Yeah, no hands, right? It's been a roller coaster ride this past week. Great events worth noting, if you will.

1- I am still trying to cope with the drunk person (people). Why? Haven't I put in enough of my time and energy and emotions into dealing with addicts BEFORE? I feel certain that I have. This person is not a partner of mine, thankfully... Could that be considered a personal step forward - that at least this person isn't my partner this go 'round?

2- I'm still trying to process events of the past. Things from my formative years up to my life now. I can only bite off small pieces at a time, but at least I can still chew! LMAO

3- My grandfather passed away Friday morning. We weren't close, but it's a complicated relationship in MY head. I am coming to understand how he was and was not able to be a grandpa to me and my brother or sister, but yet, his last wife's grandchildren called him Grandpa. I have never known the kind of man he was. The last time we even spoke was several years ago, and I think he had been drinking when I called. It was a very awkward conversation. I hope now, from his view from beyond the veil, that he can understand why I called him. I'm still trying to figure that one out, myself.

4- Norma and I volunteered to work the door at the Charm City Kitty Club last night. As such, we were able to go to the show for free. I had so much fun! The performers were great! My favorites were by the "anti-all-girl" band Mzery Loves Company. It's rock, it's soul and it's hip-hop and R&B. I enjoyed dancing in the aisle. I have learned a new phrase - "Jam out witcha clam out" !!! lmfao The other favorites were Rebecca Nagle (contortionist) and Eliza Blaze (fire-eater). This was my second show, so I'm hooked an' all about it. Next show- 10/2-3

5- I'm going to miss one of my best friends ever. She is moving to FL in July or August. It's a shock to my system, given that we have a rather complex history. We used to be partners, in fact. I'm so happy that we were able to salvage and heal from the demise of our relationship, to capture the things we both love in one another without the bias of our past. It took time. It took patience. It gave us both better perspective of ourselves and who we love. And now she's moving away. I don't when I'll see her again once she goes, or our pets. I'm going to miss her and the menagerie that was my life for several years.

I've never been one to mourn much - in any capacity. But I'm sure learning about grief now. I have so much better understanding now of how it feels to MISS someone or something. Gods, I hope it passes soon.

Yes, I'm watching my back. CAREFULLY. A lot of things lately have me thinking there's something weird that I can't put my finger on. I know it's all got to have a reason.. some way it makes sense... but in case it doesn't, I'm ready.

People underestimate each other. People underestimate me, especially. Some people think they know me when they don't. Maybe they think I'm not paying attention..?

I've gone through hell the past several years. Utter and total chaos at times, but I'm still here, so if anyone thinks for one second that I'm not up to whatever game they're playing... well, then it will be a complete and utter surprise to them when I pop up to smack them down.

I don't like to be mean and nasty, but I CAN be. For people who really deserve it, it's almost a joy for me. Go ahead... let that innocent look fool you. It'll make it more fun when you're on your ass looking up at me.

Sleep tight.......

I'm sitting here.. royally pissed at myself. I forgot to pay my auto insurance for 2 months, and now the policy has been cancelled. They will not reinstate it because I had 2 accidents last year (only one was my fault), and my credit sucks, given all the health problems I have had in the past 3 years. So, now I've got to figure out how the hell I'm going to be able to scrape up money to start a new policy, b/c they want at least 2 payments' worth of premiums up front. Truthfully, that's the equivalent of a month's worth of wages for me..

AND WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I DO THE SHIT THAT EVERYBODY ELSE CAN DO?!?!? Nothing especially adventuresome... I'd just like to be able to work full-time! I'd like to be able to deal with stuff as it comes up. Make more money! Have more energy to do the things that my partner (who has 11 more years on me) can do. I'd REALLY like to be able to ride with her. I'd like to be able to play hockey. I'd like to be able to just DO things. Go to the grocery store and be able to get through the entire store without being so FUCKING exhausted!!

I don't go a single day without losing something or forgetting something or getting lost. My doctor told me a couple of months ago that Disability wasn't going to be something I was likely to get, so I needed a backup plan. I told her if I HAD a backup plan, I'd use it, but my life as it is right now IS the BACKUP PLAN. I wouldn't file for disability if I had a plan "b". This is all I have to keep me going. I really resented her for making that statement.

I see her every 2-6 weeks. Every time I go it for an appt., I leave a sheet paper with all of my difficulties and challenges and information I have found. And every time I go to see her, it's been lost, or she says she forgot to read it. WTF!? Why do I bother, if she's not going to read it? If she'd read it, she wouldn't be surprised that I had to start using a cane, b/c I've been telling her for the past YEAR, that things are getting worse. She has me keep up with my blood sugars, but half the time she doesn't even read more than 1 week's worth of my blood sugar log.

I'm so tired of things being this way. I'm tired of being in pain. I'm tired of being depressed and angry. I take so many meds, and I don't really know if they do me any good. Fibromyalgia isn't supposed to be progressive, but I swear that's what it feels like. I can't even get decent sleep.

Norma has a stand that will hold a standard bicycle to turn it into a stationary bike. I'm going to try riding it a little bit every day. Maybe just 5-10 minutes, not too fast, and then slowly inch my way up from there. If I can't go up from that point, then I'll find how much works for me and do it.

I know I can't give up. I don't want to give up. I want my life to be rich and happy and gratifying. If I give up, I'll spend the rest of my life getting more miserable every day. I know that. Sometimes, I feel hopeless, like I'm always going to feel this way. That can't be right! The Goddess never takes you where She cannot protect you.

Goddess, please give me the strength to deal with whatever I have to do today.
 

Well, I blogged earlier today about something that really bothered me, and in the fairness of keeping someone's secret, I made it viewable only to people on my friend's list.

Mostly, b/c I'd been blocked by someone who's never met me, who approached ME via email, not the other way around, disguised as a professional inquiry. I answered the email, and then was blocked from further communication. LMAO Almost.

But, though it bothers me to be dismissed as I was, I have decided to not let this vexation ruin my day. We all have our bad days. And, it would not be fair to publicly assume things about someone whom, admittedly, I've never met. Perhaps there are good reasons for what transpired. Who knows... so, in the vein of moving on...

Today was pretty good, despite the 25 degree weather. The wind chill brought it down to 15 degrees at one point. Damn, if I didn't love those furry critters, I'd never do that - walk in what I consider to be ARCTIC temperatures. But, I do love them.  Their little wet noses and whiskers and furry 'shnuffles' (because I DO smell like dogs, afterall) just make my day! LOL

It never fails.. If I'm in any kind of pain, the unconditional love they give me never ceases to ease whatever it is I'm feeling. They don't know if I'm hurting. They don't know how I'd normally be in bed, trying to feel better. All they know is that I come to take care of them. I walk them, feed them, clean up after them (it's not ALL upside LOL), brush them and play with them. I am continually amazed at how a simple game of fetch makes ME feel better.

And it reinforces my belief in what I'm doing. I don't make a lot of money. There's no insurance. There's nothing but my will and my love of animals that drives me to do what I do. I started doing it because my health drove me out of working in an office, as I used to. Then I couldn't do retail anymore. Knowing that the right sort of job for me was going to be difficult to find, I reached out to a woman who owned a dog-walking business. Now, a year later, I walk probably just as many dogs as she does.

I guess it's like being a nanny, except that my kids are 4 legged. Not having human kids of my own, I needed to feel like I was taking care of someone - nurturing, I guess. I care more about those critters than I do their owners. LOL It's the only job I've ever had that I've gotten into my car, drove from house to house, and been in excruciating pain. I don't call out sick, unless I'm actually throwing up-sick. That's different.

I feel like I found my calling in a way. My clients tell me how their dogs get all excited at the mention of my name. People call me the Dog Whisperer. Liz used to say she'd never seen anyone who had such a way with animals, with the exception of her friend, Z.

I blame my mother. She taught me a lot about respecting other creatures. She taught me how to catch snakes (the garden variety) when I was 7 or 8, I think. The lessons continued after I brought her a water moccasin one day. Hey, I knew how to catch it! LOL I just didn't really know the difference between poisonous and non-poisonous snakes. She made sure I did after that little stunt, though. I have no memory of it, though, so I don't think I ever knew I was in danger. I DO remember her telling me how poisonous snakes have flat heads, while non-poisonous ones have more rounded heads!

I think, in part, my reverence for animals also came from the knowledge that I was part Native American (unfortunately, my lineage has disappeared with  what remained of the Kichai tribe when they were welcomed to become part of the Witchita Nation, in order to remain alive, in the mid-late 1800s). I took that very seriously.

Then, I became a Wiccan at the age of 26. Harm None seemed to make a lot of sense. So, I found myself interested in all pantheist beliefs. Comparative religion became a hobby. So, when my health got bad enough for me to lose jobs because of it, it made sense to me to take care of animals. LOL

Too bad I wasn't able to finish college (at least not yet, anyway) - I had a double major - Biology and Psychology. At the time, I pondered why I'd want to persue a double major, but now, looking back, it makes a lot of sense to me. The psychology of animals. I have a major soft spot.

I remember when my cat, Polly, got sick.... 2 days and she'd lost 2.5 of her 8 lbs, and her hair was falling out, and she wasn't eating. She wasn't drinking water. Liz and I immediately took her to our vet. Her system was shutting down, and they couldn't figure out why. Doc said it could be diabetes, and I started to cry. But, then I had a moment of lucidity. *I'M* diabetic - who better to take care of her than ME? They never figured out what was the cause - maybe some kind of bug she caught that caused her not to eat, and as she dehydrated, her body began to shutdown. It's frightening to me how quickly she deteriorated.

But, she's alive and living with Liz now. :) She's got some issues, AHEM the mental kind, but she's loved and healthy. And if they'd said she had something that would require me to care for her more closely, I'd have done it, no question. Shots, pills, special food, whatever I had to do, I'd do it.

Life is a winding road. I don't know how or even IF, I'll be able to get approved for disability. It's a major problem, b/c I have limited resources. I could actually keep doing my job, if I were to get disability. I don't make more than the allowed amount, anyway. LMAO It's sad, but I'm couching it as humorous. I can't afford an attorney, and the places that promise to help you get benefits, only take on cases they KNOW they'll win, b/c that's when they get paid. I don't fall under the "shoe-in" category, oddly enough.

But, when that time comes, if it comes, I know I'll be able to keep on walking the dogs, and looking after the cats. I'll still be able to start a client's dishwasher or put her thawed chicken into the fridge when I get to her house. I can still be there to let a service-person in, if the home owner can't be there themselves. And that makes me feel good. People rely on me. They trust me. I relish that knowledge. It makes me feel important. And that's WAY better than trying to make myself sick by working jobs I know will only make me feel worse every day, even if they do pay better.

Well, I've said quite enough here. I'm going to go hunt my woman down and watch some TV. Maybe try to de-bug her computer. And fix the air leaks around the doors. Stuff like that. LOL I'm in paradise, I tell you. Paradise.

I am upset. Resentful. Angry. Frustrated. Because I'm not being heard. It's not b/c of anyone in my personal life, nor is it a work thing. It's because I am sick and tired of having people who do not know me diminish me.

This is a Disability thing. I have multiple health issues. I keep a list of them in my f*cking planner so I don't forget any of them when I need to relay that info to a doctor, etc. I FORGET my diseases b/c there are too many to remember them all.

If that weren't frustrating enough, I have to try to get the best possible healthcare that I can while on state-sponsored insurance. I have a great doctor, don't get me wrong, but I need to be able to see certain specialists - endocrinologists, neurologists, orthopedics, GI's, cardiologists, rheumatologists - but I can't. My coverage only pays for general doctor visits. So, I have to go to a primary care physician to try to help me feel as good as I can. No easy feat, believe me.

I've applied for Disability through Social Security and the state. I've been denied in my request. I'm not considered moderately or severely impaired... because I'm a young woman with invisible chronic conditions! I have to keep a list of my meds, as well, or I'll forget what all I have to take. Beyond the insulin and other non-pill rx's, I have 10 other pills to take at night! And all they do for me is keep me moving. They don't alleviate my pain. They don't make me any better!! I do everything I can to take good care of myself. I've cut way back on red meat and aspartame/saccharin, because studies have shown that they contribute sometimes to the pain of fibromyalgia.

Still I am in pain. I feel like no one else sees how I struggle to cope - how I struggle to maintain - how I struggle to make it through the day. I can't work office jobs, I can't work retail or labor-intensive jobs. It's really hard sometimes just to get out of bed - to move. And I don't know how to play the game of requesting disability benefits. I don't understand the rules, except to know that I won't be considered unless I've been unable to work for one full year. Who can go a full year with no income?!

I WANT to work, even if it's just part-time. I want to have some kind of security that if my health gets to the point where I cannot work at all, I know I'll be able to survive.

I am heartsick about this. Knowing my limitations - that I even HAVE physical limitations at such a young age! - makes me crazy! I'm so angry at the unfairness of it all. And I can't get any assistance through disability, b/c I WORK. I walk dogs for people.

I don't even know how much longer I'll be able to keep doing it. The winter temperatures are hard on my body. I go to bed with the muscles in my legs on fire. I walk in the frigid air with my knees in pain after 10 minutes because of the cold. I can't stand still in one place for more than 10 minutes. I can't go shopping for more than 30 minutes. I don't really sleep. I suffer with debilitating migraines and cluster headaches several times a month. And I can't take most pain meds b/c of my stomach and the contraindications that are possible with my other meds.

So, I sit here at almost 2 am. I'm in front of my computer, venting about how powerless I feel, despite my ongoing attempts to have a "normal" life. I hate how mortal I feel. Needy. Powerless. Weak. It disgusts me. And yet, I know that it must be for some higher reason that I can't fully grasp right now.

The wisdom I'm gaining for all this has come at a VERY high price. It's cost me dearly, and I haven't even paid in full yet. I've been typing for nearly 20 minutes now, and my hands are already in pain from the repetitive keystrokes.

My heart screams, "I'm only 32!!!!"

My head yells back, "It doesn't matter."

This is NOT what I wanted for my life. If not for the love of my partner and my family and friends, I doubt I would be here. Everyone tells me how strong I am - that I'm so self-aware. They admire that I will not compromise myself or my beliefs under any circumstances. But, I don't know how to make government employees understand that I really do need Disability, even though I appear to be fine.

I guess it just doesn't matter, in the grand scheme of "things," except to me and my small circle of loved ones. I have accepted my situation, but I don't know how to fix it. That really pisses me off. I was supposed to be PERFECT, damn it!

I'm sick today. I have been since last Wednesday or Thursday. It's a winter cold that's been going around. I knew I'd likely catch it, as so many people around me have.

Additionally, my car had to be towed to a shop this morning. It would not crank yesterday. Please pray for it to be an easy and inexpensive fix.

I'm going to have to walk to the bank to deposit my paycheck today. Joy. Being sick and walking in the bitter cold 24 degree weather is not fun. I'm not looking forward to it. But, I gotta do what has to be done. At least I'm feeling a little bit better.

Thanks for any positive wishes and energy being sent my way! :)

I am posting this blog post-anniversary(though it's dated 11/18, today's date is 12/8), b/c this is the first chance I've had to even get on the computer the past several weeks.

Norma and I celebrate our one year anniversary today! It's difficult to explain the journey I've taken this past year, but I can't complain about the results... too much, anyway.

I have found Norma to be a very real and tangible source of strength and support in my life. This strength and support has enabled me to work on myself and try to process and heal some of the worst traumas I've experienced in my life. Without her, I don't know when I'd have felt ready to deal with these demons.

I have also learned that disagreements don't have to involve shouting and cursing. In the past, one of my greatest regrets with previous partners is the amount of shouting matches that have occurred. I was not patient with previous partners, and I have been guilty of antagonizing issues in order to perpetuate a negative cycle.. all in the name of having an outlet for the anger I've held on to for soooo long.

I have learned that stability does NOT equal a lack of passion. I have learned that calm waters don't lead to boredom. Before now, I would've had difficulty imagining a a fiery, passionate relationship that did not include the emotional roller coaster.

In a very REAL way, Norma has calmed the demons inside of me that long to lash out, simply by showing me, by example, more healthy ways of expressing the hurt inside me. I am in awe of her daily. I feel like I grew up fighting the people I love, and that cycle continued into adulthood. Now I know there is a better way. It does not include hurting the people around me.

I wish I could explain the connection we had from the very beginning. We became involved VERY quickly. In ways I cannot explain, it was nearly instantaneous. It sounds trite, but it was, for me, love at first sight. The first time we ever spoke on the phone, we talked for SEVEN hours straight. We never ran out of things to say. If she had not had work the next day, we could've easily talked for longer. We were supposed to have our first date 3 days after we first met (online), and the date was breakfast at IHOP following a hockey clinic she was attending, which was on a saturday. After we spoke, however, she said she did not want to wait, nor did she want my first impression of her to be "post-hockey funk date," so she set me an email that she would like to meet on Friday instead.

I spent the night with her that night. Not something I would normally do, but it felt right. In the morning, she asked me not to leave when she left for her hockey clinic (which was the original plan), as she wanted to see me afterwards. No argument from me - I wanted to see her again AND if I'd left when she did, I would've had to leave at 430 in the morning. EW.

She has opened my eyes to a lot of things, as I think I have for her. She'd never been with someone Wiccan. She'd never dated anyone who has as many medical issues as I do (not that many people do). I think I brought a lot to the table for her: being with me was just as eye-opening an experience for her as being with her was for me.

We are both strong, independent, self-aware, and compassionate women as individuals, but together we are far stronger. I am so very fortunate to have such a creative, fiery, and rational woman in my life. Who'd have thought that I'd ever fall in love with a Pisces?! LOL

Regardless of any improbability, we happened. Quickly. And one year lately, we are as solid as any couple could possibly be.

I can only thank her, as well as the Lord and Lady for answering my prayers. I didn't expect it to happen quite so quickly, but I forgot to be specific about when I wanted my prayer answered. LOL

Hopefully, one day I'll win the lottery, too. For now, my heart overflows with the depth of my feelings for her. I hope and pray that we will feel that way for the rest of our lives.

Happy Anniversary, Beautiful. :)

People are celebrating all around the globe. Obama is our new President-Elect! I am greatly looking forward to the change of administration, as are millions of people around the world. There's such a sense of excitement.. the air of change surrounds us. Hope, optimism, fairness, equality... these are feelings that many had lost, but these feelings are restored and renewed.

I wish him all the strength, courage, and well-being that he will need in order to take office and be successful for the next four years. His speech was amazing. McCain's concession speech was delivered with eloquence and grace. I hope he was sincere, but I applaud his class in conceding victory.

I got this off of a group on Facebook (which I recently joined) called 1,000,000 Strong Against Sarah Palin. I was adamantly Anti-Palin BEFORE, but this kind of sums up my WHY. Please Read

"If McCain is elected as President, Sarah Palin will be a heartbeat away from running our country- and if that doesn't scare the hell out of you, it should. There is significant risk of this occurring in his first term alone, augmented by McCain's age and history of cancer. 18% of presidents have died in office. The possibility that Palin could become president if McCain is elected is very real indeed. Do we really want Palin to take over the United States government in the event that McCain is unable to fulfill his duties?

Sarah Palin's resume' on being able to run a government that represents over 300 million people:

-Business/Professional Experience: Television sports reporter, 1987-1989; Co-owner of a commercial fishing operation, 1988-2007; owner, sport vehicle rental business, 1994-1997; chairwoman, Alaska Oil and Gas Conservation Commission, 2003-2004
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-Political Office: Governor of Alaska, elected 2006; mayor of Wasilla, Alaska, 1996-2002; Wasilla City Council, 1992-1996
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- Bachelor's degree in journalism (with a minor in political science) from the University of Idaho. It took her 6 years and 5 school transfers to obtain this degree. Nevertheless, a journalism degree is not particularly relevant nor beneficial for a president. Dick Cheney even received a masters degree and started a doctoral degree. She would be the first president since Herbert Hoover (who even went to Stanford) to have an irrelevant degree. All presidents since then have had degrees (except Truman who went to law school for 2 years, but had 35 years government experience) related to the military, business, law and politics. Since 1897, only two presidents have had degrees not related to being an administrator in some way. Those presidents only served one term and are considered unsuccessful by historians.
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- Wasilla City Council from 1992 to 1996, then mayor 1996 – 2002. As mayor of Wasilia, Palin built - as her legacy - a $15 million multi-use indoor ice arena on land that did not belong to the city. It will cost Wasilla at least an additional $1.67 million to acquire the land which the town is attempting to pay for by cutting library services, postponing capital improvement projects, and raising fees. Most cities under 10K don't have such expensive facilities. This put her town into debt. This is against the GOP platform against wasteful spending and throwing the gov't into debt.
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- Threatened a lawsuit to stop the listing of polar bears on the endangered species list, fearing that it would hurt oil and gas development in the bears' habitat off Alaska's northern and northwestern coasts. She has also been a vocal critic of scientists who suggest that climate change is leading to the decrease in polar bears in Alaska.
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- Is responsible for approving a $400,000 state-funded propaganda campaign to justify Alaska's barbaric wolf slaughter from the skies.
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- Palin tried last year to have the state pay $150 for every wolf killed, but the state superior court "shot" that down as an illegal use of bounty payments, which were outlawed in that state in 1984.
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- Her Husband works for BP energy corporation at an oil field on Alaska's North Slope (family ties to oil company)

- Zero Foreign policy experience, if you exclude her negotiating with foreign energy companies to exploit American resources. She is considered the leader of the Alaskan national guard but this is largely symbolic since she does not have authority to send the national guard into war. Biden, Obama, Cheney and McCain have all worked on legislation on national foreign policy. There are 17 border states, just because you're a governor of a border state doesn't mean you have national foreign policy experience.

- Does not know what the V.P. actually does. "As for that V.P. talk all the time," she told CNBC's Larry Kudlow in late July, "I tell ya, I still can't answer that question until somebody answers for me: What is it exactly that the V.P. does every day? I'm used to being very productive and working real hard."
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- She has a total of a little under 2 years in state government. In comparison, Sen. Obama has 7 years of experience in state government and 3 years in federal government.

- She has less experience (beyond the local level) in government than Obama, McCain, and Biden.****** If she assumes the presidency within McCain's first term, she would assume office with less experience beyond the local level in the government than ANY OTHER PRESIDENT IN THE HISTORY of the United States.******

- Palin has said she is "as pro-life as any candidate can be" and called abortion "an atrocity." She has supported mandatory parental consent, and while she is pro-contraception, has also indicated her preference for abstinence education over "sex-ed programs." She would permit abortion in cases where the mother's life was endangered, but not in the case of rape or incest.
****** Important Note: There is nothing wrong with being pro-life. To clarify, Palin is not only pro-life but ANTI-choice.******
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- Supports Death Penalty

- Supports unrestricted right to keep and bear arms and is a member of the National Rifle Association. Palin says, "I am a lifetime member of the NRA and I support our Constitutional right to bear arms." In 2004 in the U.S., 1804 children and teenagers were murdered in gun homicides, 846 committed suicide with guns and 143 died in unintentional shootings.

- Palin recently said that the war in Iraq is "God's task." She's even admitted she hasn't thought about the war much—just last year she was quoted saying, "I've been so focused on state government, I haven't really focused much on the war in Iraq."
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- In August 2008, according to an interview, she claimed to have had no idea what the Bush administration's plans were for Iraq and defended her stance stating it has nothing to do with state affairs, even though Alaska has a large military base.

- Is a member of Feminists for Life; she backs capital punishment, and opposes same-sex marriage.

- Supported Alaska's decision to amend its Constitution to ban same-sex marriage and would support a ballot question to deny benefits to homosexual couples.
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- Although Palin is aware of a climate change, she fails to recognize that we, as gas-guzzling humans, have played a large part in it. She is not interested in alternative energy choices. She's interested in drilling in the Alaska National Wildlife Refuge.

- Palin said in a 2006 debate that she supports teaching creationism alongside evolution in public schools on the grounds that "healthy debate is so important." In the same debate, she said she believed in a creator and avoided an up-or-down stance on evolution.
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- Palin never left the country before July 2007 when she needed to first obtain a passport before visiting Alaskan National Guard troops stationed in Kuwait.
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- As mayor, former city officials and Wasilla residents said that Palin approached the town librarian about the possibility of banning some books, though she never followed through and it was unclear which books or passages were in question.
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- As a city council member in 1995, Ms. Palin told colleagues that she saw "Daddy's Roommate" on the library shelf and said it didn't belong there. When suggested that she read the book herself, "Sarah said she didn't need to read that stuff." Despite this, the 2008 McCain-Palin presidential campaign released a statement stating that Republican Party vice presidential nominee Ms. Palin was not involved in censorship.
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- Six months ago, Palin told members of the fringe Alaska Independence Party—who advocate for a vote on secession from the union—to "keep up the good work" and wished the party luck on what she called its "inspiring convention."
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- Palin's husband was a member of the Alaskan Independence Party (a secessionist group that wants Alaska to secede from the U.S. to either join Canada or become its own country). He did not leave the AIP until 2002, when his wife became involved in statewide Republican politics.
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-***As mayor of Wasilla, Alaska, Palin enforced a policy of charging rape victims for their own rape examinations: an exam that costs $1200.***
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- Palin is against Stem Cell Research.

- Sarah Palin recently claimed that she turned down federal funding for the Bridge to Nowhere. However, in her 2006 campaign for governor she was an enthusiastic supporter of the project saying that Alaska should take advantage of earmarks "while our congressional delegation is in a strong position to assist."

- When asked if she believed in the Bush doctrine, Palin had no clue what the Bush doctrine even was, no less an opinion on whether she believed in it or not. The Bush doctrine, which flung open the doors to the catastrophe in Iraq, was such a fundamental aspect of the administration's foreign policy that it staggers the imagination that we could have someone so close to the White House who doesn't even know what it is.
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- In an interview with Couric, Palin defended her puzzling claim that geographic proximity makes her some sort of expert on Russia; went nearly blank when queried about McCain's achievements as a big-business regulator; agreed America "may find itself" on the road to another Great Depression; and, promoting a troop surge in Afghanistan, casually suggested that it "will lead us to victory there, as it has proven to have done in Iraq."
(Source:LATimes.com - Read More!)

- In an interview with Couric, Palin was asked to cite an example of a newspaper or magazine that she read regularly prior to being named as McCain's running mate. Three separate times, Couric tried to elicit a response from Palin about which specific newspapers she reads. Seemingly caught off guard, Palin could not name a single news source, but when pressed, she replied that she has read "all of them."
(Source: CBSNews.com - Read More!)

- In July of 2008, Palin became the subject of a state ethics investigation for abuse of power in Alaska: in late July, Alaska's state legislature voted to hire an independent investigator to find out whether she tried to have a state official fire her ex-brother-in-law from his job as a state trooper. She has also refused to call for the resignation of Alaska Senator Ted Stevens despite his indictment for allegedly hiding gifts received from an oil firm.

***** - Abused her power as Alaska's governor and violated state ethics law by trying to get her ex-brother-in-law fired from the state police.*****
(Source:CNN.com - Read More!)

- Can see Russia from her house."



I am thoroughly disgusted with Palin and her lack of not just political and government experience, but also her lack of a sense of fairness and humanity. In my opinion, she is a ignorant creature who has been "spoon-fed" information and swallowed the bait, hook, line and sinker.

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HRC interviews of citizens of Wasilla, Alaska, where Palin was Mayor. Please take the time to watch. If you're considering voting for McCain/Palin, please reconsider!!