It's 3:12 AM. New Years Day. Time to write something, anything.

2008.
An emptiness filled by the perfection of your astral smile.
Illicit emotions dreamt up from strings and keys.
The softest caress but the greatest ecstasy.
Forbidden love, more sophisticated gentlemen.
Listening to the raging waterfall that is your life.

Lives determined upon a single year.
Futures determined by his enchanting words.
Glancing at a lost mass in the mirror.
Coming to terms with prolonged, cryptic feelings.
Comprehending musical collaboration.

Embracing failures and successes.
Learn the status quo, learn to be irresistible.
Adoration of fame, it's glory, and all your losses because of it.
Engorging self in ocean, sand and sun.
Weeks of exuberance in your universe.

Firey red jungle of curls.
Being the shoulder to cry on, finding a new shoulder.
Vanishing portal to your realm of cerulean.
Time sands through the hourglass, waiting, being there.
Okay is never good enough, nor is great, nor is amazing.


This is 2008.

update: This is positive. It's not a sad piece - goddamn it!!
Translated its what I hope for in 2008.

Hey y'all sock it to me,
I hope you're doing damn well. Christmas is the happiest time of year for me usually. The sun is out, it's warm, people are happy, shopping occurs with best friends. This year it's been cold as fuck, rainy, my friends are off somewhere, and I have fucking tonsilitus.
Some awesome holiday this has turned out to be so far!?
The few months I'm sposed to have to be relaxing and enjoying life before the YEAR OF HELL seem to have been ruined.

What's more so is I have no idea what I'm doing for NYE, I have my entire adult life to be sitting at home with family or going out for dinner, but so few years to go out and party. So let me know what's happening guys?

Ah I'm sorry I feel like everytime I write a blog it's because I'm sad...Well I guess this is just one outlet for me. I said today I need someone who is a major suck up, so I can bitch to them and they'll act like they care. Thing is- I can tell if someone's faking their sympathy, I was born doing it. I am never satisfied telling someone something unless I know they truly give a damn.

So here's my part to bitch: A year or two ago I was at a low time in my life and was getting stepped on. I feel like I'm at this point again. I am getting so used to being let down- that all I expect is to be let down. Tonight a friend of mine invited me out to exchange gifts and I got my clothes ready and then felt like there was no hurry to get ready. I felt as if I wasn't really going to need to leave the house so I didn't get ready. My friend called back up and cancelled on me. It was as if I already knew that I was going to be let down all over again.

All this letting down has made me feel bitter and lonely. Seems like everyone has an excuse not to see me. Everyone has an excuse to not invite me out. I want to say how hurt I am by what's going on, but under the circumstances I don't know whether I have the right to. I'm treating this as karma getting back at me for ignoring my friends at times over the past few years.

You know I say the phrase "I FEEL______" so often. Feeling is one of the main traits of my personality.
ENFP:
-Extravert
-Intuition
-Feeling
-Percieving

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Goodnight.
All I want for Christmas is You.

I've never felt more alone
Baby, I am missing you
I want you by my side
And I hope you'll miss me too
Come back and stay
I think about you every day
I really want you too
You swept my feet right off the ground, you're the love I found
Doctor Jones, Jones,
Calling Doctor Jones
Doctor Jones, Doctor Jones,
Get up now
Wake up now

fuck, I love the Danish.

HEY !
I'm in a great mood, found out today that I'm next year's overall arts captain so I'm fairly stoked! If this has the same effect on you as it did on me, make sure you have a towel as you may soil yourself from hilarity.
PARTICULARLY if you're a lady.
Cheers, Mish.

What girls want guys to do:

1. When she asks how she looks, shrug and say "could be better." This will keep her on her toes, and girls love that.

2. Never hold her hand. This can be interpreted as a sign of weakness. If she
grabs your hand, squeeze hers really hard until she cries (this will impress her by showing her what a strong man you are).

3. Once a month, sneak up on her from behind and knock her over. Girls are like dogs; they love to be roughed up.

4. Call her in the middle of the night to ask if she's sleeping. If she
is, say "you better be." Repeat this 4 or 5 times until morning. This will show her you care.

5. When she is upset about something, suggest to her that it might be her fault. This will pave the way for her own personal improvement, and every girl needs some improvement.

6. Recognize the small things, as they usually mean the most. Then whenshe's sleeping, steal all her small things and break them, because jewelery is for wussies and Asian ladies.

7. If you're talking to another girl, make sure she's looking. When she is, stare into her eyes, mouth the words "fuck you" and grab the other girl's butt. girls love competition.

8. Tell her you're taking her out to dinner. Drive for miles so she thinks it's going to be really special. Then take her to a burning tire yard. When she starts to get upset, tell her you were just kidding and now you're really going to take her to dinner. Then drive her home. When she starts crying and asks why you would do something like that, lean over and whisper very quietly into her ear "...because I can."

9. Introduce her to your friends as "some chick." Women love those special nicknames.

10. Play with her hair. Play with it HARD.

11. Warm her up when she's cold...and not by giving her your jacket, because then you might get cold. Rather, look her in the eye and say "if you don't stop bitching about the cold right now, you're going to be bitching about a black eye." The best way to get warm is with fear.

12. Take her to a party. When you get there, she'll have to go to the bathroom (they always do). Leave immediately. Come back right when the party is dying and yell at her the whole way home for ditching you all night.

13. Make her laugh. A good way to do this is if she has a small pet. Kick the pet. Guys always find stuff like that funny...why shouldn't girls?

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms. When she's fast asleep, wait 10 minutes, then jump up and scream in her ear. Repeat until she goes home and you can use your arms for more important things (like pumping iron).

15. Spit often. I hear girls like guys that spit.

16. If you care about her, never ever tell her. This will only give her self-confidence, then you can never turn her into the object she deep down desires to be.

17. Every time you're in her house, steal one of her shoes, earrings or anything else that comes in pairs. Only take one of the pair. This way, she'll go crazy.

18. Take her out to dinner. Right when she's about to order, interrupt and say "no, she's not hungry." Make her watch you eat. Girls love a guy that speaks for her.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile. Then punch her in the face. Girls love a spontaneous guy.

20. Give her one of your t-shirts, and make sure it has your smell on it (but not a sexy cologne smell...a bad smell. You know what I'm talking about).

21. When it's raining, keep asking her if she's crying. She'll say "no, it's just the rain." Ten minutes later, turn to her and just scream at her to stop crying. Girls like a tough man.

22. Titty twisters and plenty of them.

23. If you're listening to music, and she asks to hear it, tell her no. This way she'll think you're mysterious.

24. Remember her birthday, but don't get her anything. Teach her that material objects arent important. The only thing that's important is that she keeps you happy, and your happiness is the greatest present she can ever get.

25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it. Then, next time you know she's coming over on a trash day, leave the trash can open and have the present visibly sticking out of the can. Girls actually don't like this one that much, but it's so funny.

26. If she's mad at you for not calling her when you say you will, promise her that you will call her at a certain time of the day. This will make sure that she waits by the phone. Tell her when you call that you're going to tell her a special surprise. Now she'll be really excited. Don't call.

This is an old poem I wrote, at the start of the year don't know what was going on whilst writing it but enjoy!

Cupidity.

Classy girl, Classy name, classy reputation.
Classy boy, Classy brother, love no imitation.
Everything I've ever wanted, I've ever gotten.
Everything I've even had soon became rotten.

Slip on your heels and trenchcoat, straighten your hair.
Sit close, screw things up, he tells you that you're fair.
Too many chasing after you, can't escape -trapped.
World is spinning, too much happening- find it hard to adapt.

When life is a different world each and every week,
Do you lie around and stall, wait for him to speak?
Re-apply your make up and be someone new this time.
People around exclaim you're beautiful, no one sees the grime.

Hate or love it, it'll always be this way,
Bite your nails, have crooked teeth no matter what you weigh.
No one could possibly have everything they desire.
Contamination within ourselves it's a lustful fire.

I am very proud of myself.

The Model is Victoria Tedeschi.
I think this is the best photo I've ever taken.
Enjoy.
Constructive criticism and other comments appreciated!

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Love Mish

WE NEED MORE
PEOPLE FOR
SCHOOLIES IN LORNE!!
msg me on myspace if

you're interested...

but only if we know each

other!!

Hey everyone,

The 'L' key on my computer isn't exactly working so if It seems like I'm typing strangely - that's the reason!

I'm thinking about starting video blogging but I don't have a video camera atm.. gah!
I have this idea to do my vids with kosta, because he always brings out the best in me.. and we can be creative and drama faggy (-_-)

I'm procrastinating atm. See I should be looking over notes for drama yet instead I found myself reading  an old blog I wrote from 2005 about MSN 7.0 and I was thouroughly excited about it for some reason haha.

Going to a gig tomorrow! Y'all should come it's at penton hill ROCK THE HILL! Should be great & TIS FREE!
It's funny how much people changle it's funniest when you witness change within yourself because so much embarassment come along with it!

EXAMPLE; Mia & I starring Fee: A response to mia's Christmas blog:
[read from bottom to top]

Lololol...retarT[shuzzup I know it's spelt with a d]

So this weekend was fantastic..

I did hook up but it can be justified, the point of not hooking up in my previous blog refers to when I am easily persuaded to makeout with people I have no connection or feelings for.

So it's okay to kiss someone I ACTUALLY WANT TO.
Haha, anyway -

This weekend:
Friday night, bree's place in the spa with some lovely individuals...
Anyone who has photos please be sure to send them on!
& can I just say BREE YOU HAVE THE BEST FUCKING PARTY HOUSE.
Her house has everything - All the foods you could possibly want, a hella lot of booze, spa-ness, pool table.. perfection

Saturday night, Paddy's party and fuck it went off heaps of people especially heaps of sexy people.
- Got trashed
- Kissed a rather attractive boy
- Went on an adventure with Chris and Cookie
- Interrupted Love making
- Danced like crazy
- made some friends :D
-Then I crashed.
Photos from that night pass them on aswell...

Anyway my 'L' Key is being a bastard so enough typing.

Hey everyone,

It's that time for a major life overhaul!
I've had one of those weeks where everything just builds up to one moment and then you feel amazing for about 2 days and then something sets you off.

Ok so apparently I need to consider the choices I'm making in my life, because I think this whole sexual empowerment bussiness is a load of bullshit.
Either that or I'm going the wrong way about it...

None of this - go to parties, look hot, hook up.
From now on - go to parties, drink, have fun, look classy & cool and don't ditch my friends for the hotties.

You're going to be reading this if you do and think 'w-t-f mish, I have no idea what you're on... BUT I WANNA GET ME SOME'

I think a lot of people have lost respect for me... I feel so terrible & embarrassed.

Sorry... peeps [I couldn't help it I just so desperately wanted to say peeps]

I'm going to take a long shower, light candles around my bathroom, some insence, pump my favourite music and then put on a face mask.

I don't think you understan how theraputic candles are... get into it.
DIG IT.