I contemplated today on playing a huge joke on all of my friends by posting a blog stating that I was pregnant. Eh...yeah, I could have, but we wanted to enjoy a lazy day...and my phone would have been BLOWING up :)

So, no joke today :)

I'll write tomorrow seriously...as for now, it is late for me because I'm old and must get to bed. Oh how quickly our youth escapes us.

I only hope that you, my friends, can truly understand this song...

"The Great Destroyer" - Nine Inch Nails

Say your name.
Try to speak as clearly as you can.
You know everything gets written down.
Nod your head.
Just in case they could be watching.
With their shiny satellite.

I hope they cannot see.
The limitless potential.
Living inside of me.
To murder everything.
I hope they cannot see.
I am the great destroyer.

Turn it up.
Listen to the shit they pump into your head.
Filling you with apathy.
Hold your breath.
Wait until you know the time is right on time.
The end is near.

I hope they cannot see.
The limitless potential
Living inside of me.
To murder everything.
I hope they cannot see
I am the great destroyer

Kindness is viewed by all in such a different light. I noticed that my kindness is much more accepted rather than speculated on here. The people here take it for face value, because in the south, its the way you are supposed to be - Kind for no reason. It was widely misconstrued in my hometown...land of the rude. When someone would approach you it must be to sell you something or because they want something from you. Not here...thank goodness, I don't feel so strange anymore. I don't feel like I'm "too nice" anymore. Moving here has taught me so much more about how different people are depending on where they are from. I strive to learn each day. I attended a seminar this morning in concerns to bridging generational gaps in the workplace, and I learned so much about the differences between the baby boomers, Gen X, and me Gen Y. (Gen Y is defined as beginning in the births of 1982). I am on the cusp, so there are many characteristics I find in both that suit me...however, the baby boomers are quite different. I found that in work ethic, communications, and respect, we are so very different. Yet one thing I did find amongst us all was a sense of kindness. Human interest in the general well being of others. This is not a strange concept here...and for that, I feel blessed. I then had the pleasure of attending lunch with three Vice Presidents (one of whom is my boss). So, its me, and them, and a couple of admins. Here I am with the most powerful women in this Fortune 200 company we work for...and again, I am surrounded by kindness. Not what I had expected because it is not what I had seen previously in other corporations for whom I have worked for. There is a sense of peace here, an ideal that I would have never even considered had I not thrown myself upon it. And now, I embrace it, and them.

For all things, for all events, for all the people in your life, or that were once there, there is a purpose. At times I wondered why it is that the road we travel called Life leads us astray from those that were so close to us just yesterday. Only the reason for this reveals itself in due time. It seems as if once we stop searching for answers, the truth reveals itself. I have become more relaxed in nature...there is no longer a need for me to control things around me in order for me to be stable. I have now picked up and moved away...and this makes one grow up in a way impossible otherwise. I have missed many, cried for some, and was heartbroken for few...yet in the end, those that matter most will always return. In one form or another, we musn't ask too many questions. Someone taught me that we may not always want to hear the answers to some of those questions burning in our minds. And so, I ask none. I accept what I am given, and am delighted in just being. Just being here, present for another day and whatever it may bring. There are no expectations...and because of this, I am not heavy with deep contemplation. For once in my life, I just am. That is all. I have not a care in the world of how others perceive me anymore...however much I ever doubted that I did. Knowing one's self and loving that self is the key. So much power lies in this specific knowledge that it has once again shifted my life greatly with a positive force I had yet to feel in life. Sometimes we have to leave in order to move on. It is no fault of either party, it is just how life goes. It is how we progress, and without progression there is only a sense of being stationary. And if you are one who is happy where you are and with what you have, then be still. Yet, do not call to me, because I will always thirst for more, I am always hungry for the next big thing, whatever that may be. Progression is a constant state for me, and goals are forever being reached, surpassed, and re-written. There is something to be said in letting go...and all of it, all I have ever heard of it is so...so...so very true.

Everything we are, and everything we see is all a matter of perspective. Even the same tree is different according to the eye which is observing it. This world is made of many aspects, many of which we cannot see. Most of what we cannot see is what we feel. And most of what we feel cannot be described by meager words. Vocabulary is menial in comparison to the magnitude of which we can physically and soulfully experience. Communication is one part verbal and ninety nine parts lie elsewhere... Those parts become clear when we connect with someone we have known for more years than we can count...and so much is discovered in the unspoken and the unexplained. I feel overwhelmed with a sense of joy that is inexplicable to have been able to share so much of myself and have so many share themselves with me in return. My life has been filled with relationships closer than most have ever had. And so for this, I know that I am blessed, for I have had many of one thing many people have longed for just one. I am grateful to have been so understood so well by so many, and to know that I am so special that years may go by, yet these loves always seem to want to find me. I am enraptured by a feeling today...the pure emotion of being whole. Of having all aspects of my life come together to form something truly positive and wonderfully uplifting.

These ramblings of mine...will now come more often, as I am truly inspired by so much at the moment...I couldn't let it slip away.

Ah yes...as you see by my long absense from the myspace..I found a JOB! And I LOVE IT! I work for Aflac...same as my husband :) Well, we work in different buildings though :)

I'm seeing life more clearly now...I'm seeing things in that positive light that had burnt out for so long. It is all set now...thank GOD.

Thank you to those friends who stuck through the dark times and guided me out into the light...even though you're so far away, and although perhaps we haven't heard each others voices in a long time...you're in my heart, always. And its been so difficult to lose so many. You are all scattered throughout states (Stephen, Maria....etc...) and different cities...but you're with me always. Even those of you that haven't been in my life at all for one reason or another.

I choose to keep only the fond memories with me, because in the end, they are the only ones that matter.

 

I'll try to come on more often..I'm really curious to see how everyone is doing!!! xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

As we all know, I am a Starbucks-a-holic. Those of you that occasionally or frequently visit this establishment may have noticed that on your cup there is always a different quote. Be it from an author, musician, or another Starbucks customer...it is usually nice and interesting. But today's caught my attention, I loved it, so I thought I'd share.

"Beware of turning into the enemy you most fear. All it takes is to lash out violently at someone who has done you some grievous harm, proclaiming that only your pain matters in this world. More than against that person's body, you will then, at that moment, be committing a crime against your own imagination." - Ariel Dorfman (Novelist, playwright, and essayist)

Its cold but I like it. I was tired of the heat. I was tired of so many things. And yet I realize I took having my friends so close for granted.

Drama had a way of wrapping itself around my life. Uninvited, it barged its way in...and now its gone. Thankfully, there is peace.

I'm bored so I'm job hunting for a menial job that is stress-free. I'm going back to school for a degree in Psychology...my life's first and deepest passion.

I'm looking for animal shelters to volunteer my time to.

I got my hair done today at a fancy salon...and felt good. Guiltily good ;)

Celita, Jake and Izzabella came to visit with us on Saturday. Gustav's parents came later that same day and stayed until Monday.

I'm coming home this weekend for my mom's birthday. Saturday-Tuesday morning. I won't have a car and I won't have time to visit with people...unfortunately, but next time...there's always next time.

I have a beautiful house I'd share to any of my friends, so if you should want to visit Atlanta, or I'm on the way to New Orleans and most other places one would drive to...let me know. Open house :)

I miss some people. I've been using the out of sight out of mine method...but its starting to lose its luster.

I've been to the movies twice here...we have a DIGITAL movie theater. Its nice.

Netflix offers instantly viewable movies...I've been utilizing that fabulous function.

Radiohead and The Cure are coming to Atlanta this spring. Yay for me!

Random thoughts and events...I hope you've enjoyed it.

No where to be found, might I say. My mom rode up with me on the 27th so that I wouldn't be alone in the car (as my husband was in his car). So we packed up my cats and rode out at some ungodly hour of the morning. We had quite a fun road trip. Entertaining to say the least :) Some very interesting sites to be seen...lol. We picked cotton on the side of the road (as Georgia is laden with these fields of cotton plants). We jammed out to Led Zeppelin. We stopped in Parrot, GA. Oh yeah...look it up. I think it MAY have a population of 10. We tried to walk the cats so they could use the restroom (this did not happen). We stopped to enjoy some Krystal burgers (of which my mom has not seen since she was a kid). All in all, a great trip...and so eight hours later, we arrived at my new townhouse. Beautiful as can be....however, the movers had advised that they could not make it on the 27th as planned, that they would be there first thing in the morning on the 28th. So at 9am I called them, they said they'd be here by 11am. I called at 11:30 by which time they said they'd encountered some traffic so noon was the time. I called at 12:30, they had arrived in Columbus but were going to stop to get a bite to eat...SERIOUSLY? OK so they got here at 1:30. Meanwhile we slept on air matresses the night before. Since our arrival, it has been cold. But last night it started getting REALLY cold...so my body is freaking out...nose running. Well, it beats the heat I say! My cell phone broke...so hopefully Verizon can fix that today....I cannot be without phone. And so it goes that Gustav, my mom, and I have had a blast setting up the new place, shopping at Walmart (minus Gustav for he LOATHES this place), Ross, Marshalls, TJ Maxx, Steve & Barry's, Lowe's.....etcccccc. And eating at Buffalo Wild Bill's, Red Robin, and SONIC!!! Oh yeah...finally moved to a place with Sonic. lol. And I cooked a couple of times amidst the madness. So it's almost all done now. But I'm driving my mom to the airport today. And this causes me to tear up every time I think about it. I have attachment issues, what can I say? This will be the hardest thing I've ever done. Living here, away from my family...but life takes you in all kinds of directions...and we must follow or be left behind.

When I get my phone fixed I shall start making my rounds of calls :)

I miss you all....xoxo

 

Currently: 37 degrees.

 

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