I woke up this morning a little hungover, but felling pretty rested and excited about an audition. I checked my email to see where the place was and found an email from my agent in St. Louis. He provide a link to a website and a note saying, I'm sure you've seen this, not too harsh.
I clicked on the link and was saddened by what I saw. It is a website dedicated to rating people on their hotness...it is not hot or not, but something very similar. So there are these two pictures of me at the emmys and about 20 comments on everything from my hair to my earrings to my toes to my last name. Reading nasty comments about you is not an easy thing to do. Especially when you are way past high school and you don't even know these people. It really bummed me out right before an important audition. So my small tatste of celeb world wasn't a fun one. People have too much time on their hands to comment on me, a nobody. Whatever happened to not saying anything all if you can't say anything nice? It makes me think twice about reading tabloids...I've flipped through them so many times and crititcized the women in them. Why? Its human nature to want to bring people down. It is jealousy and it is not a pretty thing. In a way I am flattered that I am even up on that stupid site and that someone deemed me worthy of discussion. Bad publicity is good, right?
But overall I am just realizing the industry I work in. I guess it is something I will have to accept, but it sucks. But you know, the saddest part is that these 20 bad comments resonate more than the hudred good ones I've gotten. What it all boils down to is that I am happy, confident and in a really good place in my life. I have great friends, a wonderful boyfriend and a fabulous job. I don't need someone to tell me I'm pretty to feel worthy or beautiful.
If you care to see it...here it is. I'm over it :)