my dad’s out of jail.

im not too sure how i feel about it

i haven’t seen him yet though.

bleh.

Ehh some things are off.

So this blog is a message to a certain person. I doubt she will read it but i just need to get everything off my chest.

ahem...

Where to start...you were my best friend for 4 years. And now you have ended it. I could be mad or bitter but honestly I really don't care. Why should I get so upset over someone who obviously didn't give a shit about me because you didn't even try to fix things. You just agrued with me and then cut off any contact with you, you didn't let me get in a final word. And how dare you call me a liar and say I didn't cry. I did. I wouldn't lie about something like that. And how dare you call me one of them. You know me better than that.

But I have to say, I am so grateful you were my friend. You taught me so much about the world and made me a better person. It's just sad that it had to end like this.

I really do wish you the best. Have a nice life.

Just try not to fuck it up too badly.

ugh

Okay well for those who don't know, I live with my sister and is in a different school district. Well. I am not sure how much longer I can make the school think I live with my parents or even in the school district. I keep having to fill out these forms and stuff like today about my parents job[[neither work]] and when i have to go to the nurse i have to make up an excuse for me staying at my sister's;;like parents are on vacation or something]] and grrrr.

But if they do find out somehow, somebody has to take temporary gardienship of me, either my sister[[i hope]], my aunt[[maybe]], or my grandmother[[oh god please no]]. If my sister does i can try to go out of district but if i cant i have to go tp TJ. If my aunt or my Grandmother does I am deffinetley not going to be able to go to FHS.

I just hope they never find out. I'm a junior and i really wanna finish out at FHS.

=[

Peace.

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Okay so...

My father has been sentenced to 18 months in jail which wasn't too bad of a shock for me, I really doubted that he was going to get out today. Plus I think everything happens for a reason so I think that if he is suppose to be in there to help him get better then he'll stay in there. But he already served 6 months so that might be taken off, I'm not sure yet.

For my mother, haven't herd from her. oh well. =/

Peace.

So my dad's court date is this friday and I'm freaking nervous. I halfly want him to get out so he can rebuild his life and what not. On the other half I don't want him to get out because I'm scared he'll end up doing what he was doing before.

Supposevly he gave my mother an ultimatim but I don't know the deatails just yet.

Let's see..
School is going fine. I'm actually getting halfway sorta good grades. Every time I move into someone else's[other than my parents] house I do a lot better. Plus I don't get that depressed no more. Well unless my parents do something stupid or other things happen but nothing major.

That's about it for now.

I'll let you guys no what happens on friday with my dad.

Peace.

Me and Becky's Conversation on yahoo.

Note: twistedelegance_x is me =p.

[[talking about Becky's new obsession]]

Becky Shelton: you kno what?
twistedelegance_x: what....?
Becky Shelton: im turing into a nightmare before christmas addict
twistedelegance_x: yay! I just finished your layout. I love that movie, it's one of my favorites
twistedelegance_x: so would you like a nightmare shirt along with your zim one?
Becky Shelton: i watched it last night and again just now
Becky Shelton: lol, yes please
Becky Shelton: lol
Becky Shelton: (jack is hot
Becky Shelton: lol
twistedelegance_x: haha no problem. I'll probably end up sending you  million nightmare things just because i love it too and everything i'll see i'll be like "oooh becky would like that". you're gonna make me even poorer
twistedelegance_x: oh he is
twistedelegance_x: i love him
twistedelegance_x: =D
Becky Shelton: lucky sally
twistedelegance_x: haha
Becky Shelton: dont forget to get yourself some other things....
twistedelegance_x: haha okay
Becky Shelton: there should be a second movie, where jack and sally get it on
Becky Shelton: lol
twistedelegance_x: lol I wanted to the the 3D version but never got to =[
Becky Shelton: awwww..... so sad
Becky Shelton: i could ask you a really funny question, but it kinda be gross
twistedelegance_x: lol go ahead.
Becky Shelton: you think he has a hard time getting a boner?
Becky Shelton: haha
twistedelegance_x: lmao
Becky Shelton: lol
twistedelegance_x: omg. i never thought about that
Becky Shelton: hahaha, how didnt you?
twistedelegance_x: I guess I was still thinking about how sally goes about is she is full of leaves
Becky Shelton: lol, i no right

Later...

[[talking about how becky has Jack Skellington on her Heros list]]

twistedelegance_x: jack used to be on mine too. when i had one
Becky Shelton: lol
Becky Shelton: i envy jack, hes hot without even haveing a fave
Becky Shelton: *face
twistedelegance_x: he really is. back off, i saw him first
Becky Shelton: lol, we can share him, hes tall
twistedelegance_x: lmao, of course
Becky Shelton: so which end you want?
twistedelegance_x: top =p
Becky Shelton: awww... cant we split him down the middle
twistedelegance_x: sure. i'm sure he won't mind but we might have to do something about sally.
Becky Shelton: thats ok, i no some guys at the bar who can do their work quiet and clean, no one would ever no
twistedelegance_x: omg good. i was worried about that for a second
Becky Shelton: then wen shes out of the picture we can act like sally, and alternate of course
Becky Shelton: lol, she wont be a problem

haha, I love you Becky.

Peace.

hey guys.

omg, you have no freaking idea how much my parents are pissing me off right now.

First, My great-grandmother called earlier today and was like "Ever since your mother has been here she has been drinking and been drunk."

Well, if the wasn't enough to get me in a bad mood I got a letter from my father saying "If your mother has to go to a shelter you need to go with her, who knows how long Omar[[sister's husband]]will let you stay there. You're only 16 and my child you need to listen to your parents and blah blah blah".

Okay, well first of all my mother has been drunk all week so she obviously hasn't called a shelter. Secondly, I may be only 16 but I am no child, I have been taking care of myself for years and as far as I'm concerned I have no parents anymore. Third, How messed up does that sound that my "father" is telling his child to leave a home where she feels confortable and safe and tell her to go to a freaking shelter so her drunkened "mother" doesn't have to live with her grandmother.

Seriously I am so angry right now I am shaking and crying and I feel like punching something. I am so tired of my "parents" telling me what to do when they don't even know how to be good parents in the first place.

I really want to write my "father" a letter telling hom all this and mroe but they're not enough words in the english dictionary to express my feelings right now.

ugh, I'm done with the ranting right now. I'm just all grrrrr and junk and felt I didn't to vent.

peace.

Hey guys,

So I have been feeling blah latley. I am so tired of my life right now. I just want to lock myself in a room and never come out. AND I am so fucking tired of people complaining about their stupid little problems and they so think that the world is going to end if everyone doesn't stop what they are doing and give them all their attention. Grow the hell up people, actual people have way bigger problems that you could ever even think of. All you freaking want is attention.

Which is why I never really talk about my parents and what not that much anymore, I feel like people think I'm just some attention whore who wants people to feel sorry for her. Actually I fucking hate that when I am trying to tell people what is bothering me and they're all like "aww I'm sorry." like I really do not want you're pitty I just want someone who listens to me and not make the judgmental sorry face.

Oh, and I hate how people always complain about their parents when infact they have the perfect parents. [[Note: I am about to complain about parents.]] Try living, or rather not living, with mine. I basically raised myself the past 5 years of my life with my father always out getting high and my mother passed out drunk. And when they both were home and she was drunk it was a mad house. Screaming and hitting and what not. Anyway, my point is that no matter how much my parents are a fuck up and no matter how much they may have damaged me I know they still love me and I do love them too. So stfu and go play in traffic.

**Sighs** ranting over.

Peace.

Finally a Junior!

Anybody have my classes?

Period:          Class:                      Teacher:
Semester 1
1                   English 11M            Cosby =[
2                   Biology M                Delameter
3             Child Development 1    Moore
4                 French 3 =[                 Anderson =[

Semester 2

1                  Ceramics 2                 Reilly
2             Modern World History  Crompton
3                   Algebra 2                  Buckner
4                  Found. of Tech.         Poffenberger

Hey people

Well Here is an update on my life.

I'm still living with my sister. But I spend most weekends at my sunt's house.

Father still in jail

Mother hasn't gotten into a rehab yet. She's staying with her grandmother untill then.

Ugh, I'm so ready for summer to end. It's so boring. At least in school you had something to do instead of sitting around and going on myspace while your brain cells waste away.

Awww, Adrian[[nephew]]was all sickly the past couple days. He's better now but my sister is now sick. Hopefully I won't get sick. That's no fun.

That's about it for now.

love you guys

=]

Hey guys.

Well, I have news

Me and mom got evicted from our apartment. So now I'm living with Heather and sometimes my aunt lisa. And Mother Is satying with a cousin untill she can find a rehab to go to. yes, i said it. finally, mom is going to go to rehab BUT just in case. everyone keep their fingers crossed.

I think I'm going to like being at heather's so much now. Wayy less drama and stress.

Sooooo, I'm going to the beach this weekend with Saalika. Should be fun. I haven't been in a while plus it's been forever since I've seen her so yeah.

Well guess that's it.

peace

So it's 2:31am and no one happens to be online so i thought a blog was in order.

I have officially decided summer is my least favorite holiday. Stupid Hotness

You know what's not right? 12 people read my last blog and only two people left me a kudo. so what's up people? huh? huh? lol

Hmmm, Roseanne is on. I think I'll watch that.

So yeah, I know this was a totally random blog but hey, I'm bored.