Today was supposed to suck, simply because it was a work day. But for some odd reason I thought it was going to be a decent day. Maybe because the last time I was at work (last Friday aka my 30th birthday), it was horrible. Or maybe because tomorrow is my concert I’ve been looking forward to for so long.

On my lunch break I made a Wal-Mart run. As I walked into the store, I told my friend on the cell phone, “It smells like rain!”

Then, when I came out and got in my car the sky was dark and it began to sprinkle. I started my car and a Seether song started playing on the radio. Oh man, RAIN + SEETHER = GOOD DAY!

Maybe 15 minutes later I got back to work and I pulled into the parking lot and parked in a spot I never park in, that happens to be closer to the door. Soon after the tornado sirens began to blast.

It was really exciting and the sky was swirling above us, the rain was falling sideways and we were all staring at the sky. All of a sudden, hail begins to fall from the dark rotating sky. Hail the size of golf balls, then tennis balls, then BASEBALLS!

It was out of this world! I have never seen hail hit the ground so hard. In fact the last time I seen a heavy hail storm I was at work, and it was 5 years ago, almost to the day.

The storm kept coming in waves and the tornado warning sirens were blaring pretty much for 2 hours straight.

When it settled down for a second, we all went out to the parking lot to check our cars. I seen dents in the hood and the roof, and then as I walked around the back I seen broken glass. The hail had shattered my rear windshield. Its completely gone. There is glass all in the backseat.

I called my insurance agent just after finding the damage. I have a $500 deductible, which means, I’m out of pocket at the most $500. I don’t think replacing the windshield will cost that much, but what do I know?

There were at least a dozen cars in that parking lot and it had to hit mine. That’s just my freaking luck!

But honestly, as I sit here and complain and mope I do realize it could have been a lot worse. When I first seen the glass gone, I could see the top of Kinzie’s carseat and right then and there I thanked God that the kids weren’t in the car and that I was safe and unharmed.

Tomorrow, since the tickets are already bought and plans are made, I will take a break from life, and go to the concert I’ve been looking forward to for over a month with one of my best friends.

When I get back all my problems will still be here.

… and so will all of you!

(See I’m trying to see the bright side of things!)

Update: http://news.aol.com/article/oklahoma-tornadoes/336949

I know, I watched, I hung my head, and it broke my heart. Believe me I seen it. You are sorry about my Cowboys losing, well I'm sorry too.

I haven't said too much about it. I haven't had the desire to 'go off' on the players, the coaches, the big man JJ. I haven't said get rid of so-and-so and that magically will make everything better.

But I will.

I'm just taking some time to gather my thoughts and process them. I don't want to go crazy without thinking things through. I want my real opinion to be known, whenever I figure out what that is.

Patience darling...

P.S. My fellow Mets/Cowboys fans know this but this is the second collapse I've witnessed this year. Its also the second home stadium I've had to say goodbye to. RIP Texas Stadium and Shea Stadium. I'm ready for 2009.

My friends who know me,  know that the number one thing in my life is my son, Camden. He is my strength, and God knows I wouldn't be who I am without my little man.

Tonight I am going to miss his first band concert. Its a Christmas concert, and his first year of band. He plays the baritone and is so proud.

I am fortunate to work only 2 days a week at my day job. As fate would have it, his concert landed on one of those days. It could have been any day but Tuesday or Friday and life would be grand.

But no, the dreaded Tuesday.

Because I only work two days a week, I am not able to take off any time. So I didn't whine to my boss, or ask everyone to get done early so I can be home by 7 pm. I've learned in the past that it doesn't work. You would think the bad weather would encourage them to finish early, so that I can get home safely (being the only one that commutes to work). But not likely. I work with some very selfish people, and I think my schedule irks them and they never feel the need to help me out like that.

So for the first time in my life as Camden's mother, I will miss an important event in his life. It really hurts, and I think thats where my bitchy mood today stems from. I'm certain it is.

So please, forgive me, as I hope that he will do the same. 

I have a plan if I don't make it home in time for the show. I will have my mom call me from Camden's cell phone during the concert so I can at least hear the band. Gosh, I wish I knew someone with a video camera.

Home by the Foo Fighters

Wish I were with you
I couldn't stay
Every direction
Leads me away
Pray for tomorrow
But for today

All I want is to be home

Stand in the mirror
You look the same
Just lookin' for shelter
From cold and the pain
Someone to cover
Safe from the rain

All I want is to be home

Echoes and silence
Patience and grace
All of these moments
I'll never replace
No fear of my heart
Absence of faith

All I want is to be home
Ooh

All I want is to be home

People I've loved
I have no regrets
Some I remember
Some I forget
Some of them living
Some of them dead

All I want is to be home

Dedicated to my best friend B* cuz home IS where the heart is <3

So Im going on a long road trip this week and I need to get my car ready.

I go to this local place (not that we have many choices) to get a replacement tire on the back and an oil change.

I pull up there and 8 men are sitting on their butts watching nascar or some car thing on the tv in the lobby. They all work there, they have uniforms on.

I have to walk all the way to the back to the register before anyone says anything. Then one guy finally says 'can i help you' and I told him I needed a tire on the back passenger side. And he rudely replied, "well, if we have one."

I'm sorry does the sign say "TIRES" on it, or am I blind?

So one of the 8 men available wanders around the building and after a few minutes I wonder if they are even going to help me. After waiting forever me and Camden get back in the car and I said, "Forget this, I'll go somewhere else tomorrow while I'm in the city."

Then all of the sudden this guy walks up to my car as I'm about to start it and says, "No we dont have one but you can try the other place in town."

Gee thanks!

As I'm leaving a girl in a red car and a man in a big black pickup pull up. The man gets out of the truck, opens the door for the woman in the red car, takes her key and yells at one of the guys that they need an oil change. And he comes there right away and takes their car in the shop.

WTF?

So is it because I'm a female? Or because I didn't yell at them?

Whatever, maybe thats why my poor car never gets its tune-ups. I hate going to those places.

Or maybe I need that 'man' who opens my door and 'gets things done' for me.

Well you all know I'm not any of those scenarios.

So, tomorrow I will get my oil change on my lunch break in another town, and for now I will concentrate on my good week.

Thanks for listening to me rant. Grrr...

**UPDATE** Its the next day and I got a tire and an oil change and they were very nice. I've come to the conclusion that - "Its not who you know, but where you go!" LOL :)

Okay, first off I want to apologize for my horrible cell phone video quality... but I just had to share this. Isn't she a doll! My niece Kinzie just started calling me "Momma Kelly". She's been calling me Momma for a while now but she can now say Kelly and I'm so proud!

By the way, her real Mom started the Momma Kelly thing... and I'm not gonna argue because I love it!

In August 2007, Morgan's brother was found deceased, it has had a significant impact on the future album Finding Beauty In Negative Spaces, delaying the album. The band posted the following on their page, paying respects.

I'm sure many of you have been hearing some rumors about Eugene. Unfortunately these rumors are true. Eugene passed away early Monday morning the 13th of August (2007). As you might have seen we have cancelled a few shows to allow Shaun and the rest of us to come to terms with this tragic loss. Genie was an awesome human being, the type of person you want to be around. He never failed to put a smile on the face of all who he met and left a lasting impression on all whose lives he touched. I know I speak for everyone who knew Eugene when I say that he will be sorely missed. We all love you bro. Rest in peace -Dale

It was reported By Katie Brown, Rapid City Journal that Eugene "Genie" Welgemoed jumped to his death shortly after midnight Monday August 13, 2007 from an eighth-floor window of the Radisson Hotel in Rapid City, SD. Katie went on to report that According to police, no foul play is suspected in the death. It was ruled a suicide after an investigation.

Many Seether fans have left tributes and condolences. The song "Rise above this" deals with his suicide, though there is still no official explanation, how this song was written before Eugene's suicide.