Kids grow up fast, don't they? I can't believe how time just flies by; within a blink of an eye, 10 years and counting.

My niece came to me two nights ago and asked me if she could start "dating"...

eeeeeeeeeek!

The girl is 10! She needs to stick w/ dolls and iCarly. I told her that she was still too young for that and maybe she could wait til she was 16 and in Highschool. After all, I am not her father..but she is practically my daughter. She is already filled w/ enough drama, lets add a boy to the mix. No Thank you!

Then she always brings up a Cell phone. Ok, what 10 year old needs a cell phone? I certainly didn't get my first phone until I had a job, and that was when I was 15. My mom sure wasn't going to pay the bill. I don't blame her, phones are costly. If I didn't need one, I wouldn't have one. But I am an Adult...and she is in the 5th grade. I rest my case :p

I wish that kids never grew up. Honestly, I would deal w/ changing diapers instead of them arguing w/ you. You tell them no, and apparently it means yes. Call it like you want it, but kids grow up and become rebellious. Babies are less complicating; and shopping for clothes is so fun :)

Talking w/ one of my friends; she tells me that the kids are probably greatful that they have me in their life. Now, if only the little ones saw that. For everything I have done for them (including Juli)... I don't see why they don't listen a little more!

I have taken Juli, Kane and Caden to Seattle, Denver, Telluride, and Orlando!  That is definately more places than I have ever been when I was in elementary school. I even took Juli w/ me to Denver this summer when I auditioned for American Idol. They have it pretty good I think. They spend alot of time w/ their Grandma, too. I only saw my grandparents at least once a year....

But, they are children. Maybe it will be instilled in them when they are older.

Just thought I would ramble a bit. Keep it real, homeskillets!

♥Bryan

Wait...wrong holiday. Hold up! It's HALLOWEEN! I just thought I would write a little blog today to dedicate this fun and exciting Holiday! Where you go out and get the Candy from those who decide to be dumb enough to hand it out

Hey, I am not complaining but if you find it in you to give out to kids who probably don't need it (And I'm sure the parents really love the Dentist visit), bless your heart <3

Just remember to play it safe. No one likes (or wants) bad things to happen on the one day of the year where you can actually dress up like a whore and people don't care.

Also,


Don't cut in front of people! Seriously, you won't die if you don't hit up every house w/ piles of yummy goodness just calling your name. And tonight, I will seriously cut a bitch if you push me out of the way. I got kids too, mother fucker!

So, tomorrow if you read a headline that a parent took it out on a poor and innocent Trick or Treater ...you were warned!

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people cut in line. It has always been one of my biggest. It's like those people in life that are conceited and think life will always hand them the golden spoon. Well, guess again! When they finally go out into the world and mommy and daddy aren't wiping their ass...they will learn :D

Anddddd....

Be Cautious!

I know that every year you think what your kids are eating is safe. But, there are sick fuckers out there. I don't blame them though. This world is over populated and well..a few kids not here wouldn't hurt...

I'm kidding! Seriously, you should inspect the candy before they decide to pop it in their mouth. You don't know these generous fewlz. They could be passing Meth to your kids. I mean, Dina Lohan is a perfect candidate..and I'm sure Britney's Mom was the same way. Those poor children...

Be sure too that you watch what you are doing. Always look both ways when you cross the street, because cars can ..and will hit your ass! That goes for those driving too; watch out! I'm sure you don't want a lawsuit on your hands. People sue for anything it seems nowadays! (Lawyers are good at getting what they want...)

Last but not least..

Have fun!

It's not often that Halloween lands on a Saturday. I don't think it ever did when I was "young" enough to go. For those who are going to parties...be sure to set your clocks back 1 hour tonight. You can thank your lucky starz that you are getting an extra hour to recoup from your "Ghoulish" Activities!

As the title concludes, both are TRUE! I logged on to my "space" and I had two comments waiting to be approved and they were all the way from August. WTF Myspace, get your shit together. It seems like every time I get on this site...it always seems to fail me. Just like Kanye. Who does that anyways? Kanye, you are a fucking doucher! I hope that people boo at you now even when you do something good. Quit being an asshole, and let Taylor have her fucking 15 minutes. What were you thinking? Or was your pipe thinking for you...?

Anywho, that is all for now. I feel so much better :p


Oh P.s.s.s Tila Tequila IS a whore.

Tootles~
♥Bryan

Patrick Swayze, whose good looks and sympathetic performances in films such as "Dirty Dancing" and "Ghost" made him a romantic idol to millions, died Monday. He was 57. Swayze was mostly known for a handful of supporting roles when he broke through with his performance as dance instructor Johnny Castle in 1987's "Dirty Dancing."


Swayze is survived by his wife, Lisa, of over 30 years and his mother, Patsy.


Pat, you are in a better place and all the suffering/struggle is over. R.I.P

~Bryan

Yea, that's right it's 1 in the a.m. and I have a story that will make you stay on the edge of your seat! Yesterday, was well, quite the trip to say the least...

The plans that were in store yesterday were that mi familia would go down to Cody for the fourth. Go to the Parade and then drive through the park (Yellowstone) and check it out due to the fact we haven't been down there for a few years and my mom really needed a day out of town.

Well, those plans were pretty much shot out of the water...

My mother, brother, sister, niece, and I all loaded up and headed down there in my NEW car. We had left Billings at 7:15 a.m. and everything seemed to be going good. We hit the road and got to Cody in about 1.5 hours. The weather was so gorgeous and I didn't even get sunburned :) The parade was sooooooooo boring...but, I had Nevaeh sitting with me the whole time so she kept things pretty interesting. If anything, she enjoyed the parade more than anyone but she is also only 11 months old.

By the time the parade was over, my sister was not feeling good. If any of you that know me personally know that Heather was pregnant, she was having some pretty hardcore contractions. So, we decided to come home. It's really weird how fast this pregnancy was for my sister. So fast even, that she ended up having the kid...IN MY BACKSEAT! Yes, she had the baby in/on my backseat. Her contractions started in Wyoming and so I was rushing to get back to Billings. I was going anwhere from 90-100 in a 65 which is why I got pulled over by a Wyoming State Police car. The guy was a rookie cop and practically a retard, to say the least. Nice thing is that I had a pretty good excuse for breaking the speed laws. I did decide to go the speed limit for the rest of the highway til I hit Montana; They are so anal about their "65 mph" highways down there. blah blah blah...

As soon as I hit Montana though..it seemed as though traffic only went slower. I kept getting stuck behind so many people who were going anywhere from 5-15 miles slower than the speed limit of 70 mph. I did alot of passing yesterday and alot of the  way through Montana I was going anywhere from 80-100 mph. But, that wasn't fast enough.
Due to the fact that I got stuck behind SLOW mother fuckers, my sister could not wait to get to the hospital. Her contractions were so fast and constant that the baby came very quickly (..it might also be because she has 4 other kids too...lol). I will always remember mile marker 441. That is where my sister crowned and out popped Trey Michael Starr. Just so all of you know, the smell of freshly born baby, is not that pleasant and I don't suggest it to anyone. I am still cleaning up nasty shit from my backseat. I hate my seats; go with leather or suede...not both.

To anyone who decides to call a 911 operator for an ambulance, don't bother. I was getting so frustrated with the operator my brother had on the phone after we left Laurel. The bitch put him on hold, WTF? Ugh..I told him to forget it I would just drive to the hospital because I can get to DBC by the time they were to get to where we were anyway..

If anything I got back to Billings in under an hour. Not bad on my part don't you think? Well, that's my story. It's not as interesting in writing then it was as the driver in this situation. I hope everyone had a better fourth then we did. With all said, we are blessed to have a new baby boy in the family :)

Keep it real, punks!
♥Bryan

Yea, that's right it's 1 in the a.m. and I have a story that will make you stay on the edge of your seat! Yesterday, was well, quite the trip to say the least...

The plans that were in store yesterday were that mi familia would go down to Cody for the fourth. Go to the Parade and then drive through the park (Yellowstone) and check it out due to the fact we haven't been down there for a few years and my mom really needed a day out of town.

Well, those plans were pretty much shot out of the water...

My mother, brother, sister, niece, and I all loaded up and headed down there in my NEW car. We had left Billings at 7:15 a.m. and everything seemed to be going good. We hit the road and got to Cody in about 1.5 hours. The weather was so gorgeous and I didn't even get sunburned :) The parade was sooooooooo boring...but, I had Nevaeh sitting with me the whole time so she kept things pretty interesting. If anything, she enjoyed the parade more than anyone but she is also only 11 months old.

By the time the parade was over, my sister was not feeling good. If any of you that know me personally know that Heather was pregnant, she was having some pretty hardcore contractions. So, we decided to come home. It's really weird how fast this pregnancy was for my sister. So fast even, that she ended up having the kid...IN MY BACKSEAT! Yes, she had the baby in/on my backseat. Her contractions started in Wyoming and so I was rushing to get back to Billings. I was going anwhere from 90-100 in a 65 which is why I got pulled over by a Wyoming State Police car. The guy was a rookie cop and practically a retard, to say the least. Nice thing is that I had a pretty good excuse for breaking the speed laws. I did decide to go the speed limit for the rest of the highway til I hit Montana; They are so anal about their "65 mph" highways down there. blah blah blah...

As soon as I hit Montana though..it seemed as though traffic only went slower. I kept getting stuck behind so many people who were going anywhere from 5-15 miles slower than the speed limit of 70 mph. I did alot of passing yesterday and alot of the  way through Montana I was going anywhere from 80-100 mph. But, that wasn't fast enough.
Due to the fact that I got stuck behind SLOW mother fuckers, my sister could not wait to get to the hospital. Her contractions were so fast and constant that the baby came very quickly (..it might also be because she has 4 other kids too...lol). I will always remember mile marker 441. That is where my sister crowned and out popped Trey Michael Starr. Just so all of you know, the smell of freshly born baby, is not that pleasant and I don't suggest it to anyone. I am still cleaning up nasty shit from my backseat. I hate my seats; go with leather or suede...not both.

To anyone who decides to call a 911 operator for an ambulance, don't bother. I was getting so frustrated with the operator my brother had on the phone after we left Laurel. The bitch put him on hold, WTF? Ugh..I told him to forget it I would just drive to the hospital because I can get to DBC by the time they were to get to where we were anyway..

If anything I got back to Billings in under an hour. Not bad on my part don't you think? Well, that's my story. It's not as interesting in writing then it was as the driver in this situation. I hope everyone had a better fourth then we did. With all said, we are blessed to have a new baby boy in the family :)

Keep it real, punks!
♥Bryan

So it has been weeks since my last post.  Endless blog views and what do I have to show for it? Nothing. So, today I thought I would bring to you some love and write and post to all those who still read this "Blog" in which I find myself gushing over things that to you not make any sense at all. My life, My Space, take it or leave it. But just remember, God can only judge me. But, what if you are Athiest? Perhaps that is an entire blog all in itself ...



Everyone has a purpose in life. Sometimes a person lives their entire life without knowing what theirs is, and to some it comes naturally...

Well, I know what my purpose is in life is. It's  those 3 words; Happiness, Pleasure, and also to love and be loved.

Happiness: When I was a kid I knew the secret to a happy life. Play by the rules, work hard in school, and if you work hard in school, then your reward is more school. After more school then you’re given the best that life has to offer: a job, money and a future, filled with the unending singular pursuit of more. More money, more success, more everything. This is what I was living for. I envied people who never questioned it. Me? I needed a way out. I knew that out there somewhere there is more rewarding life that leads to an absolute happiness of mine. Sometimes risking everything is the only choice you have to find your happiness. I have risked everything I had for doing what I think I will love to do. Friends called me insane, family didn’t agree with my choice, especially because they had big expectation on me. But I stick with my choice, sometimes being totally messed can be a liberating experience. I believe I need to be unhappy to find my happiness. Today, I see things in a new light. A bright shiny light, that keeps making me smile. HAPPINESS:an absolute one.

Pleasure: I always wish that I could see the future, so I was capable of changing it. But even if you could see the future, you are just a witness to coming moments. Every man has his own destiny; you can’t escape it even if you see it coming. Then I begin to accept things as they are. There will still be wars, hunger, violence and racism in this world. So, why all this effort when you know what’s going to happen? Will watching this destruction of mankind give a purpose? Or is it just the muted feeling of watching a movie when you know how it ends? And then something will happen that I will never forget…I am WRONG about there’s no hope in this world. All the effort we made is useless…there is hope. I have HOPE and believe on it. Today, I glimpse something strange and new…a future where anything can happen, even when you couldn’t see the future. It is a beautiful thing and the feeling it gives me is as close as I have ever felt to: PLEASURE.

Love: Sometimes things don’t always turn out the way we planned. Someday I will find love; maybe that someday is today. You will never know the mysteries of destinies. But one thing I know that is that perhaps LOVE will complete my happiness and pleasure. Someday is maybe today, but for now I'm in the wrong place to be real.


Easy Now
♥Bryan