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[12 Nov 2008 | Wednesday] 

What does the 5th text in your inbox say?
My phone doesn't keep them in order, it sorts them by sender.  So I can't really answer that..which is good, because I didn't want to go to the effort

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?
I don't really hold hands..so I'm not sure who that is. 

What is the wall paper on your cell phone?
Little bit:)

Are you drifting away from any friends?
I'm drifting away from all of them because I am so burned out right now that I never feel like seeing anyone or talking on the phone.  I'm really trying to get over it. 

What are you listening to?
My itunes is on shuffle and..wait for it...Wheatus "Teenage Dirtbag" is ending.  Haha..I am awesome...wait...next up...Kings of Leon "Manhattan" OBSESSED with them right now


Which one of your cousins is closest to you in age?
Uhh..I have one that is a couple years younger than me that I've met twice...when I was 12. 

What are you doing tonight?  Obviously not much

Do you miss anyone?
I miss everyone.  I miss all of my neices and nephews like crazy.  Always.

Are you wearing socks?
No. 

Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
A pink lighter.  I stole it from someone the other day...because i can never find the pink ones and they make me happy.  I try to make them my trademark, but I can never keep them long enough, so that just doesn't work out for me.

Are you comfortable answering personal questions?
MORE personal than what is in my pocket?   Well, gee..I don't know...

Would you ever donate blood?
If the situation was dire I'm sure I'd get over the fear, but no...probably not under normal cicumstances.  You should SEE what I go through when I have to have it drawn.

Someone on your mind right now?
Kanye West...but only because Love Lockdown was the next song on the shuffle.  I'm not quite that random.  Swear.

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Yeah..I was the baby, and the only girl.  Beat that.

Who was the last person to sit on your bed?
One of my secret boys. 

Where were you at 2:02 this morning?  Sleeping.  Which is what I was doing at 2:00 as well, in case you were wondering.

Anyone told you a secret this week?
Yup.  People should never do that.  Have you met me?

When was the last time you bought something?
I bought stuff on Sunday.  Sunday's are bad for my checkbook.

Do you play an instrument?
hahaha

In the next 5 months what are you looking forward to?
BIG life changes..but I'm not telling yet.

Name something that made you smile today.
I swear I don't know.  Sad.

Does a kiss make you feel better when you're angry?
Depends on who I am angry at and who is kissing me.

Was this New Year's enjoyable?
No...I was in Fayteville, North Carolina working my ass off for a company that is apparently not at all worth it.

Where do you think your best friend is right now?
I don't know...hopefully OFF OF HER LEG

Are you listening to music right now?
Yes.  Still Kanye...but he's ending so I'm sure you'll get an update in a second

Who else is in the room with you?
Just me and a fish (Joshua Radin's "What if you," In case you were wondering from the last question)

Do you wish you were somewhere else?
Yes. 

What do the majority of people in your life call you?
Crazy.

Is something bothering you right now?
Yes, if you couldn't tell.  Work though, so I guess it's not that important, in the grand scheme...

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
yes. 

What are you going to do tomorrow?
I'm going to work to be bitter and angry and try to keep my cool.

Who did you last say I love you to?
My brother when I hung up the phone with him about an hour ago

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Very, very.  They are the greatest.

Do you have a best friend you can lean on?
Well, right now she's recovering from knee surgery, so I'd be a little afraid to hurt her...but yes, yes I do.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
that i couldn't believe it was only Tuesday

Where were you last night?
Sleeping.  I slept a REALLY long time last night

Do you prefer to call or text?
I hate texting, but I've been so anti-social lately that it is all I do anymore..ha.

Why did you last cry?
Because Obama had just won the election and i was so happy and proud and just overwhelmed I didn't know what else to do.  Shannon called and we both just sat there crying for like 2 minutes.  Shutup.

What's your favorite season?
Spring. 

Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do?
Yes, because I am a huge whopping hypocrite

Do you believe exs can be friends?
Yes...but if you are smarter than I am you won't continue to have sex with all of them...that makes it a bit trickier.

If something was wrong, who is the first boy you would go to?
Really depends on what was wrong.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
No.  I'm happy alone right now

Are you listening to anything right now?
Seriously?  Good God.  Okay...another itunes update...it's Damien Rice "the Blower's Daughter" now

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
yes.

Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
I was a cheerleader (say it loud and proud)

What;s something you eat that people would think is nasty?
I'm sure a lot of the vegan food would gross people out..it would have grossed me out before

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Do my dad and brothers count?  Cuz..that's three.  If not..then...well...if not, I am screwed.

Do you enjoy late night conversations?
When I don't have to get up for work at 4:30...which I do everyday...yes

Who was the last girl you had a conversation with?
Mary

Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
Yes..but shhhhh...these are the big plans we're not discussing.  do not discuss!

Do you fall for people easily?
No.  It very rarely happens at all

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?

Yes

Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?
Oh, I am SURE that I have.  I instigate a bit. 

Is there anybody that you trust 100%?
Very, very few...but yes.

What woke you up this morning?
My alarm clock.  Five of them on my phone, to be exact.

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Kohls

Like anyone right now?
Not really, no.   I mean, I like them when we're "together" but other than that...

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 48 hours?
Again with the hand holding. 

In the past week have you smiled?
Wow..well, yeah.  I'm not sure i've ever gone a week without smiling.  Is that possible?  I mean, I've had some REALLY bad weeks

When you think of the rainbow, what pops in your head?
The color purple. Not...like..the book or movie...but the actual color..Just that one though..not all of them.  Seriously...try to figure ME out.  

Has anyone told you they loved you lately?
Yes

Do you think too much or too little?
WAYYYYYYYY too much for my own or anyone else's good.  I would pay good money to figure out how not to do that

Meet anyone new this year?
Yes

What did you realize today?
That things in my life may change sooner that I was expecting

What;s one thing you;ve regret in the past week?
?? I only do regret in really extreme circumstances.  Nothing this week.

What's the last thing you drank?
Water

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
Really depends on the night

Met someone who changed your life ?   I believe everyone you meet does

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?  No.  I think I have changed a LOT in the past couple of years, and it just keeps going

Do you believe in the saying what goes around comes around?
no.

Do you know if your ex still loves you?
Not all of them.

What was the last thing you did before you went to sleep last night?
I pet my kitty, and I swear to you I don't mean that as a euphemism...she lays right beside me at night

Do you storm out when your mad?
Yeah. Then I try to run you over with my car.

Can you admit when your wrong?
i don't know..when that happens for the first time I'll let you know. 

**in case you were waiting with baited breath, I'll give you one more...my itunes just went from "shy that way" by Tristan Prettyman and Jason Mraz to Britney's "womanizer."  You're going to miss the updates...you know you are. 

[04 Nov 2008 | Tuesday] 

Current mood:  chipper

I had several friends ask me about how I am voting and why.  So I did what I do, and wrote a blog.

So, in case you were wondering, and I know you are, because really...does anyone's opinion other than mine matter?  Didn't think so...

Anyway...Click here for the post

 

Currently listening:
Only By The Night
By Kings of Leon
Release date: 2008-09-23
[21 Oct 2008 | Tuesday] 

I just spent 8 hours at work on the computer and came home and got..wait for it..on the computer.  *sigh*  I'm downloading music, it's fine.

1) Favorite object in your room?
Well, obviously the bed. Who doesn't say the bed? I'd have to have a dresser made of diamonds to beat the bed


2) Have you ever smoked heroin?
Really?  Do I strike you as the smoking heroin type?

3) Do you own guns?
And again.


4) What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic?
There's no sonic around here..I haven't had it in ages..I wouldn't even know!


5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Oh, I'm a mess!  Anyone who's ever been the lucky recipient of my "make me go inside the office" calls knows how fun I am right then. 


6) What do you think of hot dogs?
A. I am a vegan.
B. "Variety meats," which include things like liver, kidneys and hearts, may be used in processed meats like hot dogs, but the U.S. Department of Agriculture requires that they be disclosed on the ingredient label as "with variety meats" or "with meat by-products."

Further, watch out for statements like "made with mechanically separated meats (MSM)." Mechanically separated meat is "a paste-like and batter-like meat product produced by forcing bones, with attached edible meat, under high pressure through a sieve or similar device to separate the bone from the edible meat tissue," according to the U.S. Food Safety and Inspection Service (FSIS)."

From www.sixwise.com

So, what I'm saying is...I'm not a big fan.


7) Favorite song?
Oh boy.  Um...Jackson Browne's Sky Blue and Black will always be one (see main profile), Van Morrison's "I'll Be Your Lover, Too" is a close second.  I'm leaving it at that, because I could get out. of. hand. with this one.

8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
COFFEE!!  And LOTS and LOTS of it!


9) Can you do push ups?
hahahahahahaha.


10) Can you do a chin up?
Seriously..who do they think I am???

11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
Its actually not mine yet.  A couple of weeks ago when we went back to AR for my grandad's funeral, my mom got this string of pearls..beautiful pearls that my grandpa had brought home from Japan and WWII to my grandma right before they got married.  Both my grandma and mom wore them in their weddings.  They are amazing.


12) Do you like blue cheese?
Ew, ew, ew.


13) Ever been in a car wrecks?
Yes...yes I have.  But never one that was my fault..knock on wood.


14) Favorite Movie?
Man, I hate these questions.  Ever it is the Philadelphia Story.

15) What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
I'm selfish, which I think has led me to be not a very good person.  I am working on that.

16) Middle name?
Oh, I am so not telling.

17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
That's cute..like i have three thoughts at once?  Uhh..I'm hungry, my foot hurts because my new boots=adorable, but not so comfy, and why am I not napping?

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday
I bought the infamous new painful boots (So worth it, seriously), a cute little work jacket-thingie and groceries

19) Name 3 drinks you drink regularly?
Coffee, Dr. Pepper, water.  Glad they didn't ask for a 4th, b/c that's it really.

20) Current worry?
I have one, but I'm not telling it right now. 

21) Current hate right now?
The Republican ticket

22) Favorite TV show?
The West Wing (how not shocking am I?) Still on the air would have to be Grey's.

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
Alone in a motel room in Fayetteville, NC on a business trip. Awe.some.

24) Where would you like to be right now?
Florida. 

25) Name three people who will complete this?
No, I'm probably the only one this bored right now

26) Do you own slippers?
It turns out I do..I found them under my bed while cleaning this weekend. Who knew?

27) What shirt are you wearing?
A black tank top

28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
As a matter of fact I have satin sheets, and I love, love, love them. However, it turns out that $400.00 purchase might have been a bit of miscalculation as my cat has torn them to shreds.

29) Can you whistle?
Noooo.  My friend Nathan spent many-a-man-hour trying to teach me, but it was a big failure.  I suck

30) Name 3 bad habits you are trying to break
Being so judgemental, smoking (but..uh..not trying that hard) and...no..that's probably it.

31) Would you be a pirate?
I am a pirate

32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't?  My shower thanks me.

33) Favorite girl's name?
Grace

34) Favorite boy's name?
I don't know.

35) What's in your pocket?
I don't have any:(: Sad:(

36) Last person that made you laugh?
Megan

37) Best bed sheets as a child?
My room was CEILING to FLOOR Strawberry Shortcake.  But not the new ridiculous one, the real one.

38) Worst injury you've ever had?
I don't know?  Watching my hand actually BURNING was bad. 

39) Do you love where you live?
Noooooo.....I am not a fan of Northern California.  Florida here I come!

40) How many TVs do you have in your house?
I had 2 until this weekend, and I dumped the one in my bedroom, which hasn't been turned on once in the past 2 years. Lol.  Thank God I kept it all that time.

41) Who is your loudest friend?

They're all loud. 

42) How many dogs do you have?
None:(:(:(  I want a puppy!!


43) Does someone have a crush on you?
Oh, I'm sure...I'm pretty amazing.


44)What bothers you about your childhood?
I had to move a lot.  A lot a lot. .Like 6 different middle schools a lot. 

45)What's the oddest thing you have ever eaten?
I don't do wierd eating. 

46) What is your favorite candy?
mmm...candy. Umm..Pez.  Or candy necklaces.  Yes, I am 4 years old.  Bite me.

47) Favorite Sports Team?
The Broncos and the Yanks. Shhhh...

48) Where is the next place you want to travel to?
I don't want to visit, so much as I want to move the fuck out of this hell-hole


49) What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Showering before bed

50) What did you first think of when you woke up this morning?
How 4 hours doesn't cut it.

[10 Sep 2008 | Wednesday] 

I probably get paid way too much to be online all morning, but what the hell...

If you could change your eye color would you?
No...I really like my eyes.

So, what's the status between you and the last person you kissed?
Oh good God.  So, how much time do you have?

What is the biggest secret you know about your best friend?
Riiiight.  Because, it turns out I am totally going to out my best friend's secrets in a survey.

Last person you told a secret to?
Ummm....I'm not sure I have many secrets right now.  OH no..that's not true.  I told "the last person I kissed" from 2 questions ago something the night before last...right before we fell asleep...that when I woke up I was like..."damn it..he SOOO did not need to know that about my life." 

Would you ever date the person you last kissed?
We've tried that.  It didn't work. So, no.

What are you listening to at the moment?
Mary on the phone.

What's your favorite thing about Sundays?
That you are totally allowed to be as lazy as you want.

When was the last time you cried?
No idea.  Been awhile.

Last phone call received?
Aly at work.

What are you wearing on your feet?
Houndstooth printed shoes that match my houndstooth printed hat.  I'm freaking adorable.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
umm..no?  I don't think so.  Which, in 10 years of friendship ain't all that bad.

When will your next kiss be?
The thing about my life is that I don't ever know the answer to that question.  Which is kinda how I like it.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
We haven't gotten there yet.  I will let you know though...I know you are holding your breath. 

Do you want to cut your hair?
No, I like my hair right now.  Its sassy.  And I can rock sassy.

What was the last thing you hid?
I'm sorry?   Does anyone have an answer to this?

What are you excited about?
umm...my birthday weekend will be fun.  Although, I'm having hard time saying I am excited about turning 28.

What's the last letter of your middle name?
Really? Wow.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping. Thank God.

When is your birthday?
In 18 days. Ugh.

Do you want to get married and have children one day?
No.

Are you waiting for something?
2:00, so that I can be off work. 

Have you ever liked some one that treated you bad?
I'm pretty sure every guy that I have ever liked treated me badly.  GO ME AND MY AWSOME TASTE IN MEN!!

Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
No, its reddish. 

Who did you hang with last night?
My kitten.   There was a lot of sleep to catch up on last night. 

Was today a good day?
Its 6:30 am, so the 2 hours I have been awake have been alright, sure. 

Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like?
I don't really "like" anyone.  So, no. 

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
I don't get cute a lot.  I get hot or pretty or whatever...not so much cute

What was the last drink you had?
Coffee?  The gallon of it I have already had this morning.

What does your last received text message say?
"see you soon" from the guy we were discussing earlier.

Last place you went out to eat? Who with?
umm..I don't remember.  Chipotle on Saturday with Andrea I think.

When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
Does that state exist? I'm close right now..but I'm not sure I've ever been COMPLETELY happy.

What was the last voicemail you received about?
Its a work voicemail from a co-worker I have yet to listen to, because its going to mean I have to do more work.

Where are your siblings?
My brothers are in Colorado and Florida.   I miss them terribly.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
lol.  really?  Hi, I'm Mandi...apparently we have not met.  About 1,000 times.


Does anyone know your password besides you?
WHICH password?  I have like 30.  Not smart...I know.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?  Who does that?

What are you most looking forward to tomorrow?
?? That its one day closer to Friday? 

Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
I don't know which guy to define as my last ex.   Not the last boyfriend, boyfriend, no.  He just needs some help.  However, yes, I do have some exes that should, just in order to keep the gene pool clean.

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
Isn't it hard to sleep smiling?

Did you have a good day yesterday?
Umm...it started out really nice...although i was exhausted from no sleep the night before (in a good way:)), but work wasn't great, no.

What's the reason behind your myspace display name?  Well, after careful thought and deliberation I decided to make it..um..my name.

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Noooooooo....I loatttthee him with a vengence, actually.  He is one of the ones who should definately die. 

What is your current mood?
Sleepy and ...what's the word when you reaaaally don't want to work?  We'll say obstinate.

What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
The Holidays

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Oh, I'm sure I will. 

Did your parents spoil you as a child?
I was the baby girl...you have no idea.  

How's your heart lately?
Well, I'm sure my cholestoral is high, but other than that...

Will this weekend be a good one?
This weekend will most likely be pretty low key.  Which typically makes for a good one, yes.

Have you ever gone nude/streaked in public?
Yes, but being that my neices and nephew are on Myspace we're just not going to talk about those occassions. 

Who hugged you last?
wowww...I really don't want to talk about this guy anymore..haha.  He's really not very important, and yet, he keeps coming up!

Who was the last person to come to your house?
oh good lord....and again...

Look behind you, what do you see?
A wall with a really ugly office painting of flowers on it

Do you still talk to any of your ex's?
Talk...and..you know..whatever...

If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
:(  Why? Why do I have to do that?  Thats mean.  Don't make me! 

When was the last time you talked to your number 1?
This morning, actually. Crazy bitch was driving HOME from work when I was driving TO work

Have you dated anyone on your top 4?
I can't think of who is in my top four right now.

Has your number 1 on your friends ever made you cry?
No, but she's been there for me when every time someone else does

How do you feel about abortions?
I could make this a reallly long answer, but in short: I feel like its the hardest decision that anyone will ever have to make, and the self-righteous among us should get off of their fucking high horses and just try some compassion for a change.  In a political sense?  To say that I am pro-choice is a pretty big understatement, but given my left-wing liberalism that should surprise no one.

Do you eat junk food everyday?
Pretty much.  But its vegan junk food, so how bad can it be.

How's your life lately?
Not really all that bad, thanks for asking.

Do you miss anyone?
I miss my family

Is there one place you'd like to visit?
No, there's about 1000

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[18 Feb 2008 | Monday] 
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Thought my blog on here was a little sad...

Does a survey make that better or worse?  Hm.

1. Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the worst?
No.  Couldn't do it, I think I would fall apart completely and lose the ability to form words.  My foot would find his balls just fine, though.  

2. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
I'm sure I have?  But I don't remember.  (I'm sorry, Shan...you're offended, I know..truth is, I took pictures and they're on my ceiling, but I didn't want to go there in public..so..shhh..)

3. Are you obsessed with someone?
I'm obsessed with a lot of people...they were all writers and they're all dead now, though..so I'm not sure that's what you were looking for.   However...Dickens, Austen, Rand and Byron would have to have restraining orders if any of them were alive today...so I think it counts.

4. What is the best thing about your job?
I get off at 2:00 and can spend the afternoon working out (sleeping)

5. Name something that you would love to eat right now.  Actually nothing. I'm good. Wierd.

6. Did you get any compliments today?
Yes, I did.  I get compliments often, they just never mean anything.

7. Who was the last person to call you?
Shan.  After taking medicine.  She was a lot of fun, let me tell you. 

8. If you could pick the temperature of the outdoors for the rest of your life, what would it be?
76 degrees, and oh man would I  be happy. 

9. Do you steal people's boyfriends or girlfriends?
Yes, Apparently I do...though I don't set out to.  Its an annoying little trait of mine that I can't make myself care enough.  That's horrible...I know...but I'm not the one cheating.  Going to hell, I know, I get it. Trust me..not just for this. 

10. Are you happy?
Umm...I'm not unhappy, but I've been a little melancholy lately.  (yes, I know..after my last answer you are less than sorry for me..haha...that's okay, I'll live)

11. Who was the last person you texted?
Shan...I said "k" when she said she was going to eat and call me in a few.

12. Who was the last person you IMed?
Not sure..I don't IM much

13. Are you moody?
Am I female?

14. Last person you hung out with?
my parents...God love them.

15. Have you ever tried to get back with an ex?
lol..tried.  That's cute. Like I try to get with anyone and fail.  But yes, I HAVE broken up with people and then gotten back together. Always wish later I'd have made a clean break the first time.

16. Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?
Yes, many many moons ago.  Those were good times.  We should bring that back.

17. Have you ever gone camping?
Ugh.  Unfortunatley.  Not that girl.

18. Are you single?
Si, Senor.  And, despite my Valentine's day bitterness...and there was a lot of that....actually quite happy about it most of the time

19. Have you ever gone to a nude beach?
No..but fun!

20. Have you ever had a stalker?
Yes, and its not cool dude

21. Who was the last person to make you mad?
Hmmmm.......I'm sure it was a client.  My clients piss me off.

22. Are you thirsty?
No, I am drinking Orange Vitamin water right now.  Because I'm pretty sure it makes me look cool.

23. Are you listening to music? What are you listening to?   No...

24. What do you do before bed?
Read

25. Have you ever lied to your parents?
Seriously? 

26. Have you ever worn your best friend's clothes?  And again, am i female?

27. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
hahahaha...

28. Where are your siblings right now?
Sleeping...one in Fort Collins, Colorado, the other in Spring Hill, Florida.  I miss them:(

29. Last person you kissed other than family?
Shhhh...soooo not telling.   Mainly, because of question number 9 and my desire NOT to have my ass kicked.  Again...I KNOW!  I'M SORRY!!!

30. Name five things you did today.
oh God.  Uhhhhhhhh....searching hard.  I woke up.  ONE!   I watched Eddie Izzard comedy shows.  TWO!  I showered.  THREE!  I went shopping.  FOUR!  shoot..shoot...shoot..uh...OH..I talked on the phone??? FIVE!  YAY  (lol...I have brought the term "lazy sunday" to whoooole new levels!)

31. Last person who YOU called?
I think Megan leaving her a FUCKING CALL ME message tonight.  Didn't work

32. Future kid's name?
Moot. Point.  (no, that's not a name)

33. What are you doing tomorrow?
NOT WORKING!!!! YAY FOR PRESIDENTS!!

34. Are you on a laptop or a desktop?
on my parents desktop.  My heater is out so I'm bunkin' up at the folks tonight

35. What is your mood?
booooooooored

36. Is anyone jealous of you?
Oh lets get serious here.  Like you're not.

37. When is the last time you got flowers?
Lol..as I made well known on Valentines day.  I've never recieved flowers from a guy.  haha... It turns out..I date schmucks.  HOWEVER...from anyone..my birthday, Hawley did.

38. Where were you 2 hours ago?
Uhh..far from here...like...on the couch 

39. What were you doing last night?
at this time?  Sleeping, actually.  WHy am I still up?  SO past my bedtime?  Tomorrow I will be just about to wake up at this time.  Ugh

40. What does your hair look like right now?
it's up in a ponytail.  Its hot.

41. Has anyone ever used you?
Oh good God, yes.  Has anyone ever been with me that wasn't?? Verdict is still out.

42. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
Yes.

43. What have you eaten today?
chips, dried banana pieces and a left over burrito thingie

44. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?   Straight as a freaking board

45. Who were you last in a car with?
dad

46. What are you looking forward to?
I'm really trying to figure that one out

47. Any of your friends getting married?
Jasmine and Cindi are the next up

48. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I am not working.  NOt working=Good day.

49. How will you celebrate Valentine's Day?
I celebrated it by throwing a pity party and giving everyone that was in a "happy" relationship a whole lot of shit.

50. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
like I'm going to that effort.  Its probably kinky and from my withstanding booty call guy though..lol. 

51. Are you a cuddler!
depends on my mood

52. What brand of eyeliner do you use?
the cheap kind.  Eyeliner is eyeliner if you ask me, not where you should splurge

53. Do you wear shoes in the house or take em off?
OFF!!! Have you seen my shoes?  Painful. 

54. What are your favorite fruits?
the kinds that are dipped in chocolate

55. What body part of the opposite sex is sexiest?
hands..eyes...abs. Mmm...abs.  Gimme a minute....

56. Where was your default picture taken?  In vegas, in the MGM where we were staying, after like 8 jello shots.

 

[16 Jan 2008 | Wednesday] 
..> ..> ..>..>
One and only easy question...What's your first name?
Amanda..or mandi. Phew..one down

If you could change one thing about your childhood what would it be?
- I wouldn't have moved so much, so that there was somewhere that felt like home.

If you could have had the starring role in a movie already made, which one?
- Tracy Lord in The Philadelphia Story (not the porn star..she named herself after the movie..just fyi..)

If you could relive one year of your life knowing what you know now,which?
- 2003. I would un-do a bad mistake

If you could instantly play any instrument perfectly, what would it be?
- Piano!!! man, I wish that was a talent I had. Someday..

If you were to be stranded on an island with one platonic friend only,who?
- Platonic friend? Shannon. Because we'd keep ourselves entertained forever. Didn't we actually plan for this one, Shan?

If you could choose one color to describe you, what would it be?
- Bright Pink:)

If you could be guaranteed one thing in life besides money what would it be?
- Health

If you could have one specific power over other people what would it be?
- To make them tell the truth

If you had to spend one year alone in the wilderness where would you go?
- Crazy

If you could forever eliminate one specific prejudice from the earth,which?
- any kind of caste system

If you could own any building in existence,which would you choose?
- the mall of america?

If you were given one hour to spend any amount of money in a store,which?
- oh boy. Dolce and Gabbanna?

If you could work for anyone in the world,who would it be and what job?
- I would work for the public, writing my best selling novels

If you could change one thing about your first sexual experience, what?
- all. of. it.

If you could change one of your personality traits what would it be?
- My lack of wanting love

If you could have a romance with any fiictional character who would it be?
- HAROLD ROARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love him more than I could ever love any actual human being (Ayn Rand, the Fountainhead)

If you could commit one crime without being caught, what crime?
- Let's just say there would be a sudden change in the executive branch:)

If you were to have sex with 2 people from your own life at once who?
-wow. hmm....I actually KNOW the answer to that, but am not putting it in print!

If you could have a secret hideaway to escape to with a lover, where?
- Somewhere in Paris would be good...

If you had to be married to a person who is famous now who would it be?
- Jude Law? He's pretty.

If you could ensure one personality trait in your children, what?
- Self-Confidence

If you could undo one sexual encounter form your life which would you?
- June 20, 2005. Lol..and you think I'm joking.

If you could be a contestant on any game show which one?
- JEOPARDY. I would kick. your. ass.

Describe your idea of the perfect mate.
- Harold Roark..I think we've been over this. But without red hair..that part always creeped me out a little.

If you could thank one teacher you had who would it be and why?
- I truly don't know.

Choose one thing that gives you comfort.
- cigarettes. Shutup.

If you had to constantly carry a weapon what kind would it be?
- brass knuckles? No? Not me? Okay....a dagger..like the old fashion kind

If you could have only one part of your body massaged everyday which part?
- ohhh...my back

If you could free yourself from one burden in your life what would it be?
- money. Money's a freaking pain

Describe the moment you were the most jealous.
- when the man I loved more than anything didn't chose me, but TWO other women instead. Lol. 

Loud or Silent?
- LOUD!:)

Passion or Romance?
- Passion..all the way

Night or Day?
- night..I love nights. Days suck.

Open minded or Reserved?
- Open minded, of course!:)

[12 Dec 2007 | Wednesday] 

Its far too much to post twice, so my blog about my trip to North Carolina, Florida and Tennessee is on my tumblr.

Click here:)

[09 Nov 2007 | Friday] 

I'm copying this from my Tumblr (hmm..did I mention sassygirl.tumblr.com? Self promotion=Good fun:)) because my Myspace blog was feeling lonely, but I'm too lazy to do two different entries.

In honor of my best friend's visit...her top 5 moments:

  • 5. Shannon (circa 2000, on IM): Sometimes, when I eat carrots, I think I sound like a horse.

          Me: Hmm.

          Shannon: You know what's weird? I'm not eating carrots right now

  • 4. Shannon (circa 2001-ish): Isn't it crazy that when like N'sync wants to hear one of their own songs, all they have to do is sing?
  • 3. Me (circa 2002-ish, driving with a soda between my legs): My thighs are getting frost-bite

          Shan: Who's frost and why is he so rude?

  • 2. Shan (a few months ago): So Brent and I joined a bowling league.

          Shan (to my silence): Hellllo?

  • 1. Shan (its been said many, many times, all while sitting on various couches, and usually eating): No,truly believe that I could swim from Alcatraz!

..

[04 Nov 2007 | Sunday] 

Category: Blogging
    SO I have a slight obsession with a semi-quasi famous girl named Julia Allison.  She, among other things is a commentator on channels like fox news.  It came about when I was cyber-stalking a politician I had a crush on and found out that she had dated him.  I wanted to hate her, reeeally did, but she makes it downright impossible. I think I have a girl-crush on her now.

Anyway..she has a blog that I am addicted to, and recently she has switched from her normal blog to a website called Tumblr.  I signed up yesterday just to see what she was so crazy about, and now i get it.  Its totally easy to use, and makes updating not such a pain in the ass.

Plus, its more geared to people who have totally random thoughts...ME...and stops you from being quite so long winded if you lean towards that...ME...and I think I'm in love with it.

SO I'm going to blog at sassygirl.tumblr.com  CHECK IT OUT!  BOOKMARK IT!   I will entertain you..I PROMISE!!
[03 Nov 2007 | Saturday] 
    I got home from work with a killer headache and took Excederin, first bottle I grabbed.  Which, as it turns out, was Excederin Nighttime.

Hmm.

I then took a 5 and a half hour "nap". 

I had stuff to do!

Its a little disconcerning that I don't read the bottle. 
[01 Nov 2007 | Thursday] 
Megan and I decided that for work we should have some kind of themed costumes.  It started out as a great idea.  I couldn't wear the slutty Eve costume that I wore out Saturday and tonight, obviously,because..well...I'd get fired...and she didn't have anything at all. 

So I came up with, and I still maintain that it is a freaking brilliant idea, we should be Blonde Vs. Brunette.  The idea was one of us would get a wig (both being brunette) and we would wear some kind of sassy outfits, the blonde's more fun, the brunette's more "smart" looking and we'd look like we'd been in a catfight.

It sounded good.

So we threw together, the night before and for like 15 dollars, our masterpieces.  I wore the most heinous blonde wig you've ever seen and a shirt that said "has more fun", jean skirt, boots, and many bruises with blood dripping down me.  She wore a shirt that read "does it better", a plaid skirt, glasses, heels and again, more blood and bruising.

It was quite evident by our co-worker's faces pretty early on that we looked like hookers who'd gotten beaten by their pimp.  They were..um...embarassed for us,  I think.  She made the mistake of rubbing the blood all over her knees, which just made her look like she had rugburn..didn't help..and my blonde wig made me pretty much look like a tranny on cocaine. 

Needless to say, we didn't place in the "best costume contest."  We're lucky they're letting us come back tomorrow.

*sigh*



[30 Oct 2007 | Tuesday] 

Current mood:  frustrated
    I've lived alone for a year and a half and I have just come across the first downfall of doing so...

    I've been trying for 2 days and I CANNOT open my pickle jar.  I am not a strong woman, this isn't a secret, but I can typically find a way.  But these, these are stubborn pickles. 

    Do you think a guy would get the wrong impression if I asked him to come up and open my jar?? Or if I said I was in desperate need of a pickle?
[29 Oct 2007 | Monday] 
Is how long it took me to figure out that that thunder-sounding noise outside my window was actually...well...thunder.   I've been sitting here trying to figure out what in the hell my neighbors were doing out there.

In my defense, we don't get thunder in Sacramento.  Just the rain, not the noise or the pretty lightening. 

Fantastic, just rolling in in time to make going to work at 5:00 even more of a pleasure.

I hate the rain. 
[27 Oct 2007 | Saturday] 

Current mood:  contemplative
Category: Life
Brad Paisley has a new song out about what he would say to himself if he could write a letter to the 17 year-old version of Brad.  This got me thinking, though I'm hoping we can smooth right over the part where I just admited that I was inspired by a cheesy country song.  What would I say to myself of 10 years ago if I could?

Here are my thoughts...(how excited are you??)

I would tell myself that high school will not matter.  Not the classes, not the drama, the popularity, the cliques, the heartbreaks, the crushes, the mistakes.  In the end, all that will remain of those 4 years will be memories of the good times.   Everything else will just fade away and mean nothing once I get into this so called "real world".  What those people think, the "loves" that I think are real, the people that somehow seem "better"....in the grand scheme of things they will just dissapear...as though they were never even real.  So, I'd tell myself to let go of all the worries and just enjoy. 
I'd tell myself the times I broke the rules were always the most fun, and they never came back to haunt me once.  Go for it. Stay out too late, have the drinks, break into the school, camp out on the footballl field, ditch the class to go sleep in the chairs at Borders, take the girls to the random guys' house...I will live through all of those things...and think back on them and smile
I would make sure that I knew that shorts that come up past the belly button are not okay...ever.
I would say that I have YEARS to figure out what I want to do with my life, and that's not what 17 is for.  That college was not for me, so not to waste my time.  To travel. 
That when the time comes in life that I have the oppurtunity to hurt others, and it will, take the path less selfish and more difficult...because someday it will matter to me what kind of person I am, and I will wish I could make those decisions over.
That no matter what I may think at the time, I have not one single reason to complain about the parents I was given. They are amazing.
Not to stress out, because eventually Ross and Rachel will end up together
That I should hang on to every word of my grandparents stories the next time I see them, and beg for more, as soon the years will wash away their memories.
That the people who I think mean the most to me will  not be in my life for long.  To let them go when the time comes, because they served their purpose, and I will never really miss them.  On the other hand, some people I would never expect to be, will still be looking out for me a decade later.  And to take care of these friendships. 
I would tell myself that the tongue ring I am thinking of getting is just downright a bad idea.  It will wear away the enamel on my teeth and give me dental problems for years.
To PUT DOWN THE CIGARETTES while I still can.
That , at some point I will look around me and realize that none of the pain from my past still actually hurts, so when heartbreak happens, let it happen.  It will pass, and I will learn...and it will, eventually, have been worth it.  I will get to a place where I am truly alright.
I would say to take more pictures on that perfect night in Vegas with the Angels players, or early morning on a cruise ship in the Mexican Riviera, when I ice skate in central park in the snow, of my  neices and nephews before they grow too much, of the day I move into my first apartment in San Diego, of a night in the desert with my first love, of road trips, and crazy drunken nights, and great first dates, and sweet goodbyes.....and know that I have all of that to look forward to..
I would tell myself that dropping acid is not a good idea, and to save myself that night.
That I am NEVER to be trusted with a credit card, and that, should I ignore that, I will regret it someday
That, in the future I should enjoy moments when I wake up in the arms of a man who loves me, even if he is not the one.  And that if I don't take the time to appreciate a relationship for what its worth, even if its not forever, I will rob myself of some pretty great memories.
That taking the SATs still drunk from the night before is probably not the best way to go.
I would say that if I feel lonely, I should know that most of the people who will mean the most to me in my life I have years before I meet..and that I can look forward to meeting some of the most amazing people on the planet. 
That I am more beautiful, smarter, and far more capable that I believe I am at 17.  And that the sooner I realize that, the happier my life will be.
And I would make sure that I understand that life doesn't begin at 18, or 21 or 25 or whatever it was that I was waiting for.  It began 17 years ago...and every second actually does count. 

And look at that.. I managed to make it even cheesier than a Brad Paisley song.

*pat on the back*

[25 Oct 2007 | Thursday] 

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