Many of you already know me from writing as ~Moon Goddess Chandra~  for the past year or so.  This profile is different, because I want to specifically focus here on the correlations between brain system functioning and how we think, rather than what we think.  It's amazing how differently the world can be perceived when the operating mechanism, the brain, has the ability to function the way God intended it to - balanced with access to all the systems working as they should.

I’ve oftentimes wondered if I was crazy or insane, and sometimes even concluded that yes, indeed I must be.  Yet, somehow I managed to keep on living, working, thinking, interacting, learning, and even loving…..  How could that be?  It probably bothered me more than most since I was oftentimes accused of being crazy growing up.  I just didn’t have the same passions and priorities that most people I knew had.  I was typically outnumbered and not ever really sure if it was me, or if it was them….

I still can’t say that I know for sure what sanity is, and I think there’s really no one definition that could be considered an ultimate truth on the matter.  But I’ve come to define it for myself as having a fully functioning brain as a starting point, rather than assessing sanity from the perspective of belief or behavior. 

Think about it.  Is it not true that sometimes we simply don’t know right from wrong in a given circumstance, yet we manage to do the “right” thing anyway?  Don’t we sometimes know we can do better, yet we can never produce those results?  Don’t we know countless other people whose behavior is sometimes so out of character that we wonder if we ever really knew them at all?  Don’t we catch ourselves sometimes saying or doing things that are completely out of character for ourselves?  Aren’t there so many moments in our lives that simply don’t make sense to us?

For me, the answer has to be a tangible if there is to be an answer at all.  And even though I am someone who is very much in tune with elusive energies, it is that very quality in myself that has me convinced there really IS an answer, since those elusives feel different and play out differently in my life since I’ve had my own brain chemical imbalances identified and began treatment to balance them better.  Things just “fit” better and make more sense.

I like it when things make sense, don’t you?  I find that even nonsense is more easily identified and dealt with when my own brain works in its most fully functioning, balanced state.  And before I had a SPECT scan, my brain’s state of functioning was speculative at best.  I’m glad science has evolved enough in my lifetime so I at least know how the hardware is doing before I start messing around with the software any more than I already have.  While behavior modification may actually work, who wants to be “behavior modified” like one of Pavlov’s Dogs anyway?  Not me.  Let me feel life, and learn through my own experiences, without unnecessary influences based on insane illusions of where I should fit into a prefabricated script. 

After all, cultures are built on the foundations of majority interests and desires, and who’s to say that sanity resides in the majority?  Not me, and if I remember correctly, none of the teachings of those who are considered Masters of wisdom or Holy men and women ever did either.

It feels really good to be sane.  That doesn’t mean I won’t sometimes choose to think crazy thoughts or do crazy things, but I like having that choice and the ability to weigh the benefits and consequences, you know?

Lots of Love,

~Barbara

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