I recall a long farewell and a time to choose
So we part like rivers baby, yeah like rivers do
But I still talk about you though and wonder
How it is your life will unfold

I recall driving home, this isn't going to hit me until God knows when
You know I feel it in my bones and I wear it on my skin
But there is no use in right or wrong
When a heart must go where it belongs

Show me what it looks like
Outside your window at twilight
Is it me that you see dancing on a line,
Singing I could be yours if you would be mine
Come on grow old with me and surely you will see

I remember thinking, boy you must be dreaming
So hold on, before it's all gone
And I do remember thinking
That your world will go on spinning
Without me now

I recall a long farewell and a time to choose
So we part like rivers baby, yeah like rivers do

Love is a ghost
with a fiery tounge
and a cold touch

Holding onto the only thing I know
My fingertips are bleeding
I don't want to let go

It's no use defending words that you will never say
My voice is straining to echo over the walls you put up
If I could only reach you, you'd know that I adore you

If I could lay my heart on the table
Like I've done so many times before
You'd see it; You'd understand

This is how it always happens
I realize that I could never be above everything else
The anger and the fights only make us bitter

You see everything in black and white
And it's never that simple, baby.
I just wish you could see what I see


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Dance with me below crystal knives
Chandeliers ablaze
We'll dance in fear of our own lives
that our eyes contain
Behind these masks we renegade against the sound
We'll let our voices slowly fade and ring out
Crystal chandeliers hang
Gently swaying with our bodies, fall down
Race upon us, hammer into the ground
We dance among our shadows,
our enemies connected feet to feet
Ill take the lead
I wont run I wont hide from this

Hiding behind a mask only lasts
until you see the reflection of a liar in the glass

Just like the day that i met you
you didnt say a word
but i still knew
did you really think i wouldnt see?
you were lying straight through your teeth

such a waste of a wonderful day
wrecked and ruined by your slanderious ways
by the games you play, oh by the games you play

it will be the death of me
before i let you get the best of me boy
it will be the death of me
before i let you get the best of me

youre the monster underneath
lost of all faith
feeding off my dreams
where i thought i was safe

just like the day that i met you
you didnt say a word
but i still knew
you were lying straight through your teeth
oh you were lying straight through your teeth


did you think you would prove the whole world wrong?
everythings never enough
baby youre so, well youre just too much
everythings never enough

it will be the death of me
before i let you get the best of me boy

it will be the death of me
before i let you get the best of me

youre the monster underneath
lost of all faith
feeding off my dreams
where i thought i was safe

so shut your mouth
and bite your tongue
because your a liar never foolin anyone
youre the smoke in the air making everyone choke

youre the monster underneath
lost of all faith
feeding off my dreams
where i thought i was safe

so shut your mouth
and bite your tongue
because youre a liar never foolin anyone

The line is being drawn through my heart
And we're conceiving fires through our thoughts
You're just like me
You're just like me

This is everything I wanted to tell you
I'm still in love with everything about you
I feel the wreckage from everything you do
And I'm tired of still waiting

If I told you the truth now
Would you still leave and take my heart?
But I still feel ugly and you're ugly just like me
when I show you the truth will you still leave?
Will you ever change? But I still feel empty
Will I always lose this game

this is everything I wanted to show you
I'm no longer scared of anything about you
I lived through the damage from the heart you took from me
And I'm tired of still wanting

Write ten people how you really feel without saying who it is.

1. I'd give anything; I'd go to hell and back, to the ends of the earth if you could be here to watch us grow up, if you could breathe again. I miss your laugh, and the way you touched my hair and made me smile. Your girls are growing up fast, I made a promise to find Courtney and I'm gonna bring her to you one day. I bet the mountains are beautiful this time of year, you'll stay with me always. Your body is in a little box but even the biggest box couldn't hold your spirit. RIPCLB

2. I used to hate you, you were a spoiled brat and we never got along. I wish I could take back all those times we beat each other up, but things are so much better now and that's all that matters. I'm going to be your best friend forever, and we're going to have one hell of a time growing old together. I love you more than life itself.<3

3. We haven't known each other that long, and we've been in our little arguments but you never cease making me smile so big. I have seen your heart, and I'm honored to have it. I love you, even if you do have herpes. :]

4. Now for a hard one. it's true, you know me inside and out better than any boy ever has. You know exactly how to make me laugh until I cry, but you also know how to make me blindingly angry which you love to do. I loved you for years and then I lost you because I was stupid and we couldn't get along. I sometimes wish we never met at all, but then I would probably be dead. You kept me alive for two and a half years. It kills me everday to see how messed up everything turned out to be. I can only offer you my friendship now, I am a completely different girl than who you met. I will always care for you but things are different now, I see how I went wrong and I'll never do it again. I won't let anyone get that close ever again, you were the first and last. I'm just sorry we never moved to alaska :(

5. We were best friends for a short time, and I have apologized a million times for how I hurt you but I never truly was sorry until now. I can't explain to you in words how much I wish you never would have met me.

6. Now for another hard one, we have known each other less than a year and to be honest...I was never connected to you like I thought I could be. I misled you a thousand times because I was lonely and I needed someone to love me. I know this will hurt to read but: I used you. But I know you were using me too, even if you didn't mean to. Your life has been terrible, you've done terrible things that not even i could have nightmares about. Don't you see? I am not here anymore. You're right, maybe life will throw us together again but I'm scared to try again.

7. You hurt me everyday just by living, the pain you have caused my entire family nauseates me. You are no one who deserves love, you don't deserve humanity. You deserve to be locked away in a cold room until the day you rot away from loneliness. When the drugs are gone you have no one and nothing, and you meet God face to face and you relive every moment, every scar, every bruise I hope the last thing you see is the little girls you destroyed.

8. You truly are my hero, I can't express enough how much I don't deserve you.

9. You weren't around much when I was little, but I've grown to love you, old man. :]

10. I really admire you, you make me laugh and I wish I was just like you.

If we had run away together
Problems don’t disappear like i can
We probably be running forever
So I keep your heart on my nightstand

I sleep alone, with only memories
If you need me, ill be tying this rope to this tree

My worst best habit was pretending I was someone important to you

The dirt above and below me will tell my story of lies
Every notch in your bedpost, was everytime I stabbed you in the back
Casting stones from the glass castle was my demise
Every day I gave up; the skill you so obviously lack.

i missed you, but you won’t hear that from me
it’ll echo as i’m burying it deep beneath what we used to be

Well you certainly are the king of the pity party, did it ever occur to you to resign?

My grandfather preached a sermon on forgiving yourself lest you never live again. And I thought of you. Not even you, just the empty shell that is you.

Because if you have been saved like you say you have then God will never remember it against you. But to dwell on it and let it affect your life and the lives of others is also a sin. A sin you still drown in.


You are drowning in it, you were right: you aren't the boy I met. And I don't want to know who you've become any longer. You have become a self-loathing hypocrite. You can't tell me that I am cold when you have frozen over.

It was the last time I was willing to reach out, and you just kept looking to the past to solve all you problems. There is only one thing that can help you now.