I have gotten lot's of emails and messages and people asking if I will be at Shimmer in a few weeks.
The honest truth is I don't know!
I love wrestling the in ring athletics and action...I have never loved being the center of attention, getting my picture taken, cutting promos and most of the other things involved in being a pro wrestler. I do it all so I can support my wrestling addiction and life. I may not have been the best or heck even any good but I did it. Not anymore! I am wrestling for me now....I have never gone out to a match and tried to take it easy because I was sore or hurt. I have never tried to do less than what I could or held back. Every wrestling match I had I treated as a challenge and every opponent I treated as an opponent. Some did not even deserve to be in the ring but I NEVR took advantage of that and I always tried to make the most. Why? For you fans! Not for the glory, not so I could hold belts, not to make money, not to get on TV, not to sell more merchandise. So you fans could watch womens wrestling and maybe find in it what I found and love.
Ever since the start of SHIMMER I felt the fans behind me. I may not have been your favorite but I didn't have to starve myself or push my boobs up to my chin you saw what I did and liked me for that . It was a pleasure to wrestle in front of you and for you.
I just don't know when it all changed. Why when I was on top you all wanted to see me fall? Well that's fine I fell and now what? It should be just another day with a fire under my butt trying to get back MY BELT? Why should I even grace you all with my presence? You think it is easy being looked at under a microscope? Maybe it's not worth it anymore to me...
You people sitting at your computer desk at home or work reading this will never know the cold I felt when I heard the roar or excitement of the SHIMMER fans April 26th when I lost that belt. You people made me believe you cared about me and wanted to see me do great things and not for myself because self promotion has NEVER driven me but for you. Well screw that and screw you!
Meeting people who appreciate what I do is always cool and I do respect the people who take time out of there life's to watch me and support what I am doing. It is pretty cool and a little surreal but I am thankful to you out there. But the rest of you can suck an egg and MAYBE I'll see you there but don't be surprised if I'm not the same happy girl I once was!