THIS WAS WRITTEN LAST YEAR THIS TIME 2007. I HAVE BEEN PREPARING IT TO SEE IF I MADE ANY PROGRESS. I DECIDED TO LET YOU BE THE JUDGE. LOOKING BACK...HOW DID I DO? DO YOU SEE ANY PROGRESS IN KERRY. DID HE STICK TO MUCH OF ANYTHING, YOU BE THE JUDGE. POINT OUT AREAS WHERE YOU THINK I'VE GREW. AND ALSO WHERE I FAILED. BE AS CRITICAL AS YOU LIKE WITHOUT INDICTMENT FROM KERRY...READ ENTIRE PIECE FIRST...YOU READY...GO!
START SONG BEFORE READING..IT HELPS(This week Kerry wil be promoting positivity to assist in beginning our New Year off to a great start. But you all know, nothing goes without taking complete responsibilty in the process. I hope we can learn more from each other this year. I like to start with me before I address anything else or anybody. Must first evaluate yourself people, before someone will even allow and absorb anything you have to say about them.
"People don't care how much you know...until they know how much you care" )
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Well , there you have have it. Another year gone, another year begins. I myself am not too thrilled. More disappointed in myself than anything. Looking back I fell well short of all my goals. Didn't stick to too much of anything that I said I would. Made some bad decisions in the process...and that seem to continue. Dominoes will fall , storms will come, hurdles , pitfalls and potholes will show. Looking back not a very good year by my standards. Reason being is because for me there is always room for improvement. A place to grow to in which you came. Bottom line is, I want to get BETTER. Do better, become better, BE BETTER. That is my new years resolution to me and you. "Try and become better Kerry." And be consistent at it. Help someone from it and you learn from it in te process.
So with that said, There is some light at the end of that tunnel perhaps huh? With all that pressure and adversity. All that scrutinizing and micro scoping. All that tumbling , fumbling , falling down and knocking things and people over and around in the process. Bottom line is... doesn't mean you have to stay at the bottom. What it boils down too, doesn't mean to nothing...it all depends on what you got cooking. Bottom line and what it boils down too for me and my perspective is..
" I'M STILL HERE"
I still have some room to grow, I still have to take responsibility ultimately for me and the decisions I make and the people it affects. I have a CHOICE on whether to make the same mistakes I made last year or do something different to minimize that. This year I will relax a Lil more. Allow some things to take care of themselves without so much harping on them. Something I learned over the last year. Sometimes it is better to allow some things time to heal without picking at the scalp of it. Bothering a wound and end up causing an infection. Sometimes guilt is a good healer and medicine. It also allows some people to recognize the error of their own ways at a learning pace. Maybe someone will say I'm sorry, without you insisting that they do so. Else what have they learned from the whole ordeal?
Yeah...this year I will attempt to use more positive reinforcement. Less negativity. As oppose to pointing out what someone is doing wrong so much. Acknowledge , appreciate and encourage more of what I like about what they are doing right. Or doing good. In the past I have been a very good trouble shooter and that won't change very much. But If I want to get better I have to start with trying my hand with things I may be unfamiliar with to get some better results right? Loose that fear and charter in some unfamiliar territory. I have been practicing this philosophy or theory and I like myself better for it. Because I see me becoming better. I have pretty much mastered the art of knowing what it is to become a man. Whether I have been behaving as one or not . I know what is right, and you should hold me to it. Now I think I want to experience what it would be like to become a gentleman . Has a nice ring to it don't you think? And personally I think it would look good on me. Don't worry I won't loose any of my edge. But I think it's important that I least know the rules and the differences for such a transition. Or would that be transformation?...you know what I mean. Just want to get better and the reason is ...YOU...all of you ladies that have been coming here for years or just now even.
Your support and encouragement...your steadfastness and loyalty....your love and forgiveness is my inspiration. You often hear me say to those of you. And especially you who in my honor call yourselves WAGGIEKATZ. That means something to me. In the past I resnted what others made it out to be. I take full responsibility for that. I have a responsibility to you. That is that high regard you hold , speak and bestow on me with. I have to give credence to that ...to show my respect. To show my loyalty...to show my love. You have seen me grow and loved on me regardless. Come hell or high water you still here. You have held my hand ...and never let go. I have a responsibility to that and the people that question you for your undying loyalty. A responsibility to grow from which I came. Without remorse , excuse or reservation...only explanation. That these ladies look to me for a reason, that if I wasn't... I would have to be genuine to and about this...and I am. And I adore the fact or position that there will be those that attempt to show you different. That is my opportunity to reach , teach and prove something to them. Not only about me, not only about us...but about themselves. Never judge a book by it's cover. I thank you for allowing me to grow in front of you. I thank you for your patience as I know a personality like mine can be trying at times. I thank you for your forgiveness...for the decisions I have made that may have caused anyone to question my integrity about you. Bottom line is ...I desperately want to be absolutely , positively sure...that you have the least amount of reason possible to question your faith in me. You are the reason I want to get better. I personally wanted to take this time at the New Year to thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the angels you have been to watch over me as you have. You are owed and I plan to pay...in full. I will get better, that is a promise...you won't be embarrassed that you ever embraced me.
"Thank you for holding my hand...and never letting go"(my grandmother's would approve)
...remember..."People don't care how much you know...until they know how much you care"..take care and have a great 08'
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU! |
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