[the world disappoints me sometimes..]

What's it gonna take tonight, just to get you by my side?
In my book on lies, there's a chapter on you.
You know where the answers lie.
In my book on spite, I've got a chapter on you.
Disgusted by it. You turn away.
And without question, you don't question,
stick to the question, without questioning, you know.
Hey, what can you say?
So some of it's true, as she takes that throat and tries to kill for you.
Oh, it's all coming true.
Just look at your father and I'm looking at you.
Watching you tell all the stories but one. All of the stories but one.
I've got a book on people, it's got so many blank pages.
I keep filling it up with things I see.
Have you any lies to tell me? How much can you care about me?
Now don't hold back, give it all to me.
Electrified, and you take a life.
How many must fall?
Broken on the ground, before you realize that your an insect.
And how many must go, just like the bones in your well,
before you realize that you're an insect.
There's always the injection, if you weary of the thinking.
And the voice.
Deep in your reflection, it's a crawling little creature.
And the vioce.
And the voice in your head won't go away.
Deep down inside, you're afraid.
She's talking to you feel the squeeze.
These broken bones and this body are your own.......

Well you, trust no one
You can never rest
Trust anyone and they'll strike while you're sleeping
And just as the sun must keep on seeking the west
Everything you love will always be leaving...
Yeah leaving
And the fire works explode
Lighting up my way
Up my way
The painting of the sky of my Independence day, yeah of my day
I watch this world roll on and I think I might stay
Yeah, Id like to stay
Oh now tell me
Was he the one while I was gone who kept you busy?
Did he come in my place?
Could he make you dizzy?
Yeah and I suppose that I got a little boy inside
And in every woman's man
Is a little boy that died
Stone jumping
Looking at the ocean
Ive got no direction
but Im in motion
And I got my mind
And I got my music
I got my soul
Until I lose it
Right on
Oh right on
And I still remember everything
I still remember living like an idiot
I remember
Oh I remember
Yeah I still remember everything
Under the embers I'm still burning
Im still, still
Well and you can trust no one
Well then you can never rest
Trust anyone and they'll strike while youre sleeping
And just as the sun must keep on seeking the west
Everything you love will always be leaving
Leaving
And the fire works explode
Oh lighting up my way
My way
The painting of the sky of my Independence day, yeah of my day and
I watch this beautiful world roll on
And I think I might stay.

 . . . T i m e   u n w i n d s
 A n d   I   s l i p   i n s i d e   m y  
 S e l f   u n c a l m   a n d   I   l i k e   i t
 U n   d o n e   s o   f u c k   i t  
 F l a s h  &   b a c k ,   l i k e   a n   a c i d   d r e a m
 I   c a n   t a s t e   i t   o n   m y
 T o n g u e   l i k e   a n   o p e n   w o u n d
 B l e e d i n g   t h r o u g h   t h e
 C o n f u s i o n   c u t t i n g   m e
 O p e n   t o   n o t h i n g   b u t
 T h e   l i s t l e s s n e s s   o f   s i l e n c e
 T h r o u g h   t h e   s c r e a m i n g   i n   m y  
 H e a d   i n t o   t h e   s h a l l o w
 J u s t   t r y i n g   t o   c l i m b   o v e r   t h e
 W a l l   u n c o n t a i n e d   b y   m y  
 T h o u g h t s   s p i n n i n g   i n   c i r c l e s
 A r o u n d   m y   f a l l i n g  
 D o w n   i n t o   t h e   o x y - c o t t o n
 C a n d y   s o   s w e e t   i t  
 S t e a l s   m y   s e n s e
 L e s s   o f   e v e r y t h i n g
 P u r e   a n d   t a i n t e d
 L o v e   l o s t   i n   t h e
 T r a n s l a t i o n   o f   y o u . . .

So on Saturday my good friend AB did another sick ass tattoo on me.  It's this butterfly/dragonfly-ish design on my back.  Feminine yet with a little tough girl touch that suits my style so well.  It looks sooooo tight so far & I love it!  It's just the outline right now.. soon he'll do the details, shading & color.. I can't wait.. yay!!!!

And once again, Andy is a kick ass talented as hell artist.  This is one of his best designs I think and some of his best work ever.  He is so great with detail and style.. professional shop quality work without havin to spend all the bux to go to a shop.. so I try to pimp him out as much as I can.  So hit me up and I'll hook you up!!!


The original drawing...


The full back view...


A little closer view...


Close-up of the top....


And a close-up of the bottom.

Isn't it such a sick ass tattoo??  AB rocks!

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Also, here's a couple new pix of my healed up wrist tatt from a couple weeks ago.  It turned out soooooo sweet.  I'm such a lucky girl.. gots me one cool bestest friend!


One...


Two...


Three.


So, whatcha all think?  Nice, huh??  Yay for meeeee!

Hope everyone is havin a super fine time these days...
And as always...
Much love from me! 

*J-net*

So, I finally got a new tattoo on Sunday. It's a simple little design I made of a stylized version of the symbol for chaos, with a tribal-ish design on each side. It's around my wrist and is just black, for now.. once it heals I'm gonna think about adding a bit of color in the center piece. It's simple but I'm proud of it.. it's very "me".  My best friend Andy did the work and he did an excellent job, so anyone looking to get some work done should hit me up and I'll hook ya up cuz he is a kick ass tattoo artist!  Feel free to comment and lemme know whatcha think. :o)









(The pix are a little blurry, and they were taken the same day, so it's quite puffy looking and my wrist is swollen as hell (ouchie).. Anyway, I'll have better pix when it heals more, but I just wanted to show it off now. )

Wednesday morning, July 27th 2005, I lost one of my bestest friends in this whole messed up world.  He died tragically and soooooo unexpectedly.  I am in shock.  I am sad.  I am pissed off.  It's all too surreal.  I can't believe it's real.  I will never understand.  He seriously was one of the good guys.  And dammit, I'm gonna miss him like hell.  Love ya, Kev..




*Kevin Burnett aka Fuzzman*

i cant sleep

I just watched the movie Audition last night on the Sundance channel. It's a Japanese horror film, and whoaaa, it's messed up, not in a scary way, but in a crazy gory psychological acid-trippy torture sorta way. Highly recommended for anyone into GOOD horror flicks (unlike some of the crap that's been coming out recently).. :)

everyone must see the humor in this..
Teehee

Creepy little bugger..

Ahhhahahah.. pork!

Heheheh.. dangly..

It's the Castro Street kid..

Muahahahahahaah!!! :)

There's snow on the ground.. it's cold outside.. and I feel kinda icky today.......

(On a better note.. my birthday rocked.. though some people were missed, there was definitely good friends, good times, good music, good beer, and good card playing.. I rule at Asshole!.. hehehe..)

Sooo, iz my birfday next week.. Thursday March 17th.. St. Patties Day baby!!

I'll be lookin to do a couple things..

thursday ima try to hit up a bar in modesto and perhaps drink myself silly with some black & tans and guinness.. of course.. anyone who may want to join in on the beer-filled goodness, lemme know and we'll hook sumthin up....

also, on friday the 18th i'll be doing a lil shindig at my place up in arnold.. iz gonna be full of fun and fools.. invites extended to all :)

in both cases, the more the merrier, so gimme a call or message if ya wanna join in on the celebration and spoiling of meeeee.. hehe, yeay.

all the rest of y'all.. show me some love, dammit!!

<3