So anyway. Going to practices with a mad hangover, waking up early on Satuday mornings for appointments, stressing out on the invitations and decor..you'd think I'd be over this whole thing..NOT. I'm completely excited. I'm more excited that it's a day where everyone is going to be united and just having a fun time. I'm really excited for the hotel party too.

I'm bored and I decided to make a birthday list. It's early but why not!!!

So to start it off...

The proceeds will go to the father and mother. I mean after all this party is their retirement plan (jokingly of course..?)

I'll love you forever and a deng day if you get me this on DVD!

These too..

A personalized flask. "Stephy" is what would be personalized. (I love the example though!)

Snowboard gear! My unused snowboard is just collecting dust in the corner. Lets change that this season.

Personalized too! "Stephy"

I've been wanting and dying for some decent Nike's. But the problem is I can't find ANYYYYYYYY my size. So if you can be super nice and find me any Nike's in a size 5- 5 1/2 I will love you forever and day too.

If you know me really well then you would know that my Target skateboard just doesn't get to me and I really would want a real one. One I can bring to the beach and cruise around and look all snazzy and cool. So a Sector 9 would be nice...real nice. (Sector 9 is it??)

THIS PRESENT WILL BE DENG WELL APPRECIATED. LIKE REALLLLLLLY APPRECIATED.

I can't really think of much 'cause what I really do want is everyone to be there. I just want everyone to leave my party with a smile on their face and with such great satisfaction.

the sound in my head
is screetching your voice
it's a blur when i look into your eyes

my fingers aren't enough
to keep track of your excuses
my head turns & glances at you
in no shock your personality altered
it's only me who notices your disguise
to the world

my fingers point to you when peolpe ask me why i'm such a wreck

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gr. i'm horrible at writting. i wish i good or decent =(

stop giving me reasons to hate you
i'm plotting my runaway
all i gotta do is walk out the door
and ignore your existence-SDT

bitch puh-leease. it's her fault i have absolutely no social life cause she bought this house that isolates myself from society. ugh. she's gonna wish that she brought me places when she had the chance cause when i start driving i won't even be "home" 99.7f the time. gr.

i miss him

i'm in love <3. just 12 more days till his sweet arrival. i'm going to cry tears of joy cause he's going to be back in my arms. i can't wait to look into his gorgeous eyes and hold his hand again. he's absolutely everything to me. the best thing that has happened to me. this kind of love that we share lasts forever. it just does. even though he's on the other side of the world our love grows stronger and stronger everyday. when i'm with him i feel so happy, on the top of world. that happiness i can only feel with him that comfort i can only feel with him. i can't imgaine my life without him. i'd be nohthing without him. i won't stop loving him till i take my last breathe, till my last heart beat, till time stops <3

The nights are forever and maybe I'm wrong,
but it feels like I'm so lost without you.
So I step towards the heat, it's the way I can see,
and it makes me believe that it's you.

//10 bands you've been listening to a lot lately:
10. armor for sleep
9. jimmy eat world
8. silverstein
7. spitalfield
6. from first to last
5. the honorary title
4. acceptance
3. copeland
2. daphne loves derby
1. mae

//09 shittest bands
9. G unit
8. 50 cent (i don't care..he just sucks)
7. kotton mouth kings
6. the game ( i know..i knooow)
5. new found glory
4. simple plan
3. ?
2. ?

1. ?

//8 things you like to wear:
8. booty shorts

7. comfy bras
6. my sparkly genie shoes
5. pearls
4. sweats
3. fitted shirts
2. jeans
1. wife beaters

//07 things that annoy you:
7. asains with their vroom vroom cars
6. people who rubberband their jeans on the bottom
5. bro hos
4. gansta gangsta music
3. the radio
2. people who flare their nostrils...i mean think about..yea it's disturbing huh?
1. being COLD

//06 things you say most days:
6. ey yo bitch
5. hellooooooooo
4. ahhhhh ok
3. hm
2. lame
1. dude

//05 things you do everyday:
5. music

4. eat
3. myspace
2. uranate
1. tv

//04 people you want to spend time with:
4. MICHAEL VINCENT TORRIJOS <3
3. my sister
2. stephanie&laura
1. some of the court members

//03 movies you could watch over and over again:
3. now and then

2. austin powers
1. a walk to remember

//02 of your favorite albums at the moment:
2. armor for sleep-what to do when you are dead
1. spitalfield- stop doing bad things

//01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. MICHAEL <3

i miss the husband. it's been one week and a day. i'm surprised i got through. i love him so much. people say that kids can't be in love but we prove them wrong. he's always there to listen to me. i can be my total self with him. *sigh*. baby come back soon please. i saw the stars and they weren't as beautiful as when we shared them. he has my heart and i have his. i love him....<3