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November 7, 2009 - Saturday 

Current mood:  worried
Category: News and Politics


Barack Obama's half-brother divulges that their father was abusive: 'My father beat my mother... and my father beat me.'




Mark Ndesandjo, half-brother of President Barack Obama, is the author of a semi-autobiographical book that features an abusive parent patterned after their late father.



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November 6, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  sympathetic
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
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November 6, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  sad
Category: News and Politics


The Washington Times

Friday, November 6, 2009


Sniper's ex-wife speaks out on abuse

Adrienne T. Washington


 


Mildred Muhammad says if the police and others "had just listened" to her, the victims of the D.C. sniper might still be alive and ex-husband John Allen Muhammad would not be facing execution next week.

"If they just would have listened, if they just would have put his name in the [National Crime Information Center], if he had been debriefed, if he had been counseled," she said, shaking her head in hindsight about the preventive measures that might have averted the 2002 sniper shooting spree.

Speaking in the suburban Washington office of her nonprofit anti-domestic violence organization, After the Trauma, Mrs. Muhammad maintained that Muhammad conducted the sniper spree as an elaborate ruse to disguise his plans to kill her and reclaim the three children he lost in their divorce in 1999.
 
"It's unfortunate that innocent lives were lost because John wanted to cover up my murder," she said.
 
Muhammad and his accomplice, Lee Boyd Malvo, then a teenager, terrorized the area during a three-week killing spree in October 2002 that left 10 people dead.

Muhammad was sentenced to death for the murder of Dean Harold Meyers at a Manassas gas station and is scheduled to be executed Tuesday. Malvo was sentenced to life without parole.
 
Lawyers for Muhammad have filed for clemency from Virginia Gov. Tim Kaine on the grounds that their client is mentally ill. They are seeking a stay of execution from the U.S. Supreme Court.
 
Now, Mrs. Muhammad's main mission is getting the public to realize that victims of domestic violence do not have to show scars to prove abuse. Verbal, psychological, financial abuse and stalking - all of which she suffered toward the end of her dozen years with Muhammad - are insidious forms of domestic violence that often occur long before the bruises, beatings and even death.
 
She has written a book about her experience, called "Scared Silent," which was released last month. She said the date was timed to coincide with Domestic Violence Awareness Month and was set before a Virginia judge scheduled Muhammad's execution date.
 
"It is not to explain or get notoriety," she said of the book.

Based on how her ex-husband interacted with his own children, Mrs. Muhammad said she is certain Muhammad manipulated Malvo, whom she never met. She agreed to testify on Malvo's behalf at her children's insistence because they blamed their father for his accomplice's actions.

"They thought [Malvo] was a good person. They had fun with him. They went swimming with him, and that's what friends do," she said. "That's why they asked me to help Lee. They said, 'Mommy, you have to help Lee because if it wasn't for Daddy, he wouldn't be where he is.' "

"Lee was a victim, too," she said.

But to get someone to kill another human being? "You don't know John," she said.
 
She added that once Malvo was away from Muhammad, "a different person emerged and he was remorseful." After he was captured, the teen sniper sent letters to victims' families "telling them how sorry he was."

Mrs. Muhammad, 50, said her ex-husband's personality changed after he returned in March 1991 from Saudi Arabia, where he had served as an Army sergeant during the Gulf War.

"He acted as if his spirit had been broken - he was confused and depressed all the time and he didn't know where he wanted to go or how to get there," she said.

Eventually, he "manipulated" the couple's friends and convinced them that she was "a drama queen" who lied about his abuses.

"An abuser is a 'Dr. Jekyll, Mr. Hyde' for a reason; he is a different person on the inside, from the outside ... he was two different people," she said. She contended that this explains Muhammad's insistence on his innocence in the slayings: "If you didn't see me do it, then I didn't do it."

Mrs. Muhammad said it is ironic that when her ex-husband was first caught, the only thing police had to hold him on was a weapons charge that stemmed from a restraining order she had obtained against him in Tacoma, Wash.

Police staked out her sister's suburban Maryland home, where she sought refuge from Muhammad, for a nearly week before they knocked on the door, took her to police headquarters and interrogated her, then reluctantly revealed that they were going to charge Muhammad for the sniper shootings.

All she could think about was how to tell her children before they heard it from the media.

"It's still hard to believe that John... did all that..." she said.

Throughout the ordeal, Mrs. Muhammad's biggest concern has been the well-being of her three children, she said. "I've been helping my children deal with their dad and Lee Malvo at the same time."

Neither she nor the children have seen or spoken to Muhammad since he was captured in 2002, but they sent him a letter asking to visit him before his execution.

The children "know what the public feels about their father," she said, adding that "they don't condone nor do they feel responsible" for what Muhammad did.

"Regardless of how anybody else feels, he's still their father," she said.

Her college-aged son and two teen daughters "need to see him ... to seek some type of closure and say 'I love you' one more time."

That last-minute request for a visit is unlikely to be granted, given prison rules. She said it wouldn't be appropriate for the children to watch their father die.

Even though it was painful, the children watched many of the news accounts and documentaries about Muhammad's crimes.

"It was hard for me, but I felt like they needed to know," Mrs. Muhammad said. "And you can't put your head in the sand about this, this was worldwide news. To deprive them of the information would have been more of an insult to them and would have harmed them in the long run."

They seem "pretty well now" as the execution date approaches, Mrs. Muhammad said. "We're handling it one day at a time."

Mrs. Muhammad is waiting for her children to say what they want to do on Tuesday evening when the execution takes place. Whatever it is, she said, "we will be at home," together.




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October 17, 2009 - Saturday 

Current mood:  weird
Category: Life

Someone keeps peeping through my front door peek hole. I know when they do it because the peek hole on my front door goes dark, and I can hear them shuffling around outside. The few times I've got up the nerve to actually go to the front door and peek back out at them, they've left. All I could see was a dark hood walking away from the front door and rounding the corner to the adjacent parking garage.

I know they can't see in my house, I know they can't see what I'm doing.

It's just very creepy.

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September 29, 2009 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  distraught
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
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September 27, 2009 - Sunday 

Current mood:  complacent
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities


 
Earlier this month, clips of a taped television interview that gospel music sensation Tonex conducted for 'The Lexi Show' (on the Gospel network) surfaced on the Internet and caused a heated frenzy within the black religious industry. During the revealing conversation, the internationally renowned music superstar (nee Anthony Williams III) talked candidly about his homosexuality, his failed marriage and his thoughts on the black church. As expected, when someone touches upon such a taboo subject, it strikes a chord among others. But as the multiple Stellar Award-winning virtuoso tells it, in his very own words, it was a lot more than he ever bargained for. Below is Tonex's exclusive testimony to BlackVoices.com:

Okay, so now since it's really gone mainstream, there is really no backpedaling is there?

After all of the buzz surrounding the Lexi interview, things started spinning out of control. What was said, what wasn't said, and how after you tell the truth even that truth has the propensity to get twisted. However, it's never a crime to face yourself and speak your heart. And you must have heart to tell the world who you are.

I never thought in a million years that I would find the courage to speak so freely about where I am as a human, a man and a child of God. After much soul searching and Bible reading, I had to come to some decisions about myself that I knew weren't going to be the easiest to confront, especially since I was a prominent figure in the religious community and gospel music at large. How would my family deal with this when it aired? And would the content be congruent with what was actually filmed after post production? I have to say that Lexi kept her word about professional journalism, and if people watch all three parts, they will see the totality of what was covered -- not just the sensationalism.

I scheduled the interview, but I had no idea of the nature of the questions. I mean, I have yet to see faith-based journalists explicitly present these kind of questions to anyone else, but that's why they asked me, because they know I'm going to give them an answer. It was spontaneous, but I had already come to terms with myself and knew that I would be able to answer with clarity, calmness and truth. Why ? Because I was tired of being asked about my sexuality, and I was still on a journey to find the fullness of what that is. To be honest, I'm still on that journey.

I'm studying daily on the subject of same-sex matters. I'm tired of echoing what I've been told. I want to know for myself the true interpretation of scriptures in Biblical text and well as scientific documentation.

You know, it's not easy growing up in a Pentecostal/Evangelical church, where everyone is pretty much anti-gay, although it's common knowledge that some of the most anointed musicians and singer-songwriters have, or have dealt with, same-sex attraction at some point. For me, it was particularly taboo because of my upbringing and the ministerial call on my life. I then had to think about the repercussions of this revelation. But I knew I had to get free. That interview was cathartic for me.

It turns out that was the very first time an award-winning mainstream gospel artist openly admitted these things about his or her sexual orientation. I didn't really think about that either until after the fact, when someone mentioned it to me. Believe me, that's nothing that I'm happy about. It actually kind of sucks. I had no blueprint; I was actually making one. I had no clue of what would happen; I would have to wait and see. People make telling the truth sound so easy, but it's not. Not because you don't know whether it's the right thing to do, but because you don't know what people are going to do with it once they hear it. And, more importantly, what part of the truth they really gonna hear.

There was so much more in that interview that I thought was, unfortunately, overlooked. So much more to my story then the sexuality part, but most church folks are sexually repressed anyway, so they naturally gravitate right toward that type of subject matter. I noticed parts one and three weren't juicy enough for the church or the public, yet they were the key to the whole puzzle. I talked about my same-sex attraction. I don't think that there was any new information here. I've addressed this issue in my music for years. But for many, I guess, it was a shock of sorts. But believe me, it wasn't for shock value. The real story is not cute, ladies and gentlemen. Freedom, my friends, is not for cowards.

Amazingly, after the interview, I could not believe that 96 percent of the responses were positive. Many were commending me on my poise, my intellect and the way I handled the entire process. No, everyone didn't agree with every point I made, but they had to applaud my courage for speaking out on such a private matter. I felt the need to address it candidly because we've been skating around the subject of homosexuality and the church for a long time -- enjoying the benefits of same-gender-loving people, yet abusing them from the pulpits.

No one said stop preaching against fornication, lust, lying, stealing or adultery. What I am saying is that we need to stop focusing on people's private lives and sexual orientation and preach the truth of God's salvation. Whatever your faith may be, no one has the right to blatantly disrespect or harass another human being. Beyond that, we have no need to go into people's closets and private matters. Teach the word, and let God handle the rest. His love is much greater than His judgment.

This is the position I am holding: God's love is indeed for everyone. Although that interview is being dubbed my "coming out," that was the least of what was being conveyed. Healthy, committed, monogamous relationships on both sides of the spectrum were mentioned, particularly marriage for a man and a woman (even though I have not come to terms about gay marriage). I still feel commitment is much better than promiscuity. Abstinence, of course, is ideal, but in this generation, it's just not a likely reality.

The other reactions are another story. Within no time, every engagement that I had to preach or sing in churches or faith-based concert venues was canceled. I suppose they did not want a demon-possessed homosexual on their stage or pulpit, although I never stopped preaching or teaching the same doctrine and principles that I spoke on before. I'm still the same dude today. I believe that people still have not seen the interview themselves; they are going by what they've heard someone else tell them.

I was the same person back then as I am now, the one that God used to help a lot of people. The phobias that I am witnessing are scary. People who serve this loving God are showing so much hate for one of His beloved children. And I understand where they are coming from, because it's never really been addressed this way. I'm standing out here naked. And, frankly, people are angry.

Some said I should have shown remorse; some say that I'm leading people astray. All I did was tell the truth. It's no wonder why people lie within this system. Not because they believe in everything man says but because they have bills to pay. The hypocrisy of this should have left me quite burnt out with the whole situation. So then I had to shift my focus off of religion and move toward being a pioneer. Charting new territory for an oppressed people that truly love God and have been ostracized beyond belief -- the sheep of another fold.

I speak of them in a song called 'This is All of Me.' I was speaking for all the "kids" around the world. Basically the kids are boys and girls that are LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual or transgender), a group that has a 30 percent suicide rate among gay and bisexual youth. And the young men with more "feminine gender-role characteristics" and those who recognized their same-sex orientation at an early age and acted on those sexual feelings seem to face the highest risk of self-destructive behavior.

Because no one is affirming the existence of these young people. No one is showing them love. No one is showing them life or God or beauty. They are only shown hell, death, bigotry and damnation. But even for this community and other social outcasts, there is still room at the cross.

I will continue my recording activism, advocating fair treatment of all people, including these people, my own people, with whom I not only sympathize but empathize. I have experienced firsthand what it's like to be teased, abused, yelled at and preached against. I've been told that I am worse than a serial killer. No one can ever tell me that I willfully opted for choosing this road. I wanted it out of me. In the past, I had even attempted to take my own life, but God's mercy said no.

As I continue down this path of self-discovery, my prayer is that others will see that we are your sons, daughters, cousins, nieces and nephews silently crying inside, coping with fear and uncertainty. We need love and affirmation. We need to know that it's okay to talk about these issues in a safe family environment and that we will be respected not just for our art and talents but for the beautiful human beings that God created us to be. After all, He does not make mistakes. I would not be here typing had it not been for the prayers of the righteous and real friends who understand the challenge of taking the road less traveled. May we all show love toward one another. The greatest command is love another. Thank you for listening to my testimony.

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August 9, 2009 - Sunday 

Current mood: NOIDED THE EFF UP
Category: Life



Today is Sunday, August 09, 2009, and at approximately 4:45PM I met up with Mr. Freemason again. This time it was at our neighborhood lake, which is located somewhere between my old community and the new one where I moved shortly after meeting up with his creepy behind the first time.

 

He was talking on his cell phone. Upon spotting me his eyes opened wide as he told his phone buddy, “Hey—let me get back at you later.”

 

He walked over to me and looked directly into my eyes. “Hey—don’t you have a car?” 

 

I shuddered inside. So this guy IS keeping tabs on me!  I moved within three days of first meeting him to a different nearby community. I'd hoped that meeting up with Mr. Freemason was simply a coincidence, and that I was just being paranoid in thinking the freemasons actually have some sort of a grudge against me for talking rude ish about them all over the Internet.

 

But at that moment, there was no denying it. This guy is keeping tabs on me! For him to notice that out of hundreds of garage parking spaces that mine has been empty for the past week… well there you go.

 

I decided to play his bluff. I said, “Naw, it hasn’t arrived yet.”

 

He raised his eyebrows, seemingly surprised that I was rising to his level. “Arrived from where?”

 

“From Atlanta”, I continued the lie. “The shipping company told me it would be here last week, but it still hasn’t arrived.”

 

“How do you get around?”

 

I crossed my arms. “I walk.”


"How do you get to work?"

"I work from home." 

He made that humph noise again. “Well, I’ve been parking in your space.”

 

I decided to call his bluff a second time. “No, you haven’t.”

 

He raised his eyebrows and said slyly along with a weird grin, “Well, I’ve been away. I got back last night and noticed that your space was empty. So I parked there.”

 

“Where’ve you been?” I asked, intentionally ignoring his subtle inquiry as to MY whereabouts.

 

He seemed to be enjoying our little game of cat and mouse. It seemed to give him a physical jolt if you know what I mean.

 

He laughed openly. “I’ve been away with the military.”

 

My stomach went to knots. Suddenly I didn’t feel so brave anymore. So dude is hooked up not only with the freemasons but with the military as well?!

 

I noticed then that he was wearing a military t-shirt. I absentmindedly commented on it out loud. “You’re in the military?”

 

He gave an affirmative nod that said, “Yes! I’ve got the upper hand again!”

 

And he was right. My voice had cracked on the word military. There was no way I could continue playing it off. I was scared pissless! Dude had won.

 

He said, “I’ll tell you what. I’m going to park in your space until your car arrives.”

 

I nodded, defeated.

 

As he turned to leave he looked back over his shoulder and said, “What is your name again?”

 

I gave him a made-up name, which in my mind was the equivalent of giving him my middle finger.

 

He obviously got the joke because he laughed and said, “Okay, Puddin n Tain. And my name is Barack Obama. You keep in touch, you hear?”  

 

Yes, Mr. Prick, I hear.

 

I hear you loud and clear.

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July 31, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood: NOIDED UP
Category: Life


On Sunday, July 26, 2009, at approximately 3:15pm, I was contacted by a freemason as I was moving into a brand new residence that even I didn’t know the address of until the previous day.

I had applied to move into one particular unit, but I switched to a different unit IN A DIFFERENT BUILDING at the last minute.

I was inside of my new unit when the mover walked in and said that a man was outside in the parking garage asking if MY parking space was 123. I was riding with a friend who was driving her own car. I had told her to park in space 123 while I went to open the door for the movers.

I figured that my friend Sheila had accidentally parked in the man’s space and I asked the mover if that was the case. The mover shook his head and said, “No. The man is parked in space 123 and he wants to know if YOU are space 123.”

I went outside to the parking garage and was greeted by a distinguished middle-aged, African American gentleman standing in front of a 2009 Mercedes Benz that was parked in space 123. The man apologized for being in my space and informed me that he lived “down the hall” and that the 2009 Range Rover parked next to the Mercedes Benz was also his.

Right away I noticed that both cars were sporting freemason emblems and I got knots in my stomach. I didn’t know what was going to happen next so I decided to jump in head first.

I said to him, “Oh, you’re a mason?”

He was like, “Yes, I am.”

I said, “My dad was a mason, a shriner.”

He said, “Is your father still living?”

Okay. That might not be so interesting since I WAS speaking in the past tense, but the WAY he said it was like he was letting me know that he already knew my father was deceased, so I didn’t even bother confirming it.

Instead I said, “There’s a lot of talk about freemasons these days.”

He raised his eyebrows and gave an inquisitive grin. He said, “What kind of talk?”

I shrugged. “Lots of talk...”

He said, “Like what?”

I said, “Like Illuminati…”

He said, “Like we’re trying to take over the world?”

I nodded.

He said, “We took over the world a long time ago.”

Then he said something that I found personally unnerving. He said, “What is your mother’s status?”

I said, “My mother has NOTHING to do with the masons. After she and my father divorced she left all that behind.”

He said, “But YOU don’t have to. You can join the OES… the Order of the Eastern Star.”

I shook my head. “No. My mother got us away from all that a long time ago.”

He said, “You should join.”

I said, “No.”

He was like, “Why not?”

I tried to joke it off. I said, “Like Michelle Obama and them?!” I tried laughing it off again, but he didn’t laugh. He just made a sound like humph.

Then he said, “Let me go over there and meet your friend.”

At that point I was really tripping out. He already KNEW that Sheila was with me. He knew who he was looking for and it was NOT her. He had wanted to speak with ME.

After introducing himself to Sheila in a very dry manner, he excused himself and assured me that he would not be parking in my space in the future, and said that he was sure we would meet again.

I couldn’t tell Sheila what was happening. She’s someone who knows the REINVENTED me, and not this person here. But I have already informed my new community that I will be moving out within the next few days.

I don’t know what to make of my meeting with Mr. Freemason.

Was his message to me that freemasons have already taken over the world? Is that a message I’m supposed to relay to the public? Or was this some kind of a warning?

I don’t know but I damned sure do care.

When I went to set up my computer last night, I noticed that the monitor connection was loose. In order to fix it I had to remove the side cover. When I removed the side cover on my CPU tower, I found the little thing pictured below inside. I googled it – it’s a mini GPS unit capable of tracking the item to which it’s attached within 10 feet.

 

This could be summed up as mere coincidence. However, I’ve had other computer problems recently. My McAfee virus scan stopped working out of the clear blue sky. When I tried to fix it, somehow it mysteriously got deleted. When the McAfee tech tried to walk me through fixing it, even he was stumped as to why it would not reinstall. The tech even had me try to reinstall McAfee in Safe Mode but it still didn’t work. Over the course of four days while my computer was unprotected, I received numerous Windows “updates”. Then magically a week ago I was able to reinstall McAfee with no problem.

I don’t know what I’ve got myself into. But I need to say that I don’t want any trouble with the freemasons. If the freemasons have a problem with me, PLEASE just tell me what I can do to make the freemasons happy. I will remove all references to the freemasons from my blog if that’s what the freemasons want. Just somehow let me know SPECIFICALLY what the freemasons want from me and you got it.

I am just a gal who enjoys writing, and maybe sometimes I get a bit overzealous and ambitious with my writing. But trust when I say that I have NO INTEREST in going toe to toe with those who took over the world a long time ago.

Seriously, I DO NOT want any trouble.


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July 25, 2009 - Saturday 

Current mood:  numb
Category: Writing and Poetry

E Lynn Harris (June 20, 1955 – July 23, 2009)

Rest In Peace, Dear Friend.  We Will Miss You. 




 
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June 26, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  distraught
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

I am beyond distraught over the news of Michael Jackson's death. As for the book, it WILL be revised to remove any and all references to The King of Pop. I apologize for any additional delays but that's simply how it's going down.

Rest In Peace, Michael. I will remember your positive legacy always and keep those fond memories of you close to my heart. 

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May 12, 2009 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  apathetic
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
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May 8, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  pissy
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
Two attorneys for certain celebs who seem to think they're important enough to have been included in MY book couldn't hold me down so they decided to go bully my editor instead. Also my web hosting service hence, the reason my website is TEMPORARILY down. But hey, it's all good. They (who at this point I'm not supposed to name) can keep on trying to hold a sista down. It hasn't worked yet and it will not work EVER. The book WILL be released this year, whether final editing is completed or not. I was only adding new material that incorporates the scoop on Rihanna and Chris Brown, which has already been played out in the media anyway...

So whatever.
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March 2, 2009 - Monday 

Current mood:  enthralled
Category: Music
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November 5, 2008 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  intense
Category: News and Politics

44th President of the United States of America

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July 8, 2008 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  pleased
Category: Writing and Poetry
 
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