I recently discovered that I am truly alone but also realized that i really only need myself and my children.I was going in for surgery,I was having a partial hystarectomy.It was suppose to be a simple out patient procedure that at most would last a few hours,but it didnt turn out that way.After I came out of surgery and was getting ready to go home blood vessels in my stomach burst and I was bleeding internally so I was rushed back into the operating room and I spent the next 3 days in the hospital.Unfortunatley my boyfriend who was there with me ended up having to go out of state for his job so i spent the whole time in the hospital with only one other visitor which was my little brother,none of the other tons of people I know came or even called to check on me NOBODY!!!!
The last that some people heard was that i was back in surgery due to internal bleeding but even those people didnt call back to see if i was ok.It after i got out of the hospital that I discovered that my heart is bigger than my brain,because me and the jids baked christmas cookies and sent them out to everyone.What the hell is wrong with me?Why the hell am I still so nice to people that obviously dont give a fuck about me?