Myspace just got boring is all. Nobody ever sends me messages, nobody has asked me how I'm doing. I got tired of being a one way friend, doing all the caring and getting nothing in return. There are only a few who are exempt from this - Ness, Shay, my long lost and found brother Mikey and of course Matt. Matt, who has also gotten so fed up with myspace and the lack of caring from others that he's deleted his account and moved on to Facebook.

Why facebook? People actually talk to us there. O_O What?! Yes. They actually seem to care enough to see how we're doing every day. The only reason I'm not deleting my account is because I still care about the friends I have here. I don't even care if nobody responds to this, it wasn't typed up to make anyone feel bad. It is what it is. People are just too busy in their own lives to take a minute out to reach out to those who still care about them. Sorry, but it hurts my feelings and I'm just tired of it.

For Mikey from your big sis.

Somewhere out there,
beneath the pale moonlight,
someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
someone's saying a prayer,
that we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there.

And even though I know how very far apart we are,
it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star.

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.

Somewhere out there,
if love can see us through,
then we'll be together, somewhere out there,
out where dreams come true.












God... I just wish we could start over. I hate this. It hurts so much.

My eyes are open wide
By the way I made it through the day
I watch the world outside
By the way I'm leaving out today

I just saw Haley's Comet she waved
Said "Why you always running in place?"
Even the man in the moon disappeared
Somewhere in the stratosphere

[Chorus]
Tell my mother, tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

Please don't cry one tear for me
I'm not afraid of what I have to say
This is my one and only voice
So listen close, it's only for today

I just saw Haley's Comet shooting
Said "Why you always running in place?"
Even the man in the moon disappeared
Somewhere in the stratosphere

[Chorus]
Tell my mother, tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

Here is my chance
This is my chance

Tell my mother, tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance [x3]

I don't hate you, or want you
Enough to wake you.
There's a crack in the window
Return off the key in ignition

So if you freeze tomorrow
Come back
Lucky
We said as your eyes were closing

There's a crack in the window
Return off the key in ignition.
But I don't hate you, or want you,
or celebrate you

So if you freeze tomorrow
Come back
Lucky
We said as your eyes were closing

So if you freeze tomorrow
Come back
Lucky
We said as your eyes were closing

But I don't hate you, or want you,
enough to wake you

So if you freeze tomorrow
Come back
Lucky
We said as your eyes were closing

So if you freeze tomorrow
Come back
Lucky

We said as your eyes were closing x5

So if you freeze tomorrow
Come back
Lucky

I despise being neglected.

The movies never mentioned the smell. Putrid, rotting flesh that had once been intact and wonderfully alive. The way the tendrils would climb and twine about your senses, strangling your brain and making it a jumble of intense fear. Anything that dead and not buried beneath a mound of dirt could only mean one thing. The dead, just were not that dead. And small piles of earth were not enough to contain them. If it hadn't have been for the sound of nearly every dog in the neighborhood baying a ring of alarm, if it hadn't have been for our own two mutts backing into my behind while planting a row of impatiens... who knows how long I would have reacted without the smell of death breathing down upon my vulnerable neck.



[to be cont.]

My brother contacted me on myspace! If I hadn't have been sitting down last night, surely I would have passed out when I saw his message. We talked and talked and talked, and when it came time to let him go... neither one of us could bear to hang up first. Tha's mi hermano! Words cannot express the happiness I feel right now. I can't even find it in me to type out these words for fear that it'll slip right through my fingers.
We're never letting each other go now that we're reunited!

Why am I never on myspace anymore? Why do I only login every other month now?

Pfft..

No reason to be.

Some quotes from this book I'm reading, and I like them. I love when books put awesome quotes at the beginning of every chapter. n_n
 

The prince of darkness is a gentleman.
~Shakespeare

 

But strength alone, though the Muses born,
Is like a fallen angel: trees uptorn,
Darkness, and worms, and shrouds, and sepulchers
Delight it; for it feeds upon the burrs
And thorns of life; forgetting the great end
Of poesy, that it should be a friend
To soothe the cares, and lift the thoughts of man.
~Keats

 

I can endure my own despair, but not another's hope.
~William Walsh

 

For I do not do the good I want,
but the evil I do not want is what I do.
~Romans 7:19

 

[More to come as I go through this novel.]

Tonight was a really good night. Got busy, went and had a bite to eat.. Drove around looking at awesome Christmas lights around Mt. Healthy, hit up Walmart for a while and checked out everything there. Went to this Nativity scene set up at this historical building, it was HUGE! There were 3 adult donkeys, one was pregnant and then there was a baby donkey. And on the other side of the scene there were huge sheep, all kinds of goats and two baby goats that were black and brown. They were VERY cute! The baby goats were prancing everywhere, leaping off of this bale of hay, chasing each other. Very cute.

And then Matt and I went chasing this spotlight, drove about 20-30 minutes trying to find out where it was located. We went from Mt. Healthy to Fairfield, all through Winton Woods.. I had my head out of the window, which wasn't that bad because it was 60 degrees out tonight. Matt says there's a rule, that whenever you see a spotlight in the sky you HAVE to find it. That drive tonight was fun, we sang to Christmas songs and had fun just simply being together driving.. I loved it. I love him. That's my baby. <3