So, life as usual is back to its norm of being dramatic and exciting; i'm not bitching i'm really not.  I mean, I started it.  I'm going to finish it, too. I always win  But as of the moment in time i'm the happiest woman in the world.  See, about a month ago I made a decision that i'm going to be happy no matter what it takes and no matter who gets in my way.  I decided that i've spent way too much time worried about making everyone else around me satisfied and not enough time on me.   I've known this man for over a year now, and one day it dawned on me that I had feelings for him.  Okay, not a big deal right? uh wrong, it was my best friends ex/lover/roommate.  So you can see where this went right?!  Well, him and I are boyfriend and girlfriend now.  Her and I are no longer friends, but whatever.  I'm so happy right now I could puke haha I love it!!  He's so good to me and takes good care of me, ahhhh i love him its great.  He is amazing, I swear he really is.  He never ceases to amaze me everyday.  Bringing me home flowers, taking me out to dinner and movies... he's wonderful.  Its not even things like that, he's always holding me and kissing me... its just great.  I really tripped and fell on this one hehe he's definitely got me by my heart strings.  I love every second of it.  Not too mention he's funny, god he makes me laugh all the time. 
    So, we're staying here at my parents since its nice out we're staying in a tent in the backyard haha  kinda funny right??  I mean I can stay in the house, but mom is very old fashioned and ya know.  So, I just stay outside with him, no biggie.  Its nice out, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to be with him.  Everything will come together soon I know it will.  I have such a good feeling about this its great.  Some people are trying to cause problems because they don't want us together, but its not going to work.  Sorry folks!  I'm not letting go of this one, its going to take an act of God to get me away from him
    But in the process of all this I have hurt a lot of people around me, but you know what?? I don't care lol isn't that terrible?  I don't feel bad at all, not in the least little bit.  I know I SHOULD, but I don't.  Such is life.  Chalk it up to a learning experience and move on   There were some people I had to completely CUT out of my life, which hurt at the moment, but I don't care anymore.  The person I had to cut out was only hurting me anyway.  I chased him for 3 years, I never gave up no matter what.  But I had to let go, and move on.  I was tired of being hurt and being led on.  I had to find someone who appreciated me for me, and not just what I can give them; and I did.