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Ville : North Hollywood
Pays: US
Date d’inscription :: 21/04/2005
mardi, juin 03, 2008 


It's Tuesday. I started a boot camp yesterday. A weight-loss boot camp. I can honestly say that it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Ever.

I decided to sign up for it because I'm tired of being out of shape. I feel that I lose out on opportunities in LA because I'm a "bigger girl" than most of the other ones here. It seems that every time I see an audition for a Latina, the first thing I read is "MUST BE HOT". It's honestly kinda depressing sometimes.

Here's the worst thing though. I'm the fattest person in my class. How horrible is that? I go to Barry's Boot Camp in Sherman Oaks, which is about a 10 minute drive from my apartment. I researched and found the best boot camp in LA that I could find. Everyone swears by this place. If you go to their website, you can see that celebs go to this place all the time to get in shape. Here's my problem, when I arrived at the class, I looked around and noticed that EVERYONE in the class is ALREADY HOT! The first thing I thought was, "What the hell are you guys doing here? You guys are ALREADY at the point that I want to be at! Get outta here! You won already-you sunk the battleship, you've connected four....you won!"

I was already scared about doing this class because I'm afraid that I won't be able to finish it. Now I have this added pressure to it. And to top it off: they have mirrors EVERYWHERE. That's exactly what I need....for the number of hot people to be multiplied.

I went in yesterday and right away, we were on the treadmill for 30 minutes. We got up to a 6 degree incline...which killed me. Then we did 30 minutes of weights, focusing on arms. At the end of class, the trainer comes up to me and says, "Great job on not stopping at all today!" Which I can take two ways. One way, is that it's very common for people to stop because it's more than what they expected. The other way is to think, his standards for me are lower because once again..I'M THE BIGGEST ONE IN THE CLASS. Of course, you know that being human, I usually take things the worst way I can so I think he has lowered his standards for me.

Why is that? Why do we always LOVE to think the worst? Ugh, it kills me sometimes that I do that.

So today, second day we're working again 30 minutes on the treadmill and 30 minutes of weights, today focusing on leg work which I hear from the people that are regulars at this boot camp that "even they haven't gotten used to the pain of leg day". Neat. Just neat.

Needless to say, today was even more difficult than yesterday. I was going to throw up about five times. I didn't, but I was close. After this class, I'm crawling to my car and thinking, "This is it. I quit!" But then a half hour later, I'm glad I did the class. Kinda. I still feel kinda bad because after the workout, I'm still the biggest one in the class. Once again, it's weird how you focus on the bad stuff. I guess I just never thought of myself as too big, but when I walked into this class I realized, "Woah, I could be a lot smaller."

I guess I just figured I'd write about it because I know that a lot of people struggle with weight loss and issues about their self-image. I want to show that I do...and I'm not afraid of letting you know. I'm afraid of the class. I wonder if I did the right thing by joining this class. Who knows? I guess it's like that saying: Nothing worth doing is ever easy. Sometimes you just have to be the fat girl and suck it up. Damn.
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Date de publication : 2008-05-27
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Shannon Cameron
Shannon Cameron

 
You go girl. You're an inspiration!
 
Publié par Shannon Cameron le mardi, juin 03, 2008 - 8:48
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LiveTHETruth

 
First I have to say that I love the pig. I've never neen one that color. Second, don't give up!! I've lost about 50 pounds over the last few years. Some, not all, due to stress. But in order to stay where I am at I have to work hard at it. I drink A LOT of water. In case you didn't know, one of the symptoms of dehydration is that your body thinks it's hungry. No that doesn't mean to never eat, just that we are tend to eat instead of trying to drink WATER. I volunteer for a fire department and learned that tid-bit there. Plus, I've started running and walking outside of work. I've finally gotten to a point where I actually miss it. Today was the first day I have been able to in about 2 weeks and couldn't believe how good it felt. Keep doing something, even if it isn't this class. GOOD 4 U!!!!!
 
Publié par LiveTHETruth le mardi, juin 03, 2008 - 10:08
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Finally, Living IN Liberty

 
Stick with it!!!! You are there to challenge yourself! I may be skinny, but there is a reason, because I kept going even though I "never did get used to leg pain day", but I kept on going. No really, I did this one aerobics class just about every week day for a year and my butt hurt everytime the next day. It was fucking nuts! BUt you will get used to it sooner than later and it will make you a better person, fitness wise! Just don't quit!!!
 
Publié par Finally, Living IN Liberty le mardi, juin 03, 2008 - 10:26
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Morgan

 
Rock on sister! I went to sign up for one in Indiana--the fattest state on the map--and I delayed for so long that all the skinnies took the spots available. So, I'm going the old fashioned route of lifting on my own, biking to work when I can, running when I can, and doing yoga and swimming. Swimming sucks, though, cause of the swim suit that I'm trying to get skinny for.... That's a vicious circle my friend.

Keep us posted on your many successes! And this blog will be tremendously helpful for you since you've now put it out there in the open and will work hard to live up to it. I'm super proud of you!!

But, wait, when you're all skinny and whatnot, what will your Halloween costume be this year????? Oh the suspense!!!! :o)
 
Publié par Morgan le mardi, juin 03, 2008 - 11:19
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The M Femme

 
I feel ya, lady. I am in the middle of a weight loss battle and there are some days where it is really damn hard and it's just WEIGHT WATCHERS! Those points are hard sometimes to follow and I wish I could just hurry up and lose weight.

I do understand what you mean about the "hot latina" thing. When people think of "Latina" nowadays, they want someone who is petite, 115 pounds and has awesome boobs. I got the boobs and I am short, but that is about it. I have my father's genes and all the women on his side are no taller than 5'4" and have huge boobs, huge hips and round tummies.


I must admit, I do hate hearing people who are not only in shape but are damn goregeous saying they are too fat and they need to lose weight, when in all actuality, I would give my right arm and my Bedtime Bear Care Bear just to look like them for like a month.

Don't give in to the pressure, hun. You can do this. I have total 100% faith in you. Fuck the mirrors-smile each time you look at them or hell, make a funny face. There is nothing wrong with you-if anything, there is something wrong with all the hotties and whatot-us thick gals are the "norm" in the ol' US of A.


In all fairness, leg work is hard! It hurts like hell!


I'm really proud of you for not giving up. Like I said before, you CAN do this. Life or God wouldn't throw anything at you that you couldn't handle. That includes bootcamp workouts.


I think it's great that you posted a blog about this. It shows that you are human and that even when things may look a little bleak, there is still going to be light at the end of the tunnel. You're an inspiration.

Give 'em hell, Cristela.
 
Publié par The M Femme le mercredi, juin 04, 2008 - 12:16
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Krissy Sue 2 U
Kristin Zuniga

 
keep it up girl! I got to a fat class to only its about food...or the lack of. Each time I get on the scale, I'm nervous! Getting to the gym for me is not easy! I hate exercising! I would rather play a sport than run for no reason except to get sweaty and tired...nope not fun. Keep it up and let us know how it goes!
 
Publié par Krissy Sue 2 U le mercredi, juin 04, 2008 - 1:25
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Misti Stanton
Misti Stanton

 
First: Congrats on making the decision.

Second: You can totally do this - you used to run MILES a day! Remeber just showing up at my apartment because you were just on a hellish run and thought you'd run by. MP3 player on your arm. It was really cool how active you were.

Third: I believe that the whole thinking the worst thing comes from being taught to be humble. We aren't supposed to brag, Pride is a sin, and all those celebrities who flaut thier money are shallow and vain.

The teacher was impressed - who cares why! I am impressed, the other commenters are impressed, and you are certainly impressed that you have the ability to keep up with all those other "in shape" people.

You are hot, you will be hot, in fact - you are on fire! In many, many, many, many ways.
 
Publié par Misti Stanton le mercredi, juin 04, 2008 - 4:42
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Always the Nice Girl...
Andrea Moffitt-Baraks

 
First off, you are beautiful the way you are. Just like me...LOL
I am a happy fat girl and my man tells me daily how I am a sexy mama.
With that said I know I could be healthier.
Im taking the Queen Latifah approach...be healthy.
I commend you for taking the class and even if you are the biggest in the class...
The others are in there and they probably dont need to.
They are the ones who think they need to be a size 2, which is sad for them, which is why they are probaby crabby skinny people because they are HUNGRY!!!
Those size 2's are more than likely hating on you because you are curvy and EATING!!!
Keep it up and know that us your adoring fans are here to support you.

However, if you get too skinny, does mean no more pumpkin joke?
-a
 
Publié par Always the Nice Girl... le mercredi, juin 04, 2008 - 11:00
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Noa

 
Girl I can get you into shape in no time, Oh and your not fat your very good looking.
 
Publié par Noa le jeudi, juin 05, 2008 - 4:38
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Vernilouise
Veronica Barone

 
I understand how you feel. I've struggled with my weight and I always will. It's very hard. I give you lots of kudos for sticking it out. I would have given up. Push past it girl you can do it. Now I just have to cash in my personal training visits that I've paid for so I can get back into shape post baby...I wish you the best of luck! I'm sure you are doing a great job.
 
Publié par Vernilouise le vendredi, juin 06, 2008 - 8:26
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d[-_-]bMindy♥
Mindy Fragoso

 
dude, when i saw you at the taping for carlos mencia, i did not even think about what you looked like. the fact that you think you are fat is absolutely ridiculous. as the saying goes, real women have curves. i totally go by that. hahaha
and stop looking at the dark side of things. its depressing. =[


youre gorgeous, endofstory.
but if you really believe that you need to lose a couple pounds, then i think you should do what you think is best.
 
Publié par d[-_-]bMindy♥ le samedi, juin 07, 2008 - 5:17
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Laureli

 
Yes, I can relate to the weightloss struggle! Although at this moment I am recovering from the"reverse anorexia" that I had from September 07 to February 08- whenever I looked in the mirror I saw a skinny person who needed to eat. So I ate, and ate and at, mostly that damned reeces peanut butter cup ice cream. It is really good for those with my condition, It helped me gain 40lbs in that time period.

But on a serious note, I used to try to loose weight, now I am struggling. It is really hard keepin the self esteem up. I joined "sparkpeople.com" and that has helped but getting in the exercise and watching what I stick into my yap is a job in itself!

I feel kind of lucky to be up where I am, there are not loads of barbie dolls strollin around the streets and in the gyms, You were here in Washington State (Tacoma), and saw that well overeating is a past-time. Well in Port Angeles, people are also very robust here.

I wish you luck on your quest for a healthier you.
Laureli
 
Publié par Laureli le samedi, juin 07, 2008 - 5:38
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Miz Pecas

 
You go girl. I never had the heart to join a boot camp, but I did lose 165lb. A whole person and then some. You have the right idea - stay focus. Start finish. Don't let them bug you out. You are one step ahead of them. You are beautiful and funny. I bet they are worried about you. Just succeed.
 
Publié par Miz Pecas le mardi, juin 10, 2008 - 10:34
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Shadow Wolf
Christopher C

 
Girf (girl friend),
I hope this finds you still attending the class. Stick with it. It will be hard, and painful, and miserable, but it will be worth it. So you may not be a size two when you are done, but you will be hard. Girl I can't speak for all guys, but I like a girl with a little meat on her bones, but when she turns out to be hard (muscular) as well. That is just hot. If you stick with it you will start to turn some heads. It may not be tomorrow as you may be too sore to go anywhere to turn heads, but you will get there. If your man notices, and likes it, then who cares about the other chumps. KEEP IT UP!!!
 
Publié par Shadow Wolf le samedi, juin 14, 2008 - 11:23
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Shadow Wolf
Christopher C

 
Girf (girl friend),
I hope this finds you still attending the class. Stick with it. It will be hard, and painful, and miserable, but it will be worth it. So you may not be a size two when you are done, but you will be hard. Girl I can't speak for all guys, but I like a girl with a little meat on her bones, but when she turns out to be hard (muscular) as well. That is just hot. If you stick with it you will start to turn some heads. It may not be tomorrow as you may be too sore to go anywhere to turn heads, but you will get there. If your man notices, and likes it, then who cares about the other chumps. KEEP IT UP!!!
 
Publié par Shadow Wolf le samedi, juin 14, 2008 - 11:28
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