Vallejo man, 26, killed in morning crash
Times-Herald staff report
Article Launched: 04/07/2008 06:31:54 AM PDT

A 26-year-old man was killed in a solo-vehicle crash in Vallejo early Sunday morning, police reported.
Anthony Asian was driving a 2003 Acura west on Columbus Parkway at about 12:24 a.m., when he hit the raised median and lost control of his car, police said.
His car flipped over, Asian was ejected from the vehicle, and the car landed on top of him, police said. He was pronounced dead at the scene, police said. Police said initial investigation suggested Asian may not have been wearing his seat belt. He had reportedly been at a party prior to the accident and alcohol may have been a factor in the crash, police said. There were no other occupants in the car and no other vehicles involved in the accident, officials reported.

~R.I.P ANTHONY ASIAN~

i’ll always remember you as Anthony..before the "Stank"... Remember when I got you to talk/look at me because I gave you a cigarette? I didnt even think you smoked. stupid to say it now..but, damn I wish I would have kept in touch better.

Apparently people have forgotten the kind of person I am... mainly, I myself have forgotten who I used to be. I have made adjustments, forgiven, forgotten, accepted and neglected. All within the span of a year. I have never felt that a year was a short period of time until I started reflecting on this past year. To think so many drastic ups and downs... so many comings and goings... all within ONLY 365 days.

Ivette had asked me awhile back if I had any New Years Resolutions.. I made a joke and admitted that I RARELY ever made any because I knew that I wouldnt keep them. Why do I bring this up?? Because I have decided I will make 2 very important resolutions this year. The only outcome will be a better me for me.

1) MORE ART. I have a talent... why am I allowing it to lay dorment. I have bitched in the past about not having that "thing" that people admire about me... I forgot that I do. I forgot because I was too busy feeling that my art isnt as good as someone else's art. Fuck that... my art is my art. It comes from somewhere inside my mind, body and soul. Its a part of me... ugly or not.

2) Stop being the Heather that I am today. Be the Heather that was happy regardless of who was or wasnt around.  Be the Heather that paid no mind to bullshit and made it clear to everyone.

I have chosen to start this resolution thingy ASAP because if I "say" ill start on January 1st.. I wont. Im not gonna front and say I will. I'm not capable of that.

NOW... For the PUBLIC WARNING.

This is a heads up to  you  20some people who continually read this bulletin. For those who respond with a comment, for those who respond with a direct message and for those who just read it and never say a word. I guess you few will knows whats up with the shift in attitude... the difference in my reactions to things... the lack of interaction with people. I'm not guaranteeing its a bad or good thing. But its all I can do to make my life and my surrounding a lt more pleasant and enjoyable.

Difference 1) I dont care. I dont care about playing friendly. I dont care about excuses, I dont care about flakes. I dont care about empty promises. I dont care so much that I choose not to even acknowledge it. If I know that your doing something less then genuine... thats on you. Im not going to call you out on it... thats on you. Im not going to make a big deal about it... thats on you. But dont sit at home wondering why I act different around you. Dont converse with others about my facial expressions or my lack of interest in what your saying or doing. Just know that you did something that leaves a weird taste in my mouth.. and who likes weird tastes in their mouth?? HAHAHA

Difference 2) I choose to not be hurt by those around me. I cant choose who my family is nor can I easily let go of my closest friends. Its unfortunate that we dont all get along all the time, but such is life. I refuse from this point on to be taken for granted anymore. No more "unpaid" favors...no more letting someone else take the credit for something I did. No more doing things for others even though im struggling or suffering. It all came fromt he heart straight to those I cared for... but a lot of them only repaid me with bullshit ungratefullness. I did a lot of that this year... A LOT. As much I wish I could just do things and be happy that I'm helping.. I cant. Sorry. But, im.. just being honest!! (go ahead, Im sure you said that with the "HEY YA" song in your head..just sing it real quick. I did)

Difference 3) If you ask me for an opinion or for advice. No more holding back. If you dont like what I have to say because its the truth... I dont care, thats your fault. I will only say what I think and not what you want to hear. I have learned that continually hearing ONLY what you want makes for some amazing brattiness, even in adults. If I know what your refering to.. I will say so. If I know that your unappreciative of the time im taking to even listen to drama... I wont even get into the problem. Its better time spent talking about positive then all the negative, especially with someone who wont even consider your solicited advice relevant.

Difference 4) If you ask me if I have a problem. I will say yes. Not because im DIGGING for one or looking to start a fight... but because I have no reason to play nice anymore. So obviously one will ask me based on how they see me reacting to them or whatever body language I am emoting. If it leads to throwing blows, so be it.  I cant make everyone happy, nor do I choose to concentrate on doing so.

There are other differences but I honestly find myself bored with this blog thingy again. Yes, there are a few exceptions to every rule. In this case, there are a few people. They know who they are (ihope) because they know whole heartedly their standing with me and how I love their sincerity with me and my family. The biggest reason I am making these changes is because I am done with pointing the finger. I'd rather enjoy life then to be sucked into some of the fucked up worlds of excuse makers, flakes, ungratefuls, brats, shady fools, hypocrites in denial and so on. Life IS short contrary to my prefious beliefs... so I can only do my best with whats left of mine.

One more thing before I go... always remember that if your not sure what the exact definition of a word is... DO NOT USE IT. YOU WILL OFFEND SOMEONE!! Even if your not sure how to correctly use it... YOU MIGHT GET SLAPPED OR PUNCHED IN THE THROAT. Ive seen it happen!! hahahaha

i:e 'father, compassion, whore, ho, stupid, ungrateful, excuses, intelligent, mature and bitch'

As usual, I think about a lot of things, but lately I've been thinking about a lot of the people "around" me.

My first realization is that the people around me arent just around "me"... they are alo involved with Jermaine, Jordan and Carmine.

Lately I've noticed a lot hypocrisy, a lot of self involvement...a lot of disappointments. I can not honestly say that I myself am free of doing anything offensive towards those around me. But see, I can admit to my flaws... I can hear about them from those I love with out making excuses for them... without being offended and/or overly defensive. (Unless you come at me sideways about a flaw, then I'll deny them and punch you in the throat. Agression only spurs more agression with me. Nothing will ever be heard)

My second realization is that those who preach the most about others flaws, whether it be to people in general, to specific people or just in a blog... those are the ones who are usually the most guilty of said flaw. It takes a lot of familiarity with something to speak on it.

My third realization... EVERYONE HAS FLAWS... BUT...not everyone will admit to them. With this I dont just mean making passive statements like "I know im not innocent!" or "I know I'm partly to blame.." It takes a genuine person.. an truly concerned person to admit to their flaws. EVEN the hard to hear ones.. the flaws that would usually make a stranger say "HELL NO.."

My final realization came to me earlier, while washing the dishes... I can sit here and write a complete blog about every little thing, write every little detail, about the aforementioned realizations. I could even use names, situations and dates. BUT WHY?? What is going to come of it?? Nothing!! Thats it. I finally get it. Bitching about the dumb shit that people do... the inconsiderate things... the selfish things... the hurtful things.... It doesnt change them. It doesnt make them want to be better. WHY?? They dont see themselves for the WHOLE person they are.  Until they can hear the excuses they make... see how much they disappoint their loved ones... nothing anyone says will make a difference.

I wrote a lot more then what you see here... I deleted a good 60% of what I originally wrote. Because while I think its completely moronic to be THAT full of shit as a person, I can not point the finger with out seeing the 3 pointing back at me. SO instead of continuing on with my rant about who treats me like shit... who is beyond selfish...or who is completely UNGRATEFUL... I'll move on to working on me.

Random Factoids about the not so famous Aqua, Heather, Feather, HeatherMarie, Heath.... Whatever you call me.. it all still applies.

I have an ecclectic assortment of music that I love... as most do. But I truly appreciate anything with a heavy bassline.. preferably something I can mosh to.. OR.. shake my jelly as if it were a salt shaker. For Example: Grime, Dancehall, Nu-Metal, SOME rap (notice my capitols)...

My style of choice... Tight top... baggy pants. ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS... ADIDAS. (Cant front like I dont have 1 pair of Nike Dunks.)

I have a strong affliction for anything and everything Plaid. I think its a side effect of the traumatic experience I had attending a catholic school that only had 1 nun present.

As of the last time I wrote anything about myself... nothing has changed in the I DONT LIKE THE GENERAL POPULATION. I think the lot of you out there are stupid and annoy me to an unnerving level. But thats just my opinion... I've learned to cope. Im still struggling with malls and other heavily occupied places.

I think a lot of the students that I catered too are unappreciative bastards who only care about who is available to get them to the next step... after that you are NO ONE... but then again, this is someone coming outta EAST OAKLAND. So is what they do to you really that surprising. Its survival of the fittest, if the succesfully manipulate.. you deserve it.

I procrastinate like a mutherfucker... I would explain and give examples... but I'll do that later.

If I could marry any musician... I would marry Method Man.

I tried out for cheerleading (YES, I had a momentary lapse in MY PERSONALITY)..but my grades werent good enough.. then I thought about it and realized that would have been pretty awkward cause St. Pats dont get down like public school cheerleaders. I dont know how to dance "white girl"

I like Avril Lavigne sometimes..

I embarass easily... for other people. Even the people on TV.

Im smarter then you... but Im also lazier. So its VERY hard to tell.

I HEART SARCASM.. unless your using toward me. Then I dont think its very funny anymore.

Im a hypocrite.

(You like how that worked out just now?)

I think whoever came up with Alice in Wonderland was heavily into Acid, LSD, or Opium... one or all. Its still one of my all time favs... along with Wizard of Oz (Which happens to be the american "version/response" to Alice) Both movies were created while TOASTED.

I used to want to be a DJ. Then I thought about it and realized I dont have want to entertain others... "BITCH... ENTERTAIN ME" *Points at self*

I am the laziest artist you will ever meet... I have not finished a painting in over a year.

I watch a lot of Disney channel... NOT BECAUSE I HAVE CHILDREN. But because I want to.

I think some of that "Rave" music is dope... mainly Drum n Bass...

I like buying weird/random things from thrift stores, because little things make me happy. I can say that honestly... but I will also say that big things make me happy too..

I know enough spanish to get me by... but dont ask me to say anything. I have a horrible time with accents... any accent, even filipino. Just not in me.

I bore myself.

Im forgetful...so much that I was even writing this for like half an hour. realquick.

I will invest a lot into a person..but when you start showing your ass... I start to really give 2 shits about you. I'll give you advice, sympathy whatever you need...except a permanent place in my heart.

I loose interest in things, places and PEOPLE

Im bored... goodnight.

Through out recent years... I have found myself being compared to many a thing... The Chesire Cat... An angry anime character... a pitbull.... so many things... But I have to say that my favorite was and always will be... FOAMY!! It started a few years ago when I showed my friend at the time a Foamy cartoon. She began laughing hysterically and said "I KNOW WHY YOU LIKE HIM.... HE SOUNDS JUST LIKE YOU AQUA, CONSTANTLY RANTING!!" Laughter ensued between us for hours and so began the comparisons... she brought it to my room mates attention, which of course, he totally agreed. I asked Jermaine soon after, he laughed and agreed. I think it became a "right of passage" for me... ACCEPT WHAT YOU ARE!! And for me... a complete spastic ranter was just that. I dont "RANT" frequently... but when I do.. its pretty random and if im actually FOCUSED.. it can LAST for a very long time.

I dont think I had ever actually put that together on my own..but regardless of what happened with those friendships or that particular part of my life... I will always find that small portion as one of the "Goodtimes"... mainly because it was one of few times where a good/entertaining characteristic of mine was pointed out... (I guess being called violent and scary gets old after awhile. hahaha jk) I know there have been others who have randomly compared me to Mr. Foamy himself... and no matter what... I will NEVER find it offensive. I love being the one who will say outloud what you think in private.

I have decided to post a few Foamy vids...as pure entertainment...Once I can figure out how to...

I still HATE Mercedes'

Alton Brown on the Food Network is our FAVORITE!!

Why is it that every "new" makeup product has an "AGE DEFYING BREAKTHROUGH"... ????

I thought for the longest time that I wouldnt be nervous with this baby's delivery. I was wrong. I think that because of my previous experience... I am more nervous. It is hitting me stronger everyday that I am going to have this baby and its going to HURT! I mean obviously...

My infatuation with Water and Lemon is fading... That makes me sad .

Music in general has kinda let me down lately... I dont blame music or the artists that I favor... I cant figure it out myself. Just dont seem to be too into anything lately. I use music as a distraction against my own thoughts...at least in my car. At home.. I use the TV for that... check our PGE bill... you'll see.

I REALLY wanna travel.  But I wanna go somewhere BESIDES california. I got love for my state... but I want to see whats outside. I got love for my country... but I wanna see what the rest of the world is up to.. or not up to.

I hate warm/hot drinks. I have been known to make this statement a complete LIE by buying myself a white chocolate mocha coffee thing from Starbucks. But thats the only warm/hot drink I will have.

I have MAJOR trust issues... Sorry.

I frequently get dizzy and lose my sense of gravity. But I will never say it outloud.

I am probably one of the few people that you will meet who truly distracted by "shiney objects"... It's uncontrollable. LITERALLY... I am easily distracted... even sound, but mainly objects.

 I like taking pictures... but hate taking a picture. Hopefully you understand that.

When I first started working at WCC... everyone called me Chesire... Because my smile reminded them of the Chesire Cat... A coworker described it as this..."You have this huge, consuming smile... if you focus on the smile alone... its inviting and warming. If you look at your eyes... and the way your always looking into people...its creepy. It's like you know something but wont share it. Watching people squirm under your smile is entertaining for you." 

My favorite character on Family Guy is Herbert...but not his dog. His dog makes me dry heave. Herbert?? you ask... He is the old guy / pedophile....

Jermaine and I are obessed with King of Queens. Have you ever seen a big guy pole dance??

We call our baby "MONKii"...

I want a burrito!!

I think that the MONKii is planning an alternative excape route..by way of my ribs and or bowels!

Im bored. This blog took me a lot LONGER then it would have taken most...
You question why?? The answer lies above somewhere...

Jermaine and I wanted to take the time to say a few special/specific thank you's.... This is a precursor to the actual thank you cards we will be sending out.

First and Foremost... JEREMY
You TRULY came through for us!! Jermaine and I are beyond grateful for everything you did. You did everything you possibly could to give us what we wanted or needed. You are family to us... you have always been a brother to Jermaine, but now you have that same status with me. I appreciate everything you did... AND didnt do. The fact that you did EVERYTHING in your power, whether it involved money or not, to make me comfortable... THAT SPEAKS VOLUMES TO ME AND MY HEART. Again, thank you Meliton!! (p.s. Thank your uncle and auntie for us... I know Jermaine said it already, but I found out after the fact. That was WAY nice of them to give us that food!! WAY NICE)

SISSY & BRUDDER
Thank you both for continually offering to help out with the babyshower. Thank you both for just checking on me and my comfort. Thank you AJ for being so damn cute and pulling Tita out of her grumpy mood!! *nibbles toes*
Im glad that we have you 3 as family. Without you 3 there, I think Jermaine and I would have had more issues then neccessary for that day. Just your presence alone helped us to remain calm, even in the midst of last minute details. We LOVE LOVE LOVE OUR VALENCIANA'S!!

HONEY
Thank you SOO much for handling those favors for us... I hate to think what might have happened if I would've gone with my other option for favors. They were BEYOND adorable and were SOOO PERFECT. You really came through for us. We love you!!

PATRICK
Even though you wont read this.. I want to put it out there that you are a great person and you have continually made that clear to me and Jermaine. You stepped in when we needed you for the babyshower... you honestly didnt have to, and that means a lot to us. I also want to thank you personally for randomly checking on me... for taking care of me whenever inmy presence. THATS FAMILY!! Love you.. and dont be surprised if your the one taking me to the hospital if I go into labor at night... HAHA

Jonee
Thanks for the cake and thank your mom for the Caldereta. You really didnt need to buy the cake, if I would've known, I would've asked someone else to take care of it. To help you RELIEVE YOUR PERSONAL stress.

JULIE
Thank you sooo much for coming all the way out!! Even with the traffic. Jermaine and I appreciate you stopping and getting that tray at the last minute. That was sweet of you!  Your godson LOVES YOU!! Thank you for ALL of the gifts... material items arent my main concern but you outdid yourself this time and you should know that!! Jermaine is jealous of my diaper bag because its bigger then the TWO he has. We LOVE YOU and everything you are. Even a couple family members said you were really sweet and are going to make a good Godmother!!

IVETTE
YOU'RE TOO FUNNY!! No matter how much time has passed, we will ALWAYS giggle at that duck!! You hit Jermaine and I on the nose even before ever meeting us in person. Thank you, as well, for coming ALL THE WAY up to share in our day, ESPECIALLY because of the crazy traffic that day. You are an amazing presence and you are a JOY to be around. Jermaine said he knew you were a good friend just from you participating in the beer game!! Only a good friend participates in something so humiliating (love the bib) HAHA.

ELLA & VINCE (Kids included)
I know your asses wont read this.. cause you dont have the myspace, but like with Patrick, I just want this out there, floating in the universe. You 2 are like extended family to us... Ella, Ive know you for awhile, wasnt neccessarily always close to you, but I do know that you always had Jordan's best interest in mind!! Thanks to the wonders of AIM, we were given the opportunity to become a lot closer. Vince, you've always been Jermaine's boy and thats a fact. We've always been cool, and after the babyshower... you've officially become my comedic relief!! Thanks to both of you for helping out at the end of the night. Considering you 2 were GUESTS, you totally didnt have to help clean up. I just wanted to go the hell home and get off my feet. Tell Veronica and Darion thanks for coming as well. Jordan said Thanks to Darion for hanging out all day. Thanks for helping me decorate that day Veronica.. and keeping me company throughtout the day!! LOVE YOU ALL... We will see you at the babyshower. I'll be over there whenever you need to help with the favors or prizes, cause I know that doing it alone is a real BITCH. So I WILL MAKE THAT OFFER, and force my way over whether you like it or not.

For ANYONE that I might have forgotten in this blog... I am truly sorry. Its not that we dont love you.. its that its 3:52 am, my brain is drained and I am pregnant! hahah I love that excuse!! BUT IN ALL HONESTY WE LOVE YOU ALL FOR COMING!! For anyone who helped us at the last minute... we ARE REALLY GRATEFUL to have you in our lives. We want to thank everyone for the gifts... It was obvious that everyone put thought into what they were buying.. not for us... but for our soon to be little MONKii!!

IM LOVING IT..