I don't know what christmassy actually means but i feel that way now.
A friend of mine told me about comedian Michael McIntyre doing a sketch on the word christmassy so i bought his DVD and can't wait to see it.

So the reason i feel christmassy is that im in a place called Friedricshafen(sp) in the south of Germany and it has been snowing constantly.
We are staying in a hotel that feels like a log cabin, i have a cute little balcony and i've just been watching the snow outside.

I am absolutely knackered by can't bring myself to go to sleep so i'm just mucking about with my ipod. I left my ipod on a flight a few months ago and was assured that it would have been handed in by one of the cleaners or staff but obviously one of them got a bit light with their fingers and nicked it, so i pretty much lost all my music, even little demos i'd had recorded. It's my own fault for not backing it up but you just don't think that'll ever happen.

Luckily my mum had my old ipod with alot of the stuff on it, but it's on it's last legs so i need to get the stuff off it quickly!!

It just seems like things are going so bloody well. We're now on 1.8 million albums and it seems as if it's going up by the day! I can't believe it. Matt(my sound man) was calculating today that if i get to 2million this year then statistically in 2008 i will have sold 3.24 albums every minute!! When your on the road you have time to work this weird stuff out ;-)

So on wednesday i got to fulfill one of my dreams. I got to sing the national anthem at Hampden and it was an amazing feeling. Don't get me wrong i was absolutely shitting myself and missed a few notes but i think i did my best. You don't realize how hard it is to sing in a stadium with 40000 people singing back all at different times. It's so hard to pay attention to one thing and stay in time but watching back on the TV i think we all kept it together quite well ;-)

It's impossible to really hear anything as there is so much echo and your trying to listen to the track, keep time and listen to 40000 other people at the same time.
I was really nervous but was so proud at the same time.
Everyone from the SFA were really lovely and made me feel soooo welcome.

It was funny just before the match as Maradona was just hanging around near the dugout and all of the wee boys who were the mascots were running by giving him high fives and shouting 'I touched the hand of god, i'm never washing it again!'

I have to say as we're getting to the end of the year it's becoming harder and harder. I can't seem to concentrate anymore and have become slightly obsessed with Christmas Holidays.

This has been such a long year for me.
It's been so successful and i'm so grateful for everything but it has been very hard aswell.

I've given my absolute all, and it's hard when people criticise you. I've done over 100 gigs this year and that doesn't include any promo work. People are so quick to have a dig when they don't have a clue. I've had a few cancelled gigs this year and had a few people send me messages telling me that i'm crap and that they arn't a fan of my music anymore and it makes me so angry. But i know that these people arn't proper fans and it makes me appreciate the real ones even more.

You guys are great. For every person who's came to a gig or bought a cd i want you to know how much of an important part you have played in this year and i am extremely grateful.

So now i'm doing some online christmas shopping. I've sorted my pals presents and i'm trying to think of what to get my boyfriend for his birthday but he wont help me, unlike Jolyon who let me know straight away that he'd like a dishwasher hahahahahaha

on that note.
goodnight

xxx

PS. listening to the new killers album, i'm undecided. There are some weird styles going on but so far i love 'Losing touch' and 'Spaceman'


PPS. if anyone wants to let me have a loan of the bugatti veyron for a day then i think that would be a great birthday present :-)