UNEXPRESSED LOVE???? IS IT???

This is not unrequited love ,no sir !!!! it aint that,it could at best be described as unrealised love or unexpressed desire..jeeeez god alone knows what the hell it was.Two things that happened yesterday i talked to two girls and and they were the two girls who made me feel,that something,how would i describe it???? well in my words i would say they gave me that feeling of  "BEING HIGH" albeit a natural high no chemical assistance here,being a complete teetotaller i think this is what being high meant, that extreme feeling of exhiliration,that strange feeling bordering on euphoria .

Well one was the girl i had met couple of years ago maybe five, it was magic when i first saw her it was a CRUSH at first sight( love no i havent loved anyone yet), more than her personality it was that sheer beauty that attracted  me,  she was the most gorgeous creature in God's creation that the human eye could get to gorge on..lol(i know i am going into hyberbole here..but uch was the impact she had on me). That first glance at her and i was making enquiries as to what name was given to this certainly celestial creature(could be an angel i dnt know) well non e around me knew,so i guessed i being in the same class i got another one year to find out the same, but to my utter i actually went upto her and thought what the heck and asked her name and found out that very same day. Boy!!!!! what an impact that had one me talking to her and listening to her ..for the next one week i didnt have a clue about myself or what was happening,frankly this was a first in my humble life, it was as if all of a sudden in the placid waters of my life a water lilly bloomed(hyperbole again...arghhhhh not able to check that),well i was high and thought this must be how people on dope felt.I started seeing things ,suddenly salma hayek started resembling this girl ,yeah salma hayek(that exotic of most exotic beauties).Well as this went on all the highs of seeing her talking to her etc, my stupid cynical mind got to work in full earnest and among other logical reasons to get out of that magical spell was that maybe i am not good enough for her and the best excuse was she already has a boyfriend, well later when she broke up with him too i thought maybe i wasnt good enough and now  when i think i am good enough and confident she is happily almost engaged to her current boy freind whom she is going to marry very soon.lol such is life. No , i am not bitter but infact i am ghlad she was in my life,YEAH I DID TELL HER ONCE THAT I USED TO HAVE A CRUSH ON HER, i experienced things that were all beautiful,there wasnt any pain because i didnt believe i could be in love and thought of the whole thing as a mere crush on someone beautiful.Thats why i called it a COULD'VE HAVE BEEN love if i belived in it and myself and set forth in trying to achieve it positively. There went a golden opportunity but it still left a sweet taste in my mouth no bitterness at all. yesterday afternoon she called after seeing an sms from me and it was like the one or two times she called me of her own accord rather than me calling her.It still makes my day.

it was unexpressed/unrecognised feelings maybe......... but,truly uplifting..