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Ako ay may pangarap Ako ay may panaginip ang mundo ay walang maskara na nagtatago ng tunay na nadarama Hindi mo namamalayan pero ikaw ay nagiging isa isa sa mga maraming kawawa mahilig magtago sa maskara Iba't ibang gawain na iyong ginagawa ngunit hindi para sa iyo kundi para sa iba Mahilig kang magbalat kayo Takot magpakatotoo Hindi natutong mag-isip Hindi marunong sumisid Ako ay may pangarap Ako'y may panaginip Ikaw ay handang lumaban Ipakita ang iyong sariling katauhan

hmm.. let's see.. i am a 15 year old girl who lives on the northern part of a three-dot country in this big world. i am like any normal teenager. i eat. i sleep. i go to school. i feel emotions. i dream. i hope. and you know what? IT SUCKS TO BE ME! Don't you ever feel that everyone in this whole freaking world is the same. You do the same things. You take a leak. You take a dump. You need food. You need same things like comfort, affection and the like. We all are the same. You may be rich and famous. You may be sick or healthy. nonetheless, we are all the same. And for me, that sucks. I do not know why I feel this way about this. I don't know if you feel the same way but that's how i see it and that is why IT SUCKS TO BE ME! I don't wanna be just another girl belonging to the millions of others. I don't want to be just a girl. When I die, I want everyone to know that I died. When I accomplish something, I want people to know of my success. I want them to know me. But it's so hard to be what you want to be when you don't have the guts to do it. Really, IT SUCKS TO BE ME! I don't have the guts to go out of my cocoon and see the world. I am a coward. I can't get out. I can't say all the things i wanna do out loud. I'm a loser. I am worldly in its most basic meaning that i want to see and feel and enjoy and taste and grab the world in my small useless hands. I want the world. Sooo bad. But i can't do anything about it. I keep procrastinating. I keep making plans but that's just what they are. Just plain plans. IT SUCKS TO BE ME.. I don't want to be just another casualty. I don't want to be just a student who gets high grades. I don't want to be just a daughter to my parents. I don't want to be just a friend to friends. I want the world. I apologize for being so greedy. But that is just me. I already told you: IT SUCKS TO BE ME...

i am a sucker for happy endings. Enya can soothe me.. Sounds through my mind.. Overpowering the guilt.. To recover from the filth. cleanses my soul.. killing what i forbode. i am a sucker for happy endings that never end i despise the love. when life flows out overwhelming sleep reaches out. with the shadow of the past. gone forever with the pain. i am a sucker for happy endings. endings that will never end. i hope mine is a happy ending. an ending that could never end.. wishing for the impossible. always and the usual. the hurt you can never contain. the pain you should release feeling of a natural high. the fun of emitting life. life. fun. life.

i am a girl who has lots of dreams but i am too depressed to work for them.

i am a sore loser who could never understand the trend of reality. i do not want to believe in fate or destiny but i am forced to. i am harassed by the miseries the unknown. i am pulled on all four sides. i am stressed by the burden anonymity has shoved on to my back. depression and shame; pity and sorrow; cruelty of life. we can never be too happy nor too sad without suffering the consequences it will demand we undergo. it will never let us get out of what we do without punishment. without hurt, pain, grief, regret, confusion, loss of faith. i am sorry. to whomever. i will never forget the moment it has turned its back on me. it will grow. it will flourish. it will pay.

y do we have to make a small problem big? y do we have to waste our time bickering and stabbing backs? y? haaaaaaaaaaaay.. buhay.. (that's what we call lines that rhyme.. he..he..) i think life is too short for that.. or maybe, those who do these dont have anything better to do that is why they just loiter around messing with other people's lives. i guess they still dont see the bigger picture.. life is not about fame or who's right or who's smarter and wealthier.. its about pure bliss.. the simple things we see and get from our surroundings.. the little wondrous thoughts.. the secretive way of nature.. silence.. peace.. and the traditional way life unfolds.. just being happy is enough.. u may not have much, u may not be famous and all.. but when your time comes, u can say that your life was a fruitful one.. though many failures and defeats would come.. you can still be proud that you life was not a waste.. not a tragedy.. but a heavy, well-plotted melodrama..