
asking for a sign

when shes read
those words that came alive
they bounced off like lead

paving a way for the things unknown ahead

then the bell rang
your signs you chose to delay

Its all the same
You respond so lame
You rather be your own God

as flames from the overflow
rinse down your soul

no pain o no
Its fame is for ever to know

your gripes your stripes
you pay for your self

This play plays out forever more

its fate you loved

that you loved!

the theory of the love of the gun
the story of Love for the Violator

The beauty of no fun
is a lie   when you say there is no creator!

your pushing
up daisies

and all you know
if worms that never go
bake me a thousands cakes
with a   eternal flames of your candle
that never goes out
in the most horrible ways

before the crowds   if they could only see
the plaque of your touch
has changed the atmosphere of your love
it grows cold
your nature changed
no love nothing

Just the wretch you have inspired to be!

5:03 AM

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Saturday, February 07, 2009

"Its Just RUST!"

"Its Just RUST!"

I feel like

I'm behind a thousand trucks

I wish it would rain fire

to turn it to dust

my heart rust as a sign to all that we trust

Its all in the signs when we look to the sky

that point's to the end of all

that we know ,that we hold dear

its in the snow microscopic

phobia of all of our fears

lets break the glass

spray it down

the fire is on us

break it down

its coming for us

I wish it was love

buts its only our actions

of our rust

chemical reaction

from the stress that we gather through the years

the walls are growing eyes and looking for dreams

you jinks me when you look into my eyes

I blink when I think of your terrible lies

disease wings caught in the engine of my heart

blocking all my arteries

your my grease

a natural by product of misery

the termites take lives

I'm walking on wood

it breaks like ice

I did what I could

snake eyes

a roll of the dice

its only the signs of the times

my luck it stalls and is not corrupt

its only a reaping of the sows of delight

its tough to realize that its all just rust

caught in the eyes of the overrated fuss

its all lies its all rust

sparkle to the eye rust that must be denied

1:59 AM

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Tuesday, February 03, 2009

"Secrets In The Binding"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Secrets In The Binding"

You have a weird way
of saying I love you
through the waves

you crash against me on all sides
but I can never leave your side

your have grown on me
I get lost in the gaze of your eyes
like drowning in a deep green sea

I can only do one thing
and that's to breath

I inhale your scent its like peppermint
stains my lungs lost forever in time

burn your initials on me
I won't change a thing

tattoo your heart in me
deep inside the hollow crevasses of my mind

its not a crime
chain me to your side
throw me into your pit

burn the key into a crucifix

mix into my life
let it take over my nights
I want to be something of beauty

like gold laden walls that don't rust

velvet covered hearts and diamond laced tears
fire mixed with blood
I want to be courageous and full of trust

someone you could give your heart to
made into the image of our king

hands for swords protecting
you from all the things untrue
and holding off
all the hordes that peruse

breaking off all the horns that hunt you

lost never again
in the haze

tossed never again into graves

perfected by his gaze
the fire is stirred it remains
burns all shame

we sing for this day
but still waiting for your face to embrace

3:34 AM

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Friday, January 30, 2009

"I'm Not Forgotten"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"I'm Not Forgotten"

I'm not going to change
your mind
away

its my night to take
your the one who
loves to give a excuse
for every pain
you cause me
your break me softly

I'm crashing under
the pressure of thunder

packed in grease
left in a crate forget me

open me up
in a thousand years
clean me off of all my filth
hang me out to dry
open me up and show me the light

polish me up clean me don't let me be
I don't want to go back to my prison
locked away for a thousand years
lost in my fear
in the darkness

I wanted to disappear
but I'm only forgotten
its not the same thing
I swear i can't bleed
I'm to prideful to plead
but don't let me be
locked up in here
for one more year

I see the light
it's so bright
lost in your eyes
I feel like I'm alive
I see the light
you can have my life
you transformed me
I'm not forgotten

2:41 AM

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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

"Old Friends Always Ignite Faster"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Old Friends Always Ignite Faster"

Why Did she disappear so soon?
why did she Disappear?

I'm left here with my fears

and they rip!
Into my skin

its the curse of having thin skin

I let the pain of yesterday
cut!

into My Brain
For what?

for a measly piece of skin
but!

I hate my sin

No!
Where to go

But up
above these insecurities
inferiority

I'm! not a Iron man
I ! have a heart that bends
Why?

Because insecurities is the price of deceit

Its not the end
of my last defense
Love
watching from the hills above
the battles for Los Angeles is about to begin.

6:43 AM

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Sunday, January 04, 2009

"Your My Night Light"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Your My Night Light"

I'm not looking for something

you!

I'm not looking for you

I can't take this fire

as it rains

down on my head

my house is in flames

its a picture of you

you still treat me the same

I'm thinking of you

my flame

I just don't want to

think the same

its all so lame

fame and beauty

it burns with fire

gravity has its affect

dust has no regrets

rust and decay are best friends

they ravaging your face

shouldn't of held on so tight

its coming down

in a million pieces

you held so tight to your outer frame

and now its licking with flames

my fire burn more brighter then yours

but my flames come out of my hands

your fate is out of my hands

you will never understand

you're flames burn you forever more

forever you were a whore

why didn't you ?

turn from your past

you just kept it up

why didn't you ?

just let the past be the past

its all about what you do

not what you did

this fire

shes knows our names

shes coming

when you least expect it

shes not a liar

shes watching us

can you feel her breath?

shes a blazing inferno machine

do you wish you were dead?

its going to last forever

forever for you

with flames that never exclude.

5:54 AM

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Monday, December 22, 2008

"Under The Powder Of Snow"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Under The Powder Of Snow"

I'm stuck in this coldness
I can't find my way out
I'm leaning toward your soul
I can still see my breath

the ice stays close
like the leanness of my soul

I feel so exposed
will you bring me back to life
buried in this ice forever
my optimism dies

break me from my burrow
my ice cold shallow grave

show me that there is a tomorrow
Ive been staying with my sorrow

help me believe that there something better to come
break my heart from this permafrost
as I call out

I can't put my self together
I can't wait here forever

show me the way to follow your sounds
The sound
of your heart

The greatness's of your power
you won't leave me here
or give me what i want

Cause all I want is shallow
covered in vanity

you have the bread of life
and I don't want to follow lies
I cry out to you
you hear me in my darkness
your my way out of here!

break me open from my chest
call me into your rest

9:32 AM

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Monday, December 08, 2008

"Love Was Our Crime"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Love Was Our Crime"

Let The cards fall where they may

its all a matter of time before you die

or at least leave your friends behind

all the movement is getting to me

I can't stop moving

along

tonight I'm only letting go for this sun

so bright

it blinds my eyes

its taking my life

but I'm holding on to this song

its my living breathing tempo

Your wrong

for saying shes not love

you say its not love

it feels more like its lost

but I'm going to listen

to you

that little voice in the back of my head

you fool

you fall for the wrong girl again

you tool

you let her use you

to fulfill her every desire

please tell me there will be a fire

I can't tell you

how this is going to end

but I know the seat belt won't save you

No amount of flirting will make you

right

your beauty is corrupted

your mind maybe seductive

but I'm glad that I'm blind

in some many areas of time

its what I see in your eyes

your the most wicked of crimes

I fight

to get out of your hands

thats right

8:20 AM

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Sunday, December 07, 2008

"One Eye Staring At You In The Dark"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"One Eye Staring At You In The Dark"

Its so amazing how
Love can turn to hate
when the fire is out
the votes are in
I just can't be waiting till
the phone is ringing off
I rather turn my heart off
then be let down

your my let down
and I can only imagine
whats going on in your head

the feeling of control
I know cause the fire shows
its reaching out to the floor and wanting more

I break the seal of the glass
I rip the sticker and let is lash
out at everything
thats moves

I feel it ! I feel it!

Burning Hotter

It feels like I lost my lover

break me away from my emotions

Stir me to my grave let me make a commotion
one eye in the darkness
staring back at you
its my comparison
to your mission
to destroy me
take advantage
of my expectations
they rip at my emotions
I hate these decision
I am not a Human being
I am a robot
and I wish to not feel the sting
your burn and poke
and the exposed flesh
its always makes a mess
but you never there to clean it up
clean it up!
and I melt like the coldest steal
with no hope to heal
my biological responses
hate you...
faint for you
i'm such a fool
like a pile of a dozen burning roses
I never met to show you my secrets
but now it ended with my demises

5:00 PM

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Friday, November 28, 2008

"In Contrast"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"In Contrast"

You have to take this heart away
before you can know how it feels

you break and peel in the sun so afraid
you're eyes blister, you reach out for me to heal

I can't keep playing the same charade
but you know that I'm here for you

ill hold back the sun for you
ill black off the moon just not to lose

the ability to feel your touch

its the only reason I believe
but my cells still fiend for you

I'm hoping you can break my heart into dust
grind it deep out of my cuts

make it sweat through my pores

forming from it the strongest of steel
put in the gears of war

animate it with the ability to feel
and to hate all counterfeits

burn in me a golden crucifix into the apple of my eye
never let me forget

how my life is from your sacrifice
I'm forgetting what it means to be real
you're my ultimate reality

purge it from my hands of disdain
give me hands that pray

tired of this virus called life
shes a horrible wife
she holds me until 4 at night
telling me everything is alright

I look around and my world is in flames
shes the craziest of Danes
ill never trust my emotions anyways

I call upon your sovereignty, guide my bullets into this beast
shes claws me every time
I fall for her bait and its not right
my hands soak with this pain

she laughs right in my face

I'm hoping for a bullet or two
to rip off her mask and show me the ways

to loves Liberty's gates
where i can finally do what is right
to be a proper man

and fall in love With Wisdom not with a eternal fiery grave.

11:02 AM

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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

For Those Who Have Heart <3
Category: Writing and Poetry

"For Those Who Have Heart"

You never seen such a thing
You never felt so alive
ignite this fire
inside
and break this shell from hell
this corrupted flesh
that seeks to destroy all my life and my joy
its just not fun to fall for the same ploy
you can't get water from a rock
or expect a single thing
from a statue with a heart of stone

it feels so cold
you can prick it a thousand times
and get the same response
It has no life to hold on.

I'm calling out for you
to bring life to this statue so cold

bring me into light
The storm it swells but the wind will not prevail

against this fire in front of us
burn away all our lose
the vanity of our false trust

the injury of lust
you promised me everything
you said it would feel good
the pleasure that steals my heart

leaves me limping I feel so far apart
and I thought it would be fulfilling to me
but it leaves me feeling so unsatisfied

with a quick glance and stare
I see all the beauty but not sure
whats under the layers

its just so hard to decide
if there my enemy? or my beautiful queen?

I put my hand into the sky and wait for the direction of the breeze
please guide me to you're love

2:46 PM

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Sunday, November 16, 2008

"Breaking In Through"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Breaking In Through"

Your Heart Is screaming at me
You know where you belong

breath deep the fire is singing
dig deep into my eyes!

and Show me where you lay your head
Bring me to the end of my self

hiding under your Shadows
holds me close to your tomorrow

Bright Leaves ,Bright eyes ,Lips so right
I think You are so Divine

falling into your tomorrow
hiding under your wings
feeling our ways from disaster

has always been our way to Go

fill me with your Disaster
help me to find my way

throw me a line that leads me
to your divine lips of love

bring out in me what
I can't see

polish what I have undone

bring me to the horizon
break me into a song

lift me into your mind
show me where you lay your love

11:09 AM

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Monday, October 27, 2008

"Admitting The Obvious"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Admitting The Obvious"

I just got done cleaning your life

and you went back to the filth of the night

bathing your hands in the blood

of the sins of pass betrayal

you can't even keep your head above water

for a moment or two

you don't possess a strong will

your just there for me to heal

but you can't seem to feel

the blood I shed

you trample me

my sacrifice

that was given for you

I gave my life

but you didn't even move.

I closed my eyes

I look away

you were on a cross

I made your grave

I held the nails

I kept them steady

I will always fail

if you don't keep me awake

I can feel hell

shes calling my name

my will lacks everything I need

my desires lean toward evil and apostasy

its by your grace

then I ran this race

this hate I have

grows only for me

when I know whats right

and I do the opposite of things

I am in hell

I am my worst enemy

You change me from

the man I used to be

you make me strong

you are what makes me holy

were are so wrong

to say we don't need you

were just dust a breath of air blown into the distance.....

5:44 AM

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

"The Dilemma Of Sleep"
Category: Writing and Poetry

"The Dilemma Of Sleep"

Get your heart out
of my chest
its not like you said it would be

your breaking all
of the rules

your not who your meant to be

shakes your name out of my head
I don't want to remember a thing!

you always said things would be different
buts it's always the same old existence

and I'm screaming dead
my face turns red

where ripping apart
our debts are paid and at rest

jump
at
every chance

to be more then
you are today
who your meant to be

rip away from me
all the dead skin
and wretched deeds

that have polluted who I once was

my crimes have
robed me from
hours of sleep at night

I stay up till my conscience sleeps
I sleep till my mind doesn't speak

and can't hide from every dream
there still chasing me

and I wish I could be a brand new slate
pardon me from the one you gave me the other day!

change my ways.

break my fate

kill my habits
cause I can't handle it

I can't manage it

shot the pain
hide my grave

waiting till
time is fixed
death is quick

wake me up shake me around
stir me up from the ground

show me another day

Cause I'm not who I'm meant to be.

3:14 AM

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