In my last blog entry I posted about the story of the band Evanescence. The story of a band that meant the world to me, and the tragic downfall of the band. Things have only aggravated in the past 2 weeks. And I'm done. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of the lies I (or actually we) are being fed. This really hurt me and my next decision wasn't easy to make.

I'm thinking about closing my Amy Lee/Evanescence fansite (www.amyleerockfaerie.com). I don't feel like wasting my time on a lie. This is not an easy decision; and probally the hardest I had to make so far, but I'm done with it. I'm still trying to figure out if I should delete it, sell it or simply let it die out. I'm thinking about all the time, love and even money I put into the website.

People have tried to talk me out of this, but my mind is made up (at least for the most part). I know lots of devoted fans of my website will (probally) find this very sad, but I don't feel like doing something I don't love anymore. And no one should dare to tell me that if I was a real fan I would stick with the band no matter what. Everyone who personally knows me, knows how crazy I used to be about that and what they've meant to me for the past few years.

I'm not letting my web designing skill go to waste. I'm building a new website, which I've already planned out, but I'm not speaking a word of that now. I've actually only told about 2 persons about my plans. And I think (and hope), this is gonna be a much bigger success.

So my last words about this, is from a song out my favo movie The Phantom of the Opera:

Farewell my fallen idol and false friend.

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Now something on a personal level:
- In 2 weeks I start again with tests. These are one of the lasts ones I will have to make (the lasts ones are in august).
- I'm feeling sick right now, and honestly don't feel much like studying, but I have to. I think I have the flu. I've been sneezing and coughing almost all day. And my head, throat and chest hurt. I actually feel like sleeping.
- This morning there's was a  blackout in my neighbourhood. We were without power for almost 5 hours and I was so bored out of my skull. Luckily I had my mp3 player to keep me entertained.

So now I think I'll go to study and I'll try to make this an early night, because I feel sick and tomorrow is another school day.

peace out,
- Clayton

PS: I have a new favo band, named: Atritas. A symphonic black metal band, which remind me a lot about Cradle of Filth. Their music is so good, but too bad they are not that famous. Just google them up.