tutorial on how to add a link inside your blogs
(no code is necessary, in fact codes will only get screwed up for some reason)

1. - open a new blog, in a window other than this
(keep this window open for reference)

2. (in another new window or tab,) - open your view all blogs page

3. when you see the blog you'd like to post first - click its add comment

4. - then click view blog
(now the address/url will be for just that one blog)

5. - highlight, right click & copy that blogs url

6. (now refocus on the new, empty blog that's yet to be posted)
on that window, there is a little picture of a globe with a chain in front of it, when you hover over it, it'll say "insert link" - click it
[reminder: wherever you last clicked inside the new blog box is where the link will be]

7. a new little window will pop up, in it - paste the url you copied where it says url

8. (now go back to the other old blog that you're going to link to,)
- highlight & copy the name of that blog
[if you know it's name you can skip this by just typing it there instead]
(back to the little insert link window) - paste the name into where it says text

9. to make the blog pop up in a window that's seperate from the window your directory is in, - click where it says target, then click blank

10. - click insert link

repeat this process until you've got all of your blogs linked to,
if they have themes like surveys or whatever,
it's definetly easier to organize them during this,
but if you need help in the future just ask

[reminder: if you hit backspace while on the right of a link it will make the link just text again]
(to fix this highlight it, click insert link, go find & repaste the url in the url box)

I'll add more in a little bit

graveyard

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rosegarden

this one doesn't have the contact table in it cause I used the official myspace layout generator on the edit profile page
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the moon

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devil sign cursor
middle finger hover

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These first few blogs should help anyone to understand me

What it's like to be me...

My name means alot apparently

*Scorpio*

the perfect chick

More on...

Interests

Music

Movies

Television

Books

Heroes

events in my life

Motorbike Madness
(Moon Tomahawk)

Literature qoutes

I read this in High School and thought it was cool
The Charge Of The Light Brigade by Alfred Tennyson

the original quote I used was from the movie...
Gandalf quoted in The Fellowship of the Ring by J.R.R. Tolkien

Harry's first impression of Albus
Dumbledore quoted from Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone by J.K. Rowling

Stephen King based 7 books on this one poem
Childe Roland to the Dark Tower Came

in honor of Sebago Lake Maine
The Lake by Edgar Allen Poe

Crimson Coated

Without a spark,
Embraced by the dark

I lie in bed,
Erasing what you said

Obscurity... Indefinity...
How I've spent every night!

Wandering... Wondering...
Is anyone "all"-right?

Family, friends, goals, love
Such dreams are unrelated to sleep

Restlessly tired of
Any promises I couldn't keep

Questions... Decisions...
Hard to word, yet harder to ask

Physically... Emotionally...
Are you selling me a mask?

Is mine not good enough?
Does this glue make it rough?
Me and my motley disguise

Are you scarred or scared?
Treated wrong and despaired?
Filling voids with pointless guys

Shouldn't have to leave
because you can't believe
Why try to deceive?

Pushing away
Wanting only to stay
Victim of dismay

Scorpio Constellation Stars

Scorpius can be seen in summer from the Northern Hemisphere, but is best seen from the Southern Hemisphere or southern US.

A large and important zodiacal constellation. Among many bright stars, it contains the well-known red giant, Antares, as well as many star clusters and other objects. Antares  is a reddish star and is considered the heart of the scorpion.

http://www.astrology-insight.com/scorpio.htm

Dual nature of Scorpio:

A second symbol for Scorpio is the Eagle. The Golden Eagle "has been regarded from ancient times as a symbol of courage and power". (3) The eagle represents clear vision, intelligence and power. It is a majestic bird, and also symbolizes freedom. Scorpios, with their perceptiveness, have the potential to "see" things more clearly than others. How they handle the power of this vision will depend on whether they are at the level of a scorpion or an eagle!

Bark Scorpion

Golden Eagle

Scorpio's glyph, or symbol, looks like a letter M with a tail. The curves show the grounded nature of the sign, ending in an upward-turned arrow, symbolizing the need for action and the striving for something higher. Some believe the symbol represents the male genitals -- the sign of Scorpio is strongly connected to sex.

http://www.cafeastrology.com/zodiacscorpio.html

Their demeanor is dignified and reserved, affable and courteous, and many have a gaze that is both direct and penetrating. Their secretive natures make them natural detectives. Many Scorpios possess a suspicious outlook, and need to know the reasons behind everything. Scorpio does nothing in half measures. An all or nothing attitude permeates their entire life. When fixed on something or someone, the scorpion perseveres. Scorpio never settles. Life is meant to be lived to the fullest or not at all.

http://www.elore.com/Astrology/Study/scorpio.htm

Scorpio and Friendship:

Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal. Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not. The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.

http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/scorpio.htm

I've been thinking about what it would take to make me content...
Please don't get turned off if you're interested & aren't anything like this...

Ok, so here goes...

I like girls that are into rock & roll, like I am, but not that crazy death metal roaring or whiny pop. I dig White Zombie, Slipknot & Rage Against the Machine primarilly but I also listen to alot of mellow stuff too like Bjork, Cake & Stone Temple Pilots. To get an idea of what I listen to I have a music blog... not everything's there but it'll help.

I'd like to find a girl with similar interests & tastes too. Obviously not much has to be the same but it does help alot. If my profile doesn't give a good enough idea on what I like, I have blogs about tv shows, movies, etc. I like style along the lines of futuristic/post apocalyptic. A clean that's decieving, if you xan gasp the concept. Like the Matrix meets Mad Max. Hard to explain but like Tank Girl in some ways.

It'd be cool to get a girl who likes video games sometimes too...
and if a girl could tell me who Vengeance from Marvel comics is, my jaw would drop & drool. Don't forget Carnage hahaha Talk comics to me :) just kiddin'.
These things aren't all I am by far. I'm not a complete dweeb but they're a big part of me...

I usually get annoyed by people who like all rock simply because it's called rock or is it. Or all comics for the sake of liking something... I really filter my media thoroughly.

Alot of people don't know I'm big into fashion.Especially cause I always look grungy, even when I'm clean & everything I'm wearing is too. It sounds like that's fruity, even in my own head. I'm not talking about runways & scary ugly expensive outfits, though. I'm into shit like Rob Zombie is.

I'm instantly attracted to an alternative style. Japanime/go-go/raver/grunge/goth/punk/hippie. Don't worry if you're at least in the ball park of one of those styles. Even if you're not, give it a shot. I'm friendly enough.

Wanna get my attension quick, though?...
It's important to stand out a bit.

There is a difference between being unique & being overly compensating, though.
This is cool cause I haven' seen anyone like her.

This isn't because the little bit she tried was too much like every other goth chick and not done right... to me at least.

Sometimes I see people go to extremes with overly latex fetish doll shit or blood, that's just CREEPY!

Part of my problem is that I want a chick who'll be a complete bitch to guys who try to hit on her.
*Setting himself up for failure.*
It's hot and would make me feel special to have her.
I like to feel secure.
The last thing I want is to be controlling but I've been cheated on & it blows.
Wondering what she's doing behind my back would drive me nuts.
At the same time, I'd like her to be down to earth, caring & understanding... but only to me & her friends. :)

One of the hings that girls don't like about me is that I have potential I don't use. I constantly get told I should go back to school.  Which I probably will but since I'm in debt with my last college for now, I can't yet. I will be something great but that's for me to decide. I appreciate support, but not when it feels like judgement. Being with someone is about helping each other relax. So why bother stressing out, y'know? I'd support a girl as long as they're doing whatever makes them happy,,, and if they're having trouble discovering exactly what that is... I could even help with that.

I date to be happy & make whoever's with me happy, but if I'm not happy I won't bother making the effort anymore. That should be enough.

I want a girl...

Asks how I am before I get a chance to ask how she is half the time...
Sure I want to hear how you are but you should still care how I am...

Who would travel in a snowstorm just to cuddle...
I have and would again... Even in the middle of the night too...

Makes me feel like everything's gonna be fine...

Sees me as a man who can handle shit but just hasn't yet...
It's called having a little faith...

Appreciates the small gestures because I can't always afford the big...

Would tell me what's really wrong,
instead of fighting over something less serious...

When she has a problem with me (even if we're fighting) talks to me about it...
her friends can't change me and will only make it harder for everyone to get along...
sure you get it out but does that solve anything...
If I don't know what's wrong how can I help?
Friends of girlfriends can become judgemental haters so fast it's pathetic,
you're basically asking them for comfort, approval & a push to bail...
The first thing out of a girls mouth half the time is to "ditch him & upgrade"
fuckin' shady
I don't want to have them thinking evil shit to sabotage me cause of some embelished details...

Let's me know when she doesn't have her phone.
This way I wouldn't think I'm being ignored when halfway through a conversation I get bailed on.
If we're IMing just say brb...
don't leave me hangin'...
textin'? type g2g ttyl so I know...
Especially if we're talking about something important...
Don't let me sit & stew on a thought.

Doesn't use the term "space" to mean 'I'm cheating on you' or 'thinking about leaving',
Don't think it's gonna work out? talk to me,
if it can't be worked out, then it's better to not be dragged along or played...
Want space? Then say "hey, I think I'm gonna take some time for myself... I'll get back to you in the next couple days,"
If I wanted some time to myself, that's how I'd put it.

Knows how to cut loose...

Acts sexy for me sometimes...

Dances like nobodies watchin...

brings me back to that carefree feeling of being a kid...
like when we were younger and woke up in the summer wondering what we were gonna do today... not worrying what we're going to do when we're 40...

and reminds me what it's like to have a true friend...

I'm not gonna bend over backwards ever again. It's too compromising of a situation but I understand a whole lot more than most other people.

It's sickening to see so many guys with a jock mentallity, abuse women. I'm not just talking about sports ones either. I'm talking about these good looking macho guys, be them metal heads or abercrombie kids. If they're nice people that's fine but most aren't. I see alot of guys get girls based on being a jerk & having an image. I despise spiky hair wannabe euro trash. You want a bad boy? I've been there. You want muscles and a tan? I can get them. I'd like to be those but still have a heart. oo Some dude can throw a football. Does that make him deserving of some hot little blonde cheerleader? I guess, but that sucks. When will I have my day? They don't care about women. They use 'em like toilet paper. Use & leave. You wanna fuck & tell me to go, ok. That saves me the time of guessing what you want. God forbid I try to have a fuck buddy, let alone constant casual sex. Shit, I sometimes wonder why my balls haven't abandoned me. Maybe I should work out, get a tan, tattoos and a motorcycle but I'm not there yet. Help me & I might have motivation.

p.s. I hate most sports... I see right through your zebra-like camo. A red sox shirt often says slut to me. Decking out your whole persona to fit what somebody else wants. Tryin' to attract some mans man who is dreamy? Picture his stinky, overweight ass plopped in his lazy boy 20 years down the road watchin' the Pats with you fed up cause you got knocked up, "but he seemed so hot"...

& college people... just cause you got goals & money doesn't mean you're allowed to come destroy my city with your mind numbingly stupid antics... and judge me cause I don't care about social standings... I never bought into that bullshit on purpose... college is for partyin', learning & growing, granted, but shut the fuck up about your damn dorm drama... wanh! My boyfriend fucked my room mate or "bff"... GOOD FOR HIM! You'd probably ditch him for his friend anyway! Get what you can outta life without being a total user...
THESIS to this rant, don't drag me into that crap.
I love dorms but understand that I'm chill & won't care about your whining...
Most times in college everyone's not serious about relationships...
Let's all have an orgy, and scream fuck it!

but yeah on that note I'll stop
before I go to far...
want to hear more just ask ;)
sorry if you think I'm weird... but I really don't give a shitty shit pile anymore
being discrete only gets me overlooked

There are 5 letters in your name.
Those 5 letters total to 14
There are 1 vowels and 4 consonants in your name.
 
What your first name means:

I...
am too open of a person.

I usually don't leave any mystery for people to wonder about. A good example would be this here blog. :P Anywho, I'm a Scorpio (if you didn't already know). That means I'm very intense.

If I'm depressed it's terrible,
if I'm happy, I get like a puppy with new buddies,
if I'm frustrated, I lose my patience too quick,
if I'm angry, I have to make an effort to calm down.
You get the idea...

I also use alot of analogies, visual language & metaphors.
If I don't feel understood I ask if I am too often...
cause I've been ignored so much I have issues.

When I love, I overwhelm.
When I hate, I want to hurt.
Nothing makes me hate like love.
I'm really deep & can see right through people, even strangers...
I'm a really accurate judge of character.
If I'm on the bus with my head down it's because I think I don't want to impose on somebodies soul...
Yes I'm crazy but I feel intrusive to stare at anyone cause I can see their personality or origins somehow.

When people are shallow, it's as noticable as a fire engine on call to me.
Especially when it comes to poetry...
Since everyone wants to be understood and approved of,
they're always willing to share.
Most of the time I can't care.
Complete indifference & apathy.
To each their own.
I know I'm too picky for my own good.
I'm my toughest & pretty much only critic.
It's very rare for me to share.
Since I hold the utmost standards for my own poems, I don't like when people, whose stuff I can't stand, comment.
I take the criticism but very poorly behind their backs.
(see always too honest, everyone should try honesty)
Don't ask me to read it for an opinion if you can't handle constructive criticism.
I'm not going to be mean but there's no sugar coating here.
God forbid I use different topics, other than relationships, the state of society or violence all the time. Can you say transparent & old?
I do have to admit, it's really easy to write about those things but that's my point.
It's too easy.
Challenge yourselves.
Don't be afraid to throw shit away or let it sit.
Cast aside restraining normallity.
Dig into your soul literally. *moving on* 

I always try to let my feelings out so they don't ferment but that makes me sound bitchy.

I hate being clingy cause I'm love starved too. I've never really had mutual feelings for a girl. I either care for her or vice versa. It's really tough to find someone who wants to make me happy. I always fuck it up by calling too much. Then I get jealous cause they always hide behind somebody new for protection. Like I would hurt them. I never do. I get hurt all the time as if returning affection is too much to ask for. If caring alot is clingy, don't tell me that it's safe to care.

I'm writing this out so I can release it into cyberspace & try to become more carefree & masculine. Fuckin' sex & violence right? So much for tryin' to be a good guy anymore. Might as well wear a tu-tu with a shirt that says shit on me. Bitter Scorpio* I admit it.

I wish I had more confidence too...
I look at women & think a bunch of things.
She's too pretty for me, I wouldn't get along with her but want her sexually,
or I think that girl, she's seems soo fucking special! like one in a million.
'How could I possibly keep her interest without intimidating her?'
Fuck that how do I even know how to talk to her?
What do I say?
How do I say it?
Would she be offended or think I'm needy if I was open and honest?
I've never tried.
I always miss out & wonder about the dozen girls I wanted but didn't know I could get.

It's bad enough that I don't have the balls to talk to a girl but I always feel like they'd see right through me & know all I want is to either fuck 'em or love 'em. I bet half the time they'd know. Which makes it awkward. It makes me want to be very forward. Like "Hey, you're very beautiful, I'd like to take to take you out sometime." Is that what girls want? Please let me know... It's not like there's classes on how to pick up women... Even if there is I'm not your average guy. I despise head games but know everyone plays them and they work. So I should. I don't want to use women but I feel like until I find the one who is obviously right for me I still gotta have affection & sex.

I hate being afraid to let myself express my emotions fully.
Often times it makes me appear psychotic. I'd call myself manic, indecisive & Add.
Last but not least, INSOMNIAC. I sleep at like 8am to 4pm half the time. If at all.
Sometimes I have such crazy dreams I keep waking up.
I even remember alot of them in detail.
Check out a couple of the other blogs.

I am over analytical and intutive but as much as I can see around corners, I run into walls when I look the wrong way too long. Sometimes I get paranoid & end up making what wasn't there actually appear.

I also have this ocd about customizing things. I'll play a video-game for hours & all I did was make a skate park on Tony Hawk. I'll spend 175$ on a new skateboard and lose it. I lose things alot. Never bring your skateboard drinking or smoking pot.  I have expensive taste but I'm always broke. My desires are constantly dashed because my standards are too high.

I'm lazy cause I never know what I want to do with my life, reallistically.
When other people criticize about how I should shut up or live already. I ask how to.
I'd like to own my own skateboard deck company but it all feels like a pipe dream.
I can't even figure out how much the machines cost anywhere, or where to get them.
I've always wanted a band too but can't seem to get a band together... sooo frustrating.

I've always felt like being an animal might be simpler. The closest animal I resemble in my own mental image would be a wolf. They hunt in packs, kill with their teeth (I think that could be cool, on a natural level, not an evil one) and like to roam but return home once in a while.

Friends think I'm needy or feminine.
I'm realy not tho.
I just have bottled up emotions that not many people listen about and when they do they have to relate back & talk over me or want to be the center of attension.
I'm more than willing to listen to them too.
I love to.
When I can help someone, I feel better.
One of my favorite things to do is make someone feel happy when they're sad, if only by listening... & I'll listen for hours.
Try me... but if you're not gonna listen to me don't lie or pretend you will...
I store that in a mental file that would get too thick.
I'm down to listen about 90% of shit 90% of the time and offer advice only when appropriate.
Just don't say you will when you won't... I'd still listen.
I also have this talent for being able to know what would make someone happy.

God I hate being so sensitive...
I'm honestly working on becoming manlier.

I'm ranting & rambling all over the place.
which makes people want to stop listening...
like well... this blog for example.

If you read this PLEASE comment so I know what you think...
Be honest, I'd rather not be jaded.
I'd tell myself to lighten up & relax. 
I try to understand my flaws but if I'm never told about ones that I can't spot how will I know?
This is your chance to say whatever you want, by the way.
Whether it's
"You need to stop being needy"
or
"You're cool in my book"
It won't bug me cause you were nice enough to share.
Even if you're a complete stranger...
what's your impression already?

I went to sleep and felt like I woke up.
I was laying on a stone bench in a room that would remind anyone of a castle dungeon.
The walls had these big gray rectangular stones.
It was probably about 10 by 16 feet.

In front of me was a tv on a cruddy little stand.
It was snowy and that was the only light.

I flash out into a quick other dream of being at a funeral on a sunny day under a walless tent and sitting in a Rotc style unifrom. Then flash back.

I'm still in that stone room. I sit up & notice I'm in a mediacl gown.
There's a door to my left a couple feet away that was rounded at the top & was made out of vertical dark wood.

To my right is a small square (maybe 6 foot by 6 foot) graveyard that's all misty.
Yes I don't fully understand it either.
Beside that in the far right corner was another menacing door.
It was a big dark heavy rectangle of a door.

I go for the door on my left to get out of the room.
When I open it and walk out I'm on a balcony.
Still keeping with the castle theme, it had a light gray cement looking banister around the quarter circle that it was.
It was night out and I knew I couldn't escape from this area.

I grabbed the slowly closing door behind me knowing if it locked I wouldn't be able to get back in.

In the gray room I noticed that behind where I was sitting a little high up on the wall, there was a block missing and a bar window was there.

I climbed on the bench and started to lean so I could see out.
Something brushed passed my feet.
I let go of the bars and slid back again.

I saw something furry, big & black rush past my foot again.
Then a wolf showed it's face to me, gnarling it's teeth a foot from my face.

I grabbed it by the mouth & held it shut, so it couldn't bite.
Then it started to change into a muscular werewolf in front of me.

I let go & ran for the big black door on the right side of the gray room closing it behind me.

When I opened it, it reminded me of a home.
It had hardwood floors and an open layout like a loft.
The light coming in from the windows was a sign it was early morning instead of dark still.

Above was a ceiling that looked like a thin brown fence or cage.
It was easy to see through to the actual belly of the roof, support beams and all, but it seemed too shady for comfort. I knew there was something up there.

I took a left in this room and circled it clockwise.
I was looking for  a weapon.

I started quickly through a small living room, the next quarter of the room was an office where I grabbed a letter opener that reminded me of a wedding cake knife.
I don't know why either.

Then things in the room began flying at me randomly and furniture like the desk chair followed me bumping into my legs. 

The room had a sectioning wall the shape of an iron cross.
The last quarter of the room was a kitchen.

To my right was where I came from, to my left was another black door.
I open it to see that there was a stairway leading down to the left.
All I could see was the top few stairs because it was pitch black other than the light from the room I was in.
I thought "Fuck that idea".

I turn away from the door when suddenly this kid who reminded me of a younger version of myself runs up behind me.
I turn around again to face him and he grabs the front of my clothes with both hands like he was insanely desperate.
His hair was dusty & blonde, his eyes wide and frantic, skin very pale.

He said "He's been dead for days! That bastard was a zombie, I had to kill him."
Then he ran past me towards the graveyard room.

I walk slow in his tracks and notice there was a door on my left now.
It was a normal screen door that led to a yard with a few cars in it.

While me and that kid were running down the outside stairs I was thankful to be free & woke up.

I don't really read much but
I'm gonna just start this anyway.
Alot of this will just be stuff I liked from my past.

White Fang,
the Castle in the Attic,
The Chronicles of Narnia,
Where the Wild Things Are,
Journey to the Center of the Earth,
Farenheit 451,
the Giver,
War of the Worlds,
My side of the Mountain,
A Wrinkle in Time, 

Graphic novels:
Courtney Crumrin &
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac.

Comic book characters:::

Heroes

Ghost Rider,
Punisher,
Thor,
Hulk,
older x-men,
Avengers,
Beta Ray Bill,
Toxin,
Spiderman,
Iron Man,
Wolverine,
Blazing Skull,
War Machine,
Johnny Blaze
Daredevil,
Silver Surfer
Spiderman 2099,
Hulk 2099,
Ghost Rider 2099,
Black Volt,
Doctor Strange,
Nightcrawler,
Ares,
Thunderstrike,


Villains:

Venom,
Blackheart,
Zarathos.
Apocalypse,
Onslaught,
Mephisto,
Dr. Doom,
Galactus,
Mystique,
Magneto,
Sabretooth,
Rhino,
Scorpion,
Mr. Sinister,
Ultron,
Doom 2099,
Venom 2099,
Carnage 2099,
Vengeance 2099,
Juggernaught

Idk I'll obviously add more but I just wanted to get this out of the way.

I do have more of a reading level than this. I'm not like 12 haha.

John - my grandfather

Kathy - my best friends mother

Sandy - my other close friends mother

Dimebag Darryl Abbot - from Pantera

Cliff Burton - original Metallica bassist, I thanked him in my high school year book

I know God must be watching out for these few ^^^

Shigeru Miyamoto - Zelda & Super Mario's creator

Stephen King - just for the Dark Tower Series

Satoshi Tajiri - the creator of Pokemon (yes I play the game, whatever)

JRR Tolkien - for midworld

JK Rowling - for Harry Potter

Rage Against the Machine - for living their words

System of a Down - for the same reason

Stan Lee - for the Marvel universe
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stan_Lee

John Trudell - for bein' an example for how humans should think
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Trudell

Rodney Mullen - for inventing the flatground ollie, kickflip, heelflip, etc.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rodney_Mullen

Abbie Hoffman - the violent hippie
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abbie_hoffman

more when I care to add

Self-expression is extremely important to me. I see it as an opportunity to be understood.

I’m often thought of as being way too intense. This could be summed up as emotional indigestion.

Contrary to my regularly rebellious persona, I have a strong sense of right, wrong & justice.

Some people consider my outlooks to be strange. It’s a touchy subject but I believe in the supernatural.

I’m eager to please but expect it back. I really hate being bitterly disappointed.

I consider myself intuitive yet naive. I subconsciously drift towards proverbial brick walls.

I tend to see right through people, even in pictures. This isn’t by choice but it does help on occasion.

I have so much potential it almost drives me insane. I can do anything but don’t know where to begin...

I’m an insomniac...

I procrastinate alot...

I live to chill out...

I have several circles of friends...

My dream is to own my own skateboarding company or work on skateparks...

what do u want to know?
I’ll add it