break has been going great. i really want to believe everyone, and just trust people without having it think what happens if it isnt true. i want to take a chance on certain people, but i have the feeling im going to be left standing there alone. ive heard the good and bad about people, but gullible me only sees the good. i love the new people ive made friends with. i seriously couldnt be happier with them. i just wish they would all sit and look at one another because they are all spinning around and forgetting to look at what they are doing and hurting. ive listened to so many peoples problems and im the type who tells you everything. i trust easily and i wear my heart on my sleeve. im truely what you see is what you get. im completely honest. i just wish some of the things i tell you, you wouldnt make me want to regret it. i care too much. and theres too many things in my life right now. all i know is that once again, i can truely just lay myself out there and someone accepts it, and i miss having that feeling. but things are starting to repeat just like they have before, and i want out before it gets messy, but i keep coming back.

i utterly left standing in the middle of this, and i want you to see what you are doing.

well its the new year. i guess i could say this was the biggest growing year for me. i fell in love, i got rejected and i learn more about my friendships and myself because of it all. all i know is i dont want another year like this one.

what ive learned about myself is i can survive on my own. i can, the fact is i choose to depend on certain people. i like company. im the type of person that holds everything in, and spill to a few people. i need to know im needed before i ever make a commitment to something.

i also think people who waste their time being asses or anything close to that are dumb. life is too short and too great to spend it being mean or hating people. i am a big forgive person, but i dont forget. i trust people way too easily and end hurt in the end. but thats life, right?

i also have plans for myself, and im not going to let stupid things get in my way. i know whats important and i try and stay on the right track. dont get me wrong i do trip and fall, but i get back up.

dont ever question me, i had one lady tell me recently to give up my dream. will i listen to the one person i admired for so long? i think not, though she may know what she is talking about she doesnt know how much ill give up to get where i want. im driven and no one will stop me once my mind is set on it.

i get jealous. please realize i have only good intentions. i have ruined many things because of it. i almost lost someone who is still important to me.

ive just been thinking. its my brithday soon.. what do i really want from this year.i dont have a resolution. its up in the air for now

1° study hall-lyons-semester 1-2

1° interpendent leadership 2-shaffer- semester 3-4

2° honors bio-Tues and thurs-mormino

2° study hall-mon weds friday-lyons

3° honors bio- mormino

4° AP american history-quinlan

5° lunch

6° spanish 2 falzone

7° english 10 honors- vanheeckeren

8° geometry- maglosky

tell me if we got anything together :]